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"homeroom" poems
In my homeroom class, we don't have a seating chart. But I still sit as far away from the door as I can. Subconsciously it's probably because of a school shooting. I've been anticipating one to strike at my small high school for a couple years now. It's probably because of a lock down we had a couple years ago when I was still in middle school. There were armed men on campus. We had to be silent for hours. I was in choir at the time. Over 100 of us were squeezed into a small space. There were girls crying, my best friend was holding my hand, I was having an anxiety attack. I was only thinking "Please not today..." I'm not surprised anymore. When another school is in the news, it's deeply upsetting but not surprising. It's all I've ever known. The Columbine High School shooting happened in 2001. I was born a year later. I've never actually known peace in this country...
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Aug 13, 2018
Aug 13, 2018 at 4:25 PM UTC
far from the door
You at least went. so that meant the party could finally be awkward. that's homeroom at your personal Harvard your low self esteem was the head dean [ claimed you had promise ] then promptly vomits but you promised to maim your lollipops with hot topic's most goth night-shade of hemlock iron-on, henna tattoos for your thin lips. like two gates to a birdcage where you keep ravens... pecking the tip of your tongue where your brave words die for lack of oxygen... pecking the flesh off the skeleton key to the heart of your insightful comment,... stymied - a black raven savors the succulent eyes of your hurricanes, so braille maps for blind rage fly off the shelves... fly like led zeppelins to fresh hell. you lose your window seat on the wing of a prayer to Charles Bukowski. now you're scowling a gilded smile at all the Ed Hardlys'... good thing you brought Jello Biafra Shots to the shindig... cubes of gelatinous absinthe each with a sugar box lodged in supermax insecurity prisms... fey emeralds. monochrome rubicons you pop when cross. like wainscoting the panic room that came with a deejay who thinks you're a boy who got lost.
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Jun 5, 2013
Jun 5, 2013 at 7:10 AM UTC
When Shrinking Violets Shrink To Misfit In Doc Martins
Remember the time I thought I liked you But it only lasted a week. Remember the time I cursed for the first time; And it was at you. Remember the time I liked you for an entire year And obsessed over you. Remember the time You teased me everyday. Remember the time We used to take piano from the same woman And I saw you at a lesson one day. Remember the time You told me about the night The black thing came to you, Up your arm. Remember the time We spent backstage Goofing off. Remember the time I wrote about how much I hated you In my diary, Everyday. Remember the time I dated your best friend And you were the obligatory third wheel. Remember the time You threatened to punch me Because I made fun of the girl you liked. Remember the time We spent during choir practice Looking at squirrels through the window. Remember the time You told me "I don't care what homeroom I have, As long as you're not in it." Remember the time The stinkbug kept following your shoes In Spanish class. Remember the time You threw a pinecone at me Because I deserved it. Remember the time We sat together in all our classes. Remember the time I dreamed about you Dying In my front room. Remember the time We Skyped for three hours. Remember the time I beat you up Because I was angry. Remember the time My two best friends started dating Because you finally got up the courage and asked her. Remember the time You told me you wanted to break up with her. Remember the time You stole my Sharpies Until I asked him out. Remember the time You broke up with her And avoided me for a week. Remember the time We spent after school, Studying for Spanish. Remember the time I was scared of you But walked with you, In silence. Remember the time You had a rave in class And asked me to tape it. Remember the time I cut myself And you got mad at me And we spoke even less. Remember the time The algebra teacher threatened to separate us Because we talked too much in class. Remember the time I messaged you And messaged you And you wouldn't answer. Remember the time You and your mum invited me to dinner. Remember the time I saw you for the first time In two months And, despite the same clothes And hair, You looked like a stranger. Remember the time You asked him out for me. Remember the time We Skyped for five minutes And had nothing to say. Remember the time You held my hand all period Because you were cold. Remember the time You told me you were insane And we couldn't be like we used to. Remember the time You told me not to worry, That we were still the same, relationship-wise. Remember the time You told me not to cry But I did. Remember the time You held me while I sobbed, The first time you'd ever seen me cry. Remember the time You assured me you'd be fine. Remember the time I shook while you held my hands. Remember the time You hugged me after class, A week later And I nearly cried of happiness. Remember the times. Do you remember the times? Because it seems all I'm doing these days Is remembering you.
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Sep 26, 2013
Sep 26, 2013 at 6:40 PM UTC
Remember
Remember the time I thought I liked you But it only lasted a week. Remember the time I cursed for the first time; And it was at you. Remember the time I liked you for an entire year And obsessed over you. Remember the time You teased me everyday. Remember the time We used to take piano from the same woman And I saw you at a lesson one day. Remember the time You told me about the night The black thing came to you, Up your arm. Remember the time We spent backstage Goofing off. Remember the time I wrote about how much I hated you In my diary, Everyday. Remember the time I dated your best friend And you were the obligatory third wheel. Remember the time You threatened to punch me Because I made fun of the girl you liked. Remember the time We spent during choir practice Looking at squirrels through the window. Remember the time You told me "I don't care what homeroom I have, As long as you're not in it." Remember the time The stinkbug kept following your shoes In Spanish class. Remember the time You threw a pinecone at me Because I deserved it. Remember the time We sat together in all our classes. Remember the time I dreamed about you Dying In my front room. Remember the time We Skyped for three hours. Remember the time I beat you up Because I was angry. Remember the time My two best friends started dating Because you finally got up the courage and asked her. Remember the time You told me you wanted to break up with her. Remember the time You stole my Sharpies Until I asked him out. Remember the time You broke up with her And avoided me for a week. Remember the time We spent after school, Studying for Spanish. Remember the time I was scared of you But walked with you, In silence. Remember the time You had a rave in class And asked me to tape it. Remember the time I cut myself And you got mad at me And we spoke even less. Remember the time The algebra teacher threatened to separate us Because we talked too much in class. Remember the time I messaged you And messaged you And you wouldn't answer. Remember the time You and your mum invited me to dinner. Remember the time I saw you for the first time In two months And, despite the same clothes And hair, You looked like a stranger. Remember the time You asked him out for me. Remember the time We Skyped for five minutes And had nothing to say. Remember the time You held my hand all period Because you were cold. Remember the time You told me you were insane And we couldn't be like we used to. Remember the time You told me not to worry, That we were still the same, relationship-wise. Remember the time You told me not to cry But I did. Remember the time You held me while I sobbed, The first time you'd ever seen me cry. Remember the time You assured me you'd be fine. Remember the time I shook while you held my hands. Remember the time You hugged me after class, A week later And I nearly cried of happiness. Remember the times. Do you remember the times? Because it seems all I'm doing these days Is remembering you.
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Yes, ear hustlers exist. They at home, at work, and even at church. Instead of concentrating on themselves. They seem to be concentrating on your conversation. What little bit they hear? Has now became a blown up story. With more added details than they ever know. That's how the ear hustling stories goes. One small detail that they came in the middle of has destroyed many relationships. What makes us get involved in things not related to them? Is the oldest question to ever be asked. Ear hustling in school. Ear hustling in the homeroom. Makes you know that many are concern with you. What rumor that is spread? Never has that much truth within it. Maybe a half percentage if at all. Oh, the rumor mill won't ever fade. Some people lives to talk about people they do and don't know.
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Jan 9, 2014
Jan 9, 2014 at 8:21 AM UTC
Ear Hustling
~ *Apathetic city skyline This must be Drum Street There's critical thinking Digital tendencies Pigeons on the roof Kids in the library Hail and flashpoint Homeroom Their final resting place Who of you misses the bleak missiles of youth? And how they used to hit like needles? I can count your sufferings on my fingers See them hidden in the tall grass They move in secret With shadow blister As much as the caterpillar: Elusive and eruciform Sixteen crane wives Collect on the guide wire Their weathered plumage Strangely displayed Airplane debris on an uncharted wild Macabre flowers growing out of air masks, gone quiet The magic word is drear It's a sorrow-filled caw As if feathers from the grave Clothing our fears I can count the flock on my fingers See them separate in mid-flight Each a solitary path Fusing rage and grief Each a solitary path Fusing rage and grief* ~
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Jun 23, 2022
Jun 23, 2022 at 4:08 PM UTC
Birds From Sad Films
She and I exchanged disdainful glances across the parking lot. The verbally brash invitation she gave me at 10:30 two nights earlier from a low-riding car resounded in my brain. She wanted our graduating class to get together and sit awkwardly around a campfire while a few reminisced of homeroom and half days back in high school. And as the last few embers glowed like residence halls, she would clear her throat and bash college. She’d denounce the curriculum, professors, and parking spaces then praise the days of hurrying through carpeted hallways and freshmen traffic. To see our classmates laughing with hands outstretched to the flames would bring a smile to her summer-chapped lips. But we’re no longer classmates. We’re just seventeen people trying to live our lives outside the confines of Galeton High School. Sure, we’ll bite our tongues and fake smiles every now and then, but we’ll never be more than superficial.
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Jun 9, 2014
Jun 9, 2014 at 2:36 PM UTC
We'll Never Be More Than Superficial
Parents are the weirdest - of God's creation. I mean, who on Earth would desire the responsibility of another human being from the time they **** in their pants to the time they leave saying 'what have you ever done for me?' ? Who would, of all the things in the world, like their homeroom stuffed with stupid CDs and stuffed racoons, waterguns and Legos, dried acrylics and miniature utensil sets, ugly pyjamas and strange half-knit sweaters? I need to know why parents don't object to their kids pooping everywhere. It's either the kids are super cute or the parents are super crazy. I'm sure it isn't the former. A certain lack of imaginative faculties, in parents, is evident to me,quite frankly. Think of it this way- if it weren't for us - kids, our parents would have been carefree playboys and playgirls, and 'living their lives' - cliché. What weirdos really! Their standards of children's safety too possess a particular oddity. It's only the exact moment of physical contact during a hug that our parents feel we're safe. Their sense of economy and finance is oxymoronic. They love discounts. But they'll pay extra for whatever their kids wish. I wonder how they resist TV shows of most sorts just because they won't have their kids watch remotely explicit content, visual or auditory. I bet their sense of direction is most unnaturally affected too. Why do they even follow their kids, when they know kids don't have a working GPS? Do you have any idea, to what lengths parents go to make veggies seem delicious? Veggies, Really? Parents will have you take disgusting syrups and painful **** injections, And claim they love you. Parents will have you hit the books, And claim they love you. Parents will ground you because you do something they don't like (but they too did it when they were kids), And claim they love you. Parents will stop you every time you say a swear word (but they swear all the time), And claim they love you. Parents will claim they love you, Maybe, because they really love you. Oh, their weirdness never ends. Parents may seem eccentric, Their ways might seem a bit too bizarre, Maybe that's how the people who really love us behave! Yet, we're always rushing away from them. If you have ever traveled in a bus, you'll know how absurdly keen the passengers are, to get off, when it stops. That's how keen the kids are, to leave the laps of their mothers, quite literally the most comfortable place in the world. Parents really are - the weirdest of God's creation. And the loveliest too.
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Mar 12, 2019
Mar 12, 2019 at 1:31 PM UTC
Parents - The Weirdest of God's Creation
Parents are the weirdest - of God's creation. I mean, who on Earth would desire the responsibility of another human being from the time they **** in their pants to the time they leave saying 'what have you ever done for me?' ? Who would, of all the things in the world, like their homeroom stuffed with stupid CDs and stuffed racoons, waterguns and Legos, dried acrylics and miniature utensil sets, ugly pyjamas and strange half-knit sweaters? I need to know why parents don't object to their kids pooping everywhere. It's either the kids are super cute or the parents are super crazy. I'm sure it isn't the former. A certain lack of imaginative faculties, in parents, is evident to me,quite frankly. Think of it this way- if it weren't for us - kids, our parents would have been carefree playboys and playgirls, and 'living their lives' - cliché. What weirdos really! Their standards of children's safety too possess a particular oddity. It's only the exact moment of physical contact during a hug that our parents feel we're safe. Their sense of economy and finance is oxymoronic. They love discounts. But they'll pay extra for whatever their kids wish. I wonder how they resist TV shows of most sorts just because they won't have their kids watch remotely explicit content, visual or auditory. I bet their sense of direction is most unnaturally affected too. Why do they even follow their kids, when they know kids don't have a working GPS? Do you have any idea, to what lengths parents go to make veggies seem delicious? Veggies, Really? Parents will have you take disgusting syrups and painful **** injections, And claim they love you. Parents will have you hit the books, And claim they love you. Parents will ground you because you do something they don't like (but they too did it when they were kids), And claim they love you. Parents will stop you every time you say a swear word (but they swear all the time), And claim they love you. Parents will claim they love you, Maybe, because they really love you. Oh, their weirdness never ends. Parents may seem eccentric, Their ways might seem a bit too bizarre, Maybe that's how the people who really love us behave! Yet, we're always rushing away from them. If you have ever traveled in a bus, you'll know how absurdly keen the passengers are, to get off, when it stops. That's how keen the kids are, to leave the laps of their mothers, quite literally the most comfortable place in the world. Parents really are - the weirdest of God's creation. And the loveliest too.
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I remember my body trembling as I took my first step inside Payton High, I remember my hitched breath and twitching eye, I remember sitting behind a blue eyed boy during homeroom, I remember thinking his eyes would be able to light up the gloom. I remember it took me exactly one day, To walk to him during lunch with my tray, I remember offering him my cheese dip, And that was the start of our friendship. I remember wondering why he was always alone, When he was the most beautiful being I’ve ever known, He was spontaneous; he loved feathers; he loved star gazing, You could say I fell in love with him because he was amazing. Everyone ignored him as he walked on by, I never understood the reason why. So cold, so aloof, so distant from the crowd, I remember thinking it was because he was so proud. I tried many ways to draw him close, A movie, a drink, a lunch, all that I could propose, I am sorry, I am so sorry, was all he said, The light in his eyes went dead. I was never his and he was never mine, With this fact, I had to pretend I was fine, Little did he know he was killing me, Because my heart was locked and he had the key. I remember it was a rainy fifth of July, When I was talking to a teary eyed guy, Who had a newspaper on his right hand, And on the left was a pink wristband. R.I.P it wrote in capital letters, With a picture of two white feathers, I took the newspaper and there on the obituary, I saw ‘To the 1st anniversary of Alfie Ary’. The picture of my blue eyed boy was staring back at me, Black and white his smile filled with glee, My world started spinning round and round, My thoughts in disarray as I fell to the ground. Where was he, I looked all around, But he was nowhere to be found. The corridors were filled with haunting memories, Of questions unasked and cryptic apologies. I was in shock, was his existence a lie? Just then a cold breeze blew by, I remember his shaky breath whispering one last time, “I love you baby, but you can't be mine”. W.H.Y~
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Aug 30, 2013
Aug 30, 2013 at 10:13 AM UTC
I Remember
I remember my body trembling as I took my first step inside Payton High, I remember my hitched breath and twitching eye, I remember sitting behind a blue eyed boy during homeroom, I remember thinking his eyes would be able to light up the gloom. I remember it took me exactly one day, To walk to him during lunch with my tray, I remember offering him my cheese dip, And that was the start of our friendship. I remember wondering why he was always alone, When he was the most beautiful being I’ve ever known, He was spontaneous; he loved feathers; he loved star gazing, You could say I fell in love with him because he was amazing. Everyone ignored him as he walked on by, I never understood the reason why. So cold, so aloof, so distant from the crowd, I remember thinking it was because he was so proud. I tried many ways to draw him close, A movie, a drink, a lunch, all that I could propose, I am sorry, I am so sorry, was all he said, The light in his eyes went dead. I was never his and he was never mine, With this fact, I had to pretend I was fine, Little did he know he was killing me, Because my heart was locked and he had the key. I remember it was a rainy fifth of July, When I was talking to a teary eyed guy, Who had a newspaper on his right hand, And on the left was a pink wristband. R.I.P it wrote in capital letters, With a picture of two white feathers, I took the newspaper and there on the obituary, I saw ‘To the 1st anniversary of Alfie Ary’. The picture of my blue eyed boy was staring back at me, Black and white his smile filled with glee, My world started spinning round and round, My thoughts in disarray as I fell to the ground. Where was he, I looked all around, But he was nowhere to be found. The corridors were filled with haunting memories, Of questions unasked and cryptic apologies. I was in shock, was his existence a lie? Just then a cold breeze blew by, I remember his shaky breath whispering one last time, “I love you baby, but you can't be mine”. W.H.Y~
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you’ve had your whole future mapped out since you were 16, sitting in homeroom and hand-picking your life. me, i’ve got no plans to speak of, still trying to figure myself out; everything major still undecided and undeclared because pandora’s box is always really pretty until you open it, and the future’s really alluring until you’re in it and you’re wondering if it really fits. and i know it’s stupid trying to plan for a car crash, to plan on ******* up   but i’ve been trying to take precautions in case i don’t grow into who you were counting on. i keep your promises tucked in my pocket, you make vows just to talk about it. and i don’t know much about fate because once my horoscope actually told me that i’ll be alone and unloved forever, born under an unlucky star, so i’m not placing my trust in the stars even if sometimes i get the sneaking suspicion they might just be right. i’m trying to dictate my own future without having a tongue, i’m trying to find a future i’ll be content living in. people are always waiting for time to run out, and i’ve always been waiting for the fall out. because i know all good things have to end all bands have to break up, all stars have to explode, all slow dances have to still, and eventually all loves have to run out in one way or another. and i’ve got front row seats to the inevitable explosion because you’re a heart attack and i’m totally doomed we’re just bombs going off too soon we’re just strangers dancing in a crowded room we’re just ****** up and wishing on the moon we’re just racking up casual causalities we’re just reading our fortunes in the coffee grinds and tea leaves, half-joking and half-a-little-too-honest when you peered at yours and said, “it says we’re gonna grow old and grey together, and move out of the city and have a bunch of loud mouthed kids with your eyes.” i don’t know about the future and i suppose you’d like to tell me about it, after all you’ve had your whole future mapped out since you were 16, sitting in homeroom and hand-picking your life. but it’s an affliction, all those ******* predictions. don’t tell me where you want to be in five years in from now; tell where you’re actually going to be tomorrow. because i was dying for this week to be over and then i was dying for this year to be over. and i can see it clearly, my whole life lived in transit on the way to something else. i was dying to finish high school and then i was dying to finish college and then i was just dying, and i forgot to live in the present in my rush to get to the future.
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Feb 19, 2015
Feb 19, 2015 at 7:37 PM UTC
if you'd tell me about the future
you’ve had your whole future mapped out since you were 16, sitting in homeroom and hand-picking your life. me, i’ve got no plans to speak of, still trying to figure myself out; everything major still undecided and undeclared because pandora’s box is always really pretty until you open it, and the future’s really alluring until you’re in it and you’re wondering if it really fits. and i know it’s stupid trying to plan for a car crash, to plan on ******* up   but i’ve been trying to take precautions in case i don’t grow into who you were counting on. i keep your promises tucked in my pocket, you make vows just to talk about it. and i don’t know much about fate because once my horoscope actually told me that i’ll be alone and unloved forever, born under an unlucky star, so i’m not placing my trust in the stars even if sometimes i get the sneaking suspicion they might just be right. i’m trying to dictate my own future without having a tongue, i’m trying to find a future i’ll be content living in. people are always waiting for time to run out, and i’ve always been waiting for the fall out. because i know all good things have to end all bands have to break up, all stars have to explode, all slow dances have to still, and eventually all loves have to run out in one way or another. and i’ve got front row seats to the inevitable explosion because you’re a heart attack and i’m totally doomed we’re just bombs going off too soon we’re just strangers dancing in a crowded room we’re just ****** up and wishing on the moon we’re just racking up casual causalities we’re just reading our fortunes in the coffee grinds and tea leaves, half-joking and half-a-little-too-honest when you peered at yours and said, “it says we’re gonna grow old and grey together, and move out of the city and have a bunch of loud mouthed kids with your eyes.” i don’t know about the future and i suppose you’d like to tell me about it, after all you’ve had your whole future mapped out since you were 16, sitting in homeroom and hand-picking your life. but it’s an affliction, all those ******* predictions. don’t tell me where you want to be in five years in from now; tell where you’re actually going to be tomorrow. because i was dying for this week to be over and then i was dying for this year to be over. and i can see it clearly, my whole life lived in transit on the way to something else. i was dying to finish high school and then i was dying to finish college and then i was just dying, and i forgot to live in the present in my rush to get to the future.
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I remember breaking down that barrier. A Berlin wall, of sorts, That haunts every friendship. On one side, There are pleasantries. There is “How are you?” Who shares an apartment with “It’s been too long dear”, Who lives across the street from “I have so much homework!” And down the hall from “We ought to see a movie this weekend”. On the other side, there are feelings. Not the simple kind. Not the kind that can be expressed at a locker, Before homeroom, Or over a cup of coffee. The kind that are ugly. The ones with rough edges, That will ***** your hand, If you hold them the wrong way. The ones that sit alone in dark corners, Because no one wants to claim ownership. It’s a thrilling moment to break down. Falling to the ground, you cry, You wail, And you blabber out every feeling you’ve ever felt, No longer able to hold them inside. I remember when I broke down for the first time. Like a citizen of West Berlin, I took a sledge hammer to the wall. With each word, chunks of concrete disintegrated, Into crumpled tissues, And tear-stained pillow cases. The last word hung in the air. Inhaling deeply, Freedom filled my lungs. I held my breath. I saw shining lights, Glimmering stars, And vibrant smiles. I knew that behind me, You saw rusted steel, Broken glass, And graffiti. It wasn’t too late, I could run away. Run away and never look back. And re-build that wall with every stride. If you didn’t want to cross that threshold, Between shining stars and broken walls, Between singing joyously and sitting silently, Between happiness and heart-ache. I would not force you. “Dearie.” You said, arms outstretched. “Come here.”
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Dec 9, 2011
Dec 9, 2011 at 12:05 PM UTC
Concrete Tissues
I remember breaking down that barrier. A Berlin wall, of sorts, That haunts every friendship. On one side, There are pleasantries. There is “How are you?” Who shares an apartment with “It’s been too long dear”, Who lives across the street from “I have so much homework!” And down the hall from “We ought to see a movie this weekend”. On the other side, there are feelings. Not the simple kind. Not the kind that can be expressed at a locker, Before homeroom, Or over a cup of coffee. The kind that are ugly. The ones with rough edges, That will ***** your hand, If you hold them the wrong way. The ones that sit alone in dark corners, Because no one wants to claim ownership. It’s a thrilling moment to break down. Falling to the ground, you cry, You wail, And you blabber out every feeling you’ve ever felt, No longer able to hold them inside. I remember when I broke down for the first time. Like a citizen of West Berlin, I took a sledge hammer to the wall. With each word, chunks of concrete disintegrated, Into crumpled tissues, And tear-stained pillow cases. The last word hung in the air. Inhaling deeply, Freedom filled my lungs. I held my breath. I saw shining lights, Glimmering stars, And vibrant smiles. I knew that behind me, You saw rusted steel, Broken glass, And graffiti. It wasn’t too late, I could run away. Run away and never look back. And re-build that wall with every stride. If you didn’t want to cross that threshold, Between shining stars and broken walls, Between singing joyously and sitting silently, Between happiness and heart-ache. I would not force you. “Dearie.” You said, arms outstretched. “Come here.”
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The best truths are told with fingers tied behind the backs of the greatest liars, and for every time I've heard something too good to be true, I remember this. I remember fists, clenched tight while wishing my body would disappear in high school hallways. While I fought against myself halfway out the door to homeroom. I was “that kid.” The one who sat with a half eaten lunch where prying eyes couldn't touch for fear of people watching me take a bite of what sustains life. I wanted to be the emptiness that creates a star; the friction of aimless atoms collapsing into one another to fabricate something beautiful. People are unmerciful, because I’m still waiting for gravity to do the trick. I’m still waiting to be worth more than a second pick. I’m waiting for these shaking hands to stop and hold their fingers steady. The thing about a star, I learned, is that when we are staring at Orion’s Belt, we are looking approximately 1340 years into the past. I can only hope that my body can last until I can see my own light. I’ll keep trying to force my spine to sit in line with the rest of me; keep trying like a lightening bug to create my own stars.
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Aug 13, 2013
Aug 13, 2013 at 2:41 AM UTC
Untitled
Is it okay that I'm Laughing But yet still want to go cry Like I did earlier in homeroom? Is it okay that I Want to hold onto him and Make his shirt a Deeper red With my tears? Is it okay that I snuck those glances Hoping that maybe you'd do The same? Nobody acts the same with me and I hate it so much. Why don't you just pretend I'm Okay instead of making me feel more Miserable about myself. Being mad at me doesn't make me feel any better. It makes me feel even more useless than I did with the things that happened with my Stepbrother. God, I don't even know where this poem is going any more...
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May 15, 2013
May 15, 2013 at 3:45 PM UTC
What is this?
Painting my toenails, eating lid poppers A school bus overdose I'm collecting my senses Hungry, bee stings, ferris wheel, red shirt, lips, pale, homeroom I've climbed the fences Ambulance, weak, tired Tube, throat, charcoal Parents, psychiatrist, abuse, eating disorder Floated medicatons seeping into my body Home, *** drugs, abuse, lonely Thank you Bobby
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Oct 30, 2016
Oct 30, 2016 at 12:49 AM UTC
Ninth Grade Speeders
Remember when we first met? At recess on the pavement In my little white dress And pink high tops. Six years old. You didn't care that it hurt, So you did it again And again And again. You came into my life And refused to leave Until I "grew up". Well I grew up. You met the daughter of bullying, Her foot in your side. She didn't care that it hurt. She didn't care that you cried. "Grow up" bullying told her father. I met you again at the new school. New town, I thought, This will be better. Boy, was I wrong. The weird girl. The girl with the black t shirt. But you could no longer hurt me. I had a wall, Made of bricks Piled one on top of the other, Even taller than you. You found me again, When my wall went crashing down. When she left me, You found me. You made them leave me. You didn't care that I cried During the national anthem On a Tuesday morning In homeroom. You got worse. Because you got silent You became a knife in my back Whispers across the hall To the girl with the beautiful long hair. You started giggling From across the white tiled classroom, While you stuck you "Hello My Name Is" stickers on my forehead. So everyone could laugh with you. But I am here to tell you one thing. You are wrong. I am not the weird girl. I am the beautiful girl. I am the happy girl. You lost. And I don't care if you hurt.
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Mar 9, 2014
Mar 9, 2014 at 7:33 PM UTC
Dear Bullying
Too familiar with the unhealthy coping mechanism of numbing emptiness with mindlessness Your hands are too tired of the math review you’re desperately trying to finish. You find yourself Tapping through Snapchat stories, barely paying attention to The group selfies, of bright, well-lit rooms decked with Christmas decorations Of red ribbons and green pine and mistletoe Of the white glints of friends’ toothy smiles Sometimes the snaps would be videos With deafening, muffled sounds of cheers, people’s faces recognizable Even when turned away, laughing, looking at the star, the subject of the snap All the cameras point to her face as she dances It’s a party, and the late realization makes you feel dumb I wasn’t invited. But why would I be? I’m the asocial one, the one who always has to politely decline with “Sorry, I have to do homework, have to do this, have to do that” They’re IB kids. You’re in AP. What’s your excuse? You think as you sit in front of your fluorescent LED screen The phone’s luminosity searing through your eyes But you can’t tear them away from the festive scene playing in front of you. They’re having fun. It’s nighttime, 11:04, 5 seconds in, but The environment in your house versus theirs Seem 12 hours apart, night and day, You squint, because wow, everyone is there. The close ones, the acquaintances, That one guy you had to sit next to once in homeroom. It’s almost Christmas. You glance around your room. No cat in sight, mother upstairs, conked out. Your phone isn’t even alive. The snap has long been over. No vibrations of incoming texts. You sigh. Only a semester left. And your fingers wearily Pick up the pencil And you resume Alone.
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Dec 17, 2017
Dec 17, 2017 at 1:15 AM UTC
late night stress
Too familiar with the unhealthy coping mechanism of numbing emptiness with mindlessness Your hands are too tired of the math review you’re desperately trying to finish. You find yourself Tapping through Snapchat stories, barely paying attention to The group selfies, of bright, well-lit rooms decked with Christmas decorations Of red ribbons and green pine and mistletoe Of the white glints of friends’ toothy smiles Sometimes the snaps would be videos With deafening, muffled sounds of cheers, people’s faces recognizable Even when turned away, laughing, looking at the star, the subject of the snap All the cameras point to her face as she dances It’s a party, and the late realization makes you feel dumb I wasn’t invited. But why would I be? I’m the asocial one, the one who always has to politely decline with “Sorry, I have to do homework, have to do this, have to do that” They’re IB kids. You’re in AP. What’s your excuse? You think as you sit in front of your fluorescent LED screen The phone’s luminosity searing through your eyes But you can’t tear them away from the festive scene playing in front of you. They’re having fun. It’s nighttime, 11:04, 5 seconds in, but The environment in your house versus theirs Seem 12 hours apart, night and day, You squint, because wow, everyone is there. The close ones, the acquaintances, That one guy you had to sit next to once in homeroom. It’s almost Christmas. You glance around your room. No cat in sight, mother upstairs, conked out. Your phone isn’t even alive. The snap has long been over. No vibrations of incoming texts. You sigh. Only a semester left. And your fingers wearily Pick up the pencil And you resume Alone.
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School is child labor. illegal, it is. Teachers pay off the cops to torture us kids. The government runs school, I hate them with passion, I show my responses in unspeakable fashion. School's like China, communism. When I hear the bell for homeroom, Satan has risen. We live here and thrive, in jail cells of sadness, Please o' Lord! End all this madness!
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Apr 29, 2015
Apr 29, 2015 at 3:28 PM UTC
School
(a throwback poem from High school) I'm the most popular girl in my homeroom. Of course, that's my own bedroom - cause we're on COVID lockdown, zoom. My bedroom is the math class, which doubles as the gym, it triples as the theater - you should see the shows I'm in. They're only in my mirror, so my cats get free admission. My sudden popularity's due, to a matter of attrition. If I play my cards right, I can probably be prom queen I'll hold the ceremony in the garden, so the travesty goes unseen.
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Aug 8, 2025
Aug 8, 2025 at 1:08 PM UTC
I'm popular
i was thinking back to how we got started and realized i never told anyone the story of us. we met on a saturday at a party i was dragged to and you were there because you were the host. it was the standard party with joints and kegs and i remember seeing you do a toast while you were standing on the couch with a red cup. you pointed out a girl in the crowd and said, "to the ******* absolute mistake of falling in love with your ******* best ******* friend. **** and to the pretty girls who won't rescue me. drink up." and i realized you were an exquisite human being, even in my drunken state i knew you were special. we met on september 2nd, the first day of school, in homeroom, and you didn't remember or talk to me while i memorized the colour of your eyes and the curve your lips and the sturdiness of your jaw throughout the year. we met again at the same party a year ago and, as it's said, the rest was history.
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Jul 12, 2014
Jul 12, 2014 at 11:46 PM UTC
before the storm
she pulls up to school with the short jean skirt that she begged her mother for with knee-high socks and tall white chucks she’s got an overripe peach logo on her faded off white shirt which she tucked in after she got into homeroom.. this was it the first year.. only three more to go..
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Aug 21, 2018
Aug 21, 2018 at 11:55 PM UTC
kawaii pastel aesthetic
Why wasn't I enough Why couldn't I stop you Why didn't you believe me when I said it would get better Why didn't you believe me when I said I love you Why wasn't me needed you enough Why did you have to go I still try I still text "I love you, It could have gotten better, I still need you" But it doesn't matter what I say It won't bring you back It won't put you back at that desk in homeroom It won't put you back at your mother's dinner table It won't put you back in my room every Friday It won't bring you back to me
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Jun 11, 2017
Jun 11, 2017 at 9:47 PM UTC
Gone
It’s been 625 days since I first knew love When I handed you a note and you said yes I still remember your arms around me As some movie we weren’t watching played I still remember your smile as we kissed My lips on yours to shut you up for the first time It’s been 510 days since I last knew love When you broke me and deftly left I still remember the tears on my cheeks As my friends held me through band practice I still remember sleeping in your hoodie My last way to keep you with me It’s been 336 days since I thought I knew love When you came back to me so suddenly I still remember you leaning against me As you ignored your favorite sport to tickle me I still remember you keeping me close Forcing me on elevators and new paths between class It’s been 237 days since I found love again When I ended the worst day in the best way I still remember Parks and Rec lighting the room As we paid all our attention to one another I still remember the look in your eyes As you kissed my scars and pulled me closer It’s been 221 days since I lost love again When I needed you and you said no I still remember crying on the couch As you left me on open for the millionth time I still remember the knife in my shaking hand As you broke your promise again It’s been 28 days since I let love go When I gave you up for the final time I gave up remembering the sparkle in your eyes Glimmering every single time you smiled I gave up remembering the calls we shared When I was drunk on sleep and you were high on life I let love go But it’s been 2 hours and 18 minutes since I last saw you When you walked past and waved at my friends I remember wishing it was me you’d say hi to As you headed to your homeroom for the morning I remember asking my friends what happened after Because I closed my eyes the second I saw you It’s been 625 days since I first felt hope It’s been 336 days since I found happiness again It’s been 237 days since I felt my heart opening again But it’s been 510 since I first lost you But it’s been 221 days since I lost you again But it’s been 28 days since I last felt happy
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Nov 24, 2020
Nov 24, 2020 at 11:01 AM UTC
The Days Pass
It’s been 625 days since I first knew love When I handed you a note and you said yes I still remember your arms around me As some movie we weren’t watching played I still remember your smile as we kissed My lips on yours to shut you up for the first time It’s been 510 days since I last knew love When you broke me and deftly left I still remember the tears on my cheeks As my friends held me through band practice I still remember sleeping in your hoodie My last way to keep you with me It’s been 336 days since I thought I knew love When you came back to me so suddenly I still remember you leaning against me As you ignored your favorite sport to tickle me I still remember you keeping me close Forcing me on elevators and new paths between class It’s been 237 days since I found love again When I ended the worst day in the best way I still remember Parks and Rec lighting the room As we paid all our attention to one another I still remember the look in your eyes As you kissed my scars and pulled me closer It’s been 221 days since I lost love again When I needed you and you said no I still remember crying on the couch As you left me on open for the millionth time I still remember the knife in my shaking hand As you broke your promise again It’s been 28 days since I let love go When I gave you up for the final time I gave up remembering the sparkle in your eyes Glimmering every single time you smiled I gave up remembering the calls we shared When I was drunk on sleep and you were high on life I let love go But it’s been 2 hours and 18 minutes since I last saw you When you walked past and waved at my friends I remember wishing it was me you’d say hi to As you headed to your homeroom for the morning I remember asking my friends what happened after Because I closed my eyes the second I saw you It’s been 625 days since I first felt hope It’s been 336 days since I found happiness again It’s been 237 days since I felt my heart opening again But it’s been 510 since I first lost you But it’s been 221 days since I lost you again But it’s been 28 days since I last felt happy
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This is my last year teaching, here, at Columbine. I’ll be leaving Colorado and these bad memories far behind.. The kids come into homeroom and each year it’s the same. The seat where Eric Harris sat is one that’s never claimed. I guess, as High School massacres rank, others , since, were worse. We suffer notoriety because we were the first. The names and faces of the dead still haunt me in my sleep. I had the charge to keep them safe; a charge I failed to keep. Eric was intelligent; in a different place and time, He might have found a better use for his creative mind. But he was often bullied; I had failed to intervene. Some say he thirsted for revenge both brutal and obscene. On April twentieth of Ninety nine, he and Dylan came here late. Eric warned one friend to flee; to stay was a mistake. I heard the first shots fired and saw bodies hit the floor. They headed for the library. I hid and locked the door. I confess I was a coward; I was no hero born to save Those young and beautiful children destined for an early grave. I hid, as many others did, and cringed at every blast, As youthful dreams were shattered and this day became their last.. In the end they died as suicides. Their crude bombs had failed to blow. Had their plot been a complete success- we’d all have died, I know. Instead I’ve lived with my regrets, my shame and my despair; haunted always by my guilt and Eric’s empty chair.
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Feb 18, 2018
Feb 18, 2018 at 11:22 AM UTC
The Empty Chair
Blades in your mouth but you're not chainsaw man Any opportunity to be an opp You take it by hand Forever you swear we tight Like a Shaolin clan Yet I see a katana eveytime You say “You understand” We grew side by side Edamame Call each other family members Uncle and aunty So why anytime I trip Over my family tree You were there waiting To catch and bury me In Homeroom debating cartoons To lying about taking shrooms With the water girls to see If they part vacuum Thought our college days be A different world You saw it like who “the best man” Now our friendships otherworld Maybe in the next life, we can give it A whirl Until then where’s the knife We have a lot to unfurl Continuing to grow making room for A family Adding decimals to make their life more Exceptional It always seemed medicinal until the economy went critical Now it's every man for themselves Even if there’s enough on the shelves You see me and mine as wanting Yours to fail At least that’s what it looks like When I scroll on my cell
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May 21, 2024
May 21, 2024 at 9:14 AM UTC
We friends?