I wish I could caress your face
like She gets to.
I wish I could hold you
like She gets to.
I wish I could love you
like She gets to.

I wish I wasn't such a ***** up.

{hjl}

when The Lord made you, sweet boy,

did He send you down to this

unworthy planet on a soft cloud

with angels singing sweet lullabies?

did He place a sparkling crown around

your lovely, delicate head?

did He tell you that you are the most

genuine, good hearted, wonderful

thing that He had ever created?

did He tell you, sweet angel?

{hjl}

I fell asleep to the sound of the ocean

the waves reminded me of the way you repetitively touched me -

softly and fiercely, all in one motion

and I wish I could feel that same exhilaration one more time

{hjl}

sighs so loud you can hear it over the crashing waves

scars so visible you can see them from a mile away

hair so messy he can't even run his fingers through it

{hjl}

and although I've come to
admire the heavy bags
under your chestnut eyes,
I hate to think of the demons
that keep you restless
through the night.

you are what keeps me sane
and gives me peace during
the long summer nights,
I just wish I could repay the favor.

{hjl}

I beat myself up because of You

Like the waves pounding their fists against the rock lining the shores

I beat myself up because of You

Like the hammer that is barreling down onto the nail, piercing the wood,
much like how my heart has been pierced from the absence of Your love

I beat myself up because of You

{hjl}