take a course and forget what that course meant
take a job with the code enforcement
make a code and brutally enforce it
lead a horse, don't know where that horse went

sleeping dogs have the sharpest teeth
with a hunger from the heart beneath
who better could ever deserve this land
government visionary missionary businessman

make up a law just to break it
put it to sleep and then you wake it
take away and over-take it
it's my bedroll, let me make it

take a bow your job is done so keep it
make a candlestick and try to leap it
pull the wool down then fleece it
lead the sheep, forget where the sheep went

somewhere
in this vast oasis of home
party streamers of the heart
faded stuck to the walls
pale pinks like the sinking sun
drowning in it’s own image
below the horizon
i feel that’s us
where we belong
laughing through our shame
the night calls without names
into the last party of the decades
rushed into goodtimes and struggles
flushed away into pollution
tv  static    nuclear radiation
here on this couch of your parents
orange and yellow
brown
from some era I can never understand
or touch
as with each moment some new invention is formed
the past  is squashed
we strum along to the hum
of a world
never quite ours
but here we are


5/27/11
1258pm fri

Sometimes the bad times seems to over weigh the good,

because we don't remember the so much better times as much as we should.

Many shadows of good times are buried in the mountain we call time,

memories of the bad times seem to stay right at the front of our mind.

Goodtimes we have were not appreciated and ultimately taken for granted,

the bad we nurture and cultivate in our hearts like weeds we have planted.

Now as the years go on,

the bad forever on our mind,

and we don't seem to remember or realize,

just how much we have wasted our precious time.

So now lets have sometime , a break, from all bad

let go the negative and recapture the good we ones had

Spending more time dwelling on things that are good

And, how to respect one another as much as we should.

What the hell is a soulmate
Can't even find a date
Not worried about a relationship
Ends before it starts
No reliable friends to comfort or aid
Time out together night on the town
Always remembering the goodtimes
Dance with the ladies
Drink with the fellas
Make out with money made out with women
Greater times better times
Live with changes love is on the line
Not after the easy life
but live the life that means the most

Good day today got this movie ive been wanting.
Got myself a Johnny cash book to enjoy
A new shirt if I decide to go out
The gym has been good to me
Hitting heavy weights getting my reps done
Cardio and reading a book that makes me laugh and smile.
Got home showered enjoying my favorite show
Ive been laughing and smiling making the of my goodtimes
Spoiling myself doing things right feel free for once its goid to be me

Thinking about the past
Had a blast
Times have changed
Goodtimes turn bad
Tried to date lots of hate
Single life still getting heat
Couples hate gave up on the single life
Do it along while those dysfunctional parts
Fall apart with time
Open relationships lead to someone closing down
Exclusive is just a title over time it's redefined
Seek love stop wasting time
With a face no real emotions
Looks fade with time dried up limes

Remembering those goodtimes
Wondering where they've all gone
Thinking if you still love me?
Or if im something left in the past?
How did we get to this?
What did i do wrong?
Am i still the person you want for the rest of your life?
Or am i just something you got use too?
And waiting to see how far can it last?
I miss the person you were
Wishing i could make the old you come back
But i know thats impossible and makes me sad
When we argue i sometimes think,
"i dont think i could take this anymore"
Im ready to throw the towel
But then the love i have for you
Makes me think twice
And i say "maybe one day the old you might come back."

Let the beat meditate your noggin' joggin'/
ya memory til ya get Tired never gone Retire/
from this Game like **** **** James/
from Goodtimes i remember the Good Times/
when the world was Alive now everythings Concealed/
reality is nothin' but Joke children gettin' bad Yoke/
from generation to generation gets worse to worse/
weak pulse im seeing visions of the Hearse/
mind gone i need of a Resurrection but my Heat is my Only Protection/
cuz ****** be trippin' sherm dippin' tippin'/
in my Hood swangin' on 4 w/ vogues cool i Suppose?/
but don't know that blow ya Slang hurtin' the Nose/
of victims Cocaina is the Product from the Devil Intellectual levels are Doomed/
dumbin' us down with Indoctrination seems like our Destination is bein' in Incarceration/
but im gone continue to fight with my fullest might-

Endeavor too Clever ridin' through Stormy Weather can't Sever/
me from this **** i Spit/
too too real o so fine Lookin' for a fine Dime i can wife Mine/
but too many Single Mother lookin' too much Off a Brother because of another Brother/
who told them that he loved them just wanted To **** them/
and Impregnate them/
baby girl stuck at Home all Alone/
strugglin' to feed her baby but the Father ain't in the Presence/
so she Becomes hesitant/
sell her *** for Cash cuz Bills bout to take Clash/
hittin' Roof Top i Pause & Stop/
take a Quick Glance/
shakin' my head in Disgrace still wishin' for Amazing grace/
but it's Hard to knock the Grin off a Demons Face/Paper Chase is our Am Ambition/caged animal Subliminal Messages so ya Can't Comprehend/
no Boyz to Men but im steadily In Philly? rollin' a Phillie/
Blunt Hunt ***** pullin' Stunts/with two hands tied behind my Back Hocus Pocus/
Nigguh back to Reality im just Playin' G this is the Philosophy/
of Yosef don't Lose Focus/
pay attention cuz they waitin' for us to Fall & Gall/
and keep us confined in a Circle that me and you Can't See but im goin' to Remain Vigilant ya See...

There use to be a time of remembering.  Lets  look back over our lives and keep remembering the goodtimes for there use to be moments we use to want to remember.  listen stop causing all of us bad images in our lives for having a moment of remembering is great lets keep it that way.

My wish would to be next to you now as you lay there sleeping. Wondering what you are dreaming. Feeling my arms around you. Watching you breath in and out. Wondering what little gestures you make in your sleep. My wish would to be there ever night to chase away any fright.
My wish would to hold you comfort you through the night. My arms around you tight. My wish to smell the aroma of your hair. Oh lord please take me there. My wish to know you to love you through every storm, trial, the goodtimes and bad. To hold you and love you and to be there when you are sad. To catch the tear before it shall fall. And let you know i love you most of all. My wish would be to be interwined where no one could define me from you. My wish would be that pillow that you hold so near it will soon be me dear. My wish would be to show you a love that will endure. For my love of you is pure. My wish for us to never be apart. I felt this from the very start. For you my beautiful angel are always in my heart.

Dedicated to Special K
TW Rice

Making those moves because everyone is moving use to care what they thought. They had problems and ruined my goodtimes and vibes with their effortless life and bad attitude. Feeling free from the bad open to much more.
How does my life become about them it doesn't. Sitting in the background learning and trying since no one else wanted it. Lots of talk and missed opportunity now grasping those moments.
Admired people seen them greater than myself. Hyped them up and got let down. Years of being judged and being looked down on. It got old cutting ties so that it could be stopped. Never said anything bad but everything was made personal. What's wrong with asking a question or having an opinion. Especially when the person asked.
Thankful for the people who took a chance giving pointers so that one day moving up was a possibility. Tired of people saying "it's not my job" get out of the way stop wasting everyone's time.
It's been a tough path dealing with people. Learning to be social again since being alienated by family was tough but it made it easier to be by one's self. You miss them but they are holding a grudge holding it over your head because they'd rather be right than happy.