"infectiousness" poems - Hello Poetry

You've said and I'd have to agree I'm selfish, *Because I refuse to let you do anything to me,* Selfish ...... *Why because I refuse to spread wide & let you **** me then leave? You've expressed to others how* Selfish *I can be, because I wont give in to your deceit, I refuse to allow you any sympathy when it comes to your fuckery your an infectiousness diseases...* Selfish *cause I wont be subdued with all the lies and ways you mistreat me, all the game playing, trying to scheme fake me out, while you try to make me lay out my cards, ya stupid cheat, Selfish because I've told you* I Wasn't Ready *I'm calling your bluff, Your not so tough, Ya sort of funny papi Your always trying to knock me, wishing to cause havoc and bring me down again.* Selfish *huh really? I'm so* Selfish *because I'll put my children all of them before you, I've placed my walls back up wont allow you to climb em I've changed my mind more than once it's cause of something you've done...* *You've got me rethinking being up on this pedal-stool & I'd rather you stop shaking it so I can get down but you'd rather see me fall. It's* Selfish *of me- right cause I'd rather not have to fight, I don't like being put down, Specially ya small jabs about my mental the many excuses you've come to make time and time again You've dismissed my past and all the bad that's trapped me, You make fun of me for having PTSD & D.I.D. You've said and I'd have to agree I'm* Selfish *cause I don't want to do this, I don't need another man's to abuse, or for you to use and beat me I'd rather be* selfish *then to take care of another drunk or man with any type of addiction, even if you're addictions me. I'll be* selfish *While I guard all that's dear to me You've already deliberately tried to cause me so much pain dressed it up and called it love but I wasn't fool to your game.* Selfish *huh? Is it because, I didn't let you in well not as much as you'd like me to, Naw papi it's because You can't just pop into my life then try to take it over.* **SORRY MOTHER ****** *You can't mistreatment and abuse me than bring me flowers cards or candy, You can't rock my body then dismissively treat me like I'm worthless.... But it's me whose so ******* Selfish. *I've said it long ago Oh how he thinks I'm* "His Type" *Well that's not true because baby you've made it so **** clear that I'm nothing. Besides a ***** a **** & a **** A ***** even though You've apologized each and every time those words left your lips, not right away but you've done it & I refuse to forgive you over and over each time you've repeated ya crimes...* *No way could I allow you back because you showed you'd do it again and again, and if BIG ******* IF, if I allowed it which I wont- not anymore and never again its because you've said it right and if you cant remember well baby I'll help you out its because I'm* SELFISH! *Always Me Ayeshah ™ ® K.A.C.L.N © All right reserved ® Copyright 1977 - Present*

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Nov 16, 2014

Nov 16, 2014 at 10:20 AM UTC

Ayeshah

SELFISH!!!

You've said and I'd have to agree I'm selfish, *Because I refuse to let you do anything to me,* Selfish ...... *Why because I refuse to spread wide & let you **** me then leave? You've expressed to others how* Selfish *I can be, because I wont give in to your deceit, I refuse to allow you any sympathy when it comes to your fuckery your an infectiousness diseases...* Selfish *cause I wont be subdued with all the lies and ways you mistreat me, all the game playing, trying to scheme fake me out, while you try to make me lay out my cards, ya stupid cheat, Selfish because I've told you* I Wasn't Ready *I'm calling your bluff, Your not so tough, Ya sort of funny papi Your always trying to knock me, wishing to cause havoc and bring me down again.* Selfish *huh really? I'm so* Selfish *because I'll put my children all of them before you, I've placed my walls back up wont allow you to climb em I've changed my mind more than once it's cause of something you've done...* *You've got me rethinking being up on this pedal-stool & I'd rather you stop shaking it so I can get down but you'd rather see me fall. It's* Selfish *of me- right cause I'd rather not have to fight, I don't like being put down, Specially ya small jabs about my mental the many excuses you've come to make time and time again You've dismissed my past and all the bad that's trapped me, You make fun of me for having PTSD & D.I.D. You've said and I'd have to agree I'm* Selfish *cause I don't want to do this, I don't need another man's to abuse, or for you to use and beat me I'd rather be* selfish *then to take care of another drunk or man with any type of addiction, even if you're addictions me. I'll be* selfish *While I guard all that's dear to me You've already deliberately tried to cause me so much pain dressed it up and called it love but I wasn't fool to your game.* Selfish *huh? Is it because, I didn't let you in well not as much as you'd like me to, Naw papi it's because You can't just pop into my life then try to take it over.* **SORRY MOTHER ****** *You can't mistreatment and abuse me than bring me flowers cards or candy, You can't rock my body then dismissively treat me like I'm worthless.... But it's me whose so ******* Selfish. *I've said it long ago Oh how he thinks I'm* "His Type" *Well that's not true because baby you've made it so **** clear that I'm nothing. Besides a ***** a **** & a **** A ***** even though You've apologized each and every time those words left your lips, not right away but you've done it & I refuse to forgive you over and over each time you've repeated ya crimes...* *No way could I allow you back because you showed you'd do it again and again, and if BIG ******* IF, if I allowed it which I wont- not anymore and never again its because you've said it right and if you cant remember well baby I'll help you out its because I'm* SELFISH! *Always Me Ayeshah ™ ® K.A.C.L.N © All right reserved ® Copyright 1977 - Present*

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Man, there's a cold dark corner in my room, your voice calls out when I'm curled up there on the dank musty floor, it speaks to me; I'm coming for you. I hold to the voiceful melody of your softly spoken sounds as you drown out the drone of negativity and the past men who lied when they said they'd always love me... His'aholic. As I lie on my bed in the fetal position, eyes closed hoping you'll walk in, lift me onto your lap cradled me in that protective way only you're able to give me, feel your fingers caress me. Too many times I find I walk in a stupor from the loving you gave. Gosh it feels so long ago and my needs wrecking my senses once more can you do to me what you did last time, just once more & I'll let it be. I'm feigning... My dystonia is you- every time you come around I get what I'll call His'aholic, uncontainable, uncontrollable movements and twitches twerking if need be, just to get intoxicated one more time of off you, like the excitement a kleptomaniac gets or the levels of high a shopaholic feels my dopamine fired up every time you do what you do to me Him'aholic, His'aholic, Your'aholic my infectiousness habits, sweats & hot flashes- Man because of what you do, mentally I'm gone, once you take root in my veins, in my lungs, I forget all that's wrong with the world, all those problems from my past I no longer see any of those things. It's a made up word, less you count when Kelly Price used Him'aholic for her album title. Different meaning in His'aholic, different in Your'aholic too, but that's a bit more personal and much more deep, it a thing where well forget I said anything hehehe. I make up my own words in referencing to anything about you. Man, I'm jonesing, longing and yearning oh please oh please note the oh please- I'm begging you! Your the unusual "drug" addiction I need to feed on, You got me craving, shamefully shaking with it, longing and in a dazed- hazy blur. Because of you I'm a mindless puppet, my strings once connected to you are torn. The music doesn't sound right, the dance ain't got he same rhythm, I feel sick when I can't have you feel upside down, when I ain't got my fix. I got it bad & all I want is you say what you want but just know I got a illness there's only one cure for His'aholic & it's you! Always Me Ayeshah ® Copyright 1977 - Present © K.A.C.L.N © All right reserved ®

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Jan 25, 2014

Jan 25, 2014 at 4:44 AM UTC

Ayeshah

Him'aholic, His'aholic( The Addiction)

Man, there's a cold dark corner in my room, your voice calls out when I'm curled up there on the dank musty floor, it speaks to me; I'm coming for you. I hold to the voiceful melody of your softly spoken sounds as you drown out the drone of negativity and the past men who lied when they said they'd always love me... His'aholic. As I lie on my bed in the fetal position, eyes closed hoping you'll walk in, lift me onto your lap cradled me in that protective way only you're able to give me, feel your fingers caress me. Too many times I find I walk in a stupor from the loving you gave. Gosh it feels so long ago and my needs wrecking my senses once more can you do to me what you did last time, just once more & I'll let it be. I'm feigning... My dystonia is you- every time you come around I get what I'll call His'aholic, uncontainable, uncontrollable movements and twitches twerking if need be, just to get intoxicated one more time of off you, like the excitement a kleptomaniac gets or the levels of high a shopaholic feels my dopamine fired up every time you do what you do to me Him'aholic, His'aholic, Your'aholic my infectiousness habits, sweats & hot flashes- Man because of what you do, mentally I'm gone, once you take root in my veins, in my lungs, I forget all that's wrong with the world, all those problems from my past I no longer see any of those things. It's a made up word, less you count when Kelly Price used Him'aholic for her album title. Different meaning in His'aholic, different in Your'aholic too, but that's a bit more personal and much more deep, it a thing where well forget I said anything hehehe. I make up my own words in referencing to anything about you. Man, I'm jonesing, longing and yearning oh please oh please note the oh please- I'm begging you! Your the unusual "drug" addiction I need to feed on, You got me craving, shamefully shaking with it, longing and in a dazed- hazy blur. Because of you I'm a mindless puppet, my strings once connected to you are torn. The music doesn't sound right, the dance ain't got he same rhythm, I feel sick when I can't have you feel upside down, when I ain't got my fix. I got it bad & all I want is you say what you want but just know I got a illness there's only one cure for His'aholic & it's you! Always Me Ayeshah ® Copyright 1977 - Present © K.A.C.L.N © All right reserved ®

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No mixed Metaphors involved But our Twisted actions dissolve Into undesirable Daydreams We, inept Bedroom playthings Our conspicuous Smokings And Ridiculous sayings Now as dryer sheets We cling To Consciousness Hand-holds to Simple infectiousness Our molecular Communication of listlessness In life, alight, Foot-falls in an empty forest Our comprehendible Topics list lost Sea-saws and Gravity laws A dependable Action with no tire traction And a Lack of retention For the liquor You spill from your mouth EXTENSION Hello? Hello. Someone has to Do The things We say we do The legitimacy of My call Never came Through. Or maybe you Never picked up in the first place I know you never Try Like your Conspiracies To Trace The red Line Up to the Top of the charts Elevated Above average Sweet, and Then **** Rolling thunder Inspires art And breaks my Bones And my Bread In Zeus' Bed.

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Sep 8, 2014

Sep 8, 2014 at 3:09 PM UTC

fiona-michelle-harris

Cha Cha

No mixed Metaphors involved But our Twisted actions dissolve Into undesirable Daydreams We, inept Bedroom playthings Our conspicuous Smokings And Ridiculous sayings Now as dryer sheets We cling To Consciousness Hand-holds to Simple infectiousness Our molecular Communication of listlessness In life, alight, Foot-falls in an empty forest Our comprehendible Topics list lost Sea-saws and Gravity laws A dependable Action with no tire traction And a Lack of retention For the liquor You spill from your mouth EXTENSION Hello? Hello. Someone has to Do The things We say we do The legitimacy of My call Never came Through. Or maybe you Never picked up in the first place I know you never Try Like your Conspiracies To Trace The red Line Up to the Top of the charts Elevated Above average Sweet, and Then **** Rolling thunder Inspires art And breaks my Bones And my Bread In Zeus' Bed.

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