Kalami ba mag beach ing'aning orasa.
Payts ra ba bahala ako ra usa.
Tapad dayun kug lapad,
Para didto magsulay-sulay kug lupad.
Ambot lang ngano,
Pero lami lagi mang-ungo didto,
Sa mga tawo na nag date-date,
Na sa kahoy nagpa dapid.

Kalami ba putlon,
Ang kahoy na ilang gisandigan.
Pero di nata magpinait diha,
Pasagdi na antik musok'sok,
Sa ilang mga kigot.

Chill nalang sa ko diri,
Ligid ligid sa balas,
Kay kabalo ko nalate raka,
Sa sig pangita sa ice,
Ikaw ray para nako,
Ang tigtimpla sa chaser,
Pangpawala sa pait,
Sa akung ilimnon.

Kabalo ko muabot raka puhon,
Pero dili lang sad ko magdahom.
Hangyo lang nako,
Pag-dali lang diha di maghapit-hapit.
Diristo na sa akua kay para ako maigo na.

Maigo na jud ko sa imung kagwapa,
Huboga na tawun ko sa imung gugma,
Arung ako muundang nakog buhat,
Aning mga tula na bisaya.
Agpas na. Ako kang tagdun.
Diri rakos balas magligid-ligid
Mag tagad nimo.

the path i took
welcomed no strangers
so when i am lost
i am lost alone

You know those days --
those sad, miserable, sucker-punched in the heart, sort of days --
when all you want, is for the tears to well out of you?
for your tears to flow, so that at least something comes out?
But it's as though you have no more tears left in you.
Your well is all dried up.

It's a bit like my heart, actually,
The way it's dropping,
so
     far
           down
                       in my chest.
(I'm almost worried it'll disappear.)

And I have friends.
I have these wonderful, beautiful, friends of mine -- I have people.
But it feels
                     as though
I am glass.
                     fragile.
                     see-through.

And no matter how I want
                                                   to scream, "HELP!"
the words stay sticky, stuck,
                                                   in my throat.
And in the end, well.
I'm back all alone.

But I am still breathing.
       I am still living.
                still wanting to keep on doing those things.
More than anything, I want to push
that darkness,
that fear,
that lingering sadness, swallowing me whole into its abyss --
I want to push it far, far, away.

But all I can do now, is ask:
"How do I get out of here?"
Like that little lost child, whom I have not been in so long.
And hope
for an answer
that will not come.




-- original, typed in romaji --




Korewa,
Nakitakutemo, nakitakutemo,
Ikiru kotoga zenzen mazushikutte,
Mou, namidawa nai.
tte iu kannji.

Nannka, kokoro ga sukoshi zutsu
"chi-nn" to ochiterumitai.
Soshite, tomodachi ga donnani itemo
Jibunnwa fuyou no gurasu
Mou, toumei mitai ni natte
[Tasukete] to iitakutemo
Kotobawa nodo ni tsuikotte,
Owariniwa mata hitoribochida.

Demo, mada ikiterushi,
             mada ikitai****,
Kono kurosa, kono nayamiwa,
Tookuni oshitai.
Daga, maigo no kodomo no youni,
[Douyatte kokokara deruno?]
toshika kikenai.