"nona" poems
i spent too many times trying not to love you, darling, but i know this now: loving you has always been in my very nature — repressed and buried in my bone marrows.
i'm sorry it took me so long to realize this, my love. i am coming home now. ❤️
Aug 12, 2021
Aug 12, 2021 at 10:50 AM UTC
are you there?
i’m here.
good.
i love you.
i love you too.
do you remember when
we nested on the
rocky beach,
surfers walking on water
our seagull thoughts
drifting, dancing,
together
woven in the blue canopy
sunflower wilting
behind the curtain of tidal mist?
i cried then.
why?
because it reminded me,
someday the night will fall and
never get up.
you know,
without you
life would be
a hollow place,
a sad place,
a dark place.
are you there?
i’m here.
good.
Apr 11, 2012
Apr 11, 2012 at 1:28 AM UTC
tuan menjejak
nona mendongak
'apa?' Nona bertanya
nafas tuan dihela
'tidak apa-apa'
'nona, sudah berapa lama kau disini?'
nona berdiri
mengintip dari balik dinding
'cukup lama. yang jelas, aku sendiri'
tuan tersenyum
nona berubah ranum
dinding perantara, runtuh
'sampai nanti, nona'
'sampai mati, tuan'
sekatmu, dekatku
jarakmu, ragaku
tawamu, tangisku
gelakmu, senduku
'hendak kemana tuan?'
menoleh pun enggan
nona tertahan
nona kembali bertatapan
dengan puing-puing dinding yang berserakan
Aug 4, 2018
Aug 4, 2018 at 10:51 AM UTC
Semalam
Lagu - lagu kuno itu aku mainkan
Seakan aku hidup di zaman victoria
Berperan rapih, layaknya seorang bangsawan.
Menunggu
Menyambut dirimu yang kupanggil “Lady”
Nona berparas cantik
Pula berdarah biru
Seorang putri di umum
Seorang ratu di hati
Berdansa ditengah Ballroom
Membuat malam ini milik kita berdua
Mimpi yang indah !
Oct 12, 2017
Oct 12, 2017 at 2:02 AM UTC
dear noni,
im suppose to call you nona
i just didnt know how to pronounce the "a"
your not even italian so what does it matter anyway
i dont like you very much
you have made my life harder than it should be
dear noni i really wish you would leave
you raised a homophobic judgmental son, i get to call him dad
thanks.
dear noni
youre not very friendly
you can send me as many books as you want on jesus and being straight'
it doesnt help your case
stop "praying for me it makes you look bad
sorry you are my grandma because i dont like you
May 1, 2015
May 1, 2015 at 11:36 AM UTC
Children are lucky because they have
A Grandma and a Grandmama
Nonna, Mhamó, Abuela, Bibi
Babcia, Giagiá, Avó, Oma
Nagymama, Mormor, or Kuku wahine
Are names of love for their Nan
O baachan, Babushka, Tutu, Halmeoni
Are certainly not names for a man
Ouma, Savta, Bubbi, Geema
Nai Nai, Nona, Gramms and more
Bomma, Mawmaw, Yaya, Nana
If I keep going you’ll think I’m a bore
All names for their Grandma
The one they adore
That special someone
Who’s love to the core
She plays with them, cuddles, and keeps them all warm
She feeds them, she rears them takes over the chore
But all of this just to say, lest we forget
Grandmas are LOVE LOVE LOVE and more
Oct 29, 2018
Oct 29, 2018 at 5:17 PM UTC
Your Tranquilizing Love
Your love is like a tranquilizing
of the dark, you even took my heart
and broken it down
Deep, deep down from on reaper
In my heart
I find a love for you sometime
ago even in the pain of age
But hate comes to my mind like a
cold rhyme of the dark side
I lost all feelings with time
A heated-up night of summers blues
came like a firecracker in late June
For some reason, I don't feel the same
as I Once did in my life
I can't explain it
my heart had gone so numb
But letting you go was the best thing
I could had ever done
Your love is like a wild storm
that never goes away
Your dark Love
brings me so much heartaches
so much shame of your sick way’s
You take even the smile off my face
Your love is too much for me to hang on to
I let you go so give me back my soul
My heart has gone cold
This old love of yours is to old
You kept running deep in my mind
I find myself praying night and day
For the image of you to go away
you make me want to scream
you even haunt me in my sleep
I am not the best person in life
But I am not a bad one
I don't deserve your kind of love
Darkness is your game
your love is so fake it gives heartaches
I can't live like this
Set me free please
let me be
I made a promise to always love you
I will never break that promise
But not the same way you love me
If you come out of the dark and change
to light of day
My love for you will run deep
Like the Mediterranean Sea
Your love in the dark that is killing me
You have taken all my strength from me
Your love is lukewarm
I was always loyal to You
I never cheated on You
I was always there to hold you when you sleep
I even watch you dream
You are always about you and your needs
You gave me lies
and false dreams of what a love could be
Never had I made you doubt my love for you
I never broke a promise I made to you
I was always true even when
you cut my heart in two
But only you did all those bad things to me
And even called me Nona of your dreams
Your accomplishments were you with me
the woman of your dreams
Your true happiness
You always told me God gave you and angel
and her name is Lilly
But your love hurts so much it made my heart
bleed many seas
I want you to never suffer nor cry
You told me You had Loved once before
but that love had faded
You never Love anyone as You had Loved me
I was the best thing in your Life
You even said I was the gift from God
but I must ask witch one is that
I promise I won't allow anyone in my heart
because you already killed it
That promise is true
You have me running on confused
Love is a word I will always fear
The turning of your voice
the deepness in your brown eyes tells so much lies
that runs in my mind
Something I want to let go
I hope you understand why I want you to
move on without me
I want you to stop hurting my life
You make my life feel like I'm a failure.
Poetic Judy Emery © 1998
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery
Apr 4, 2017
Apr 4, 2017 at 1:34 PM UTC
You were a strong man,
the strongest I ever knew,
forged from the steel of our city,
blood like oil off the iron tracks.
When I came home with C’s,
you looked me in the eyes and
said I could do more,
but that you loved me anyways,
and no mark would ever change that.
The games of cards and dominoes,
interrupted by grandma in the kitchen,
Mangia! Mangia!
I only beat you once.
You were no angel,
you had your vices too,
like the day you hit Nona,
and she threw the coffee on you.
Like the nights at the casino,
and days spent at the track,
but after I was born,
you entered combat.
I know you lied to me when
you said that you never
went back.
I hope you know
I would never hate you for that.
I’ll never forget the day
I heard, They told me to be strong.
God knows I was trying,
but you looked at me only for a moment
before we both started crying.
I knew right then and there,
you were really dying.
I hoped that they were lying.
Your physical therapist took me aside,
he told me you tried harder
when I was in the room,
so from that day I knew
what I really meant to you.
But stare at you mournfully
was all I could do. It was all I could do.
I’m sorry, Nono.
I’ll always miss you.
You were gone before I had time,
to show you that I could do,
what you always said I could,
what no one else ever knew.
The picture on my bedside,
will stay there forever.
I prayed every day that
you would get better.
I was just a kid. A wish can’t
change the weather.
You were gone long before
they buried you. Your spirit
wasn’t wild, you didn’t
laugh like you used to.
I lost you, but the man
with the chain still
sat in your chair.
I tried and tried to find you but
it was clear you were not there.
He told me the same joke
every time I said hello,
the same one you told me
many years ago.
I knew he was not you,
because you knew that I
already know.
It’s time to let you sleep,
Nono.
I never wanted to lose you.
I never wanted to be alone.
Sep 15, 2015
Sep 15, 2015 at 8:17 PM UTC
Rain falls hard
Burns dry
A dream
Or a song
That hits you so hard
Filling you up
And suddenly gone
Breath Feel Love
Give Free
Know in your soul
Like your blood knows the way
From your heart to your brain
Know that you're whole
And you're shining
Like the brightest star
A transmission
On the midnight radio
And you're spinning
Like a 45
Ballerina
Dancing to your rock and roll
Here's to Patti
And Tina
And Yoko
Aretha
And Nona
And Nico
And me
And all the strange rock and rollers
You know you're doing all right
So hold on to each other
You gotta hold on tonight
And you're shining
Like the brightest stars
A transmission
On the midnight radio
And you're spinning
Your new 45's
All the misfits and the losers
Well,you know you're rock and rollers
Spinning to your rock and roll
Lift up your hands
Jan 30, 2017
Jan 30, 2017 at 12:35 AM UTC
My love for you will run deep
Like the Mediterranean Sea
Your love in the dark that is killing me
You have taken all my strength from me
Your love is lukewarm
I was always loyal to You
I never cheated on You
I was always there to hold you when you sleep
I even watch your dream
You are always about you and your needs
You gave me lies
and false dreams of what love could be
Never had I made you doubt my love for you
I never broke a promise I made to you
I was always true even when
you cut my heart in two
But only you did all those bad things to me
And even called me Nona of your dreams
Your accomplishments were you with me
the woman of your dreams
Your true happiness
You always told me God gave you an angel
and her name is Lilly
But your love hurts so much it made my heart
bleed many seas
I want you to never suffer nor cry
You told me You had Loved once before
but that love had faded
You never Love anyone as You had Loved me
I was the best thing in your Life
You even said I was the gift from God
but I must ask which one is that
I promise I won't allow anyone in my heart
because you already killed it
That promise is true
You have me running on confused
Love is a word I will always fear
The turning of your voice
the deepness in your brown eyes tells so many lies
that runs in my mind
Something I want to let go
I hope you understand why I want you to
move on without me
I want you to stop hurting my life
You make my life feel like I'm a failure.
Poetic Judy Emery © 1998
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery
Aug 21, 2020
Aug 21, 2020 at 1:08 PM UTC
A Lady and Her Two Knights
For their Nona and Papaw
Three young adults walking along to Mass
Pals from childhood, arms around each other,
Laughing, and pausing briefly for a mama-picture -
For them, even October is their spring
And in this springtime of their lives they offer
All of their happiness to Our Lord Himself,
All together Ad Altare Dei,
To God who giveth joy to their youth1
Three friends laughing, taking the morning air:
Two knights honored to escort their lady fair
1paraphrased from the Missale Romanum of 1962
Oct 2, 2017
Oct 2, 2017 at 1:46 PM UTC