I fell in love with the pain of missing you

            and the torture of your smile

embedded inside of my thoughts


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God said*

  *"All those who are weary and burdened come to me,  and I will give you rest. "

His words are the arms that is holding me to sleep tonight.



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you feel my despair*
your fingers quench the loneliness

you don't flinch at the touch
I know you've felt it before

fighting the battle
of worth and contentment

love and war

reality and fantasy
my mind paints pictures
and shows movies
that has never touched a screen

yet, I still cannot see
the moral of your story

the focal of the point
its blurry and faint

but the script is still there

the film is still rolling
and the same movie plays

in my mind the same scene
constantly, over again

me yearning for you
needing more of you
hopelessly feening
restlessly dreaming

tossing and turning
in this imaginary love
you aided in me creating

its so warm
and deep
and wet

drenching me completely
in this
mythical story

that you could possibly

no actually

literally

maybe

you could quite love me..

          Fin


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I's don' really know much
only how to cook and clean
fa ma marster's and they chillun
they tries to teach me to read
i's neva liked the white folks edumucation
so I's just stay in the field
spend time with the sun
until the moon comes
and take me on away
das my's only time to heal
from the scars they puts on my skin
from the scars they puts in my mind
from the scars they puts on my family
my brothers and nem
I's wonder all the time
will we ever be free?
I's think of it everyday
cant wait for it to be
Mama always worked in the kitchen
but she has her fav spot
next to the chimney she a sit
listen to the white folks talk
I's pray all the time she ont get caught
one day she heard sumn
mussa been real good
Is seen her smiling
as Jesus himself gon an got mama a new dress
but I's know ha smile na
tha day she sats in a corner listnin'
she hurds them finely' say we's free
we's free
but marster wouldnt let us go
she herd' em tell mistus
he wont let us free till me make sommo'
for thems to eat
but mama hops out that chimey corner
jumps to her feet
I's herd' ha yelling
"I's free I's free'
"then she runs to the field 'gainst marster's will
and tol' all the other slaves n they quit work"
I's seen all the hoes and rakes falls to the dirt
dat nite ma slip out the house
like a banana was at da do'
she hids' in the ditch
I's get snuck out my bed
next I's in mamas arms
I's look at mama's tied' feet
running so fast
to chase her freedom
I's hear shots from *****
dem dogs barking n growlin'
Lord please keep mama safe
and the Lord hears ma prayas'
cause' that nite
afta alls the yelling cryin' n sweating
me and mama
we finely gits away



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Searching for the strength
          to write again . .




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