"poppop" poems
*He used to paint my nails.
He'd paint em
pinks reds and orange
he'd paint them blue
sometimes too
mostly black.
He'd make tiny daisy
flowers all around.
He used to put lipstick
on me
he'd trace my out lip line
he'd use
black or brown liner
making them fuller
he'd tell me
they need to look fuller.
He use to dress me up
he'd get fishnet thigh highs
he'd have me step into
a mini dress
made of synthetic leather
zebra prints all around.
He'd follow with
a black tight
leather half shirt
gloves long and white
always would follow.
He use to do my hair
he'd comb front to back
for 45mins
it'd shine and glow
falling off my shoulders
cascading down my back
it almost touched my ****
He used to put me in heels
he'd picked always the reds
I didn't like these red heels
I stood almost to his chest.
He used to tell me
to dance.
He'd say move my
hips like this
in a circular motion.
He'd say stand
in the middle
on the dinning
room table
dance for me
he'd say
dance
for poppop.
He use to touch me
when I danced
He used to
touch himself too
I cried.
He'd become meaner
He'd say don't
make me punish you
I felt punished already.
He'd get undress
I'd cry louder
begging him not to.
He's slapped
my face
I always fell
I'd stand up
fast or he'd
hit me again.
He'd lay me on the table
keeping me trapped
in the middle
he'd fill me every night
I'd cry
He'd laugh.
***He use to paint my nails.
(until my birth father shot him)*
*Always Me Ayeshah ®
Copyright ©
Ayeshah
K.C.L.N 1977 - Present YEAR(s)
All right reserved ®***
May 13, 2012
May 13, 2012 at 1:07 AM UTC
There are a hundred ways
To say I wish I could go back,
Or I soaked up growing up like a worried sponge
Or I can still smell the dirt on my jeans
Or I don’t even like baseball, but I love the sound of the metal bat against the ball
Or watermelon slices on summer days taste like presents
Or there was iced tea brewing in the kitchen
Or I thought the lions looked happy in their cages
Or the cherry water ice painted my skin red
Or I had an imaginary friend who taught me loneliness
Or we had water gun fights in the front yard
Or we’d ride our bikes til dusk
Or I thought the older boys in the cul-de-sac were cute
Or I thought the older girls double-dutching were cool
Or the hot plastic of a slide against the back of my legs
Or the timid eyeing of the next rock along the creek to jump to
Or the boom of a grandfather clock chiming
Or I could spend eternity swinging by a rope my poppop tied to a tree
Or my grandmother is a magician
Or I used to believe in magic
Or I still do
Jan 20, 2019
Jan 20, 2019 at 5:19 PM UTC