Celery

Such a simple thing
But so complicated

Does it add weight?
Or take it?

Sort of like bacteria
Is it good for us?
or bad?
idrk

i don't really know why i miss you so ******* much.
i don't really know why you are all i ever ******* think about.
i don't really know why it still hurts.
i don't really know why i still love you.
i don't really know why i still care about you.
i don't really know why i still want you.

i should hate you.
you broke my heart,
you ******* tore me apart.

i think i'll always love and think about you,
regardless of how much it hurts.

I apologize,
I’ve been dreaming
Hopeless, helpless, defeated.

Close my eyes
Kept breathing but still felt empty.
Airless,
Breathless,
But never friendless.

I can’t wake up,
Holy ****.

Filling up my cup,
It just isn’t enough.

Anymore.

I need love, need care, need to lay my heart
Bare.

Hopeful, wakeful, joyous,
Emotions scarcely known to me

Yet still I stand,
A person broken down to their very beginnings,
Powerful am I, and powerful are my insecurities.

For I am me,
Hopeless, yet undefeated.
Or
Defeated, yet hopeful.

here is the thing.
I have you. I wanted you for a while. But now that she's here.
it's difficult.
she's great.
but
she won't defend me.
she doesn't show affection.
I sound ungrateful, I know
she lets me be hurt by the ones that don't love her.
I can't even deal with myself anymore.
so how can anyone else?
she still yearns for the love of her past lovers
she says "I need you"
"I miss you"
"luv u"
"gn"
:(
"I look for you in every girl I talk with"
*******.
I gave you everything.
ambition
attention
breaks
boosters
credit
congratulat­ions
Danishes, your favorite
determination
energy
efficiency
flowers
forgiveness
grac­e
gold
hugs
hundreds of homemade gifts
isolation
information
jokes
jams
kisses
kinetic sand, for fidgeting
love letters
leisure
myself
memories
nestling dolls
notes
openness
opal
prizes
praise
questions
quick texts back
rest
remedies
smiles
serenity
treasures
time
undivided attention
unconditional love
variety
videos
worlds of creation
worlds of destruction
X's
Xenial
yarn for your cats
yummy food and drink
Zen
Zealous
and you couldn't even make me a card.