I’ve been out of my mind lately.
You’ve been an emotional instability,
feeding off of my vulnerability.
I should've known from the beginning,
but I got deceived by your beauty.
You were bait for my wildest dreams,
they devoured you completely.
I should've realized you were a phony.
I shouldn’t have been so stupid.
Most likely you did it to hurt me,
it worked, you hurt me.
I’ve been searching for a remedy
for this venom you inflicted in me,
but it keeps poisoning every last part of me
and it’s killing me.
Every time I try to rise to the surface
something pulls me back down to the deep; it’s never over.
I’m drowning in despair.
It seems as if I’ll never wake up from this nightmare.
Inside I’m screaming, begging for it to be over soon.
How much longer can I endure this doom?
I feel helpless now, what can I do,
when every beat of my heart reminds me of you?
It hurts me in excess, but for some reason I can't forget her.
I’ve come across a woman that does not appreciate me whatsoever.
I wish I could take back everything I said, everything I did for her,
for every step I took for her, led to one mistake after the other.
I was sensitive to her touch and I haven't found the cure to heal this broken soul?
Can anyone throw me a rope and pull me out of this hole?
Everything changes of course; it’s time that I move on,
but what I do is bounce right back to the one thing I need to stay away from.
Written on June 2, 2005
Composition number: 210