"incompetently" poems
Today I saw you as you.
I saw everything about you.
I studied you.
I attempted to understand you.
I shift my eyes away from yours
diverting them to your ears
the ears that listened to my incessant cries
and heard my foolish fears
I move down to your mouth
which spoke to me only kind words
and also incompetently mimic the chirping
Of Abyssinian lovebirds
I scan over your honey-olive arm
and the smoothness of your skin
which, for warmth, among other things
I seek refuge in
I hung my head earthward
giving attention to your feet
the ones that brought you far and wide
just to let us meet
You call my name.
I glance back up and look you in the eye
those eyes were now blank and cold
I could not see you anymore, but I still try.
Aug 14, 2014
Aug 14, 2014 at 1:50 PM UTC
In the stands the crowds cheer,
It's what they do best.
And in class the professor lectures,
About the greatness expected for every test.
And at home the parents preach,
About the wrong that shouldn't be done.
And outside the officers enforce,
With their hands firmly on their guns.
But nobody ever teaches you,
How to handle the disappointed faces.
When you've gone down your own path.
Leaving the rest still in their braces.
Nobody ever tells you,
That the disappointment is rough.
That handling what can't be handled,
Is nonsensically tough.
So here I am to write it.
In hopes that it will be read.
In fragment whims of lyrical rhymes,
Incompetently attempting to ease the dread.
Take these words and conquer.
Take them as weapons like swords.
So when they judge and cast their mockery.
Your arsenal of protection is what wards.
Let you be safe and sound during the fight.
And walk unbothered by those with selfish plight.
And journey till you reach the destination of choice,
Where freedom rings in the form of your own voice.
Feb 15, 2013
Feb 15, 2013 at 8:31 PM UTC
I long
like
something plush weeping
into a pillowed hug
of empty oxygen
though I try the Brave Game,
(and usually win)
flakes of me run
off my arms and face
and scrounge around the corners of the room
looking for your mellow sting.
supposedly,
“heartache”
is figurative.
But I definitely feel
a s t r e t c h i n g
mush
right where
the Doctors say my heart
should probably be
a slight tremor
( echoes )
through every joint
of my toy frame,
like a thousand elfin voices talking
about your favorite foods,
and the color of your hugs.
the tightening
muscles of my throat
send their regards to your
amicable eyes
2.5 is a smallish bird
when one observes
the blue expanse of my ocean life
but it pecks my most tender tissues
when I sit [flat] inside Today.
I miss
like
someone resized my skin
incompetently.
though I am grateful
for your delicate absence
(the elusive Good deserves you most)
I feel as if
the petty bird’s wing tensions
won’t be satisfied
with the look of my dappled shoulders
till you stroke them densely
with your matter-of-fact fingers.
Nov 12, 2013
Nov 12, 2013 at 6:19 PM UTC
Tedious tattered tracks
cast aside and cliched.
Freeze the frame
upon the lapsed remnants
of yesteryear's past.
Various voyages traversed,
infusing history,
instilling wisdom.
Inattentive iris,
incompetently fail to grasp,
the weary beauty
of the veteraned tracks.
Nov 20, 2013
Nov 20, 2013 at 1:31 AM UTC
The first time you are told
That you are beautiful
You will not believe it
You will swallow it down harshly
Like a glass of ethanol
Force a mona lisa smile on your unknowing face
And say thank you
Say it like it's something you're used to hearing
Like it actually means something
Like it doesn't hurt as much as it does
Compliments aren't supposed to hurt
But you were taught them backhanded
Raised on anticipation
Expecting to feel a sting after every one you're given
Conditioned to regard praise as unfamiliar
As foreign territory
Body only knowing warzone
And battlefield
Not knowing genuine
Body was never taught how to be loved
How to love
You were too busy trying to learn to love men with rough hands and heavy breath
Too busy giving away parts of you in hopes of getting something back
And what was left over never felt like enough
Felt hollow
Felt maybe you were never meant to feel like you are important
Or desirable
Or anything for that matter
So the next time you are called pretty
Or something of the kind
You will have mastered the art of acceptance
Will have memorized the routine
Will be able to swallow it down faster
Quicker
Will know how to bury it deep inside of you
Yet still bare a vacant hole underneath all of that skin
You were told at a young age
That there was too much of it
That nobody could ever love thick
That they only want thin
When he tells you that you're body is flower and stem
Is garden
Is beauty
Is something to be admired
You will feel the same kind of longing
You have felt so many times before
A kind of homesickness
For a body that has never quite felt like home
Too many residents have attempted to tear it down
Have set it aflame
Have tried to burn you to the ground
It takes someone who treats you well
To realize how incompetently the rest did
It takes someone with intentions of gold
To realize that the rest were just rust
Flattery may not be a language
That you will ever fully comprehend
But it will always be one that is
Unavoidable
You will learn to nod your head
Learn to agree with a cause you might never truly believe in
Might as well accept the inevitable
So when you are told
That you are beautiful
Do everything in your power
To hide your disbelief
Your skepticism
Your complete disregard towards them
Your inability to understand how anyone could ever possibly love something like you
When you are told
That you are worthy
Do your best
To smile
And make it seem like you already know
Like you have known it
For a very
Long time.
Jul 3, 2014
Jul 3, 2014 at 10:34 PM UTC
Unpredictable and often occasional
there are abrupt, viscous spells -
asphyxiating, grim, austere -
when you incompetently beseech
rather
ineptly squeeze
the unmoored mind -
vagrant, erratic, blind -
to somehow concoct a reasonable rhyme
in which you could artfully arrange -
this-a-way-that-a-way -
unwarranted, disfigured, discolored
bunch of rogue thoughts.
But the mental friction does not sanction
the end to this sluggish, incongruous trend.
Towards the end, some patchy amends are all you can dispense
to a taunting and tipsy
blob
of trivial poetry.
Dec 4, 2019
Dec 4, 2019 at 10:37 PM UTC