I wouldn't be surprised if my eyes were out of tears,
I've seen so much heart ache the last 21 years,
And still here I stand with a smile on my face,
I figure to grow bitter would be such a waste,
Of the beautiful gift my mom and dad gave me,
I hold all the power so I'll use it to save me,
And try as I might sometimes I still get down,
I know the flip side of a smile is a frown,
So I take the bad with the good and remain thankful,
Training this mind to see chaos as tranquil,
With a soul full of hope I have to carry on,
And try to make an inpact before my time is gone,
It hasn't all been good but its all been worth it,
Sometimes wisdom looks like pain on the surface,
Coming to place where you can't handle anymore,
Just shows you your strength and what you can endure,
And so far thats everything because I haven't broken yet,
I wish somethings didn't happen but I have no regrets,
Because the price of pain is knowledge gained,
Like a homeless man begging for change,
Self diagnosed insane because I didn't know my mental,
I think the best thing to do is let this stress make me gentle.

I love you dad.

I scream to you

scream right to your face

and I wanna be true

and put you in place.


But maybe when I scream

is when you can't hear me

and just to dream

about finally being free

I had hope
and I wished
for us  both.
But I now realized
that even if your feelings
are real
and my are too,
your words of me
are cold as ice.
And though we laugh
with true sheer joy
there is a line you will not cross
I would never doubt to do it
but you will not budge.
I love you with my whole heart
and I can see why it's not
the same for you,
but at least be straigh
and tell me
how you feel.
You know my life is hard
but you don't know
what inpact you
had on me.
Don't make it harder
than it already is.