"iniciated" poems
You never understood why I called you a friend. It's not like you were there for me.
I was never there for you either.
We're both unhappy people, I think that was our connection. We rarely spoke.
Just a slight nod when we'd catch each other out for a smoke.
I liked you though. You had a smile that was pleasant, though I knew it was fake.
It's hard to lie with bruises on your face.
I saw you at the store Friday. You walked right by, maybe you didn't notice me.
Maybe I should have iniciated the hi.
We should go out sometime but I'd never ask. Maybe some day I'll gather the nerve.
We could go to the museum on park and sixth. Who am I kidding that will never happen.
I'm the weird guy on the block. Frail with thin hair and a small ****
But my heart is big and that's what matters right?
We talked again, an awkward hi. I asked if you were alright between the sniffles of your cries.
You smiled and said yes, it's just been a long day.
With my hand on you shoulder I said its ok. I'm leaving she said, going far away.
You won't see me again I'm going today.
She was gone that night But not by car or by plane. It was an ambulance, she ended her pain.
Feb 17, 2012
Feb 17, 2012 at 9:37 AM UTC
; and you iniciated it.
you found your way
and you meant it.
I understood
with the immediate
connection of our eyes
and the composure of your face
that you were really here
in front of me
Without permission
and without validation
we both cried in joy
at the same time,
hugging
I'm dreaming,
I know it.
crying deeper
Intensely in love
with arrising sorrow
My dream
delivered a moment
that I will value
like the love we
deserved
I stopped questioning,
and looked into your
eyes again
before returning to
your embrace,
Because I wasn't going
to waste this
regardless of the reality
of it.
I love you.
I irrationally and intensely love you.
Mar 7, 2018
Mar 7, 2018 at 8:45 PM UTC