I.
"gimme love"
joji

II.
"sanctuary"
joji

III.
"glimpse of us"
joji

IV.
"your man"
joji

V.
"like you do"
joji

VI.
"wanted u"
joji

VII.
"i'll see you in 40"
joji

VIII.
"slow dancing in the dark"
joji

IX.
"will he"
joji
[she]

X.
"afterthought"
joji, benee

XI.
"yukon (interlude)"
joji

love a bit
love a bit

you look so good,
look so good,

the eyes relay to the mind

i remember the night it was supposed to snow
you called me on the phone
and we stayed up all night exchanging our thoughts as we waited for the first flake to drop
some nights i miss your voice and the times you’d call me in the middle of the night drunk at a bar just to see how i was doing
i could smell the liquor through the phone
i wish i’d let you kiss me that night but for some reason i didn’t let you
we drove all around in the night and i showed you my old house where i lived for not too long
you kept trying to make me laugh so you wouldn’t come off too strong
you told me about how your brother died
and i tried you keep you from crying
you kept grasping my fingers when silence fell in my car windows and started every sentence with my name
we went back and forth about the tragedies in our lives but didn’t play the blame game
we smoked a little bit and i parked my car not too far from where you slept
i wonder if that night is something that you kept
not with you always but from time to time
you kissed my cheek goodnight and called me the next morning
i can’t say i miss you
i wish we could’ve stayed friends
i think i should apologize
it’s always good to make amends
or maybe not
farewell urban

think I'm gonna cry soon

good thing i got some tissues

wishing you were here now

yea i known got some issues

but the tears just keep on falling
because i know you won't be calling
its just about accepting fate now
'round u the world just aint revolving
     so big, i feel so small in
  still so heavily involved in
 crazy how we get ****** into problems
when they're just not worth all the falling

n i don't know what to do to help
wishing it could be somebody else
who deals with these constant struggles
that my mind inflicts upon itself

another day another dollar
some more sad sounds
tho why i bother-
  entertaining all my demons
cant give an answer
cause id stutter

  been lost in all the madness
and cant keep track of all the sadness
i guess I'm crying for a reason
but outta no where it just happens

freak of nature
creature of habit
i try to change me
theres too much damage
look for another, easy solution
guess i just need, another bandage

then ill look as if I'm good as new
till the pain inside starts seeping thru

I listen to Joji
on repeat
while I wait for the train
I don't know if it is your words
Or the night
That keeps reminding me
of the time we  
danced in Subway
With your arms around me
Now I am cold
Now your arms embrace
Someone else
All I am left with is your lingering smell
from your jacket
I am no one to you
I am no one to you at least now
And nothing hurts more
than realizing you never loved me
the way I did
even though I was someone to you.

I listen to your problems, which touch soul to heart for years
I still wake up, hearing your laugh
Days later
Weeks later
Months Later
Seeing your smile in your eyes
Seeing your music in your words
Seeing your art through eye/s
I still draw thinking of how elegant your lips would kiss
I still listen to that elegant lofi music, thinking of how you'd cry
I listen to joji thinking about smiling, hugs, and you

You.
Smiling.

You.
Crying.

You.
Loving.



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