"llll" poems
We were delivered by the gods of the white coats.
I was chromosome X and Y of the prise goats.
I've been thinking nowadays
Is it better in some ways
To be in our superior race.
To see and hear without our own face.
The city
Is pretty
And gritty.
So witty ,
Have pity on us clones.
We've all practiced our functions.
We're all lingered at junctions ...
For such a long time.
We're tired , so run down , recharge uss orr weee''llll diiiieeee
Sep 5, 2015
Sep 5, 2015 at 11:35 PM UTC
I.
my head was starting to overflow
thoughts and memories
spilling out onto the streets
so I took an eraser to the etchings that littered the cave walls
of my mind and now
it’s a blank canvas
and baby you are no longer
my muse.
ll.
my shoulders were beginning
to ache from years
of carrying the weight
of a lifetime of sadness
so I scrubbed off the blue
of your name and found only gray underneath
and you can imagine my surprise when I learned
there is something worse than pain.
emptyness.
lll.
two arms are not nearly enough
to bear the weight
of hearing you tell me
you don’t love me anymore
so I planted the seeds of your words in my wrists
and when they finally blossomed
the terrain was too tattered to recognize the words that once ****** the life from my very veins
like weeds
and maybe that’s for the best.
llll.
when the bruises began to form
in the places around my waist
you once held onto so tightly
like it meant the difference between life and death
like my hips were the only handles left on Earth and you were afraid to fall in love, I realized bruised lips are not the same thing as tough love.
lllll.
my thighs shrunk everytime I
said no
I’m not hungry, I already ate, I’m fine thanks,
and the bigger the space between
my thighs grew, the better I felt knowing I was making room for you
without realizing
until it was too late that the more area you occupied, the less I had to grow.
I’m wilting.
llllll.
my knees are shaking like
the leaves were
the day you told me you no longer wanted to try and love me
so my calves are swaying and
my toes are curling and these lines twisting around my thighs
are begging
to be
opened .
lllllll.
my wrists are starting to overflow
nightmares and heartbreaks
spilling out onto the streets
so I took a razor to the etchings
that littered the cave walls
of my arms and now
it’s a ****** canvas
and baby you are no longer
my muse.
Jul 3, 2015
Jul 3, 2015 at 12:23 AM UTC
every1 wants to p[lay some game
so i say okay
less play
i love you
just need them too
its family
its the truth
i love you
but u dont need to know the truth
i dont really love you
i just think i can fix u
cant u tell by how there is nothing to talk about
when its just us two
cant u tell by how i dont give a **** about what your writing about
and youll never see my name on your dashboard u tooo slow
cant u tell by how i distrust u and sleep, soo much longer that i need too i know
**** you
pay me or pay u
gonna shut u off
cold isnt it
are u alone
**** you
know the world is drying
dying towel drying
no water left
**** you
feel sorry for your sins
**** no
**** you
repent
**** the smiling *****
straightoutof Magdalene
hey
SATA?N
hes not there
i been asking
god is here
but he doesnt ******* care
he doesnt ******* care
he doesnt ******* care
he doesnt ******* care
hedoesntfucking care
your love is here
ask god for a small place to stay
away from everyon and everything
that made u feel this way
he;llll!
hellsay hes working so hard
preparing a place
for your rotting creature pelt
to hang above his fireplace
u can trust with all the brids
that know seeing isnt believing
so fat with faith
sidestepping windows
like theieryer necks were made of
neckbraces
unable to kneel down
andpuke it out
fly with them
until they remember
somethings are invisible
and they matter just as well
im standing on the edge of the felt
the putting green orb u fell onto and melded
so u grab your blak crows
and fly fly fly
******* hard
******* full force
until you fly to ******* hard into it
and break your neck
and remember
before u die
that there is nothing to believe in
even when you are well
there is nothing to be decieved by
you were born worthless
branded with a dollar sign
and yyour holy ghost
wont pay the hospital life
ur dead
because u believed in life
birds are dumb+haldf blind
im blind
but i could see what you were doing
with empty sockets or backwards eyes
Jul 27, 2015
Jul 27, 2015 at 5:01 PM UTC
won't get out of my lap
kitty kitty don't you understand? how very peculiarly profoundly perfect your life became the minute you found yourself locked in this palace? your freedom of this house
won't you take this life less seriously with me? I struggle, I learn every day too, I watch the comedies, and your nose wet, rare, square, trying to, let it a llll
go!! how how how how! how do you take a man
who takes the world so seriously
and turn him into THE JESTER???? a true and perfect comedian!
perhaps my self entitlement puts me back in the hole aGain!! MUSKRAT
NOTHING, there is the bit of horrible, horrible, stark truth in every joke, the brutality of honesty,
or perhaps the comedy is the hot dog wrapped in a bagel that is absurdity
or perhaps the comedy is the bagel itself and the ****** is the ******* truth that we relate to
what would louis say? what would jerry say? what would Chris rock? and Richy Gervais or however you spell his name? Silverman? help me out here, give me a few answers
the audience doesn't lie, and they laugh at the stupidest things, when the artist is outside of themselves, when the comedian isn't even aware of what they are doing, but some sort of ironic twist is born out of nothing...nesss
its getting too confusing, and I'm back to square one, back to my confusions, make me into more or whatever I wrote before
left to perpetual seriousness? I don't want to believe this, are the average comedians liars and the geniuses genuine? what is genuine quality really? put under the microscope it is resentful and pity, and often in jail!
and the cat, rests, sleeps, curls, even as I type and her head, keeps getting pushed to the side over and over again... and never bites, because she has learned that she doesn't have to, the food is provided, and anxieties are only presented by...
silly little things. Silly, silly little things. That she makes up in her brain.
Mar 25, 2015
Mar 25, 2015 at 2:58 AM UTC