"lossed" poems
I really dont know how much time you have
Your bags are getting lower and I'm loving you a little too late
You're getting skinnier
You've lossed 30 lbs in 1 one month and I think this is your last year standing on earth
I think these are the months to pray
It's a little too late
Don't deny your sickness, when even you know you're ill
You once told my mom you dont pay the consequences here on earth, you pay them in the afterlife
You're paying them now
It must be horrible to live what you were planning to live in the afterlife
You're 25 x2 and I'm the mistake you love the most
Everytime I listen to Guilt Trip by Kanye West I shiver when Kid Cudi comes in
The line "If you loved me so much then why'd you let me go" hurts me so much
I remember you calling me a good for nothing
I think those words have become permanent to my thoughts
I think that's why I saw my self standing in a place for the hopeless a month and a half ago
I dont think I'll ever tell you that I love you face to face with pride in those words
Your figure is starting to become weak, and I'm beginning to worry
It's too late for that, I've come so far with a rope pulling me back
I think I've been walking backwards these passed 5 years
I didn't realize it before then
I don't think I know you well enough
I wish I knew who you truly are, soon to be were
What I do know is that you always pointed at my mother and yelled negativity
Now you're pointing at what grave you want to get buried in
You're paying death in my world you caused hell in
Consequences come in unexpected ways
I guess thats why death is catching you offguard
8 straight years hearing yells I hated
I was tired of it, but used to it as well
I'll always be your son.... dad
I wish things turned out differently
I wish you knew that deep down, I love you
The love you didn't show is slowly tying a rope around your neck
You'll always be my dad, you'll always be the monster I was scared of when I was little
You'll always be the screams of negativity in my ears that keep me awake some nights
You'll always be the July 29th I remember, always
You'll always be what made me who I am now
A suicidal passionate artist
And my friends will always try to defeat my inner war with their consoling words
What they don't know is that you'll always be with me
Even when I'm experiencing success
You'll always be there, to bring me down
And I love you for that..... dad
You'll always be my dad
And I'll always be your son you never showed love to
I love you
Jan 10, 2014
Jan 10, 2014 at 11:01 PM UTC
Part I
*Here she lies,
Underneath the cloudless skies,
In the Churchyard full of graves,
Near the frothy- foamy waves.
Dead. . . is everyone that saw her when she died,
The same ones that cared and cried,
Lady Jane Of England.
Here rests her body upon the lap of earth,
Underneath the elm and buried in the turf,
Dead Lady Of England.
Her grave covered with lichens and moss,
And it is true her head she lossed,
Poor Lady Of England.*
~Marian~
Nov 1, 2012
Nov 1, 2012 at 12:24 AM UTC
I am lossed
Tossed
Locked
And stuck
Im in a fog
A mist
A haze of bad luck
Im confused
And used
And unsure of my mind
Im stupid
Intelligent
Dumb
And smart
But mostly blind
These answers i cannot find
Caught in hypothetical execution
Im trapped in my own confusion
Jan 21, 2011
Jan 21, 2011 at 1:58 PM UTC
I don't need a god
Or any idol before me
I'd rather not kneel and show my weakness
I'd rather weep the tears
Mourn a final time
To show how scared I am
I don't need a cross to hold
I don't need a bottle or blade
I need the silence of a vacant altar
What I need is never what I get
What I want is nothing
But **** it I require a voice to say it'll be ok
For something or somebody
To comfort me in the darkest of days
Even those who love the dark fear it
They know all to well the monsters created
The demons that awaken
It's more than just a nightmare
It's a abyss always drowning its victims
With their own fears
I just pray to my insanity
Maybe my depression
Or perhaps the dark
To allow me one more river of tears
So I can finally swim out of this desert
I've loved and lossed
Lived and learned
Made mistakes invaluable
My proof is the scars
I doubt you'll ever believe the story to
This isn't just an atheists prayer
This is the plea of a monster with no conscious
To finally feel an emotion rather than anger and hate
Depression brings only crimson tears
I just wish somebody can tell me they understand
Yet you'll try and tell me
I should find an anchor in your heavenly father
It's not as easy as saying you believe
I'll never believe in a hypocrite
I'll only believe that one day
My prayer will be answered
With the bringing of boney fingers to my throat
Grains of sands falling
Causing the bells of my demise to toll
Swinging about the sythe to my chest
My prayer is to finally cry
To finally let out all the pain
Feb 27, 2014
Feb 27, 2014 at 2:47 PM UTC
My heavy weighted eye lids crack open,
my mind retreats from a far away place.
Dazing at the white canvas above me,
I lie motionless.
The day I first saw her,
I blink.
Our first kiss,
Two blinks.
The day she said I Love You,
Three.
Her eyes filled with torment, a scorching flame trickles down her cheek.
I am no longer motionless.
I inhale the shrapnel of my poisoned mind.
This makes the world much more beautiful I say, knowing someday you will never see it.
I exhale.
Kiss,
hug,
touch,
feel.
Nothing more than ink blotched on a peice of paper.
Blow it all away I said, for your troubles are far worse than mine. You think you are hurt?
You think you can sleep at night without dancing with the shadows of the past?
I can't, for that is I.
Look at lust directly in its eyes, look at love without any lies.
You are nothing more than a passing wind,
I was everything, why does it feel like I sinned?
But all is lossed in the morning, a shame there wasnt a warning.
The sun shining high,
There is one thing I can do, and that is say goodbye.
Aug 6, 2013
Aug 6, 2013 at 11:20 PM UTC
open up the fidgerator door,
drop the magnet that held the list and chores
looked for the dog caught a whiff of the floor
that little ***** **** on her delicate decour
im house sitting
now im wishing
i can still make the move on you,
making mac and cheese
eating all of there food
i brought you back here to impress
hopin i could get under the covers
even though i was under your dressed
i sliced and chopped
salads flopped and tossed
**** i was just hoping our meals would exchange
i made you gourmet
mac cheese and ******
got lossed while talking to her
made mixed drinks and flavors
taught being thankful
speaked more then r. kellys closet single
Aug 3, 2014
Aug 3, 2014 at 6:48 PM UTC
@
the
kid’s place
we, in the
middle of the fight, went
berserk. We lost it, we lossed the chip
it was little bitter, unable to shine in skunk-eyes so we slept there
And you know what? i remembered the sights we used to make, back when it was easy to be too slow
before seventh grade shambles, and the cold cup you sold make a buck
against your shallow skin. as I lay, unknowing
of your penny tears, and
unavailable for comment
on my
virginity.
well.
Nov 3, 2014
Nov 3, 2014 at 9:37 PM UTC
Summers warm grip smiles,
Morphs in winters icy stare,
My love for you wanes.
Sep 3, 2024
Sep 3, 2024 at 3:04 PM UTC