"goneness" poems
I don’t like cauliflower so I will feed all mine to friends
moving black specks, fruit flies on vegetables
confused
killing their dinner with cyanide
like sticks of cinnamon or garlic cubes
I hand it to bugs with my long second toe
that is supposed to mean I am a genius, but I don’t eat
cauliflower broccoli anything leafy and I am missing fish oil
from my diet
confused
I whisper into the fruit flies’ elf ears
perked up as dog eyes escape their sockets sometimes
Dogs do not eat cauliflower either or hummus
they are not even confused
Morning, we all see the same shape of the moon’s goneness
but others will eat bread despite mold
I wonder if I am one
and what have I done to the economy by disliking
cauliflower broccoli anything leafy and fish oil, as well.
May 8, 2013
May 8, 2013 at 6:32 PM UTC
There is
a perpetual hole in my life
where you used to be
And it doesn’t matter if
it’s only been an hour
Or seventeen days
Or seven months
Or three years.
It’s still there.
It has the cruelest consequences.
Even when you’re absent
You’re here with me.
and when I want you to be gone,
You are
but I feel your goneness,
and your absence
becomes a presence.
and not the one I want.
What’s worst is
you’re not dead
Or in a desolate war zone
Or being a good Samaritan
in a third world country;
You live right down the street.
You chose to be a hole
rather than to be
with me.
I might as well save electricity
And just unplug the “no”
of my vacancy sign.
Because there will always be one.
Nov 25, 2012
Nov 25, 2012 at 9:10 AM UTC
am i
blackness, shrouding, crowding
darkness, coldness
breathless pouting
am i
lost, goneness, wrongness
searching, urging
always missed
am i
ever, ending, pending
lovelessly
beseeched to rending
am i
hell, cloudless, doubtless
doomed fortune
eternal kiss
am i
fending, slowly, bending
timeless, fightless
vilipending
i am
blackened, shrouded, crowded
breathlessly
divulge the clouded
am i, i am
i won’t know.
Jun 18, 2013
Jun 18, 2013 at 12:42 AM UTC
explosions,
blood thrown on the walls,
rubble,
screams piercing the air,
terror,
bullets rip through life,
darkness,
peaceful goneness,
Apr 10, 2014
Apr 10, 2014 at 11:56 AM UTC
I am the wrong of everything
that makes my once here world long gone,
the bitterness which haunts my life,
the no victory no defeat but also no peace,
the no love no hate but also no calm
but never excitement. always silence.
I am the terrible of whatsoever
makes its way into it all,
the disgustingness of solitude,
the loneliness of thought.
I am the reason for the something else,
though it matters to no one to me,
I am the ****** of the goodnight dear sleep well,
the goneness of the now.
Aug 20, 2015
Aug 20, 2015 at 5:52 AM UTC
Breathless being
Sleeping giant
I poke gently first
then jab violently
wanting to see
if you are made of air and water and muscle and bone.
You deflate
into rubble and decomposed flesh
blackened by the poison
that has run your veins dark
all your life.
You crumble to ash
before my eyes
and just like that
I find I have no father.
I've been warned
but nothing prepares you
for death, dying, goneness
of the one who snuggled you
wide-eyed in his arms
as you took your first breathes
and he looked right past you
into your soul.
Hijacked you were
from the very fingertips of my fate
-not even that-
for that doesn't imply complicity, action
in your own disappearance.
Suddenly, something hatches
from your ashes
growing, shedding flesh all the time
until I am standing where your chest used to be
and it is me.
Jan 31, 2014
Jan 31, 2014 at 1:05 PM UTC
thumping bass of blood and bone
music
words and
me alone.
puncture wounds in skies and skin
goneness
moons and
quiet din.
bitter taste on touch and tongue
questions
dark and
shallow lungs.
sinking deep in pills and past
shiver
stop and
sleep at last.
Aug 14, 2014
Aug 14, 2014 at 9:27 AM UTC
i try connecting,
connect hard,
everytime i think im forgotten.
im forgotten in a way,
nobody can preserve.
none.
you too.
its gone,
and its goneness that is left,
you wont be able to seek me,
anywhere,
not even in your heart,
which turned like a brick,
the day i accepted im forgotten.
Jan 22, 2021
Jan 22, 2021 at 2:39 AM UTC