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Pimple popping Lathered deodorant Awkward tampons Hair in unwanted places Drunken nights Failed hangover cures Flunked classes Broken hearts First kisses and first times Rebounds Hookups Hickeys Rushes of frustration These are all unglamorous occasions Of a not so florescent Adolescence
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Jun 18, 2014
Jun 18, 2014 at 3:06 PM UTC
A Not So Florescent Adolescence
The internet and the electronic gadgets are now creating the new wave of infidelity, did you notice the anomalies in the way things are turning out. Hookups made easy, knowing me knowing you friendships, easy dating and cheating.com, wives and husband cheating on themselves, Social media is the only best place to live your fake dream full of lies like the deepfakes movies. No more true friendship, nothing real but a pretense paradise. Always uncomfortable but rather deal with another from a distance. You don't exist even when together in same room. Always closer to the stars than to you. You are ignored but chat with someone so far away. You seem to be happier talking to someone you never met and hardly know, telling all your private secrets to an unknown person claiming to be a true close friend while the one you grew up with now becomes a friendenemy, never to be trusted. Electronic friendship has killed our generation, destroyed the foundation of true relationship. Fake lifestyle, flaunting fake wealth, gossiping about fake not-so-sure news. Infidelity has become the new social norm accessible and accepted around the world. No true commitment, so much fraud and drama displayed. The young men and women are going berserk, their uncontrollable pesky ways leading them in all manner of immorality and all kinds of trouble. But there's still some sort of good in it. Is this a part of a new world order? Maybe, I don't know.   ©2018,Emeka Mokeme. All Rights Reserved.
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Sep 26, 2018
Sep 26, 2018 at 2:31 PM UTC
NEW WAYS
The internet and the electronic gadgets are now creating the new wave of infidelity, did you notice the anomalies in the way things are turning out. Hookups made easy, knowing me knowing you friendships, easy dating and cheating.com, wives and husband cheating on themselves, Social media is the only best place to live your fake dream full of lies like the deepfakes movies. No more true friendship, nothing real but a pretense paradise. Always uncomfortable but rather deal with another from a distance. You don't exist even when together in same room. Always closer to the stars than to you. You are ignored but chat with someone so far away. You seem to be happier talking to someone you never met and hardly know, telling all your private secrets to an unknown person claiming to be a true close friend while the one you grew up with now becomes a friendenemy, never to be trusted. Electronic friendship has killed our generation, destroyed the foundation of true relationship. Fake lifestyle, flaunting fake wealth, gossiping about fake not-so-sure news. Infidelity has become the new social norm accessible and accepted around the world. No true commitment, so much fraud and drama displayed. The young men and women are going berserk, their uncontrollable pesky ways leading them in all manner of immorality and all kinds of trouble. But there's still some sort of good in it. Is this a part of a new world order? Maybe, I don't know.   ©2018,Emeka Mokeme. All Rights Reserved.
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An airplane crashes into an uncharted island and hundreds of people die in the burning debris, and somewhere a group of boys and girls are taking selfies as they stand next to a burning office building. Thousands of teenagers sit on the couch and eat ice cream until the buttons on their pants explode off. Kids light themselves on fires as if they were monks from the Tiananmen Square, trying to gain acceptance, their dreams of stardom translated through a series of YouTube comments. We can't afford books for college because the tuition is ridiculous, but these glossy tabloid magazines are only a few bucks; pick one to set the course of your life. Middle-aged people spend their lives indoors, away from the thirsty, hungry, withering children, and check how many likes did their photos receive on their smartphones. Pornographic images in front of our tired faces, our eyes locked to the screen and we do not blink as our memories become embedded with objectification. So we don't look up and see the chaos transpiring. Cat memes and colorful gifs hold our attention while our parents slave away at their boomerang-shaped desks, trapped in clustered cubicles. I saw a post on Facebook of a girl who was sexually assaulted at a house party and now her name was being hashtagged and kids were posing in photographs, laying on the floor, legs and arms sprawled out, left and right, trying to mimic the injustice. We swipe right to find our future hookups, but what if our future husbands and wives were on the left?   Society spends millions of dollars on drinks to numb our conscience, until our brain cells are wretched like the homeless guy on the street corner drinking liquor from a coffee mug. Israel and Palestine battle each other day after day while our generation gossips about Solange Knowles beating up Jay-Z with her patent leather purse as if that news conquers every other bit of information out there. The world will always be corrupt, but it suffers more from the apathy that belongs to us.
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Jun 24, 2016
Jun 24, 2016 at 7:56 PM UTC
Clean each cell with a rag
An airplane crashes into an uncharted island and hundreds of people die in the burning debris, and somewhere a group of boys and girls are taking selfies as they stand next to a burning office building. Thousands of teenagers sit on the couch and eat ice cream until the buttons on their pants explode off. Kids light themselves on fires as if they were monks from the Tiananmen Square, trying to gain acceptance, their dreams of stardom translated through a series of YouTube comments. We can't afford books for college because the tuition is ridiculous, but these glossy tabloid magazines are only a few bucks; pick one to set the course of your life. Middle-aged people spend their lives indoors, away from the thirsty, hungry, withering children, and check how many likes did their photos receive on their smartphones. Pornographic images in front of our tired faces, our eyes locked to the screen and we do not blink as our memories become embedded with objectification. So we don't look up and see the chaos transpiring. Cat memes and colorful gifs hold our attention while our parents slave away at their boomerang-shaped desks, trapped in clustered cubicles. I saw a post on Facebook of a girl who was sexually assaulted at a house party and now her name was being hashtagged and kids were posing in photographs, laying on the floor, legs and arms sprawled out, left and right, trying to mimic the injustice. We swipe right to find our future hookups, but what if our future husbands and wives were on the left?   Society spends millions of dollars on drinks to numb our conscience, until our brain cells are wretched like the homeless guy on the street corner drinking liquor from a coffee mug. Israel and Palestine battle each other day after day while our generation gossips about Solange Knowles beating up Jay-Z with her patent leather purse as if that news conquers every other bit of information out there. The world will always be corrupt, but it suffers more from the apathy that belongs to us.
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I think I understand hookups and one-night stands now. The key to moving on is to replace all that stood before until there stands nothing that may cause you to unravel. Moment by moment, conversation by conversation,   I replace the replays, I can't bear the thought of another touching me, like I'm not yours. I got another ring today, all big and loose. It's funny how I picked this one, it keeps slipping off my fingers like you did. It's been two months since I last wore your ring. I don't see a difference between them, it feels the same on my thumb. and that should be the end of it, but oh well, I guess it isn't. I walked to the grocery store, paused at an aisle, took my time frowning over chocolate bars. You used to get me Munch, and so I picked the Mars bar. I don't skip meals now, (well, most days I don't) and in place of our routine conversations, I play a random show. I drown noise with noise. My days are decent. I'm surrounded by mindless jibber jabber. I participate. I paste a bright smile. “You look well now,” they say, “Well, I am” I reply. And I am fine. (I think I am?) 9/10 times I am. Then in a random mundane moment, memories of you resurface like a ring light and in that single moment, I let myself crumble. “I don't want him back. He's changed now. So have you and so what? If it's meant to be, it'll be. He's the love of my life. Well don't let him in, when (not if) he comes back. Do it from love, not for it. You deserve happiness. Both of you do. You want love. You are love. The ocean doesn't look for its water, Why will you look for what you have? It is what it is. and this too shall pass.” So on and so forth my inner monologue goes on, and I stare at my phone wondering if I can conjure you from my thoughts. I am kinder now. With myself, and everyone around. I wish I were kinder to you, but I was just a child. I know you're proud, and I am of you too. Do you think I can sculpt my favourite version of you? Wait, no. I already did that, I loved all of you and then everything fell apart. My thoughts swirl and I let them play. Incantations in my head Obligatory 3 am, weary sighs, contempt and rage. Oh, so much rage. Where is the calming lull of sleep, when you need it to sedate your despair? Resignation sets in, I play a familiar game. I ask the universe and unbiasedly it delivers the same day. "Universe, give me a sign, I'm really done this time. Yellow flowers if he's coming back, Dandelions if he's not. Universe let me move on. This is the last time, " In my version of He loves me, he loves me not I break flowers, not petals. I look for answers in colours and not action, And then I saw a dozen Dandelions.
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Jan 17, 2024
Jan 17, 2024 at 4:40 PM UTC
Sunflowers and Chrysanthemums
I think I understand hookups and one-night stands now. The key to moving on is to replace all that stood before until there stands nothing that may cause you to unravel. Moment by moment, conversation by conversation,   I replace the replays, I can't bear the thought of another touching me, like I'm not yours. I got another ring today, all big and loose. It's funny how I picked this one, it keeps slipping off my fingers like you did. It's been two months since I last wore your ring. I don't see a difference between them, it feels the same on my thumb. and that should be the end of it, but oh well, I guess it isn't. I walked to the grocery store, paused at an aisle, took my time frowning over chocolate bars. You used to get me Munch, and so I picked the Mars bar. I don't skip meals now, (well, most days I don't) and in place of our routine conversations, I play a random show. I drown noise with noise. My days are decent. I'm surrounded by mindless jibber jabber. I participate. I paste a bright smile. “You look well now,” they say, “Well, I am” I reply. And I am fine. (I think I am?) 9/10 times I am. Then in a random mundane moment, memories of you resurface like a ring light and in that single moment, I let myself crumble. “I don't want him back. He's changed now. So have you and so what? If it's meant to be, it'll be. He's the love of my life. Well don't let him in, when (not if) he comes back. Do it from love, not for it. You deserve happiness. Both of you do. You want love. You are love. The ocean doesn't look for its water, Why will you look for what you have? It is what it is. and this too shall pass.” So on and so forth my inner monologue goes on, and I stare at my phone wondering if I can conjure you from my thoughts. I am kinder now. With myself, and everyone around. I wish I were kinder to you, but I was just a child. I know you're proud, and I am of you too. Do you think I can sculpt my favourite version of you? Wait, no. I already did that, I loved all of you and then everything fell apart. My thoughts swirl and I let them play. Incantations in my head Obligatory 3 am, weary sighs, contempt and rage. Oh, so much rage. Where is the calming lull of sleep, when you need it to sedate your despair? Resignation sets in, I play a familiar game. I ask the universe and unbiasedly it delivers the same day. "Universe, give me a sign, I'm really done this time. Yellow flowers if he's coming back, Dandelions if he's not. Universe let me move on. This is the last time, " In my version of He loves me, he loves me not I break flowers, not petals. I look for answers in colours and not action, And then I saw a dozen Dandelions.
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I don't want a relationship been hurt one too many times so if I just want hookups and *** why am I called a **** because in reality I am just vulnerable
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Mar 11, 2014
Mar 11, 2014 at 3:00 PM UTC
****
To 2016: I'd love to say that I hated you, but to be honest, you made me grow. You gave me direction. You pulled me out of a 4 month long rock bottom depression, showed me what I wanted to do in my life and sent me on my way. You gave me two semesters of college, and a decision. You gave me my first teaching experience, and you taught me the true value of patience. You brought some new friends into my life and reunited me with old ones. You also got rid of a few, but I trust that's for the best. You explained to me how easily I can be used. You showed me that relationships don't define me, and that even if I think I am in love, life goes on and that I am an independent woman. You blessed me with a baby, and then you took it away. But within that you gave me hope. You sent me through hookups, drunken texts, hospital trips, gallons of tears and two D&Cs.; You helped me on my wavering journey in my walk with God. You led me to being Baptized and you gave me the one chance in my life to feel that I was my family's priority.   You taught me that it's okay to not always have the answer to everything, including the question of "who are you?". You taught me to accept the word queer and make it my own. Like a beautiful pair of glasses, this is how I see the world. You taught me the value of family after my dads accident, and then again after the baby. And even after all the drama, fights, murders, and injustices, 2016, you taught me that a bad year isn't always a bad as we make it seem, and that even on our darkest days, there is a lesson to be learned. And to 2016: Thank you.
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Dec 17, 2016
Dec 17, 2016 at 3:57 PM UTC
2016
To 2016: I'd love to say that I hated you, but to be honest, you made me grow. You gave me direction. You pulled me out of a 4 month long rock bottom depression, showed me what I wanted to do in my life and sent me on my way. You gave me two semesters of college, and a decision. You gave me my first teaching experience, and you taught me the true value of patience. You brought some new friends into my life and reunited me with old ones. You also got rid of a few, but I trust that's for the best. You explained to me how easily I can be used. You showed me that relationships don't define me, and that even if I think I am in love, life goes on and that I am an independent woman. You blessed me with a baby, and then you took it away. But within that you gave me hope. You sent me through hookups, drunken texts, hospital trips, gallons of tears and two D&Cs.; You helped me on my wavering journey in my walk with God. You led me to being Baptized and you gave me the one chance in my life to feel that I was my family's priority.   You taught me that it's okay to not always have the answer to everything, including the question of "who are you?". You taught me to accept the word queer and make it my own. Like a beautiful pair of glasses, this is how I see the world. You taught me the value of family after my dads accident, and then again after the baby. And even after all the drama, fights, murders, and injustices, 2016, you taught me that a bad year isn't always a bad as we make it seem, and that even on our darkest days, there is a lesson to be learned. And to 2016: Thank you.
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I'm sick I'm sick of every filter I'm sick of fake photographers I'm sick of fake philosophers and Instagram pornographers I'm sick of the fake feminists who don't understand the movement I'm sick of fake politicians who make no ******* improvements I'm sick of all the favorites I'm sick of all the likes I'm sick of ******* tinder causing cheating every night I'm sick of ******* eyebrows like who ******* cares when did we become so obsessed with ******* forehead hair I'm sick of religion I'm sorry but it's true it's caused so much division in our red white and blue I'm sick of trump supporters who never read the news they want to close our borders but don't understand the ruse I'm sick of fake people who pretend for us all cover their old selves in diesel didn't hesitate or stall I'm sick of Caitlin Jenner she/he whatever isn't noble committed ******* manslaughter yet still remains boastful I'm sick of post it note relationships that last for three weeks it's not a ******* battleship just make the proper tweaks I'm sick of all these hookups it's become a culture all of these pickups initiated by the vultures I'm sick of everyone caring about what celebrities wear I'm sick of overbearing hate that never ever spares I'm sick of all the judgment of how a person looks I'm sick of everyone watching YouTube trading it for books I'm sick of all this money that we will never see I'm sick of never knowing what I'm supposed to do I'm sick of schooling never showing how to live our lives through I'm sick of all this debt that I'll be paying until my death Im sick of feeling like our society is ******* but most of all I'm really sick that this list has applied to me too.
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Feb 17, 2016
Feb 17, 2016 at 11:11 AM UTC
I'm Sick
I'm sick I'm sick of every filter I'm sick of fake photographers I'm sick of fake philosophers and Instagram pornographers I'm sick of the fake feminists who don't understand the movement I'm sick of fake politicians who make no ******* improvements I'm sick of all the favorites I'm sick of all the likes I'm sick of ******* tinder causing cheating every night I'm sick of ******* eyebrows like who ******* cares when did we become so obsessed with ******* forehead hair I'm sick of religion I'm sorry but it's true it's caused so much division in our red white and blue I'm sick of trump supporters who never read the news they want to close our borders but don't understand the ruse I'm sick of fake people who pretend for us all cover their old selves in diesel didn't hesitate or stall I'm sick of Caitlin Jenner she/he whatever isn't noble committed ******* manslaughter yet still remains boastful I'm sick of post it note relationships that last for three weeks it's not a ******* battleship just make the proper tweaks I'm sick of all these hookups it's become a culture all of these pickups initiated by the vultures I'm sick of everyone caring about what celebrities wear I'm sick of overbearing hate that never ever spares I'm sick of all the judgment of how a person looks I'm sick of everyone watching YouTube trading it for books I'm sick of all this money that we will never see I'm sick of never knowing what I'm supposed to do I'm sick of schooling never showing how to live our lives through I'm sick of all this debt that I'll be paying until my death Im sick of feeling like our society is ******* but most of all I'm really sick that this list has applied to me too.
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I wrote this after reading a poem about fake people off Facebook. All is not fair in love when you got to research dudes secret desires and **** like that. The real dudes want you to be real and not be head game queen to get him. I'm a real man who spent time seeking women in all the wrong places. Tried real life met my share of God faring GCB ****** droppers giving it up. Met ones at bars who drink to much, will do you but blame it all on ***** I've met plenty of fake women seeking to get at what I have using *** methods. Met many raised thinking marrying a rich man is better than a poor one. If all the women claiming they want a decent guy were real they would find one. Met some at malls wearing rings but bored with husbands and Facebook is a hunting ground for lonely women and housewives like the ones off Craigslist placing ads. Did some knowing they married ones weren't keepers they forgot they were married not me. Who thinks about a wedding ring when married women come on to you and you find ****  what you see in profile pics and think you can't have it then BAM. Husbands aren't the only ones placing ads and setting up hookups off net. If you think I'm a scumbag what about the lonely married women who flirt, tease and ****** in chat and phone tempting you until you feel you gotta take it to real. What about the young ones using bodies and *** to get a nice life and a ring on it. Most of the young ones don't look at the man as desirable but are good at fake *** Met a woman who got dumped by plenty of men and faked a pregnancy to get a married man. After she got him to leave his wife, kids and home she had to fake a miscarriage to keep from being dumped by the millionth man.
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Nov 25, 2013
Nov 25, 2013 at 4:30 AM UTC
more truth about women
I wrote this after reading a poem about fake people off Facebook. All is not fair in love when you got to research dudes secret desires and **** like that. The real dudes want you to be real and not be head game queen to get him. I'm a real man who spent time seeking women in all the wrong places. Tried real life met my share of God faring GCB ****** droppers giving it up. Met ones at bars who drink to much, will do you but blame it all on ***** I've met plenty of fake women seeking to get at what I have using *** methods. Met many raised thinking marrying a rich man is better than a poor one. If all the women claiming they want a decent guy were real they would find one. Met some at malls wearing rings but bored with husbands and Facebook is a hunting ground for lonely women and housewives like the ones off Craigslist placing ads. Did some knowing they married ones weren't keepers they forgot they were married not me. Who thinks about a wedding ring when married women come on to you and you find ****  what you see in profile pics and think you can't have it then BAM. Husbands aren't the only ones placing ads and setting up hookups off net. If you think I'm a scumbag what about the lonely married women who flirt, tease and ****** in chat and phone tempting you until you feel you gotta take it to real. What about the young ones using bodies and *** to get a nice life and a ring on it. Most of the young ones don't look at the man as desirable but are good at fake *** Met a woman who got dumped by plenty of men and faked a pregnancy to get a married man. After she got him to leave his wife, kids and home she had to fake a miscarriage to keep from being dumped by the millionth man.
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Craving affection never got me to far. A tongue down your throat isn't a hand on your heart. Pushing out your ***** won't make them see the real you. They don't get to see, and feel, and love what you do. To the hookups we'll never see again, It's only a matter of time that I break what you continue to bend. I don't want to wake up, To regrets and judgment, Shut up! Will I ever find some one who wants me for real? I won't find out because I don't even want to feel. When will I learn? I don't need to break and burn.
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Jan 9, 2015
Jan 9, 2015 at 12:18 AM UTC
Break Me
Kinesiology is the new brain surgery Preferential treatment A Martyr for your sugar gene Cat fights Bud lights Hookups and straightened hair This is the new Jesus Wouldn't you know It's the jocks and the nerds again Over and over until you've lost all your friends To a horrible incident where you decided to be free This is why you will always Be better than me Projectile ***** Thesis on emesis I am so green I am peridot and coriander Caring about what they think Watching all the popular shows Does and stags Waving flags Pre-packaged beliefs Artificial older sister Looking down your nose You are so humble You are so polite It's the other person's fault When you get in a fight But most of all You aren't racist You aren't racist There's no way you're a racist
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Mar 29, 2012
Mar 29, 2012 at 4:34 PM UTC
Eye Haight
1.) Waking up alone Saturday morning means not having to get breakfast hung-over for anyone but yourself. 2.) Cleaning your room is optional. 3.) Books are so much better at pillow talk. 4.) Taking the stairs will do more wonders for your body than elevator hookups ever will. 5.) It is a blessing to have no one but yourself to debate with over Netflix selections on a Sunday afternoon. 6.) Choosing true friendship over a hasty ****** will always be the best decision. 7.) Music provokes the heart when you’re with someone, but provokes the soul when you’re not. 8.) Crying over things other than men gives you a better understanding of life’s meaning. 9.) Sometimes you discover things you thought were lost forever when searching long and hard for your key, because without it you have no where else to sleep. 10.) Contrary to the hand of another, a pen will not let go.
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Feb 12, 2013
Feb 12, 2013 at 9:26 PM UTC
10 Things I’ve learned so far during relationship hiatus:
After all was said and done He wrapped himself around me In a tightly formed question mark The answer to which I yet do not know I spent the night tossing in confusion His midnight kisses further puzzling my thoughts A random hookup wasn't this to be? No feelings No attachments No anything Wasn't that the unsaid plan? Then why did I feel this growing fondness For a boy I barely knew Whose one and only connection to me Were the stupid investments our fathers had made Why did I want to hold him back? Kiss his cheeks with the same gentleness he showed me When the plan was always a physical one? This monthly ritual of his I succumbed to My mind overthrown by multiple questions While my body gave to him every part of me I could Until on a lonely Friday my eyes opened The metaphors I had discovered Now lay dead around me The reality lying startlingly naked ahead of me It was not care that brought him close It was not any symbol of love he saw A woman's body is all he acknowledged My soul never receiving the gratification it dreamed for There were no metaphors to this story No hidden secrets waiting to be discovered Just a girl who hoped for more Settling for a boy couldn't ever see more Than her naked waist The tickle of moving hair The flutter of her lips in ecstasy The sigh in her heart as he moved away
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Feb 10, 2017
Feb 10, 2017 at 10:42 AM UTC
Hookups
It's been a while since we last spoke, 3 years to be precise, but who's counting anyway, not me. Definitely not me. By the way I unfriended you on facebook, I figured it's about time, I mean after 3 years of radio silence, a long term girlfriend for you, and a series of unsuccessful hookups for me, I figured it's about time I gave up the illusion of being friends with you. Every now and then I look you up, and thanks to your disregard for security and privacy settings, I stalk you, and her. She seems nice, positive, bubbly, committed to all the right causes, I cannot really find any reason to dislike her. Shame. Perhaps if I said yes the second time round, or the third, perhaps if we hadn't been so young and had another go, perhaps if you said yes, when I eventually felt so, we'll never know.
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Jan 15, 2017
Jan 15, 2017 at 5:00 PM UTC
Unfriended, but...
Speedy data transfer vine indexed in junk DNA Instantanious communication no possibility of delay? Holo-fractal hookups. Is everyone on the line? or are we listen--ing too slow are our ears to big to tell ack from nak, yes from no The solution? maybe Quantum time! Just one eternal grandfather clock with only a TIC, never a TOC delays maybe caused by reneade gyres like intestellar, "slowdown feller" invisible, swirls, with gushing spires. E-fracting for minutes, hours, years decades, eons, epics and more. As pools of whirls slow, there appear open doors. but The locks are no where to be found The keys? All scattered on the floor. What is that, hissing sound?
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Nov 21, 2014
Nov 21, 2014 at 5:55 PM UTC
Connection, Time? Out?
We were at a club in Paris called L’Arc. It’s an outdoor club (spring break plus covid safety) that’s underneath the Arc de Triomphe. It’s 10PM and we’re coming from a night tour of the Louvre. The night sky was clear and it was 65°f. I was with my posse of (3) roommates and two guardiennes (provided by my Grandmère) who travel with us at all times. The man chatting me up was as hot as middle-school but honestly, it was hard to fake an interest in whatever he was saying. Was my ½ interest going to ruin us - this thing we’d shared for 5 minutes? No, he seemed to say, our connection was stronger than that. Finally, I focused on his WORDS. It was hard because the music was so loud. Hey, this is off-topic but who’s your favorite French band? You don’t HAVE one, do you? No, because they ALL positively felate. It turns out that he was a tiger - inviting me home for a respectfully quiet banging session - because he lived with his mother. I reacted like any college freshman would at first by thinking I was about to be sick. Don’t flag me as antisex (If we’re flagging), I like a joystick now and then. They’re cute and like dogs, they’re always glad to see you. But the idea was disgustingly retro - my parent dodging days are over. Besides, our (roommate) agreement for this trip ostensibly forbids random hookups and did I mention our two escorts in tow? I kept my cool. After all, we had another tray of shooters coming - staying put was clearly the right decision. He took my semi-blank reaction for the rejection it was and disappeared back into the crowd. C'est la vie
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Mar 23, 2022
Mar 23, 2022 at 12:33 PM UTC
He was hot
We were at a club in Paris called L’Arc. It’s an outdoor club (spring break plus covid safety) that’s underneath the Arc de Triomphe. It’s 10PM and we’re coming from a night tour of the Louvre. The night sky was clear and it was 65°f. I was with my posse of (3) roommates and two guardiennes (provided by my Grandmère) who travel with us at all times. The man chatting me up was as hot as middle-school but honestly, it was hard to fake an interest in whatever he was saying. Was my ½ interest going to ruin us - this thing we’d shared for 5 minutes? No, he seemed to say, our connection was stronger than that. Finally, I focused on his WORDS. It was hard because the music was so loud. Hey, this is off-topic but who’s your favorite French band? You don’t HAVE one, do you? No, because they ALL positively felate. It turns out that he was a tiger - inviting me home for a respectfully quiet banging session - because he lived with his mother. I reacted like any college freshman would at first by thinking I was about to be sick. Don’t flag me as antisex (If we’re flagging), I like a joystick now and then. They’re cute and like dogs, they’re always glad to see you. But the idea was disgustingly retro - my parent dodging days are over. Besides, our (roommate) agreement for this trip ostensibly forbids random hookups and did I mention our two escorts in tow? I kept my cool. After all, we had another tray of shooters coming - staying put was clearly the right decision. He took my semi-blank reaction for the rejection it was and disappeared back into the crowd. C'est la vie
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I'm staring down at my arm holding a knife, It may be only in my head, but I'm balancing my life, Weighing out if it's worth the pain, That I've been dealing with, making me more insane, I've been ******* over so many times, by people who said they cared, Well, maybe it's time I give up and stop trying so hard, Because I've taken all the medications they want to give me, I've done years and years, so much talking in therapy, And still I'm here, contemplating the end of it all, Because there's just so many times you can get up after a fall, And it's a lie when they say you can always dust off your knees, After laying on the ground, getting up and praying for release, Because I've done my time, being miserable and in hurt, And I just want some relief from sitting in the dirt, Someone once told me you can always call me when you don't feel safe, Well I don't want to be a burden, because I'd be calling every day, Because lately I've been feeling down, feeling wrong, About the past and all the things people have done, And yeah, I'm more of a sinner than a saint at the end of the day, But that's just the role that these deeds have cast me in to play, For being abused at such young of an age, And now I hate myself and want to pay, Cosmically, permanently, with a smile on my face, Because it would all be over, I can't keep up this pace, The pills, The thrills, The **** The greed, The hookups, The makeups, The alcohol, The temptation of it all, And everything in between, I want to atone for my deeds, It's a lie when they say you can always dust off your knees, After laying on the ground, getting up and praying for release, Because I've done my time, being miserable and in hurt, And I just want some relief from sitting in the dirt.
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Jun 14, 2019
Jun 14, 2019 at 7:54 PM UTC
Down in the Dirt
I'm staring down at my arm holding a knife, It may be only in my head, but I'm balancing my life, Weighing out if it's worth the pain, That I've been dealing with, making me more insane, I've been ******* over so many times, by people who said they cared, Well, maybe it's time I give up and stop trying so hard, Because I've taken all the medications they want to give me, I've done years and years, so much talking in therapy, And still I'm here, contemplating the end of it all, Because there's just so many times you can get up after a fall, And it's a lie when they say you can always dust off your knees, After laying on the ground, getting up and praying for release, Because I've done my time, being miserable and in hurt, And I just want some relief from sitting in the dirt, Someone once told me you can always call me when you don't feel safe, Well I don't want to be a burden, because I'd be calling every day, Because lately I've been feeling down, feeling wrong, About the past and all the things people have done, And yeah, I'm more of a sinner than a saint at the end of the day, But that's just the role that these deeds have cast me in to play, For being abused at such young of an age, And now I hate myself and want to pay, Cosmically, permanently, with a smile on my face, Because it would all be over, I can't keep up this pace, The pills, The thrills, The **** The greed, The hookups, The makeups, The alcohol, The temptation of it all, And everything in between, I want to atone for my deeds, It's a lie when they say you can always dust off your knees, After laying on the ground, getting up and praying for release, Because I've done my time, being miserable and in hurt, And I just want some relief from sitting in the dirt.
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Daydreamed illusion, A rusted dream in a melted fusion. I am a disillusioned angel, Drop a tear in my wine glass. Look at those wild eyes, Feel the calm fire they cry. See what you mean to me, Sweet cakes and milkshakes. Limousine eyelash, oh baby what a pretty face. A touch of sensuality and a heavenly grace. I am a fantasy parade, Of words that your lips spake. To think about those nights and those hookups, A person meant to only look up. I won't forget you ever, Nor would you, I know. I could hear each of your breath, Wondering how on your head would rest a halo wreath. We are like broken branches flowing in a river, I will carry you, you will carry me.
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Mar 16, 2015
Mar 16, 2015 at 4:24 PM UTC
disillusion
Today I see people who want relationships, but aren't willing to put in the work, to be honest we all have done it. They want the feel of a relationship but not the title, they want to date but have others on the side. Hookups are a must but a date is too much. They send explicit pics saying how much they want it, instead of a message detailing how much they want the person and just them. If the message is sent it's to more than one. They want the *** but not the work, most people nowadays don't care for relationships and it makes me sad especially when you think you have connected with them on a level that is second to none but once they get what they want they are gone.
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Sep 24, 2016
Sep 24, 2016 at 2:22 PM UTC
No Love Just Lust
We met in the midst of dust motes floating around the old chalkboard-classroom of University Hall. You introduced me to Amber – your close friend, I thought – and your thirst for after-tutorial Starbucks between 11:20 and 11:35 a.m. After all, what did it even matter to be five minutes late to class when we will all one day be so; what did it even matter if none of it ever really does when the curtain drops, when the record ends, when the symphony of consciousness rises to a close. So you went for Starbucks, and I walked to lecture alone – vying for that front-row chair so that I might ease the pain in my hips – and watched, noticed you in the months afterward, through red winter parkas and brown spring attire – until we met again in the odorous lab of second-year microbiology, and you drew me into your world of friends, of housemates, of late-night wine and cheese gatherings – until my heart – that soft, useless thing – quickened its beat upon hearing your stories of ex-crushes and Halloween near-hookups with a would-have-being-a-bad-decision girl. You drew me into you, you: an everyday girl, who in my daydreams was hardly so; I latched onto you and pulled myself out of that dark, solitary hole – because you were there, you were there, you were always there. I let myself be swept away by that river of friends, of daydreams, of late-night phone calls about life, the universe, and your complaints about organic chemistry. I turned a blind eye, because the illusion was far better than the solitude, better than watching my life collapse again into that small, small state. I let slide it all: the apathy, the sleep abnormalities, the ****** innuendos, until I texted you a few nights ago, two minutes into a rising panic initiated by the realization that my ex had killed themselves – a discovery that later proved to be untrue – and you replied with laughter and an inability to help. You just don't know; you just don't see that to complain of your ex-girlfriend's low libido is a reflection on you, not her, or even the two of you – so I put down the phone; I ignored the messages for a day, then two, and my world changed, opened anew –   I can live without you.
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Jun 14, 2019
Jun 14, 2019 at 12:42 AM UTC
Rosaline
We met in the midst of dust motes floating around the old chalkboard-classroom of University Hall. You introduced me to Amber – your close friend, I thought – and your thirst for after-tutorial Starbucks between 11:20 and 11:35 a.m. After all, what did it even matter to be five minutes late to class when we will all one day be so; what did it even matter if none of it ever really does when the curtain drops, when the record ends, when the symphony of consciousness rises to a close. So you went for Starbucks, and I walked to lecture alone – vying for that front-row chair so that I might ease the pain in my hips – and watched, noticed you in the months afterward, through red winter parkas and brown spring attire – until we met again in the odorous lab of second-year microbiology, and you drew me into your world of friends, of housemates, of late-night wine and cheese gatherings – until my heart – that soft, useless thing – quickened its beat upon hearing your stories of ex-crushes and Halloween near-hookups with a would-have-being-a-bad-decision girl. You drew me into you, you: an everyday girl, who in my daydreams was hardly so; I latched onto you and pulled myself out of that dark, solitary hole – because you were there, you were there, you were always there. I let myself be swept away by that river of friends, of daydreams, of late-night phone calls about life, the universe, and your complaints about organic chemistry. I turned a blind eye, because the illusion was far better than the solitude, better than watching my life collapse again into that small, small state. I let slide it all: the apathy, the sleep abnormalities, the ****** innuendos, until I texted you a few nights ago, two minutes into a rising panic initiated by the realization that my ex had killed themselves – a discovery that later proved to be untrue – and you replied with laughter and an inability to help. You just don't know; you just don't see that to complain of your ex-girlfriend's low libido is a reflection on you, not her, or even the two of you – so I put down the phone; I ignored the messages for a day, then two, and my world changed, opened anew –   I can live without you.
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Love, we are going to meet on Tinder. or by the sea, in a four 'o clock rain, or maybe while I sat alone at a cafe pretending to write, and you'd come to me and say "Hi, I couldn't help but notice how colorful you are on this grey morning." or something more realistic. We'll laugh a lot, make jokes to seem anything but boring, and initially say a lot of "Um, so..."s to fill the silence. You are going to catch yourself thinking of the brown in my hair, the scent of the side of my neck, my skin in morning light and I am going to memorize the lines on your palms like my favorite song. Darling, we'll kiss on my terrace and talk until, skies turn to drizzle and drizzle, it turns to rain and we would run, and kiss, and laugh, and kiss and burn like bonfire, and the blues and reds from our chaos-painted bodies, will turn into streams of purple, violet, lavender. For a moment somewhere in between, I will glance at your closed eyelids while you kiss me, and wonder if you are here to stay. In just that glance, I'd see dawns, teacups, naps on airplanes, and several days, months, maybe years of quick glances at your closed eyelids. And you, are going to spend days thinking of me at insignificant times, like an old song from an advertisement you thought you forgot. We'll talk, and then not talk and I will write you a poem or two and you will say something like, "I appreciate that." Years after, I'd be reaching for tea in the cabinet and maybe Twinings would remind me of you and I would stir you, in my cup of tea like sugar till you dissolve to nothing. and you will tell another girl of how you haven't been a part of something serious in a while, "just a couple hookups" you'd say and think of me. And all that there will be of us, is an empty terrace somewhere stained purple, violet, lavender.
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Sep 9, 2016
Sep 9, 2016 at 4:43 PM UTC
Purple, Violet, Lavender.
Love, we are going to meet on Tinder. or by the sea, in a four 'o clock rain, or maybe while I sat alone at a cafe pretending to write, and you'd come to me and say "Hi, I couldn't help but notice how colorful you are on this grey morning." or something more realistic. We'll laugh a lot, make jokes to seem anything but boring, and initially say a lot of "Um, so..."s to fill the silence. You are going to catch yourself thinking of the brown in my hair, the scent of the side of my neck, my skin in morning light and I am going to memorize the lines on your palms like my favorite song. Darling, we'll kiss on my terrace and talk until, skies turn to drizzle and drizzle, it turns to rain and we would run, and kiss, and laugh, and kiss and burn like bonfire, and the blues and reds from our chaos-painted bodies, will turn into streams of purple, violet, lavender. For a moment somewhere in between, I will glance at your closed eyelids while you kiss me, and wonder if you are here to stay. In just that glance, I'd see dawns, teacups, naps on airplanes, and several days, months, maybe years of quick glances at your closed eyelids. And you, are going to spend days thinking of me at insignificant times, like an old song from an advertisement you thought you forgot. We'll talk, and then not talk and I will write you a poem or two and you will say something like, "I appreciate that." Years after, I'd be reaching for tea in the cabinet and maybe Twinings would remind me of you and I would stir you, in my cup of tea like sugar till you dissolve to nothing. and you will tell another girl of how you haven't been a part of something serious in a while, "just a couple hookups" you'd say and think of me. And all that there will be of us, is an empty terrace somewhere stained purple, violet, lavender.
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Why is it That creatives like us Gain popularity A following, so to speak, By churning out love poems Lines of our past, often failed Relationships and semi hookups I know I am guilty of this You caught me red-handed But I'm inquiring because Sometimes, the best food for thought Is found in poems, not about love But about failure, success, pity Growth, maturity, lack there of Maybe, indulge me Maybe the best pieces of work Are outside the realm of human intimacy
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Mar 1, 2017
Mar 1, 2017 at 9:39 PM UTC
How Come?
DOES SHE KNOW THAT YOU HATE YOUR DAD BECAUSE HE USED TO USE YOU SO HE COULD GO CHEAT ON YOUR MOM AND DOES SHE KNOW THAT YOU HATE THE SOUND OF SOMEONE CRACKING THEIR KNUCKLES AND DOES SHE KNOW ABOUT YOUR PAST HOOKUPS AND DOES SHE KNOW YOU REGRET NOT SPENDING ENOUGH TIME WITH YOUR GRANDFATHER THAT LIVES IN FLORIDA AND DOES SHE KNOW THAT YOUR FAVORITE THING TO ORDER AT ZAXBY'S IS THE WINGS AND THINGS AND DOES SHE KNOW THAT I WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU SLEPT WITH AND DOES SHE KNOW YOU'LL LEAVE HER WITHOUT SAYING A WORD LIKE YOU LEFT ME?
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Jul 1, 2014
Jul 1, 2014 at 3:44 PM UTC
Does She Know?
Happiness is just a dopamine rush. I find myself doing outlandish things to acquire this feeling. Looking for things that will pump hot adrenaline through my cold veins. But adrenaline does not compare to dopamine, or the phenylethylamines that made me murmur “I love you” as I lay in your arms. If I could just find something that compares to your kiss on my forehead. Neurons firing under the pressure of hot lips. And every time I chase this feeling I fail. I can feel myself being ****** into a downward spiral of rebound hookups and late nights that I can’t seem to remember. It seems as though the only drug my body comes to life for is your penetrating gaze, that dilates my pupils and hands on the small of my back, that send deep pangs of longing into my stomach. Nothing makes me feel more alive than your fingers in my hair and your voice in my ears. A brain consumed by love can be as deadly as one consumed by drugs.
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Apr 4, 2014
Apr 4, 2014 at 12:40 PM UTC
Untitled
you liked my body, yet rejected my mind. I craved conversation, yet you desired touch. I shared my thoughts, yet you shared unsolicited provoking pictures. you wanted secret hookups at midnight, yet denied picnics at noon. and yet, I still thought you were different.
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May 14, 2020
May 14, 2020 at 10:06 PM UTC
yet