"incautious" poems
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Before I got my eye put out
I liked as well to see—
As other Creatures, that have Eyes
And know no other way—
But were it told to me—Today—
That I might have the sky
For mine—I tell you that my Heart
Would split, for size of me—
The Meadows—mine—
The Mountains—mine—
All Forests—Stintless Stars—
As much of Noon as I could take
Between my finite eyes—
The Motions of the Dipping Birds—
The Morning’s Amber Road—
For mine—to look at when I liked—
The News would strike me dead—
So safer—guess—with just my soul
Upon the Window pane—
Where other Creatures put their eyes—
Incautious—of the Sun—
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I will never be the same again.
But truly who ever was I?
The foundation never formed,
All there ever was – is mourning.
Died then revived.
Died and revived once again.
Continuously digging myself up from the grave.
A wraith amongst the dead,
I cannot rest because I have never truly lived.
Necromancy upon my soul,
A constant yearning to finally be whole.
A body covered in dirt and scars.
Yet I am determined to make it beautiful.
A heart full of spite, yet bursting with love.
An incautious desire to one day be enough.
I refuse to rest until I experience what real, safe human touch feels like.
Place a hand upon my sulphuric body.
I was once so afraid but now I am begging.
Please take it away, please tell me I am not *****
I suppressed it all but now I'm overflowing.
I care not who you are, please just love me.
Lay me down amongst the green.
Put all your limbs on top of me.
Make imprints upon this rotten flesh,
until I can finally feel clean.
A body barren and hollow,
A body that only knows shame.
My bones are coated in it,
Words spewing it,
Tears pouring with it.
All I am is shame.
She used to smile so innocently when she was young.
With a laugh like a howling winds great bellow.
She would fantasise about her first love, I let her down.
Now I am screaming, snarling, spitting.
Resenting a world that I was foolish to trust.
Drive a stake through my heart,
I ask of you to wish me peaceful rest.
Hopefully this time I will not rise again.
Banished.
Jun 7, 2023
Jun 7, 2023 at 4:43 PM UTC
Hail the hero’s, too few many
Hail the boy who strikes a blow,
Hail the one who sticks his neck out
Risking life for nought to show.
Countermand the armed offender
Sheild the maiden’s breast from knife,
Bare the heart for chance to take
This brave young soul’s incautious life.
Blow the trumpet’s scarlet fanfare
Wave the flags for all to see
Heroism’s rare exposure...
Praise this man for what he be!
Marshalg
Victoria Park Tunnel
11 January 2011
Jan 10, 2011
Jan 10, 2011 at 3:03 PM UTC
the vivisectionist comes to call
when I am separated from you
his palsied incautious hands
removing the hours from my body
one
at
a
time
dragging his dull rusted scalpel
across my psyche
in his leaden deliberate pace
whistling
tunelessly
monotonously
in my ear
he will have no truck
with anesthetic
I am bathed
in the sanguine gore
of his butchery
which others mistake
for sadness
Apr 14, 2019
Apr 14, 2019 at 7:37 PM UTC
The suns rays hit your eyes.
Creatures staring in and the heartless staring out.
Incautious of the blinding sun.
Oblivion,
Oh we meet again.
Deeper and darker we go, into oblivion.
I feel dark blue as memories mesh and horrors unfold,
Right before my very eyes.
Blue, blue tides.
So many emotions floating around within my inner conscience.
Blue being the color you see
Before your lungs collapse,
And your eyes roll into the back of your skull.
Injustice to the best of us as we are wither away in inescapable oblivion.
Apr 12, 2016
Apr 12, 2016 at 1:27 AM UTC
For Marshall Gebbie
*in June, with sun dispatched to somewhere else,
a steaming mug, adds to the clouds of gloom but,
dissipates the summer chill, that seems colder than its
winter chill counterpart, since it is contraindicated,
here, where, it’s summer and everybody’s inside, hiding,
for all the irrational reasons, the news, reports so earnestly
you send me a poem of incautious beauty, of a moment re-warmed,
desire, recalled, rekindling a past so well remembered that it edges
me off that chill, and I wonder how timing is in always everything,
the rear view mirror concept somehow a predictive tool,
cause we never saw it all, but just right, plenty enough, and
when old men muse, the risk of self- ruse is always lurking about
remembering how it was, how we wanted it to be, how we’re
sure that we too were there, or at least near, almost certainly,
was it a thousand poems ago, or B.P, (before poetry), when
actions were louder, preferable to words, life, charging neurons,
by the billions, so we have those storages, celled memories,
so that the poems of then, come back so easily, framed in our memory,*
in the glorious, stunning heated colorings of pleasure
June 5,
2:35pm
Shelter Island
Jun 5, 2020
Jun 5, 2020 at 4:35 PM UTC
he
glowing,
burning;
she,
aloof,
satirical;
he,
bound for adventure;
she,
mored to the shore;
he,
launched,
incautious;
she,
solitary,
left out - and,
ready to implore a share,
his disaster,
May 25, 2015
May 25, 2015 at 10:34 AM UTC
I'm glad it was her not you tonight.
I am sure the speaking of literature and film
would have gone differently if it had been
you in my space.
Looking at my things and analyzing my habits
making assessments of my mannerisms.
If it had been you, I'm sure
I may have done something incautious and perhaps
callous,
the kind of thing you come from dreams saying
perhaps the invitation should
have been lost on
maybes and could have beens.
I suppose it's unkind to think,
If one or the other just did not exist
it would make this plight much different
not better
just different.
Jan 12, 2014
Jan 12, 2014 at 12:40 AM UTC
*Do you hear me?
Come closer
Let the wind whisper something,
Something mournful*
I'm paralyzed,
But I can still breathe and blink
"What do you see?"
Gleam, just light
The heat of the bullet,
The warmth in my head
The pain in my heart
Why it feels like frigid?
Am I holding something?
I can't remember anything
Few minutes left
*Do you hear me?
Come closer
I have something to say*
It's a part of my bucket list,
Yet I'm afraid anyway
More than death or quietus
*Let the wind whisper something,
Something ballistic*
I'm tired,
But still I want to fight
"What do you want?"
Calmness, Love and Silence
I want to sleep
Let my blood be the design,
To my unpainted affection
Before I accept my incautious decision
Few seconds left
*Do you still hear me?
Come closer please
If the wind blows harder,
I want you to know that I'm shouting something
Something surreptitious*
Get my gun out off my hand
Then get me a good pillow and a neat blanket
"What do you want to say?"
Goodnight my lo...
Mar 13, 2015
Mar 13, 2015 at 2:43 AM UTC
I brought myself to this horrendous decade
Darkness all over the esplanade
Nothing heard, I hear nothing said
Apart from the terror with which I’m being fed
Shakingly,tears running,I have committed internal homicide
My soul destroyed, again it needs to be purified
Disturbia,
Its simple,its the disease in my mind
Disturbia,
My faith lost,left for me to find
Disturbia,
Scared to my bones,what might occur? No time for me to rewind
My whole life in my hands ruined
All my decisions incautious,my doing
Hunting me is my disturbia ,my feeling of rueing
By its hands of evil,yes i have been varied
My superiors guidance forgotten, buried
I fear for me,I am greatly worried
Disturbia,
The chaos,my creation, i cant escape
Disturbia,
My perfect world crushed, now i have to scrape
Disturbia,
Undefined torture in its unbearable state
When shall i awake from this nightmare
The series of darkness all around me, truely near
I’m searching for thee to make my life illuminate
Out of havoc so purity can accentuate
My reality gradually has become a travia
But now its time , departure for me is the end of my disturbia.
Feb 16, 2018
Feb 16, 2018 at 7:37 AM UTC