When I was a child,
I was taught poetry wasn't mild,
It was deep as the sea,
And it seemed truly unachievable for me.
I was taught poetry had to rhyme,
Every single line, every single time.
So poetry seemed out of my reach,
Like chasing a seagull down a beach,
Jumping ever so slightly away,
Or soaring into the sunny day.
So I never thrived for what I thought would,
I guess now I'm fixing the mistakes of past me.
I'm reading a step-by-step manual on
how to love yourself again.
'Cause although fundamentals may be philosophy,
Rewiring is all physics baby.
We all need a reason to escape gravity
and plunge ourselves out of orbit.
Self-sacrifice isn't worth ****
if you're wired for it.
To stand on the edge of a tall building and
think of jumping.
Inertia and hysteria.
The magnetic pull of your body to the ground.
To return back to dust.
Loving myself is
a little bit like that.
Schrodinger's cat lives, Schrodinger's cat dies, but you never know unless you open the lid.
Loops within loops within loops
You got me jumping through your high hoops
And my hopes, my hopes are little scoops
Balled up by the pressure, dear
Breathtakingly, beautifully, brilliantly designed
Elegant, lucky lover redefined
Braver than, brighter than a silent star roaring, roaring, against unending night
Tell me that you need me here.
Jumping in the blue
water lilies reflection
in the pond up in the sky.
Lo, the punter sun peeps into
the rose dew down on earth.
Floating just on a navel-high!
The broad daylight pictures
the heavenly blue smile
painting on its highwater mark.
Million and one primula flower
kissing this elfin column.
Not up in the wild blue yonder
nor down on the ground.
Just on a navel high!
Wandering softly lit streets,
Scavenging for food,
fighting for life,
Cats meowing and jumping trash cans,
Showing off Olympic skill,
For nothing but a meal.
Dogs finding homes,
Or abandoned by owners,
Lost in streets,
Hoping for a scrap of love.
Only to find more garbage.
Genderless with scraped knees and
A lipstick crush on one who bore the same name as me
Uncut brown hair untouched by bleach and
Stealing kisses from my best friend while my parents lied asleep
Lying in the grass with a picture book on faeries
Listening to the wind whistle through our dying trees
Jumping on the bed with my ***** and my bubby
Giggling hand over mouth when my mother called him "hubby"
Daisy chains and he loves me nots
Unbrushed teeth beginning to rot
***** shoes and ***** shoelaces
Visiting imagined places
Pink striped socks and a skirt to mismatch
Waiting for robins eggs to fall or to hatch
O, to be a child and to live within a dream
To lie awake at ten past eight, imagination like a stream
Are you a tourist or
A volcanologist my dear?
With a painful joy
To a live volcano getting near,
Do you want to pay homage
To earth's nadir
Conscious that beneath a sea level
A sweltering heat you can bear?
Then to Erta Ale go you not why
Found under Ethiopia's sky?
With a style jumping high,
Hitting the ground
Beating drums, on their waists,
Sabres tied around
Afro men along with braided women,
With butter greased hair,
The latter ululating and clapping
In a row facing each other
Chant a love song
“My feeling for you is strong!”
The male herd camel,
While women babysit,prepare food
And make short huts
With tiny malleable wood.
Also dot the mirage-forming sand
Are you a tourist my dear
Eager to see about
Out of the ordinary you heard
Say about multicolored magma
Disgorged out of earth's crust?
Do you want to see a scenery
You have not seen
Since you were born,
How in a motley garment
Mother nature itself adorn
Come then to Ethiopia,
Located in Africa's horn?
Visit Erta Ale ,
To run away from earth
Enjoying its hearth.
You will witness
The extraction of salt
In a volcano-formed fault.///
One of the wonders of Ethiopia.
"Kami na ni A"
Or in English
"Me and A are official now"
Exact words you told me
Those were the most
Hurtful, painful, distressful words
I have ever heard from you
And I don't know what to say
I don't know what to feel
I know I'm happy for you
Bc finally she answered you after a year.
The long wait is over for you.
But my tears
They fell, escaped, from my eyes.
I was not able to help myself
I am literally crying my eyes out right now
Maybe you are currently jumping in joy
But what you don't know is that
I am in pure agonizing pain right now
Like someone stabbed a knife in my heart
They are now official. Gahd I've been so stupid and blind. Why am I even crying when I knew this would happen.
"My generation are either leaving
the country or jumping into rivers."
Youthful abandon, do they expect us
to believe this many people just fell in?
Blaming it on the alcohol,
Never mentioning the anxiety, the depression.
Blaming it on the alcohol,
Never mentioning depression.
Lines One, Two and Three by Blindboy Boatclub
of The Rubberbandits while on The Late Late Show
Oh why, oh why do we all have to die?
Accident's and suicide is it really all that better on the other side?
Car crashes and burning buildings, now we are all dead;
Jumping from not so safe buildings and playing with not so toy guns;
Chalk outlines and splatters on the walls.
My oh my, what has happened to us all?
I see my death before I die with my very own eyes.
I'm just so done with watching my death a thousand different times on rewind.
And ever night I scream inside and in these dreams my skin is bleeding and my face is pale.
The water's flowing and sirens are going.
I'm hanging there with rope tied around my throat.
And in these dreams I replay a thousand times in my mind I always end up dying.
In reality I'm only sitting there crying.
A wish to come true after I'm through with high school because a pact was made to save my life,
But now I've been slowly dying.
Brother and sister running across the yard.
"*****, *****!" They're shouting.
Reaching me, jumping on me, hugging me, laughing.
I wake up; snap out of it.
Was this a daydream or a memory?*
Im not really sure what's reality or what idealism is anymore.
A taco truck called Pride
Flying the rainbow flag
Specialty being freshly ground
And spiced ******* tacos three different combos
Comes with gender fluid milkshake
Made by breeders jumping up and down
Furiously shaking hands from side to side from up to down
Shark, bait, and coral reefing
Hunting, hiding, gauking
Go, go, go
Foamy human froth
Eddies to and back again
Twill, tweed, leather, denim, skin
Petrol, perfume, sweat, tar, bread
Glass, brick, stone, and steel
Vertical sway Samba style
© 2019 MJL
Hear the raucous universe
hum itself to sleep
The rhythm of the bleeting,
babbling, fence-jumping sheep
The beat, its regurgitating engorgement:
This is the song
of the tempest lullaby
July 6, 2015