Could have wrote a whole book about you,
but instead all you get is this one poem,
and as lovely as you are you have all the signs of crazy,
so no this is not exactly a love poem,
it’s a lesson in the form of prose,
about abuse and about healing,
about hurting and learning,
and how we emotionally evolve,
post trauma no drama all problems solved,
no commas till Nirvana I am The Man Who Sold The World,
a young **** unplugged I’ve been through it all,
so I when she said she’d smack my mug I just shrugged it off,
when I say She I mean You and that’s the truth I mean come on,
we were at the most beautiful view in Lisbon,
sitting together in the grass,
and I know I shouldn’t have mentioned Russia and Crimea,
but I’d swear I thought you asked,
alas,
could have wrote a whole book about you,
but instead all you get is this one poem,
and as lovely as you are you have all the signs of crazy,
so no this is not exactly a love poem,
it’s more of a heated horror story,
a heartwarming tale of cold shoulders,
written by the waning light of the summer moon,
the pen is the sword that hews the stone until the tablet is hewn,
I’m a poet I know this so I wrote this to you I just hope it’s not too soon,
could have wrote a whole book about you,
but instead all you get is this one poem,
and as lovely as you are you have all the signs of crazy,
so no this is not exactly a love poem,
this is a poem,
about learning not to care,
about being able to look someone right in the eyes,
and pretending like you don’t even care,
worse than pretending,
really not caring,
please I wanted you to bring some inspiration,
but all you brought was doubt and fear,
so I set you down,
as quickly as I had picked you up,
I let you go,
as quickly as I had held you close,
so,
so what,
you taught me not to care,
when I was feeling the most vulnerable,
is exactly when you chose to strike,
why?
I mean,
what happened to yesterday’s yesterday,
when we met under that wise old tree,
at that festival in Portugal,
where we feel so infinitely free,
where I invited you to spend time with me,
so we could together experience this miraculous creation called life simultaneously,
you’d accepted my invitation at the Oriental Station in Lisbon on that restaurant balcony,
I had asked where you were going,
and you’d said Madrid then back to Cypress,
I asked you why you were going back,
and you said you didn’t know,
so I invited you to a magical place called Sintra,
where we could have space to explore,
magical gardens with magnificent plants from the four corners of the world,
secret white sand beaches with just us the black rocks and the white sand,
castles in the sky and initiation wells winding into the earth,
drink from from the eternal springs which spring from the fountain of youth,
this is all true,
everything I’ve written here,
but you sabotaged this passionate plot before it even got started,
it started too fast I wanted a time out instead we ate at the Time Out Market,
I feel sick to my stomach,
I brought you to an angelic place to watch the sun set,
and what could have been a beautiful healing experience turned into nothing,
I feel sick to my stomach,
why have we done this,
why have we become this,
what can we take from this,
what’s the lesson from all this,
if you know please tell me,
because I haven’t got a clue,
and I’m as alone now as I was before I met you,
and I’m sitting here in my sorrows writing this sonnet staring at the waning moon,
and I could have wrote a whole book about you,
but instead all you get is this one poem,
and as lovely as you are you have all the signs of crazy,
so no this is not exactly a love poem,
it’s a lesson in the form of prose,
about abuse and about healing,
about hurting and learning,
and how we emotionally evolve…
∆ Aaron LA Lux ∆
A Bittersweet Love Letter
