They say.
I don't smile like I use too.
This isn't the first time someone said it.

Someone stated I look down.
Some trace it to you not being around.
And they're not far from the truth.

My hapinness ended the moment I lost you.

Yes, I laugh.
Sure, I smile.
It's just a facade hiding hurt.
Since you're no longer around.

Like the stock market that crashed.
So did my world of happiness.

Your love was my invested.
And now without you.
I'm bankrupted.
And money wasn't involved.

Friends all know.
My happiness ended when I lost you.

They try to cheer me up.
Except it's no good.
They try to take me out.
It doesn't accomplish what they wanted.

Cause my world of happiness ended when I lost you.

My heart was wishing for his wishes to be me, me on the end , me dying out of love.
Him dying out of my absensce. Us laying on the ground of loneliness..
In the middle of a crowded room playing for drinks and strangers to forget for good, both.

My soul was shaking, because i was. I was your wish of dead and olvido. I was your most wanted love, the one who hurt and the one you hurt back until we bleed. My soul was grieving for the hapinness once shared and for the times we didn't care.


My body was aching from missing you, it was torturous to know you woulnd't come , we couldn't fix it. I couldn't feel my arms when i hugged you ,and you didn't back.My eyes were sore for crying too much.

My mind was tired of fighting feelings  and emotions i couldn't take ,it was desperate from the obsessing love, the memories that came at night , the illusions that kidnapped my dreams.

It didn't stop until this year, it has been too much , it has been too long for our endless love, it has been enough for forever.

Love , trust , herself , blindly will she give you

Hunger , sleep , others ,yourself , will she protect you

Hapinness , peace , security , are her powers

Regret , sorrow , tears , you feel for her

Uncernaity , fear , pain , father gifts you

Death , lonliness , craziness , shall craves you

Dissapointment , wrath , self-loathing , will this World Make you

Paradis , réincarnation , inner peace , will god promise you

The End , Reality , Dreams , will seem shallow compared to a single person

Words , feelings , gifts , will never do justice to her

Joke, humor, laugh, IS this whole POEME until my death

Try to be a better daughter for her , and always wish her to be your mother