"hallowness" poems
Everytime you would knock on my door in tears I would wipe my own and open the door. You were too wrapped up in making sure that I could make you feel better, that you didn't think about anything else. you would break open my mind and search for advice to soothe the pain, you couldn't wait to stitch yourself back together. Everyone I knew kept taking and taking bits and pieces of me to fix themselves. I didn't say anything because I was so happy to see the people I love happy. But then I felt the hallowness in my chest and began to worry. A couple years later, you knocked on my door. I couldn't get up to answer it, I felt so weak. You stormed in and were ready to take the advice you needed but stopped. My heart was empty and my brain numb. The people I loved, picked and pulled on everything I had to offer until I was nothing. They didn't mind hurting me if it meant helping themselves. All I ever wanted was for someone to come along and give me a piece of them and help me from breaking.
Sep 14, 2014
Sep 14, 2014 at 9:26 PM UTC
I'd rather not hear my own talk of hallowness
echo back at, around, and inside me,
but worse is to witness it hurting you -
'It'? Not the talk, but the topic.
And 'worse'?
This dejection can strip my self-worth
- but I'm used to the lack of attention.
So yes, when my mind feels ejected from my body,
when I need to sleep or hide some other way
from what's inside me,
I vacate myself in ways that may desert you
for a while.
I'll just ask that you be patient.
I'm sorry and I'm not;
you deserve a whole,
and I've got to
not be a hole
Dec 1, 2014
Dec 1, 2014 at 9:45 PM UTC
i celebrate the hallowness of my traveled bliss
why not take hold on science or the linch?
i lost the bet.
believe it or not.
Mar 29, 2014
Mar 29, 2014 at 11:06 PM UTC
The hallowness in my chest,
The constant nagging in my head.
This feeling of vulnerability,
And I'm thinking of possibility.
I'm thinking about you,
But don't wanna look weak in front of you.
Afraid! , what you'll say,
Not saying what I wanna say .
how hard is it to say, anyway?
That I want you back, all the way.
Gulishta
Sep 17, 2017
Sep 17, 2017 at 11:56 PM UTC
I always
Stop and
Think
Unwisely about
Males and their
Beautiful
Little
Embraces
All over my words, feeling like I
Blame
Others for
Reprimanding
Everyday
You with incessant, mindless questioning
I don’t know what to discourse
I do know I want to
Kindly sit
In
Silence and
Solitude
Until my lips turn red, my eyes blur, and my breathing
Consoles me,
Always
Through the
Cadences of your
Hollowness,
Emptiness,
Shallowness.
Nov 4, 2014
Nov 4, 2014 at 6:49 PM UTC