I am a hard
person to love but
when I love,
I love really hard.

When I love hard
Though its hard to confess
But I end up being close to where you are
Every night is so cold
Cause I want to be close to where you are

I smile,
I try,
but the truth is...I want to die

We play mind games
We play ping pong
Forgeting that we are one,
We love ourselves but still do the opposite

You don't want me,
you don't need me,
you don't remember me,
and that kills me....

*Now that it seems that we are two edge lines.
The pain has only sharpen me
Of course no pain no gain!!!

Tuhade bin sannu sohneya koi hor ni labhna,

Tuhade naal hi saddi rooh nu sukoon milna.

Tussi saddi jaan ** mahiya,

Pyaar kardi haa tuhanu inna saara.

Aawe tuhanu jado hichki,

Tuhadi jaan tuhanu yaad kardi.

Har vele har dua ch tuhanu yaad karde,

Har janam tussi hi milo ohi mangde.

Saat janam ki assi hazaar janam lave,

Bs sadde utte sirf tujhada haq hove.

Warna koi Zindagi na mile sannu jide ch tussi na **,

Tuhado baajo hor nahiyo chahida koi,

Ye mahiya har janam sirf tuhadi layi hoyi.

Saddi har peedh da ilaaj tussi hi ne,

Rooh muskandi saddi jado tussi muskande.

Sadde har nakhde tussi hi jhel sakde,

Har duavan ch sirf tuhanu assi mangde.

Jeho tussi khayal rakhde ** sadda,

Tuhadi rooh da karun mai sajda.

Ankhiyan ch ankhaa paake jado dekhde,

Chand di Chandni hi hi feeki dasde.

Inni khubsurat hai rooh tuhadi,

Dil jeda saaf tey saccha utey mardi.

Sab tou sohna sohneya mileya mainu,

Jachde ** tussi hi jaan Meri sannu.

TO JACOB IYINOLU OYEDIRAN
Father to all, disciplinarian
Humble and down to earth
Loving and caring
Full of ideas and surprises
Hardworking and creative
True example of a role model
Didn’t realize his role model nature
Till the moment I started behaving like him
Believes solely in truth
In which he induce on all his children
Unfathomable religious nature
Which has always been his strength and refuge
He is indeed a role model
Conclusively I am OYEDIRAN
Yours sincerely jide

akhiyan taras gaiyan
Ve tainu vekhan nu
Mera fukke kaalja ve
Teri galwakdi  nu

Khaure kehre des geya
Jitho ve murhda nahi
Aardassa karda
Nitt peer manauna aa

Tere deedar di taang rehndi
he menu majajne
pata nai kithe kho gaye ** tuci
pata nai kithe chale gaye ** tuci

har pase thuhanu labda rehnda ha
har choore wali nu eh soch ke dekhda ha
ki shyad thuhada chehra dekhan nu mil jawe
par sirf iko cheez mildi he
mayuusi

menu pata *** thuhanu
koi farak nai penda mere to
menu eh bi pata ki *** thuhanu
mere mare te bi koi fark ni pena
dukh hi sale ewe de dite ne me

par me sach kaha
thuhade samne ni anda ***
bus jo bi he
ethe likhda rahunga
shyad kade thuhanu read karn da time mil jawe

sala likhde likhde akhan wich paani a gea

ena jajbati pata nai kad to ban gea me

but eh agg bujan nai deni me kade
eh tadap kade mukkan nai deni me kade

thuhuhanu hasda dekhan lai
thuhade samne bi na awanga me

kush reho te ghar basao apna
te us bande nu bi kush rakheo
jide naal *** ** tuci

I can see.
Flood of tears streaming down your delicate face.
Your rosy life replaced by a topsy turvy one faught with failure.
Filled with disappointments that have deprived you of precious sleep.
Laden with bouts of miscarriages and recurring rounds of ailments.

I can hear;
The deep groans you utter in your anguish.
The whimper you wish to suppress every time the belt of your supposed better half touches you.
The deep breaths you take before going into the doctors office,
And the bitter cry when you are tagged unfruitful by your mother in law.

Nwa nnem.
Jide Chukwu Ike.
Move away from that bottle and make your way towards His temple.

With a little belief, approach His temple.
With a little strength, kneel at His feet.
With a genuine heart, thank Him for the times of plenty.
With a sincere heart, pour out your heart in prayers.
With a determined resolve, make a vow or seed offering to Him.

Naught more I can say.
Much more He can do.

For He is Jehovah overdo.
Surprising Sarah with a child in her old age.
Granting Esther favour in the sight of her peoples overlords
Using a little boy in David to bring victory to his nation.

Just believe auntie.
All will be well uncle.
He shall fight for you and you will hold your peace.
#BASHORUN

It's not that I'm making excuses
For the days that I messed up
Not that I want to be cut some slack
For the horrible things that I've done

Though I must tell you
There's a lot than you know
The moments behind the scenes
That birthed the themes you see
That makes you upset
Go wild and make
You feel that I don't deserve a thing

The stories behind
The mood swings
The character flaws
And sudden outbursts of anger

It's hard for me to explain
But I was behind bars
Before I went there.
That dark cold floor
That locked door

shushes and hushes
Of don't tell mummy and Daddy
Do you know my cry?
Do you know the sentences
I had to carry in those,
hidden moments

Once sentient
Became forever dead
Ice cold and broke
If placed in a mold
He wouldn't fit

Uncle Salisu
Aunty Aaliyah
Broda Jide
Sister Uche

Did I tell you that Monday
As I walked down the path to school
The cold shivers that ran down my spine
It was not in the bush
It was not under the dark stairwell

In plane sight
All eyes were watching
But still nobody could see
The hidden moments
Where peach became squash

Beaten out of shape
Confined to the shades
The forever dark places
With no aim
There was no one to blame
Nobody knew so ?

Jide nAl gal kitte bina
Din nai langda c,
Una nu das dau ki
Oh ajj bi yaad andi he