"leesah" poems - Hello Poetry

Why do you like me When all I do is talk about my former life. I talk about what I lost My wonderful kids, my beautiful Ex-Wife. You listen attentively You never say anything. I know you see the sadness in my eyes That this subject brings. You say that you like me You want me for yourself. How is that possible When I'm in love with someone else? When I sleep at night You aren't even on my mind. Thoughts on my Ex-Wife Occupy my time. I look at you & wonder If this is a mistake. Will this love I feel for my Ex Eventually, cause you some type of heartache? It's hard sometimes to look at you Because my Ex is who I'd rather be with. I know that you want my heart But my Ex is the one who has it. You text, you call You give me all kinds of attention. I just can't reciprocate those feelings I'm not as attentive. I can't live a lie & return feelings that aren't true. That was be so mean If I did that shyt to you. I'm not saying I'm "all that" Because I know that I'm not. As much as you want to be in my heart My Ex-Wife still has that spot. The first time I saw Leesah I knew she was The One. When I look at you You're a girl with whom I can have some fun. You deserve better A man who'll love you completely. If we keep going on like this You'll begin to resent me. My heart is with a woman Who I have no chance with. I feel nothing for you When we're alone & kiss. You're physically attractive Definitely not hard on the eyes. But if I told you I love you That would be nothing but lies. I just want to make this clear I want you to understand. Leesah is my true love She has the heart of this man.

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Jun 9, 2016

Jun 9, 2016 at 2:26 AM UTC

robert-cathey

Rebound Girl

Why do you like me When all I do is talk about my former life. I talk about what I lost My wonderful kids, my beautiful Ex-Wife. You listen attentively You never say anything. I know you see the sadness in my eyes That this subject brings. You say that you like me You want me for yourself. How is that possible When I'm in love with someone else? When I sleep at night You aren't even on my mind. Thoughts on my Ex-Wife Occupy my time. I look at you & wonder If this is a mistake. Will this love I feel for my Ex Eventually, cause you some type of heartache? It's hard sometimes to look at you Because my Ex is who I'd rather be with. I know that you want my heart But my Ex is the one who has it. You text, you call You give me all kinds of attention. I just can't reciprocate those feelings I'm not as attentive. I can't live a lie & return feelings that aren't true. That was be so mean If I did that shyt to you. I'm not saying I'm "all that" Because I know that I'm not. As much as you want to be in my heart My Ex-Wife still has that spot. The first time I saw Leesah I knew she was The One. When I look at you You're a girl with whom I can have some fun. You deserve better A man who'll love you completely. If we keep going on like this You'll begin to resent me. My heart is with a woman Who I have no chance with. I feel nothing for you When we're alone & kiss. You're physically attractive Definitely not hard on the eyes. But if I told you I love you That would be nothing but lies. I just want to make this clear I want you to understand. Leesah is my true love She has the heart of this man.

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God gave me a gift & I took it for granted. He gave me the most Perfect woman, on this whole entire planet. I was in awe of her She was one of a kind. It was hard to believe That she was mine. She had beauty, brains & is a wonderful mother. Once I laid eyes on her I could never love another. She was my strength When I was weak. She was my voice When I couldn't speak. She was my sight When couldn't see My Leesah, My Leesah Was everything to me. I took her for granted I stomped on her heart. I refused her love Now we are apart. I never listened to her When she had something to say. I'd say, "Tell me later" & be on my way. She wanted attention But I was too much into myself. Because of my selfish ways She's now with someone else. I never hugged her Rarely told her I love her. We stayed in the same house But rarely thought of her. I had my on issues So I ignored her attempts at love. Because it was all about me Me is all I thought of. She talked about God & how he keeps her in his grace I'd say "I'm watching the game, let me have my space" She was always going to be here That's what I believed. Imagine my shock When she told me to leave. I left & then looked up to the sky With tears in my eyes I screamed, "Why God Why" I heard a voice that was deep that answered my cries It sounded quite angry, to my surprise ***** He said: You squandered the gift That I gave you Now you have the nerve To ask me to save you. You are just mad Because you'll be by yourself. You did this take the blame It's not on anyone else I gave you a woman Who was my pride & joy But you treated her like An old disguarded toy. You ignored her When she wanted to talk about me. Now you want her back But I'll refuse you plea. You were so selfish & mean So I let her go. I'm sorry to tell you My answer is no. ***** Now I'm without My Leesah The love of my life. The perfect woman The perfect wife. I lost her forever Now I'm on my own. I think of her quite often When I'm alone. I wonder how she's doing Does she miss me too? I doubt that she does After all I put her through. I'll live with this failure & I hope I'll recover. Forever & Ever I'LL ALWAYS LOVE HER. ***** I Love You Leesah!

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Jun 5, 2016

Jun 5, 2016 at 8:43 PM UTC

robert-cathey

The Perfect Gift

God gave me a gift & I took it for granted. He gave me the most Perfect woman, on this whole entire planet. I was in awe of her She was one of a kind. It was hard to believe That she was mine. She had beauty, brains & is a wonderful mother. Once I laid eyes on her I could never love another. She was my strength When I was weak. She was my voice When I couldn't speak. She was my sight When couldn't see My Leesah, My Leesah Was everything to me. I took her for granted I stomped on her heart. I refused her love Now we are apart. I never listened to her When she had something to say. I'd say, "Tell me later" & be on my way. She wanted attention But I was too much into myself. Because of my selfish ways She's now with someone else. I never hugged her Rarely told her I love her. We stayed in the same house But rarely thought of her. I had my on issues So I ignored her attempts at love. Because it was all about me Me is all I thought of. She talked about God & how he keeps her in his grace I'd say "I'm watching the game, let me have my space" She was always going to be here That's what I believed. Imagine my shock When she told me to leave. I left & then looked up to the sky With tears in my eyes I screamed, "Why God Why" I heard a voice that was deep that answered my cries It sounded quite angry, to my surprise ***** He said: You squandered the gift That I gave you Now you have the nerve To ask me to save you. You are just mad Because you'll be by yourself. You did this take the blame It's not on anyone else I gave you a woman Who was my pride & joy But you treated her like An old disguarded toy. You ignored her When she wanted to talk about me. Now you want her back But I'll refuse you plea. You were so selfish & mean So I let her go. I'm sorry to tell you My answer is no. ***** Now I'm without My Leesah The love of my life. The perfect woman The perfect wife. I lost her forever Now I'm on my own. I think of her quite often When I'm alone. I wonder how she's doing Does she miss me too? I doubt that she does After all I put her through. I'll live with this failure & I hope I'll recover. Forever & Ever I'LL ALWAYS LOVE HER. ***** I Love You Leesah!

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I look back on my life I reflect on my past. I saw how I just stood still Never quite followed any clear path. How could people respect me If I didn't make any positive moves? I live in self-hate With a bad attitude. I lost my woman, my children My home, my family. My life is a dark cloud I live in misery. I even tried to **** myself Just the other day. But God wouldn't let it happen He kept me anyway. I called my pastor He was busy at the time. I was having a mental meltdown I was losing my mind. I took a handful of pills That only made me sick. I can't even end my own life Ain't that a b*tch. If I ever succeed with suicide Don't give Leesah the blame. I'm just tired of this life I'm not mentally sane. The only thing that matters Is my children that I love so. They are gone from me My life has no meaning, I think it's my time to go. My family has turned their backs on me I ran them all away. I have mental issues I'm ignoring Getting more ill everyday. I hear voices in my head They talk to me all the time They torment me These voices mess with my mind. My inner voices are my only friends I know that sounds quite odd. The only thing I have to hold onto Are these voices & God. Nothing else is there for me No one else is there. I live a life of pure loneliness I think no one else cares. My-Ex says I'm unstable She says I'm mentally unwell. She tried to help me, I refused Now I live in my own personal Hell. I saw the pain in her eyes She looks at me with pure disgust. I allowed my mental illness To betray her trust. I can't believe how my life Has turned for the worst. I feel like my life is a joke I feel like I'm cursed. The mistakes I made in life Were caused by my own hands. I went through living my life Without any clear cut plans. I've tried talking to God To him I constantly pray. It seems as he's forsaken me Because he doesn't hear me anyway. I know that's my illness talking Those voices wanting my faith to waiver. I'll never let that happen Because one day I know I'll receive God's favor. My mind is everywhere Mental illness has a hold on my life. My-Ex tried to warn me. Why didn't I listen to my wife? I thought losing my family Caused my downward spiral. But truth be told It was happening for a while. My mental illness has ruined me It's left me mentally & physically depleted. I messed up my life Because my illness went untreated. Is it too late to get help? Why? My family's gone. I lost my wife, my children Do I want to go on? If I never write again If this poem is my last write. I know I was the blame I finally saw the light. My pride didn't allow me to admit I'm mentally unstable, mentally unwell. Because I didn't listen to Leesah I live in my own lonely private hell.

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Jun 4, 2016

Jun 4, 2016 at 3:31 PM UTC

robert-cathey

My Mental Illness (Voices)

I look back on my life I reflect on my past. I saw how I just stood still Never quite followed any clear path. How could people respect me If I didn't make any positive moves? I live in self-hate With a bad attitude. I lost my woman, my children My home, my family. My life is a dark cloud I live in misery. I even tried to **** myself Just the other day. But God wouldn't let it happen He kept me anyway. I called my pastor He was busy at the time. I was having a mental meltdown I was losing my mind. I took a handful of pills That only made me sick. I can't even end my own life Ain't that a b*tch. If I ever succeed with suicide Don't give Leesah the blame. I'm just tired of this life I'm not mentally sane. The only thing that matters Is my children that I love so. They are gone from me My life has no meaning, I think it's my time to go. My family has turned their backs on me I ran them all away. I have mental issues I'm ignoring Getting more ill everyday. I hear voices in my head They talk to me all the time They torment me These voices mess with my mind. My inner voices are my only friends I know that sounds quite odd. The only thing I have to hold onto Are these voices & God. Nothing else is there for me No one else is there. I live a life of pure loneliness I think no one else cares. My-Ex says I'm unstable She says I'm mentally unwell. She tried to help me, I refused Now I live in my own personal Hell. I saw the pain in her eyes She looks at me with pure disgust. I allowed my mental illness To betray her trust. I can't believe how my life Has turned for the worst. I feel like my life is a joke I feel like I'm cursed. The mistakes I made in life Were caused by my own hands. I went through living my life Without any clear cut plans. I've tried talking to God To him I constantly pray. It seems as he's forsaken me Because he doesn't hear me anyway. I know that's my illness talking Those voices wanting my faith to waiver. I'll never let that happen Because one day I know I'll receive God's favor. My mind is everywhere Mental illness has a hold on my life. My-Ex tried to warn me. Why didn't I listen to my wife? I thought losing my family Caused my downward spiral. But truth be told It was happening for a while. My mental illness has ruined me It's left me mentally & physically depleted. I messed up my life Because my illness went untreated. Is it too late to get help? Why? My family's gone. I lost my wife, my children Do I want to go on? If I never write again If this poem is my last write. I know I was the blame I finally saw the light. My pride didn't allow me to admit I'm mentally unstable, mentally unwell. Because I didn't listen to Leesah I live in my own lonely private hell.

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Love has hit me so hard Left me **** near crazy. I met the perfect woman Who never ceases to amaze me. Who's beauty is flawless She has grace & style Her eyes captivate me & so does her smile. Her long beautiful hair Gets curly & falls over her eyes. All natural, Homegrown No weave to my surprise. I love her perfectly shaped legs So firm, so thick. Women envy her beauty It just make them sick. She has a spirit that draws you in Just like a magnet. The first time I saw her I knew I just had to have it. Her love for God Is what I love most of all. Even he's memorized by her Because he answers, when she calls. Her name is Leesah She has stolen my heart. She's become My beginning, my end, my finish, my start. That may not make sense to you But that was only meant for her to understand. I love when I'm with her I become the envy of every man. I love how she is So spiritually tuned. She's special, one of a kind & it's my heart she's consumed. Leesah is my drug I need her daily, for my fix. Leesah is a habit That I would never dare kick. She could go anywhere in the world & my love will go find her. My love will be in front of her Never behind her. She'll know that I Love Her Because everyday I'll remind her. I'll never mentally hold her down Or emotionally bind her. I want to give her the world & everything in it. I'm in it for the long haul I'm in it to win it. Leesah is so perfect She leaves me in a daze. If you knew her You too would be amazed. She's a Queen a Goddess She's so real, so true. Leesah too bad I never said these things to you. Now I am all alone Just me, myself & I No Leesah, just this Jones.

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Jun 5, 2016

Jun 5, 2016 at 7:06 PM UTC

robert-cathey

My Jones For Leesah

Love has hit me so hard Left me **** near crazy. I met the perfect woman Who never ceases to amaze me. Who's beauty is flawless She has grace & style Her eyes captivate me & so does her smile. Her long beautiful hair Gets curly & falls over her eyes. All natural, Homegrown No weave to my surprise. I love her perfectly shaped legs So firm, so thick. Women envy her beauty It just make them sick. She has a spirit that draws you in Just like a magnet. The first time I saw her I knew I just had to have it. Her love for God Is what I love most of all. Even he's memorized by her Because he answers, when she calls. Her name is Leesah She has stolen my heart. She's become My beginning, my end, my finish, my start. That may not make sense to you But that was only meant for her to understand. I love when I'm with her I become the envy of every man. I love how she is So spiritually tuned. She's special, one of a kind & it's my heart she's consumed. Leesah is my drug I need her daily, for my fix. Leesah is a habit That I would never dare kick. She could go anywhere in the world & my love will go find her. My love will be in front of her Never behind her. She'll know that I Love Her Because everyday I'll remind her. I'll never mentally hold her down Or emotionally bind her. I want to give her the world & everything in it. I'm in it for the long haul I'm in it to win it. Leesah is so perfect She leaves me in a daze. If you knew her You too would be amazed. She's a Queen a Goddess She's so real, so true. Leesah too bad I never said these things to you. Now I am all alone Just me, myself & I No Leesah, just this Jones.

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