i should really stop watching these
youtube videos,
hearing people talking is
becoming... drag...
esp. when drinking...
just put the music back on:
buddy body...
said the parasitic ego...
i can only entertain
about two new opinions,
per day...
with you congesting
me with all this blah blah...
don't get me wrong:
i do enjoy it...
he enjoys it! "we're" fine...
just gender neutrality...
of pronouns?
- he said there's more!
- and there is...
how, certain languages...
can't escape the genderism
of their nouns...
fwench...
for one...
what about when you
become: pronoun disorientated,
i.e.
you begin addressing
yourself via the plural
fabric,
and in a doom-esque
style first shooter...
you have to look back through
your eyes...
and breathe out a...
'huh?!'
who wouldn't be perplexed...
more music, less talking
videos...
**** me, you know the radio
station that plays decent
pop music,
and doesn't succumb to
advert interludes from
circa 11pm to circa
6am...
FAMA radio...
https://radiofama.com.pl/
yeah i know it's not
Wagner...
but i like the fact that
adverts die after a certain hour
of the day,
and people are trying to
fall to sleep...
esp. if they're not being
knocked out
by a bottle of whiskey...
funny story...
i was once in a Liverpool st.
a black cud (cuddly thing,
a bit on the, lardish side)
stood next to me
with a white girlfriend...
- see, she giggled,
i think she was... "in, on the joke"...
so i asked him...
- what are you drinking?
- *** & coke...
- oh, that's a ****** name for a drink,
i don't want the run-down
of the recipe,
i want the meal...
so what are you drinking?
- a *** & coke...
i had to eye him up and down,
down and up...
fair enough, buckeroo...
- blackbeard!
the girl laughed...
me, the interracial couple,
and some mongrel
with a proud irish in him,
and some pakistani...
standing side by side...
for a while...
oh god,
the pain, the embarrassment,
of having to explain to a stranger
that you have just been
strapped to: being stood-up
for a date...
hey...
every time i flick my hand...
my shadow "friend"
i can't shake off...
i didn't ask for a scribe
to dictate to a god my every
c.c.t.v. movement...
hell...
just have to roll with it...
but there was a giggle,
and yeah, he did don a beard...
what else would you call
a *** & coke... if not blackbeard?
a black isn't exactly black
when he's not coal...
but chocolate!
the **** was he drinking?
a jack sparrow?
to be honest,
that does sound better...
many people these days...
are not exactly concerned
with furthering the memory
of eddie "the patch" thatch...
- o.k., just give me the pagan music
from scandinavia and
some byzantine monk chants...
i'll figure out some Mahler
when i'm in need of thinking -
it almost felt like standing
in Trafalgar Sq.
among all the throng
of the pigeon collective,
just prior to them taking
off by a slithering snap & bite
of telepathic panic
being induced on them...
yes, because:
what did it feel like
is, probably twice as important
to reason...
given the casual expression...
what did i think about?
**** me...
i didn't think to begin with...
here's my cognitive luggage...
thinking always comes
after...
and, unlike feeling...
is never measured
interim...
measured feeling...
which of course, being measured...
allows for a post-scriptum
of thought...
delay...
pieces of a puzzle
that do not fit
for a personal gain...
since the puzzle / labyrinth is
already prosecuting you with
an a.i. semblance
alternative -
the womb of all things abstract...
that... automated birth
from the womb of per se...
wriggle there, little sprout
of ego, *****-esque...
into either that bright light...
or the yawning darkness...
no... feeling is not so bad,
but a tongue attired
in a stiff tuxedo will do you
one better...
sure...
hey! oi! penta mann!
well, i can give you a sketch
of contradictions...
i'm about to live in a country
that freely accepts
Daesh refugees...
oh, just some stupid teenager...
but you know...
there's no tongue-in-cheek
with this...
prejudice contra:
and this is not about being
right or wrong,
rather: i told you so mentality...
so... when will the inmates
of Broadmoor
have their spring holiday?
the western five pillars...
let's see if i get this right...
what once was shahadah
is now... jahudah...
funny, if any, translation...
it's not exactly disbelief...
more...
atoms are our tools,
and...
something or other...
salat (prayer) becomes
hadith (freedom of speech)...
no good translation
when you need one...
so the idea...
oh... not gluttony...
that would be too obvious...
fast...
siam...
hamia...
but this is...
in the western world?
an obsession...
they figured:
pretense for Lent...
one month of obligation
ought to do it...
but... each and every day?
for...
nibbling on an iconoclasm?
zakat...
if not
gambling...
then certainly being
duped
into giving to
charity organisations...
who... of the 3 quid
you donated...
send 2.50 to the offices
of the charity,
and 50 pence to
the people in need...
hajj...
sure... your pick...
thailand...
south america...
there's a "you" than needs
to find you
somewhere,
that isn't hier...
but... "da"...
a there
that has to be a certainty
of somewhere...
see... it's almost tempting
to aim for shooting
an own goal via a headder
from a corner set-piece
into my own net...
but me...
i'm somewhere between...
the existential crisis of...
satan contemplates a serpent
by gustav doré...
and...
ruins (inner voices)
by james tissot..
sure as hell...
no brick in ruin
without a structure...
someone about... how they
are stacked up...
are always identical...
but among the rubble...
great... so satan begins
with the contemplation
of a serpent...
me? ******* grand chav
of the universe?
- and god said:
'ere, start with a brick...
mr. ******* lego magic...
throw a ******* dog's bone!
see if you can spot
the similarity
that binds these twins together...
gustave doré's
the judgement of solomon...
and antonio ciseri's
ecce ****...
no... no glaring similarity?
so... solomon was right...
in giving the baby up
to the woman who had no measure
of her emotions
(stand to the left
in doré's interpretation,
while standing to the right
in ciseri's interpretation)?
the heart of truth...
is the basis for being allowed
to throw a stone,
rather than climb a mountain...
or some wacko-saying
out-"there"...
"there" also implying:
"out"? "out" of "what"
and what "in" to begin with?
given the current...
Moloch tribunal / freedomi
base...
given...
a whole plethora of
examples...
the way solomon is cast...
for the better judge...
the crowd moved pilate...
while his wife kept
it a secret
that he judged wrongly...
doré:ciseri ratio of comparison...
and you'd think...
but it's not like i'm
attacking the psalm singer,
king david...
it's solomon...
he's no more sacred
than a h.i.v. infection...
looking at these two paintings...
i think he was wrong
in giving up the child
to the hysterical woman...
because there's always
than silent audacity,
invested in,
of proving the king wrong...
only a silent heart doesn't
lie...
there's just too much stoicism
in the woman's reply
regarding solomon's judgement...
akin to the wife of pontius
pilate...
succumbing to feeding
the amassed throng...
but this does't change
one iota of me
concerning my problem with
christianity,
given the emergence
of the nag hammadi
library...
i can't just...
incorporate those writings
as: level playing field
with the strictness of the unwavering
stance of dogma...
i'm still having...
one hell of a time...
trying to not be bothered
by the coincidence of
the writings of
josephus ben matthias...
the flight to egypt...
where the nag hammadi
library was discovered...
nero...
the book of revelation
(which... i think was the first
book written
in the new testament...
no...
no one has that sort
of coherency...
listen...
i don't even know the name
of my grandmother
on my paternal side!
yeah...
at least the old testament begins
like a poem...
not a ******* phonebook
into the past!
me? when Greek sentiments
alligned
themselves with the sentiments
of the Hebrews,
to topple the Romans...
who...
first encountered
the northerners)...
and guess what...
i'm rather fond of digging this
trench of...
whatever it is worth...
belief, disbelief...
you name it...
better that, than converting to islam.