"ihad" poems
iNever Been iN A Relationship With A Human Being.
Only With My Drug,
Crystal ****
IConsidered iT My Lover.
My Baby, My World My Everything. iFell inlove With A Substance,
Felt So Real.
Created A Strong Bond
That Seemed unbreakable We Were unseperable.
This Stimulant Kept Me Away From Reality And Everything in it.
Blocked Me
From Having An Actual Boyfriend and Catching
True Loving Feeling.
iWas Blinded By These False Euphoric Feelings.
A Rush Like iF ive Accomplished A Hundred Things.
iWas Concentrated And Focused On Getting High And
Just living The Addict life.
That iHad No intrest At 16 Towards Boys or having a love life.
My Mind Was Just Set On The Streets And Dope Game,
Riskful Missions And Hanging With Friends. Guys Would Holler,
But id Give No interest.
Just Me And My Drug iS All That Mattered.
Throughout My 3rd Time iN Rehab, My Neighbor Would Call.
A Guy Friend.
Daily Conversations, Laughs And giggls, something so rare and unexperienced.
As iBegan To Recover & Emotions Started To Untie,
iBegan To Feel Some Strange feelings ive never experienced 1st hand.
Once iGraduated My program. We Communicated More,
I liked This, i liked him.
Was Hard To believe that after all he knew about me?
He was into me to.
My supporter, My Friend This Guy Became My 1st Boyfriend <3
041314
Sep 19, 2014
Sep 19, 2014 at 9:52 AM UTC
I was made to love
And i was sure it had to be you
But seems like i was tricked
And you were too
You leave it alone
You're already over me
I'm so desperate to move on
I fall in love with whoever i see
I've been so stupid
Almost lost my innocence
In a ******* forrest
I thought ihad a better taste..
Right now i wouldn't mind dying
I comvince myself i'm happy
But why can't i just face that i'm not?
Beacuse i wanna move on and be all jumpy
Oct 6, 2014
Oct 6, 2014 at 1:55 PM UTC
holding back , holding in the worried words.
imaginary tension of the brain.
What is the worst thing that can happen , that i can not deal with.
Turn this leaf .
Spring takes no prisoners, expansion is implosion - breath - explosion.
I WISH IHAD THE WORDS TO BE SO ELOQUENT AND EXPLIN HOW I AM
IN CONCISE MANNER
WHO IS SO IMPORTANT THAT I MUST BE ME
WHERE DOES THIS PATH LEAD?
WHY MUST THERE BE A MAZE?
WHAT?
Hold onto your heart.
Apr 26, 2014
Apr 26, 2014 at 1:02 PM UTC
I thought he liked me, I thought he really cared. After I saw him with her,my feelings were thrown to the edge.
My heart was slowly being ripped apart and the tears were running down my face the hope that I had for him was slowly shriveling away
I couldn't be angry with him because he was happier than before. I told myself I should leave his life but the love ihad for him flooded my eyes and I really hoped that he would be mine
Sep 6, 2014
Sep 6, 2014 at 12:00 PM UTC