footstep does not be hear
she puts own breathle
no fingerprints but
she putted own shadow
maybe she was a desolate woman
like she putted own scream

she lived in the void
she putted own dreams latest

Thought you found home when you finally anchored your heart to his, but you only found wilderness inside an empty forest lost long time ago.

I met a man while I am moving on from my past. He was moving on also from his own little heartbreak. Whenever I am with him, I taught myself to never love a man's soul while his heart is aching for someone else's. But he taught me the other way, obliviously.

The ricochet comes. He can't love me back when he wants to. He can't take risks the way I do. He can't choose me when the universe give us the chance.

The ricochet hits me and I am supposed to be dead. But no, I was hit but was never putted into death. I was only shattered into pieces.

My little hopes and biggest fears will chase me to dreams and I have no escape. Nightmares will come every sleep and anxiety will attack me every waking up.

I will stare blankly in a dead air that used to give life to my existence before.

I am shredding tears for no certain reason and my heart is pulled down into the bottom of the sea.

I am loss. I am not found. If hope doesn't exist, then there is no chance I will be found deep down here.

I never had a heart, but when I found this empty long lost forest, when I took the risk when he can't, when I love him despite all his insecurities and incertitude, when I choose him when the universe gave me dozens of choices, I don't have a choice but to have one. For him and only for him.

Boy, I only have one heart but it is still hitched to yours and I don't have any plans to unhitch it.

Who I am ? (King of a Dream)

Once upon a time
there was shy boy
Who was called in names
and bullied by my body image
But all turn upside down
till puberty and after puberty
I changed my life into a men

I fall thousand times
But I stand up and walk
a road of dreams and life
and made a millions smiles
of a people who I crossed in past
But life isn't perfect like seems
Its like mountains of life


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This a story a lonely shy boy
Who had dreams by his side
and never lost them and
Ran all his way to achieve them
(King of a Dream)

Once upon a time
There was a boy
who had everything he had
And had a perfect body
But suddenly all changed
And he was bullied and
depressed and drowned in tears

He went thousand miles
But didn't fall  and continued
He didn't have dreams and didn't
Know his future and everybody
hated him but his life was miserable
And putted on a line of death


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This a story a lonely boy
Who hadn't dreams or future
and never had them
Ran all his way  


Once upon time
there was a love
and dreams and life
but he ran all his way
To be a king of a dream

Today i got some papers written  by you for me,
In reply of my limitless feelings,
Most of the replies are not about the questions i asked ,
Your most of writings about your frustrations & problems from me in vast ,
Every new letter got nothing new to read,
Even when I expressed every phase of me,
In the starting of our relationship,
You accepted all but already putted a limitation,
But i still believed in you ,
& what i got in response that am not loving you through,
With your expectations,
Our conversations depicted a theory,
That i was living in the feel of primitive real love story,
In which a boy& girl loved each other,
From the soul and spent their life together ,
Less calls less communication,
When i asked the reason,
Your response forced me to realise,
I was not there from any corner or in any size,
Bundles of word I wrote & hardly heard any appreciation,
Likewise before me my fellows sensed,
You lost interest in me like the previous guy who caught and banned,
Just because he opted another girl also,
Alongside to support you from head to toe,
When my eyes opened & i understood the circumstances,
I asked you that we're gonna apart,
But **** it was done your side & heart,
Okay on valentines day the breakup it was,
Ink letters freshed up the eighteen months experience again ,
Let's close it until i open my inner locker to get ur maintain

My shadow only wanna hide beside me,
all things going so wilde,
black shadow in the front of a ray of light,
seems to b no more visible in the existance survival fight,
it feels like that m so numb,
that i cant cry or smile and peoples start saying that m a dumb,
but i m not i cry but no 1 bothers that m crying and m i feel so alone,
they just ignore me and wore me a thrown,
and made me the king of lonelyness and try to supress,
the things i guess,
that these r hurting me too much,
and destroying the best part of myself and if i wannna clutch,
the part it goes more apart,
from my reach,
& as usual the peoples who see me try to teach,
there own non-sense lessons,
if dont wanna get those they felt m in the list foolish of foolish persons,
they putted itno who dosnt make a agree on there stupid speeches,
it's still going darker here and echoes but not reaches,

You've been in my brain
You were my thoughts again
You putted me in that burning flame
And no one here to blame ..

At the end we loved each other so much
we destroyed ourselves as it should
And between all those scattered pieces
maybe you tried to search for me
Or maybe you did not bother
However, I putted each piece together
It was a gruesome puzzle
to find my pieces between your pieces
And to miss you and do not say it
for being somewhere else
And when I finally had all the pieces
I let myself go with all my chaos away
Aside, so far from you and so close
to other lands
Because now I'm free, so far from that
wanting to t(d)ie
At the end we will be cowards but not at all
Because is brave not looking behind
even if we were falling apart

He took my body to the desert
While my heart stays here
To guide him in his dark world
For I am Just His Chandelier

Punish me when I got bit by the crocs
Hit me when the opposite spoke
Pull me down when I nearly reached the clouds
Followed by his screams in my ears so loud

His love is my pain
His joy is my rain
My dreams putted aside
And my life lost it’s pride

End all my misery
By put myself in the history
I want to get lost in the world of mystery
To set my soul free

I fell in love.
I did not want to, but It happen.
I tried to run but it got me.
I cried and it shot me.

It wasn't a bullet but a smile that putted me down.
Another simple man ****** on the crowd.
I know it sounds vague.
But love is like this, mortal like a plague.

Like poison it hurts my mind.
Like water it blurs my sight.
It slowly destroys my conception of what is mine.
Breaking every single piece of what I used called life.

There is no much left to say.
Because on that cold night of winter.
You were the hunter and I was the prey.

the predator stands at point of vantage,
back to the wall to its advantage
eyes sweeping the world its stage
anxious to take its next hostage

perhaps as child they were bitten and hurt
kicked in the dust, trod in the dirt,
so they learnt to **** before they're hurt
rather than softly self assert

can they be blamed for being the wolf
when inside they're terrified of being stepped on
of being putted as a ball in golf
into dark hole, where they're dead and gone

so they kvell to see their victim fall
as they stand alert, with back to the wall,
it's their ******, their cortisol,
'cos inside is bitter, poisonous gall.