"jonghyun" poems
people come and go,
like a ticket with an
expiration date.
without warning,
they just leave.
but you,
who brought so
much joy and comfort,
⸺ through your music,
i was able to learn
how to smile again.
you, with your honey-like
voice, hooked me with
the lyrics you’ve made.
i wrapped myself
around your songs,
knowing that it is
what keeps me going.
but you,
who brought so
much joy and comfort,
couldn’t learn how to
feel the happiness you
give.
i’m sorry.
i know you tried your best.
you tried to find the light so
hard that it must have blinded you.
and thank you.
i know you gave your best,
until the very end.
you gave us music that will
comfort us in our sad days.
you gave us the inspiration,
to keep going no matter
how strong the storm gets.
you might have went without
warning, but you are treasured.
your soul is alive as we will keep
your music going. we will blast it
from the rooftops until they hear.
the love we have for you.
this one’s for you,
kim jonghyun.
my 11:11.
Dec 18, 2017
Dec 18, 2017 at 1:04 PM UTC
Every night I look up to the sky
wondering if you see me
I talk with my face to space
wondering if you hear me
Every night I look at the stars
looking for the brightest one
because I know that that's you
you will always shine the brightest
Every night I ask you if you're alright
you deserve to be
because you did well
and you work hard
you deserve to know that
Every night I tell you that you're worth it
that you fought so well
and that I will never leave your side
because you're not alone
Every night I ask myself
why it still hurts so much
this aching pain inside my heart
no matter what I do
it isn't fading
Every night the tears stream down my face
while listening to your beautiful songs
Breath, Lonely, End of a Day
they all say how you really felt
Every night I feel sorry
that I couldn't erase your pain
I'm sorry that I wasn't there for you
even when you screamed for help in your songs
we still didn't hear it
Every night I realise
you made me happy
you made we laugh
even though you were in pain
you still made me smile
Every night I wonder
if you're finally at peace now
no more tears, no more pain
just happiness and love
Every night I thank you
for the beautiful memories
and for the meaningful songs you left behind
I will treasure it forever
Every night I hope that you're looking down
watching over us
looking back at the beautiful memories you made here
with your members, family, friends and fans
And every night I tell you that I love you
I love you Jonghyun-ah
Aug 26, 2018
Aug 26, 2018 at 1:38 PM UTC
"Jonghyun, a star that shined brightly on stage for 10 years,
now a star of the sky".
I think the words are beautiful, but I don't think they're enough.
Dec 19, 2017
Dec 19, 2017 at 9:53 PM UTC
Today
is the day,
the day that
you died.
Carbon monoxide
and
Suicide
was what
they said.
I miss you,
still love you,
will remember you,
and sing
the songs
you made.
I sang,
a final good bye
to the stars
and to the sky
where you're sleeping
Thank you
for saving me
with your
smile
music
laugh
persona
everything.
I owe you.
You did well.
Merci, Jonghyun
Dec 18, 2018
Dec 18, 2018 at 10:52 PM UTC
For Him:
Why
Why do these waves of your memories
crash so harshly on my shore?
I see you smiling
Laughing
Was the pain so much to bear?
Why
Why did you leave me?
It hurts so much just looking at you
At what you once were
At what you are to me.
At what you were to yourself.
Why
Why couldn’t I save you?
You screamed until your throat tore
You cried until your tears refused to flow
You prayed for that moment of freedom
Until your last breath
So why couldn’t I see your desperation sooner?
It’s all my fault
I’m sorry.
I’m so sorry.
I don’t deserve this happiness
This happiness that you never felt
I can’t live with all this pain
But time heals.
One day, long after this
You will be but a fleeting memory
A remembrance of days gone by without care
One day I will stop mourning you
One day I will stop listening to your voice.
One day I will forget you.
It may take a month
A year
A decade
I will let you go
But for now, I’ll hold onto you a little longer
I’ll cry a little harder
I’ll scream a little louder
I’ll live a little fuller
I’ll do this all for you
Because
I love you.
Mar 30, 2018
Mar 30, 2018 at 11:56 AM UTC
goodbyes are hard to say
because we never know when it is our last
your breathy voice whispers
it's last message
"final farewell"--
and before we know it
you've committed to something
that would scar us
your angelic face fade
into death forever
leaving me in bitter tears
because we never treated you right
like a human
seeing you lifeless
a crushed rose with poison
in you wilted stem
tears my heart into broken glass
tunes my words into broken blues
turns my writing into broken poetry
and all i can think about is
my sorrow
i'm speaking for everyone
when i say
i'm sorry that it's our fault
such an angel has left the earth
that you were driven to your pain
leaving us to all cry for you
knowing we would never see you
i speak for everyone when i say
sorry
we love you--
KIM JONGHYUN
Dec 19, 2017
Dec 19, 2017 at 10:35 PM UTC