"kindergarden" poems
I was once told to edit the world. I grabbed my colored pencils, my childish ideals thinking I could simply, go over the imperfections left by my predecessors. Soon I would come to realize, life is no etchy-sketch. I could shake the world, twist, mold into anything I wanted. It’s still ****** up. I’m still trying to color the problems. I shade the unwanted, masking it over so I can pretend it’s gone. My day dreams continue further as I sketched over past memories, just want to edit the world. But, colored pencils become daggers when in the right hands. I’ve leaped into this idea with no plan, Standard american wisdom. Act first, question later. my first action should have been to ask, is the world a canvas? Maybe it’s a kindergarden sandbox, 5 year old fists and 6 year olds toes smash and pound through. Maybe it’s a thunderstorm because, I was told life isn’t all sunshine and rainbows. All I’ve seen is dark clouds and lighting. Maybe the world is me. Poetic angst without fail, too much energy to use, to many words spoken at a rapid pace. Maybe the world is you, you, or you. It’s not just its own story, it’s a combination of auto-biographies still being written. Maybe... Just maybe, we are all editors. The world is constantly being edited, no single person should aim to do it themselves. Our world is force, a group, a team, a family taking the pens from our mothers and fathers, writing our chapters into the guide on how to edit. Sooner rather than later, we’ll pass our pens down to those who will write the chapters we never get to see. Hopefully, 5 year old fists and 6 year old toes become 20 year old champions and 30 year old heroes. We can share our stories, filled with the people we’ll never forget, and the nights, we can’t seem to remember. In the end, editing the world will never finished, it can be forgotten. We hope shedding sun rays on a rainy day, might convince our successors to never forget. Sadly, We can only hope they wish to edit.
Oct 29, 2012
Oct 29, 2012 at 7:42 PM UTC
Kindergarden-
I shared my crayons with the girl next to me
She broke it and didn’t say sorry
Mommy says she didn’t know better
Why is she mean to me?
First Grade-
I made a new friend today and mom was proud of me
But then she went to play with someone else
She didn’t talk to me me for 10 minutes
Why is she mean to me?
Second Grade-
Third Grade-
We are learning script and I put the letter “Q” on the board
I messed it up a little
Someone laughed at me and then the whole class did
Why are they mean to me?
Fourth Grade-
Fifth Grade-
Sixth Grade-
I just started a new school
I have no friends
Everyone keeps staring at me and whispering
Why are they mean to me?
Seventh Grade-
I met this boy I think I like him
My friends say he likes me
But he wont talk to me at all he doesn’t even see me
Why is he mean to me?
Eighth Grade-
Ninth Grade-
Another new school more new people
I feel so small
The seniors push me around
Why are they mean to me?
Tenth Grade-
I do all my work
I just want to get a good grade
But people tease me about it
Why are they mean to me?
Eleventh Grade-
I gave up on my work
I shut every one out
I am outcasted by the majority
Why are they mean to me?
Twelfth Grade-
Look at the underclassmen I push them around
Look at the classmates that use to laugh at me
I’m laughing at them now
Why am I mean to them?
May 5, 2014
May 5, 2014 at 7:18 PM UTC
Those little blue, grape-like flowers
They remind me of childhood.
Sweet, soft, soothing childhood.
I would spend a warm afternoon,
picking the little bead-like petals off the stem,
for no reason in peticular, just to have them.
They were fun to hold in my hand.
Pretend they were little grapes.
Of course, those “grapes” I never ate.
My brothers would say they are poisin grapes.
They remind me of childhood.
Childhood, so sweet, innocent and good.
No drama, no homework, nothing to worry about.
Just playing house, jumping rope, learnign the ABC’s.
Every year, it was exciting when the time came around
when all the bright golden leafs fell to the ground.
pre-school, kindergarden, 1st grade...there comming now.
We’d be happy, getting older...we’d think
while jumping up and down.
But back then we had no idea, no clue at all,
how much we’d miss those carefree days,
our sweet, soft soothing childhood.
It will all seem so distant later on.
But some memories just wont be gone.
Sometimes you will see that flower,
the flower that reminds you of childhood.
Dec 24, 2012
Dec 24, 2012 at 6:12 PM UTC
I’m a bad lover
I ask too many questions and some answers make me uneasy,
‘Am impacient, sometimes have low self esteem and sometimes I just think I’m the **** (I do really)
I’m a bad lover
I tend to inundate the objects of my affection with attention, cheesy poetry and random drawings that look more like kindergarden scribble.
Broken promises **** me.
I’m a bad lover
I am inclined to forgive with ease but remember with intensity.
I do not acknowledge moderation when it comes to kissing.
I sometimes prejudge according to my last relationships.
And somehow I am not afraid of being loyal.
I’m a bad lover
I love cats and warm, fuzzy feelings.
I’ll rather watch a documentary than a horror movie.
I turn awkward in certain situations.
I go to sleep listening to democracynow.org but think Amy Goodman should be a bit more energetic, it’s almost as if she’s bored or ****** off or something.
I’m a bad lover
Jan 19, 2014
Jan 19, 2014 at 3:24 AM UTC
In life, there are many things we have in common.
The first thing all of us have in common is this
All of us are in the womb about nine months, and born.
Then we go through the childhood stages
We take our first steps.
We go through the terrible twos.
We ride a bike.
Most of us go to some sort of kindergarden.
Then an elementary school.
Then we hit middle school.
For me in little old Nebraska I was a seventh grader.
Some of us go in sixth grade, maybe even earlier.
There we "date" for some of us.
Some of us die our hair black and put in piercings.
Some of us wear makeup.
But no matter what you find some of your best friends there.
Highschool comes around.
Being a freshman, I'm not gonna lie,
Kinda scary.
Got your whole life ahead of you.
Then some of us drop out.
Some of us graduate and move on in the game of life.
Go to some sort of military, navy, air force, or other.
Some of us move on to be a doctor or a lawyer.
Some of us become accountants, or inventors.
Then we get through college, or whatever we chose to do,
And we get married,
Have children,
Or party.
If we have children we move on again.
Our children go through the same cycle.
This time, if they advance to children,
They are your grandchildren.
This my friends is the stages of life,
And you are bound to go through them.
Sep 13, 2010
Sep 13, 2010 at 7:00 PM UTC
buying tickets, rip the stubs, hang them on the wall, scrapbook form complete with small pink hearts punched out of the children's cardboard.
gun powder paint, dripped on white mugs, heat-dried, upside down in cupboards that belonged to your grandmother, pour black coffee in the morning and sip.
t-r-i-b-u-l-a-t-i-o-n-s spelled in sign language, on the wall, across photos of sky, clouds raining, lightning flash, blind some farmer, smash some wheat, rip barns into pieces and set one half on top of 18333 sw 32 st.
salt the caramel, lick the spoon and put it in the dishwasher, contemplate the meaning of life, curse god three times because that's a lucky number, write the ****** mary's name thirty-six times across the tile backsplash, latin roots swimming through your head, you only took one year of it.
take wool yarn, knit socks for the kindergarden teacher, put out your cigarettes systematically down the arches, dye them pink, wrap the box in last year's christmas paper, drive four point seven miles to a place that would be better with blankets and closed-tight eyes.
toes say it's a long walk back, so jump the cliff and pray loudly to the seagulls.
Nov 28, 2010
Nov 28, 2010 at 3:54 PM UTC
Back in the Kindergarden times,
When we thrived on nursery rhymes,
When we were grasping our tables,
And learning morals through fables.
While studying the consonants,
And forgetting our vowels,
We'd mew like cats &hoot; like owls.
When a smile could make amends,
And bridge gaps between feuding friends.
We would conjure tales in our heads,
And carry no worries to our beds.
When we would join in a chorus and sing,
Because awkwardness was an unheard thing.
When appearances were an afterthought,
And happiness in wealth wasn't sought.
the nose would never cease to leak,
We'd prance around tongue in cheek.
Toothless grins and scabbed knees,
Were sufficient to charm and please.
With No attempts to please through flattery,
thumping your friend didn't amount to battery.
Childish mirth and innocent revelry,
is nothing but a distant memory.
So now I chide and mockingly grin,
With hope of reviving the lost child within.
Jun 16, 2014
Jun 16, 2014 at 5:29 AM UTC
Roses are red
Violets are blue
You’re in my head
But you’ve got no clue
Jan 10, 2019
Jan 10, 2019 at 4:12 PM UTC
I find that you and me are exponentially and utterly compatible.
Kindergarden, best friends since then, isn't it funny how things work out?
Who would have known, there is red and there is blue, together making your favorite color.
New humans come, and they may go, you still are one of my favorites.
Reckless and stupid
Funny and loud
very
very
immature
I'd like you thank you, I'm very much glad that I found you...
Lets dance until dawn, we can pretend there's an audience below the stage
You know too much, you laugh to loud, and I love every minute of it
Now lets go make some enemies and roll around laughing on the ground
So thank you, thank you, for every bit.
Dec 12, 2012
Dec 12, 2012 at 10:40 PM UTC
Who am I? Am I the girl
you knew since
kindergarden? Or the
girl next door? Or the
girl that knows all? Or
the girl that reads all the
time? Or that girl that is
playing a guitar all the
time? Who am I? Do you
know?
Aug 11, 2010
Aug 11, 2010 at 4:03 PM UTC
I don't know which year I died
If it was when my mom tried to pick me up in kindergarden, but was to drunk to take me home
Several times
Or if it was when I had no friends and got bullied every day
But I sure as hell do know one thing for sure
I revived from the dead
I raised from my grave
stood with broken bones
Dried blood
And scars
I will have these scars for life
But today, I realized
This makes me who I am
And I'm **** proud of myself
Because I survived.
Sep 28, 2016
Sep 28, 2016 at 10:59 AM UTC
die satt so füttern.
as usual.. blah blah... and then auschwitz & blah blah...
kindergarden and allah... palestine and ha ha...
whatever... you censor me you censor
whatever you wish to die;
and i will ensure you die, ensuring
a **** had more mercy than me upon death
as i hadn’t in life!
unto you the sacrilege of the deathcamps
the coffee breaks of the lost words when the found words
ought be spoken weren’t!
hey, but i’m not a speilberg about to make a blockbuster
and get away with it...
i’m the poor polish girl about to bake a bagel...
but **** you america... turns out china owns the world
worth speaking of... because the world worth thinking of
doesn’t exist... whether defined by heaven or hell.
Dec 10, 2015
Dec 10, 2015 at 11:33 PM UTC
she sits there completely alone,
for hours-
she waits for the phone.
memories of them crash through her head
along with all those cruel things they said.
secrets, gossips and time spent together
meant nothing, now or forever.
best friends since kindergarden,
now it all seemed like a great burden.
nowhere to go without her,
nothing done without her,
she's incomplete without her.
loneliness fills up the air,
as she wishes for her to be there.
the world around her turns upside down,
and she feels like a vegetable left to rot.
the closest friends of mine she thinks,
have gone forever in just a blink.
years pass by- but, she still hasn't moved on,
she's still the girl sitting by herself all alone.
Mar 23, 2014
Mar 23, 2014 at 7:36 AM UTC
the kindergarden down the road
had a revolt
and the children insisted on self directing story-time
two thirds in
the hero abandoned their quest,
turned into a bubble
and evaporated
the adults insisted a story needs a proper conclusion
but they knew better
walk by
light in the distance
bares at me
is it moving?
...
no
it's not.
ah-
it's gone now
...
no
there it is again
there gone
there gone
a silence becoming
and a silent vacating
unnerving comfort
the skateboarders down the road
chiseled all the letters out of the road signs
till all the tourists were helplessly lost
/ excuse me,
/ sorry,
/ what way to the lookout?
\ you're already at it
\ just keep going
a wail
oscillating
bares at me
a bird or a car siren?
too organic for a machine
too regular for life
…
never mind
head home
the church groups down the road
formed an action committee,
after the flood
even had some humanitarian in
to give a slide show
but the software was updating
so we ended up watching the loading bar instead
while the kids played in the puddles outside
the asphalt damp
is borne to me
figures keep passing through
unformed spaces
with unfathomable ease
alacrity
fragments pop glitter
valley sparks
of disheveled winter
pass by
tumble down through
grassy banks
to the vermillion ocean
caulk the lungs
and drift
Oct 31, 2016
Oct 31, 2016 at 1:14 PM UTC
Going hard since 97, i've almost died so many times, can't take my life away. Haters hating on me since kindergarden, abandoned by a father, poor but not to bad. Getting rejected by every group there is, left to be with all my thoughts in my messed up head. Counselling, church, tried it all, now I'm just caught up in a monotonous life where everything is the same. I feel like i'm going insane, but I am not broken. Life tries so hard to hurt me, but it just makes me stronger then ever. Now nothing will get in my way, cause I'll just walk right through it.
Apr 14, 2015
Apr 14, 2015 at 8:26 PM UTC
*why is the recognition of genius always a recognition of it taking place in kindergarden? i masturbated before i could produce ***** i taught a boy to do it too, i can tell you the male opera is purely muscular, i don’t know how the un-automated thought / soul was attached to explaining the futility of life as the futility of ***** seen without “motherly love.” i squeeze in white, red and ***** from my body, that’s not even the parallels of the russian flag, but it’s what i am in sentence. i yanked the noun now, but i was yanking the thing before it became a noun and a cognitive calculation used / unused in candlelight on friday’s expectation exasperated: bedded but not wedded. cheat philosophy using grammar, grammaticised is also philosophised.*
i speak my vanity sometimes,
no wonder i grasp
the root of ferns with care
to water them into acknowledging
a belonging in salzburg
when nothing was cherished there -
so took to making london a symphony,
no. 4 in a# and new year's eve:
but i always liked oinking second names and third names
with a confirmation of the church to make
white napkins purple velvet...
to avoid the idol hammer mush and the... lucky ********
deciphering spies of the crossword.
Sep 29, 2015
Sep 29, 2015 at 9:21 PM UTC
123
Pitter Patter
woo
Jack and Jill
why can't
you be a
shoe so
be a fool
and stay
in school
cause you
will need
it very soon
Sep 18, 2014
Sep 18, 2014 at 10:33 AM UTC
Sober can technically be defined as not being under the influence of alcohol. I prefer brevity, and so I've always thought of sobriety as a liberation from any and all influences.
I became depressed during my first semester at college. This is expected. Many young people suffer when they're thrown into new situations with new people. They lose sense of their self worth. I no longer had my mother and father holding my hand telling me "you can do this!" I no longer had the support and affection of lifelong friends who pulled my pigtails in Kindergarden on the playground and held my hair back in the Seaside Heights Carnival bathroom stall senior year. Undying admiration and companionship were miles away, and things became dark. Alcohol was still relatively new and incredibly easy to access. So, I began to drink. A year ago I knew not what a "handle" was, but I was sure it was a mature term. Now, I know all too well the pleasure and pain that is found at the bottom of a bottle.
Drinking was an easy escape. I could be reckless and get away with it. I was hilarious. I was **** I was stupid. I was sneaky. And slowly, I was dying.
But if anything was going to **** me, it wasn't going to be alcohol. It was going to be myself.
Apr 25, 2016
Apr 25, 2016 at 1:34 AM UTC
***** head with seeming precarious fingers, pardon me...
Just trying to recall the happy days, humble beginnings of a timorous kindergarden me...
Memory like a polaroid picture of lost lunch boxes and crayons, head jam
No signs of Melodies or paranoid features in say...building blocks or clay toys instead of bread and jam
Red Marks on my Maths book from a merciless nun, but an exit wound
She loved to dread the spark, hence I took a meticulous calm to ace it good
Found Moses path to split the World like the Red Sea and find Yahweh
Spear Shakespeare's head with a prose of my own like a dead seed to sprout again...
This openness of eternity will at times bring empty wells
and hopelessness in creativity like three times when the Messiah fell
So I'll think of the End, finish and pass through this stage
With the Ink of the Pen about an inch to tattoo this page.
Apr 24, 2014
Apr 24, 2014 at 4:40 AM UTC
It’s like a splitting sensation.
Like a thousand screws are twisting
within you.
He went quick and painfully.
And although he didn’t suffer
much it still brings me no comfort that he’s gone.
left,
away,
"In heaven."
F—k that.
He’s gone and I can’t fix it.
He died. No one to hold him.
No one to pray with him to the god he so loved.
No one to call his wife, no one to call his kids,
No one to do anything for a man
terrified.
F—k that.
Don’t tell me it’ll get better.
Don’t tell me it’ll get easier.
Don’t tell me he lives a good life
or believed in the lord in heaven.
Don’t tell me he’s happy now
He’s was happy then.
So let me cry my memories out
until he raises again.
He’s in a box, on display,
like tissues in a kindergarden classroom.
F—k that.
Let me cry. Let me live. Let me eat
until I ache. Let me yell and punch and scream
about how I loved him and how he’s
never coming back.
We’re all disposable, like those tissues I suppose.
But that doesn’t help.
It never does.
So leave me alone
stop talking to me
and let me get over him.
May 7, 2019
May 7, 2019 at 10:59 AM UTC
when i was in kindergarden i was taught to be kind and explain why i was sorry when i was i never questioned my mind anymore than i questioned why i rode the bus every morning every morning every morning every morning i woke up and i knew i was awake because i could blink and move my fingers and not just my fingers but my hands and not just my hands but my arms and not just that but my whole body actually, i could move my entire body and i knew i could because i saw it happening and only i can say i know my body is moving for certain because i am the one making it move in the first place so how can you stand there watching me walk and watching me jump and i'm running now and i'm climbing and i'm screaming and i'm spinning and dancing and you're watching me but you insist i'm standing still
i am awake and i know this for certain
Mar 22, 2019
Mar 22, 2019 at 10:35 AM UTC