"ingnored" poems
Alone
alone next to you
my insides screaming
notice me senpai
Anxious to reach out
reach
stretch
While you ignore me
Your whole Ora screams at me
screams you deserve this
To be ingnored
on a spiritual level
Anxious
Doesn't always show
dramatically, no
sometimes
Oh sometimes
I scream on the inside
I cry
Ripping at the wallpaper of my mind
Unlike you
I wish I could
So easily
Switch off.
Stitch off
switch off
switch off
so easily
I can't
I know I can't
Yet I want
and I yearn
Another creative torture
For my mind
my mind
this thing inside
My heart
it really has strings
I feel them pulling
Me apart, that is
I could almost laugh
Silly silly.
But I don't
I think
It's the worst medicine
Really
thinking, that is
it's the worst
For most it's helpful
For me, it's a *****
I almost laughed again
as I dig my mind-hole
Deeper
Deeper still
how deep into my mind might I dig...
Deeper still
Some people sleep deep
I dig
Deeper still
as deep as my endless mind.
Apr 13, 2018
Apr 13, 2018 at 2:39 PM UTC
She held my hand and showed
Me her husbands thorny past.
As in you can still find patches of
Green with sharp pointy canyons
Between what seperates life and reality.
She stuck with the hopes of using lady bug magic
To clear the bugs off of a less then perfect flower.
It worked because her judgement ingnored the first
Fragrance of spring. Though still winter she gets always gets
Ready for a new start in spring. So she will be ready to sing
All over the wishing well and look through the wooden frame
To picture how we hold hands in a public garden
On a gravel path packed in with every foot step.
Jan 24, 2014
Jan 24, 2014 at 6:06 AM UTC
Realizing my doubt
Is not your fault
Someone long ago realized
There is a monster in my rib cage
Eating at my heart
And I have always ingnored it
Even from the start
Steadfastly believed
I have always been happy
But sometging must have changed
And now I know
its not the way you say my name
(This still breathes the way it did)
Or the way you kiss me
(You still put fire in my veins)
Or the way you look at me
(My heart still stops)
But instead its growing up
And realizing somethings always been wrong
That the chemical switches in my brain
Have all developed misfires
And that monster in my chest
Has broken through its cage
Is now in my mind
And the fact of it is
I probably need help
Jul 14, 2016
Jul 14, 2016 at 9:30 AM UTC