"nervouness" poems
I want to mend my mistakes
I want to undo the past
I want do things right
I find a reason to try.
I find the meaning of songs
I find why poets write of love
I find the sorrow of lovers
I want cure their woes
as tears are shed like blood...
I want to find joy
I want to never let go
I want to feel warmth
I find happiness once more.
I find fear like never before
I remember why I stopped
I remember the nervouness
felt before
I find a reason to ignore them
chances is what life is made out of.
Oct 22, 2018
Oct 22, 2018 at 2:15 PM UTC
Foundation painted in lies
Existence collapsing without energy
And so time flows by
A landslide in a blink of an eye
I want to avoid any neutral paths
A shining stage
I want to bathe in that place's light
Is that too much to wish?
At the far away shining blue light
Stacking fatigue, Overtaking nervouness
It never disappears
The darkness of sadness
It seems like i'm living with no disabilities
But i was
Hiding them
The engine broke
From knowing too much of this reality
I'm dried of everything except the future
I possible couldn't know about you who are lively
When numerous sadness sweeps in
I held them in white staring at the muddy water that was closing off the path
At that time there was no light
I was nervous after looking at you
Who had bright eyes and spoke of hope
Even though I'm not strong, I wanted what not possible
And lived in vain as the cost of it
Still, this cold mind overflowed
Due to lack of rejections and consent
My poor brain uselessly tried to find the lost time
Black rain, hope that was hidden in the avalanche
The curtain of red blood, not blue, surrounds it
I'm not the one who is crazy, it feels like I can't breathe
Because you who was running towards the light was so bright
I couldn't catch up so easily
The whirwind of the hideous jealousy overlaps with my emotion
I didn't know the truth so I lost without defections the game monster
The only one that can calm this depressed mind is me
I was tired from wandering around so i came to this place
The limit has already broken trough
And is flooding out from my capacity
The identity of the pain that overcame me
The rain of despair ripped apart the silence
I only have to make it throw away the sinister mind
When numerous sadness is sweeping in
If I keep on slowly walking instead of being sweapt away,
I bet the long, long night will one day
Be a little brighter
Aug 30, 2014
Aug 30, 2014 at 11:08 PM UTC