I cannot exist in the
noise of
heavy
breathing.  

Nght exits.
The wrinkle of sheet,  the
impress of thick tuned
air waits a turning away.

If you don't find me at the
stair know that I loved you.
That the movement of crowds
turned me away

that I saw you wave tonight
to the woman whose
@
Wore your name.

Caroline Shank
April 9, 2023

Written for a contest.

All those tears we cried together
Opening the faucets on our face
Trying to wash the pain away
Yet the stains of our history
Were never meant to be erased
Remember those sleepless nights
Where you would walk for an hour
Just to find comfort in my arms
But we never found rest
Just more tears we shard
As the nght went on
Remember those seeming less innocent days
When salt water licked our feet
Puppy eying us into taking a swim
Remember those days when I would want to fight your father
When I saw the bruises
When you tried building dams out of mascara
And tried hiding behind the blush
I just wish you were here to remember
All those special moments we shared together
All the pain and suffering
I wouldn't let you deal with alone
Remember me
I know this voice doesn't sound familiar
After all its been four years
Since I've been to your new home
Where you rest peacefully
Remember I'll always love you
You were my best friend
My one true love
I just wish we had more time to spend together
Yet days pass, then months
But as they pass me by
And poems forget to be written
I'll still have a poem to write about you

I can understand my intense undertow of honest admeration for the fools and kings of this uni-world. Austin I've never felt so safe in taking my own life. I've never wanted to die so much more than you. Austin I've been thining lately abo........and who the **** are the ******* ****** sitting in my house in the room next to me like angry ants clawing at the bt of ground around my ears! Who are these **** monsters and goblins drentching at the sight of my own oneness with a trancendent hotel loby. Why am I loving on every angry thought I can come with. Why am I caring about the most ignorant breed pf poeple. Why can i never call out thier name? Aways a mistake. I am forgoten as a mystery-freak who looked aloof at parties and sat on the roof too long at night. I've really ****** mysef over today. I had no respect for myself, I had only a little music to spit out. It wasn't even good. It was just a lame lulaby I woud rip from a hyme I heard as a child in mass. The sus fourth resolving to the triumphant third. The purest harmony for you my sweetest love. I want you only for a minute or two and then I want to just impaile the nght sky into venus and larger spheres. Monogamy is a hell of a drug.