She has accepted her fate, but she still has her doubt
Held on for so long, I am glad she finally let it out
Madre always played her along
Even when he was wrong
I want you to experience the love of two parents
even if your father is always swearing
Father swears she was his last
but I feel his sins are catching up fast

© Oluwatobiloba Kolawole
September 2019

I told myself it was only for a night
So I hid it out of sight
But each night
I lose my fight
And succumb to the temptation
Then I welcome the guilt
And the crazy thoughts.
I often pray for redemption
And strength to overcome this addiction
But sometimes I think I don’t give my best
Because I always fail the same test.
©
Oluwatobiloba Kolawole
September 2018

Jane’s vacation spot is so cool!
Did you see her meal?
It made me drool
if only you knew Jane downloaded those images from the internet

Zack, the coolest  guy in my school has such huge number of companions
If only my circle could grow..
Zack’s friends only care about the resources at his disposal and they won’t hesitate to leave him when things go sour

Cara went to a fancy restaurant today
On the off chance that i had more companions and assets
A couple of shots ought to drown this distress…

Veronica’s man showers her with so much love and care
On the off chance that my man was that way
Did you know he showers her with gifts after making her bleed

Aww, they are one major cheerful family!
In the event that my family could learn
If only you knew the kids parents are considering a divorce

Peter is constantly upbeat
I believe he has got everything
Did you know he secretly wishes he could die

She has a decent figure
I am certain she works out a great deal
If only you knew the number of medical procedures she needed to resemble that...

The Internet allows you to see the immaculate lives people are living.
Our youths admire internet superstars who have a large number of followers on their platforms and try to be much the same as them.
Your so called celebrities or role models upload altered versions of their lives so you could think their lives are perfect
I’m sure most of them have times when they weep and question their potentials.
Days where everything gets so empowering and they wanna quit.
Days where they’re not sure of what the future will bring? But you don’t see that in their pictures/ videos.  
Beneath the perfect selfie or video rests turmoil.

Youths nowadays are constantly bothered about the likes and views they have on their posts and they won’t hesitate to take their posts down if it did not gain enough attention.
Honestly, I do feel bad sometimes. I see my peers  in foreign places, posting pictures of their achievements making me question my ability.
I always ensure I’m consisted for I whatever I do is credible cos I know my success is close
© Oluwatobiloba Kolawole
March, 2019

Dear diary,
I had a stressful day at work today
I longed for my bed
So I could lay this tired head
Then I realised I don’t have a home anymore
Oluwatobiloba Kolawole
January 2019

To all the women I once loved

I am sorry I never showed you how much I cared
I was really scared
of being the only one in love
I want A happily ever after
but all I see around is broken hearts

To all the women I loved before
who made sure I never felt alone
and ensured I smiled on my darkest days
you taught me how to love myself
and to love someone else
I am sorry I wasted your time

To all the women I once loved
who showed me so much respect and care
even when I wasn't sincere
I am sorry I pushed you away
I thought I could do this alone

To the women I once loved
Thank you,
and I am sorry

© Oluwatobiloba Kolawole
2019

The source of my sinful desires
And how so many rash decisions were made
The reason why I spoke to the wrong ones
Cos  I was promised  different forms of pleasure
The reason behind my addiction
And how I gave in easily to temptation
I didn’t know you could have so much control over me

©Oluwatobiloba Kolawole
April, 2020