i have done it again.
i lost the one that i loved the most.
i wonder if it is always me,
or maybe it is the ones i choose.
i always fall for the blue eyes,
and yet again i am deceived.
just because the ocean is beautiful
does not mean you won't drown.
too late to realize what everyone already had.
i jumped in the deep end, head first,
just wanting to escape the surface.
now here i am,
laying helplessly on the sand.
the sun doesn't shine quite as bright,
not like it did when he was with me.
why do i always fall for the ones
who fall in love with the world?
the ones who wake up in a different city every morning,
ready to lose themselves in an ocean of thousands.
while we did not last,
we will always have something in common.
while i'm drowning in your eyes and in my very own thoughts,
you're drowning in life and what you and i have lost.
and one day when you sink lower,
i'll be floating on the surface.
i will rise.
this is messy and ultimately makes no sense.