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it’s so frustrating because i know you wanted to be with me, on those days you drove almost an hour each way to see me and you kissed me so often and held me so tight and always pulled me closer and i could feel your eyes on me when i wasn’t looking, and we spent day after day like this, just being together and pretending that time could stand still, but at the same time, i feel like it was all just something for you to do while you were home, even though you deny it. i remember starting to tear up one afternoon with my head on your chest while you slept, because i knew it was just a matter of time till this was just a memory. i can’t picture you actually missing me, i can’t imagine you actually wishing i hadn’t said i was done with grey and in between. i feel like i’m so insignificant to you. like you have no feelings, like you couldn’t care less, this is just life, people come and go. and i know that, i know this is just life, and that people come and go, but it hurts that it’d never cross your mind to ask me to stay, that i was fun while i lasted, that you never wanted to make me yours. i’ll fade soon. i want to matter more to you. you’re a thinker, i’m a feeler, you hate that i’m so black and white. but i’m selfish and i want 3am texts that you can’t stop thinking about me and that you need to see me again soon. but that’s not who you are. and it’s unfair of me to want you to feel that way when you don’t. and it’s really okay, because if i extended my hand to you and you took it, i don’t think we would’ve gotten very far anyway. i loved being so close to you, but i’m excited to hold someone’s hand who doesn’t want to let go, to kiss someone who wants to kiss me forever, to not be anticipating an inevitable end, to be able to trust someone fully with my heart, to have someone that wants to hold it. and i don’t need that, i don’t need someone, i don’t need anyone. but if one day it’s what’s meant to be, i’ll let it be. i don’t want to be careless with my heart again. i don’t know why things happen the way they do, and i don’t regret you for a second, and i still think the world of you, but i’m too emotional and i fall too deep to give that much of myself again to someone who never asked for any of it in the first place.
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Jan 7, 2015
Jan 7, 2015 at 3:37 PM UTC
red ink
it’s so frustrating because i know you wanted to be with me, on those days you drove almost an hour each way to see me and you kissed me so often and held me so tight and always pulled me closer and i could feel your eyes on me when i wasn’t looking, and we spent day after day like this, just being together and pretending that time could stand still, but at the same time, i feel like it was all just something for you to do while you were home, even though you deny it. i remember starting to tear up one afternoon with my head on your chest while you slept, because i knew it was just a matter of time till this was just a memory. i can’t picture you actually missing me, i can’t imagine you actually wishing i hadn’t said i was done with grey and in between. i feel like i’m so insignificant to you. like you have no feelings, like you couldn’t care less, this is just life, people come and go. and i know that, i know this is just life, and that people come and go, but it hurts that it’d never cross your mind to ask me to stay, that i was fun while i lasted, that you never wanted to make me yours. i’ll fade soon. i want to matter more to you. you’re a thinker, i’m a feeler, you hate that i’m so black and white. but i’m selfish and i want 3am texts that you can’t stop thinking about me and that you need to see me again soon. but that’s not who you are. and it’s unfair of me to want you to feel that way when you don’t. and it’s really okay, because if i extended my hand to you and you took it, i don’t think we would’ve gotten very far anyway. i loved being so close to you, but i’m excited to hold someone’s hand who doesn’t want to let go, to kiss someone who wants to kiss me forever, to not be anticipating an inevitable end, to be able to trust someone fully with my heart, to have someone that wants to hold it. and i don’t need that, i don’t need someone, i don’t need anyone. but if one day it’s what’s meant to be, i’ll let it be. i don’t want to be careless with my heart again. i don’t know why things happen the way they do, and i don’t regret you for a second, and i still think the world of you, but i’m too emotional and i fall too deep to give that much of myself again to someone who never asked for any of it in the first place.
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It's 10 PM and I can't fall asleep Try as hard as I may It's frustrating and I wonder why I Can't have this energy in the day.
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Apr 30, 2014
Apr 30, 2014 at 1:06 AM UTC
10 PM Energy
My hands have betrayed me. Once the means to write pages, Now my hands are only dead weight. My hands won't pick up a pen. Or even type short, Choppy sentences. They dangle at my sides And find refuge in my hair, Leaving me bleeding. Like my hands, My mouth has declared itself My enemy. Once the passageway for words To explain myself, My mouth is now as useful as a broken bridge. With nothing of value to say, It talks And sings anyway. It opens without my permission But stays closed whenever I try To scream meaning. The inability to illustrate Or translate my mind And my soul Is not an unfamiliar ordeal. But it's lonely on the outside And frustrating looking in. It seems I'll always feel like an alien.
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Jun 6, 2016
Jun 6, 2016 at 3:38 AM UTC
Communication Disconnection
the most frustrating thing when it comes to a writer is when everything every word, every letter, isn't enough to give justice to the captivating picture of you in the afternoon: soaked in sweat, grinning foolishly, striking up a conversation about coffee, and how unhealthy it is for me to drink three cups straight, to stay awake, yet the bittersweet taste stains my lips. it spills down my throat, covers my lungs, and drowns them with the addicting aroma of coffee beans and lazy dreams, until i cannot seem to breathe, and the only thing i can ever do is to spill ink for you.
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Oct 30, 2017
Oct 30, 2017 at 4:32 AM UTC
coffee
Hidden behind my desires. Fantasies of ecstasy frustrating me. My body tempting me sensually. Sexuality turning on me, arousing my entity. My fingers betraying me, ****** my body eagerly. Probing between my legs relentlessly, consuming my whole body; selfishly. Weakening my flesh; this tantalizing energy claiming the deepest depths of my ***** Scandalous imagery, mentally ravaging me, seducing me, teasing my lips, guiding my fingertips effortlessly, long fingers dip, disappearing; deep inside of me. My ***** tightens, the feelings heighten. Warm liquids drip, stone hard **** pulling and rubbing it. Wrist twist,palm grinding against my ***** legs clasp, my insides amass giving way, As I spray, my exhausted body collapses.
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Oct 6, 2014
Oct 6, 2014 at 10:26 PM UTC
Temptress (Explicit)
When I asked you to fix me, You told me I wasn't broken. But, let this soak in. I just wanted to know, If i was still a pretty enough picture to be worth, agonizing over a puzzle. Even when it's a struggle. And you have to nuzzle each piece into place, Kissing the pieces bent out of shape, Searching for pieces gone missing, But you can't make a raisin back into a grape. Yes, I Remember your middle name And who says we can't celebrate failure? Don't be sad, we tried, we tried. When you write your story in the sand it washes away with the tide. It isn't our fault. We may have cut ourselves open, But we didn't ask for the salt in our wounds Can I still say "we"? I guess you're kind of done with me. I don't blame you, Puzzles are frustrating. they're a tease. Please, tell me I haven't lost the most important piece. Tell me I haven't lost you. © copyrighted Nicole Ann Osborn
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Aug 18, 2014
Aug 18, 2014 at 5:11 AM UTC
Puzzle Piece
All I know is that some days I find myself curled up on the floor, eyes red, lips shaking, thinking that if I could, I would have given up on myself long ago. So that is why I doubt you will love me. I cannot even love myself. I must start off by saying I am a frustrating person. You can swear I'm beautiful and that you'll never leave, but I will not believe you. Some days you will find me crying for no reason and think I am insane. You are right. I am a paradox. I am hot and cold, okay then shattered. I am a roller-coaster ride, a wild, reckless soul with a heartbreaking past and demons in my mind. Maybe I am looking for someone to save me, and maybe I am looking for someone to save. I haven't decided yet. I am tied down by my fears and insecurities, plagued with bad memories that run through my mind every time someone says they love me. How can you love a broken girl? A girl who is not whole. A girl who cannot even trust you because trusting always lead to heartbreak at the end of the day, feeling naive, played like a toy by the eyes of a beautiful boy. A girl who is paranoid because she knows there are prettier, funnier, smarter, nicer girls, and she thinks she could never add up, and if you want only her, there must be some sorta catch. And if you can get past these walls, break past the barriers I keep around to protect this damaged heart of mine, and you withstand every test I throw your way, if you stay even when I make you want to leave sometimes, just know that I will forever be yours, and I will hand over my battered heart in shaking hands, hoping it will be enough, hoping you will not break me even more. We are two broken people, and together we will be whole.
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Oct 16, 2013
Oct 16, 2013 at 2:11 PM UTC
Can You Love A Broken Girl?
All I know is that some days I find myself curled up on the floor, eyes red, lips shaking, thinking that if I could, I would have given up on myself long ago. So that is why I doubt you will love me. I cannot even love myself. I must start off by saying I am a frustrating person. You can swear I'm beautiful and that you'll never leave, but I will not believe you. Some days you will find me crying for no reason and think I am insane. You are right. I am a paradox. I am hot and cold, okay then shattered. I am a roller-coaster ride, a wild, reckless soul with a heartbreaking past and demons in my mind. Maybe I am looking for someone to save me, and maybe I am looking for someone to save. I haven't decided yet. I am tied down by my fears and insecurities, plagued with bad memories that run through my mind every time someone says they love me. How can you love a broken girl? A girl who is not whole. A girl who cannot even trust you because trusting always lead to heartbreak at the end of the day, feeling naive, played like a toy by the eyes of a beautiful boy. A girl who is paranoid because she knows there are prettier, funnier, smarter, nicer girls, and she thinks she could never add up, and if you want only her, there must be some sorta catch. And if you can get past these walls, break past the barriers I keep around to protect this damaged heart of mine, and you withstand every test I throw your way, if you stay even when I make you want to leave sometimes, just know that I will forever be yours, and I will hand over my battered heart in shaking hands, hoping it will be enough, hoping you will not break me even more. We are two broken people, and together we will be whole.
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Today I had a talk with someone that made me question my perspective on love. What is love to you? I asked a close friend and she said love is to be able to never get tired of a person and to appreciate their flaws. Love is to want to compromise. Then I asked her, even if they cheated on you? And she said no. As I had this certain talk with someone that made me question love, he started off by saying that in the bible, it is written that one should not marry someone who doesn't believe in the God of Abraham. Now what does that mean? He told me that in modern day, it means you should not marry a person who is not a Catholic. But why would God say that right? God loves you unconditionally. When I say unconditional, i mean God will love you no matter what, even if you commit ****** or any other sin. So he told me, "So 'believing in the God of Abraham' actually means understanding and believing in the idea of unconditional love. "Unconditional love is required to keep two people happy together. The bible says you cannot be together forever with someone who doesn't believe in unconditional love." Here's an example that this certain someone told me about. If you believe in conditional love and marry someone who doesn't believe in unconditional love, he will not understand where you are coming from. If you cheat on him, and ask him to take you back, he won't because he doesn't understand the idea of unconditional love. Rather, he'd be angry that you even have nerve to cheat on him and ask for his forgiveness. He would think that you're crazy and selfish to expect him to forgive you. "Why? Because in his world, there is no unconditional love. He doesn't understand it. Why? Because he doesn't know an example of unconditional love (God of Abraham) It's only logic." I asked him if he believes in unconditional love and he said "I believe that there is no other love than unconditional love." And that makes me question the concept of love. If I think about it, I'll love my family no matter what happens, even if they betray me. If i can't love my life long partner in the same way I love my family, then that is not love. I don't think I can tell anyone other than my family that I love them because unconditional love is the only kind of love. If someone cheated on me, I don't think I will be able to forgive them and take them back unless I love them unconditionally. He told me another scenario. Where your spouse cheats on you and you take him back because you love him unconditionally. He says he loves you but doesn't understand what unconditional love is. "Now overtime you look into his eyes and say that you love him, he'll smile or something like that but that idiot won't understand the gravity of what you are saying. He'll only think that you love him like this limited definition of love. It's like there is a glass wall between you and him. He can see you but can't hear you. But he is okay with it because he doesn't know that the glass wall can be taken out of the way. But you know better. Can you imagine how frustrating it'll be?" "You - I love you Him - I love you, too You - No! Not like that, I love you unconditionally Him - Yes, I love you too You - No no.. UNCONDITIONALLY Him - Huh? You - :(" So then I proceeded to ask him, "What do you do from there?" And he said, "Take a deep breath and continue loving unconditionally." At last, he said to me, "Good luck loving someone after this." I laughed. Because he was right. Now I have a total different definition of love. Unconditional love is a sacrifice, a beautiful sacrifice. And I'm not sure if I'm capable of making that sacrifice.
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Jan 31, 2015
Jan 31, 2015 at 4:03 PM UTC
Unconditional Love (A little story & different viewpoint) - 01/31/2015
Today I had a talk with someone that made me question my perspective on love. What is love to you? I asked a close friend and she said love is to be able to never get tired of a person and to appreciate their flaws. Love is to want to compromise. Then I asked her, even if they cheated on you? And she said no. As I had this certain talk with someone that made me question love, he started off by saying that in the bible, it is written that one should not marry someone who doesn't believe in the God of Abraham. Now what does that mean? He told me that in modern day, it means you should not marry a person who is not a Catholic. But why would God say that right? God loves you unconditionally. When I say unconditional, i mean God will love you no matter what, even if you commit ****** or any other sin. So he told me, "So 'believing in the God of Abraham' actually means understanding and believing in the idea of unconditional love. "Unconditional love is required to keep two people happy together. The bible says you cannot be together forever with someone who doesn't believe in unconditional love." Here's an example that this certain someone told me about. If you believe in conditional love and marry someone who doesn't believe in unconditional love, he will not understand where you are coming from. If you cheat on him, and ask him to take you back, he won't because he doesn't understand the idea of unconditional love. Rather, he'd be angry that you even have nerve to cheat on him and ask for his forgiveness. He would think that you're crazy and selfish to expect him to forgive you. "Why? Because in his world, there is no unconditional love. He doesn't understand it. Why? Because he doesn't know an example of unconditional love (God of Abraham) It's only logic." I asked him if he believes in unconditional love and he said "I believe that there is no other love than unconditional love." And that makes me question the concept of love. If I think about it, I'll love my family no matter what happens, even if they betray me. If i can't love my life long partner in the same way I love my family, then that is not love. I don't think I can tell anyone other than my family that I love them because unconditional love is the only kind of love. If someone cheated on me, I don't think I will be able to forgive them and take them back unless I love them unconditionally. He told me another scenario. Where your spouse cheats on you and you take him back because you love him unconditionally. He says he loves you but doesn't understand what unconditional love is. "Now overtime you look into his eyes and say that you love him, he'll smile or something like that but that idiot won't understand the gravity of what you are saying. He'll only think that you love him like this limited definition of love. It's like there is a glass wall between you and him. He can see you but can't hear you. But he is okay with it because he doesn't know that the glass wall can be taken out of the way. But you know better. Can you imagine how frustrating it'll be?" "You - I love you Him - I love you, too You - No! Not like that, I love you unconditionally Him - Yes, I love you too You - No no.. UNCONDITIONALLY Him - Huh? You - :(" So then I proceeded to ask him, "What do you do from there?" And he said, "Take a deep breath and continue loving unconditionally." At last, he said to me, "Good luck loving someone after this." I laughed. Because he was right. Now I have a total different definition of love. Unconditional love is a sacrifice, a beautiful sacrifice. And I'm not sure if I'm capable of making that sacrifice.
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I get frustrated sometimes When people don't follow lore Or the unspoken laws of RP When people refuse to consider others in their actions Or give insincere sentiments I get frustrated sometimes just because It's all very frustrating And sometimes, it makes me hate people But that's a bit irrational isn't it?
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Apr 28, 2015
Apr 28, 2015 at 2:56 PM UTC
Frustration
I don't have an issue with self confidence A repetitive lie I've begun to notice that I tell It's like the pain in my chest when I see other people's success compared to mine I ignore both When I read other writing I start out feeling so much inspiration Then I reflect back on my own and feel incompetent Because I can't write what they write I can feel what they feel through their words Something I wish I could accomplish It's jarring and frustrating I keep judging myself The very thing I've run from has become my life I can't escape the judgmental ways of this world not from my father not from my mother not from my brother, my sister, or anyone not even from myself Because like it or not, the judgment is me It's soaked into my veins Like an obsession, an addiction I wish I could pray it away, But I don't have any faith There is no God to save my soul To give me pity To take my sins away There is only scrutiny over my every move Whether it comes from within or someone else It's not something I can wash away with a prayer
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Jul 28, 2018
Jul 28, 2018 at 2:09 AM UTC
Judgment
Arguing      with me Is like         Arguing With a       **BRICK        WALL**
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Nov 23, 2014
Nov 23, 2014 at 6:26 PM UTC
Truth: I'm Frustrating (10W)
I hate it when dad comes home He is ***** and he has smelly feet Having spent long ours at construction site Smelly and filthy.. what a sight! I loath him, I look down on him When I walk pass the working site I turn my face, pretending he is out of sight I constantly accuse god, I said he isn't fair I want a different dad.. who drives a much better car goes to work wearing tie and suit The perfect dad I always think I should have... At school one day My best friend cried She was devastated Her rich dad left home left for good with a pretty woman... She has a house as big as a castle Fat bank accounts and pretty outfits Constantly travel around the world Houses, condos, hotels just name it where but she has no dad to cuddle anymore at night when she gets scared of storms and thunder I remember my dad's smelly feet instantly annoying.. disgusting.. frustrating.. This dad of mine I used to loath... But he works all day his sweat is his labor of love to bring food on the table... so we kids don't sleep hungry This dad of mine doesn't own expensive car has never been overseas has never worn a tailor made suit and but he loves us wholeheartedly... and always want to give only the best for us. This dad of mine whose smelly feet will annoy me forever but he loves his family truly and will never leave our side at anytime when we needed him most... I love you daddy All your perfect imperfections I am sorry................
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May 4, 2016
May 4, 2016 at 12:11 AM UTC
My daddy's smelly feet
Today I got a heartache, it wasn't so bad I told her my feelings but she just look back It ain't even that hurtful, it ain't even sad I just got to work out some things that I lack Today I got a heartache, twice I think too. Crushes aren't my strong spot. But I know what they meant When they said no, I smirked and just say thank you For their honesty and for my further development Today I got a heartache, it stings now I know I was hurting a lot and in progress, I reap what I sow Doubts start to drown and I begin to fall Should I keep on going or should I just stall. Today I got a heartache, it was subtle and clean But the girl is not bad, she was not mean She said I am sorry and things will be just fine I don't know if that's true. down the line My head suddenly fell down, and I start to frown How can I turn this around, I know that I should not be a clown Today I got a heartache, a devastating one for sure I was really rooting for myself, I got myself to endure All those efforts and all those what I make But she suddenly have someone now, and that I can't take Today I got a heartache, it seems so repeating When I try to change myself, I just keep on believing But again it fell flat and all went bad Will this continue while I am being sad? Today I got a heartache, it's dreary and frustrating I should get over it, I should just say it's okay But the feeling is gone and I am in dismay From staking everything, now I feel nothing Today... I got a heartache, and I broke my own promise It seems it always happens, like a cycle that keeps repeating The feeling of affection I long, and that is now I miss Please help me remember what is love and what should I believe in But the cycle continues until someone saves me
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Sep 9, 2018
Sep 9, 2018 at 3:35 PM UTC
Today I Got A Heartache
Today I got a heartache, it wasn't so bad I told her my feelings but she just look back It ain't even that hurtful, it ain't even sad I just got to work out some things that I lack Today I got a heartache, twice I think too. Crushes aren't my strong spot. But I know what they meant When they said no, I smirked and just say thank you For their honesty and for my further development Today I got a heartache, it stings now I know I was hurting a lot and in progress, I reap what I sow Doubts start to drown and I begin to fall Should I keep on going or should I just stall. Today I got a heartache, it was subtle and clean But the girl is not bad, she was not mean She said I am sorry and things will be just fine I don't know if that's true. down the line My head suddenly fell down, and I start to frown How can I turn this around, I know that I should not be a clown Today I got a heartache, a devastating one for sure I was really rooting for myself, I got myself to endure All those efforts and all those what I make But she suddenly have someone now, and that I can't take Today I got a heartache, it seems so repeating When I try to change myself, I just keep on believing But again it fell flat and all went bad Will this continue while I am being sad? Today I got a heartache, it's dreary and frustrating I should get over it, I should just say it's okay But the feeling is gone and I am in dismay From staking everything, now I feel nothing Today... I got a heartache, and I broke my own promise It seems it always happens, like a cycle that keeps repeating The feeling of affection I long, and that is now I miss Please help me remember what is love and what should I believe in But the cycle continues until someone saves me
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Author:  Kristen Stevens Sunday, June 21, 2009 Current mood:outside the loop And yes I know that's a plagiarization (real word??? no matter) of a stupid show...but you shouldn't watch it anyway so there. ME! Last week, as you may have heard was not of the fun, so this week in comparison rocked! And, yes, I am going to end every sentence with exclamations! (it's for the sarcastic effect don't panic) As such I’m going to let YOU write my entry…you’ll see. Once upon a time there was a ______ (adj.) girl. She loved her xbox very much. One day an evil ________(noun) descended on the precious object and smote it with the fury of _______(name of a god). The girl ___________(verb) for many minutes staring at the remains of her once beloved box. She promptly went to the other, less amusing, magic box and asked for _______(noun). She____________(adv.) navigated her way through treacherous and distracting destinations. As she approached the official site, a most ___________(adj.) thing occurred. The destination was ________(noun). Much like the construction in her hamlet, it prevented her from registering her distress. Days _______(noun) slowly, with still no relief for ________(pronoun). What’s a girl to do when  ________(frustrating situation)? In her profession the customers would not appreciate it if she came after them with___________(weapon of choice from popular video game). It had been one week, since the demise of _______(object). She no longer was _______(emotion). The days were literally ________(color). Rain fell _______(verb ending in –ing) the streets. There was still no reply from the xbox deity. Thus ends the tale of piteous woe. This girl has been considering swearing fealty to another more worthy gaming god! There are three systems and I own two of them! Don’t make me get the third! This is a threat! (not you guys, the __________{insert favorite utterance} at Microsoft) goes away quietly muttering to self unkind and unpleasant things that should be done to xbox distributors By the way, how was that I figure, if you’re going to take the time to read it. I should give you something fun to do at the same time. Who doesn’t like madlibs? Huh?
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Sep 21, 2010
Sep 21, 2010 at 8:23 AM UTC
Who had the best week ever?
Author:  Kristen Stevens Sunday, June 21, 2009 Current mood:outside the loop And yes I know that's a plagiarization (real word??? no matter) of a stupid show...but you shouldn't watch it anyway so there. ME! Last week, as you may have heard was not of the fun, so this week in comparison rocked! And, yes, I am going to end every sentence with exclamations! (it's for the sarcastic effect don't panic) As such I’m going to let YOU write my entry…you’ll see. Once upon a time there was a ______ (adj.) girl. She loved her xbox very much. One day an evil ________(noun) descended on the precious object and smote it with the fury of _______(name of a god). The girl ___________(verb) for many minutes staring at the remains of her once beloved box. She promptly went to the other, less amusing, magic box and asked for _______(noun). She____________(adv.) navigated her way through treacherous and distracting destinations. As she approached the official site, a most ___________(adj.) thing occurred. The destination was ________(noun). Much like the construction in her hamlet, it prevented her from registering her distress. Days _______(noun) slowly, with still no relief for ________(pronoun). What’s a girl to do when  ________(frustrating situation)? In her profession the customers would not appreciate it if she came after them with___________(weapon of choice from popular video game). It had been one week, since the demise of _______(object). She no longer was _______(emotion). The days were literally ________(color). Rain fell _______(verb ending in –ing) the streets. There was still no reply from the xbox deity. Thus ends the tale of piteous woe. This girl has been considering swearing fealty to another more worthy gaming god! There are three systems and I own two of them! Don’t make me get the third! This is a threat! (not you guys, the __________{insert favorite utterance} at Microsoft) goes away quietly muttering to self unkind and unpleasant things that should be done to xbox distributors By the way, how was that I figure, if you’re going to take the time to read it. I should give you something fun to do at the same time. Who doesn’t like madlibs? Huh?
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Sleep depravation leads to many fun things, Like commas, And sea dragons, And low self esteem, Being happy leads to several exciting things! Like exclamation marks! And dolphins! And a sexually transmitted disease! Anger leads to lots of frustrating things. Like periods. And humans. And bullets handed out for free. So with all these great feelings, creating such magic! How in the world could life be so tragic.
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May 17, 2014
May 17, 2014 at 1:29 AM UTC
,!.
I'm sorry to all the people I hurt while I was hurting I'm sorry for last minute cancelled plans And ghosting your text messages You've done nothing wrong I just can't get myself together enough to answer you right now. I'm sorry for all of my triggers. And that sometimes my triggers, triggered you too. I know I have a lot of them, I know it is frustrating Believe it or not I've actually come a long way with them though... I'm sorry for the days i was too irritable and short with you I understand it wasnt fair. I'm sorry that the things that upset me, most of the time wouldn't upset other people. I'm a very emotional person, this is a blessing sometimes but also a curse. I'm sorry I see things black or white. I've been hurt so many times, I've built a wall for people in the grey areas. You're either all the way in, or out of my life completely. I'm sorry this comes off as dramatic, and unrealistic. But if you know me well enough, you'd understand why I see it this way. Regardless of all of this, I'm sorry that I pushed you away because of it. Because of my, me-ness. So far away. When really I needed you right here. But this is what I do when I'm hurting. I hurt you because I'm hurting. None of that is fair. I'm sorry if you were one of those people.
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Aug 7, 2019
Aug 7, 2019 at 3:29 PM UTC
To all the people I've hurt while I was hurting
*Some people will approach you. You will let them, and they will hurt you. But here’s the twist: they won’t want to. Their intentions are sweet and pure, like petals that drip in honey. Flowers; but the kind that are covered in thorns. But here’s the twist: they do not know they have thorns. “Where are you!” they will cry, standing in the quiet café you would meet. But they will not find you. You hide, hearing their soft whimpers, and you think, “Oh, what should I do?” But you see, you cannot tell them about their thorns. You cannot say ‘you are unsafe for me’ without breaking their heart and yours with the truth, the crushing truth. For thorns only fall when a soul has grown enough, and theirs has not grown where yours has; “Please speak to me! I don’t understand!” and this is why they do not yet have the capacity to understand your silence. You hide still, and you cover your ears, but oh, how painful it can be, when flowers are so stubborn! “Shush”! you want to tell them, “Shush! You cannot yet hear the truth! Stop calling my name, I’ve little patience left! Do not hurt yourself, do not hurt me!” The thorns that ***** the honey-kissed petals that fall. Oh, how frustrating! -to hide from flowers who only wish to love, but have not yet learned how. Oh, how sorrowful! -to see a hand bleed when you caress it, to be covered in thorns, and to not even know it! Yes, how awful it is, to hurt another. I will tell you something. I have pricked the ones I love, when I only wanted to give, and I have hurt flowers who all but withered away at my silence- whose souls had not grown where mine had. So you see, I am both the flower and the Other, so I understand. And so here it is, here is what I want to say: Shush, flower. Stop calling their name. You cannot yet hear the truth. Do not look for it; for it will crush you. Do not hurt yourself, do not hurt them. Shush; the pain you seek to **** will not wane with force. Shush, flower, quiet your wants. Listen instead; listen to the lessons of the universe, grow. For only when you have grown will you be able to understand. Shush, flower, and know, that one day you will sigh at the memory of your pain, and the thorns will have fallen from your body; and flower, oh flower, you will be able to hold their hand. *
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Jan 5, 2017
Jan 5, 2017 at 12:19 AM UTC
On Being Covered In Thorns
*Some people will approach you. You will let them, and they will hurt you. But here’s the twist: they won’t want to. Their intentions are sweet and pure, like petals that drip in honey. Flowers; but the kind that are covered in thorns. But here’s the twist: they do not know they have thorns. “Where are you!” they will cry, standing in the quiet café you would meet. But they will not find you. You hide, hearing their soft whimpers, and you think, “Oh, what should I do?” But you see, you cannot tell them about their thorns. You cannot say ‘you are unsafe for me’ without breaking their heart and yours with the truth, the crushing truth. For thorns only fall when a soul has grown enough, and theirs has not grown where yours has; “Please speak to me! I don’t understand!” and this is why they do not yet have the capacity to understand your silence. You hide still, and you cover your ears, but oh, how painful it can be, when flowers are so stubborn! “Shush”! you want to tell them, “Shush! You cannot yet hear the truth! Stop calling my name, I’ve little patience left! Do not hurt yourself, do not hurt me!” The thorns that ***** the honey-kissed petals that fall. Oh, how frustrating! -to hide from flowers who only wish to love, but have not yet learned how. Oh, how sorrowful! -to see a hand bleed when you caress it, to be covered in thorns, and to not even know it! Yes, how awful it is, to hurt another. I will tell you something. I have pricked the ones I love, when I only wanted to give, and I have hurt flowers who all but withered away at my silence- whose souls had not grown where mine had. So you see, I am both the flower and the Other, so I understand. And so here it is, here is what I want to say: Shush, flower. Stop calling their name. You cannot yet hear the truth. Do not look for it; for it will crush you. Do not hurt yourself, do not hurt them. Shush; the pain you seek to **** will not wane with force. Shush, flower, quiet your wants. Listen instead; listen to the lessons of the universe, grow. For only when you have grown will you be able to understand. Shush, flower, and know, that one day you will sigh at the memory of your pain, and the thorns will have fallen from your body; and flower, oh flower, you will be able to hold their hand. *
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Today a year is over Today a year I see Today I remembered the day I married a chimpanzee I’m not sure if it was love at first sight But somehow we were smitten Our fate was in the stars And that’s where it was written People were always curious And they wondered how it could be That I had fallen in love With my darling Chimpanzee His undying love for bananas And hanging by the bars My chimpanzee was always hyper And loved to drive fast cars Sometimes things got difficult And sometimes we’d disagree It’s kind of frustrating when you are arguing And all he says is “oo oo aa aa eee” When we’re on holiday He’d pack his suitcase tight With bananas and oranges And all sorts of monkey delights Although his monkey quirks Sometimes make mad I knew what I signed up for And sometimes it also makes me glad He takes the time to listen He takes the time to be A good loving husband Even though he’s a Chimpanzee My Chimpanzee husband is awesome And he’s the best for me Today we’re eating a banana cake As we celebrate our anniversary.
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Nov 25, 2014
Nov 25, 2014 at 3:21 AM UTC
I Married a Chimpanzee
What’s more depressing than darkness, More shameful than a golden fool, As hopeless as a castrated bull, As frustrating, as a stalemate, in chess?
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Feb 6, 2013
Feb 6, 2013 at 7:23 AM UTC
Outcast.
I am good today things are busy Classes are a little frustrating but generally good. How about you my friends? Do you have any hobbies? What are they? I would like to be a great lover I want to live in my poetry forever I would like to be a world traveler I want to be a good friend I want to talk to the world I don't want to be The End...
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Oct 29, 2017
Oct 29, 2017 at 3:25 PM UTC
Any Hobbies?
The smooth surface of a snooze button Probably pressed enough for two people Lastingly longs for a lift of his head Heavenly hopes in hand the button wafts herbaceous Scents seducing his sack of sullen The button beckons in unbearable vain Wishing his waste of space could find work Or motivation to move about the mattress Cause cheerlessness corrupts even carefree things Including myself inclined to intervene So I will surround the room with sound In a frustrating futile fling of furry Until I encumber bereavement from bills I beckon upon.
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Nov 15, 2011
Nov 15, 2011 at 1:23 PM UTC
Benign Unemployment
It can be Frustrating to look so mean When Success presents your Certificate And Honest Fans some to most turn so Green When their Tangent Voices are celibate Now my only Say to unsoak the Blame Is when that Sponge within Speaks without Words You know it as HEART; That Character sane, Serene discharge of Flavoured Bees and Birds Even when Flowers rebel and Worms spit Still your Compassion can embrace them all Believe this: In, to Out, Around and Fit Past the Royal Egg survive a Great Fall. It's been there in you; And all of this Time My Lesson to learn from Wise Owls behind.
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Mar 10, 2013
Mar 10, 2013 at 8:47 PM UTC
SONNET TRIBUTE SUNDRY - EIGHT - TOM DALEY
Every day is the same. Wake up late. Procrastinate. Rush to get ready, board a bus. Go to school. And wait. I’ve never understood Why people are so heartless. People swearing and shouting and arguing at each other. I just walk down the halls, trying to block out all the sound. People ask me questions a lot. “Why don’t you talk? Can you even speak?” Yes I can, but it’s not like I don’t want to talk. I can’t, because there’s no point in it. You don’t know what it’s like to hate your own voice. To feel like you won’t be understood ‘Cause your voice is too soft and deep and quiet And you have a stupid lisp that impedes with everything. You don’t know what it’s like to have people talk about you. “He only talks to one person,” they say. It makes me feel like **** But nobody cares how I feel. Every day is the same. I try my best to hide my feelings. But sometimes things slip out When I don’t want them to. I cried once in class. Put my head down on the desk. After I was called a name by someone. After no one would let me sit down on the bus. I’m exhausted all the time. I don’t want to do anything. I just want to sleep all day. It’s not like I’ll do anything else with my time. I want to connect with people. Even if I don’t understand them. But it’s so difficult When you face roadblocks every day. Every day is the same. My mind races with thoughts “You’re going to ***** up. You’re an idiot. A loser.” “A worthless waste of space in this world.” “Don’t answer that question, he won’t hear you.” They tell me to speak up, but I can’t. It’s like something’s constricting me. It’s the anxiety, and all those stupid thoughts. I’m not happy anymore. I forgot the last time I was. Can’t do anything anymore. The spark I had is gone. It faded away with all my passions and desires. I don’t see the point in doing anything. Sometimes I think about the end. I know nobody would care if I’m gone. But then again, I can’t do that to her. Not when all I want is to spend time with my girl. I wish she was here. I wish we could talk. One day isn’t enough for everything I want to say. It’s irritating, frustrating, this distance is killing me. But I know it’s not her fault, and I’m not mad. If it wasn’t for her, I don’t know where I’d be. If it wasn’t for me, she wouldn’t be the person she is now. It’s amazing, how she’s able to survive with those parents of hers. While I’m just a speck in a vast void of nothingness. I hate them. I hate them so much. They call her names, they insult who she is. She’s just trying to be who she wants to be. Why would you try and strip that from her? She’s precious to me, can’t you see? I tried so hard to get you to understand. But you ignored it all, you never believed me. So I’m done trying. There’s no point. She’s the only one that makes me happy. When I’m around her, everything just fades away. My fears, my sorrow, my stupid thoughts. I wish I could be by her side forever. I miss her so much. It’s like my heart is breaking when we’re apart. I know, somehow, we’ll get through this. And it will all be worth it. Someday, I’ll be by your side. Someday, your lips will touch mine. I know one day, we’ll finally be together. And we’ll never be apart from that point on.
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Oct 3, 2018
Oct 3, 2018 at 10:27 PM UTC
emptying my thoughts
Every day is the same. Wake up late. Procrastinate. Rush to get ready, board a bus. Go to school. And wait. I’ve never understood Why people are so heartless. People swearing and shouting and arguing at each other. I just walk down the halls, trying to block out all the sound. People ask me questions a lot. “Why don’t you talk? Can you even speak?” Yes I can, but it’s not like I don’t want to talk. I can’t, because there’s no point in it. You don’t know what it’s like to hate your own voice. To feel like you won’t be understood ‘Cause your voice is too soft and deep and quiet And you have a stupid lisp that impedes with everything. You don’t know what it’s like to have people talk about you. “He only talks to one person,” they say. It makes me feel like **** But nobody cares how I feel. Every day is the same. I try my best to hide my feelings. But sometimes things slip out When I don’t want them to. I cried once in class. Put my head down on the desk. After I was called a name by someone. After no one would let me sit down on the bus. I’m exhausted all the time. I don’t want to do anything. I just want to sleep all day. It’s not like I’ll do anything else with my time. I want to connect with people. Even if I don’t understand them. But it’s so difficult When you face roadblocks every day. Every day is the same. My mind races with thoughts “You’re going to ***** up. You’re an idiot. A loser.” “A worthless waste of space in this world.” “Don’t answer that question, he won’t hear you.” They tell me to speak up, but I can’t. It’s like something’s constricting me. It’s the anxiety, and all those stupid thoughts. I’m not happy anymore. I forgot the last time I was. Can’t do anything anymore. The spark I had is gone. It faded away with all my passions and desires. I don’t see the point in doing anything. Sometimes I think about the end. I know nobody would care if I’m gone. But then again, I can’t do that to her. Not when all I want is to spend time with my girl. I wish she was here. I wish we could talk. One day isn’t enough for everything I want to say. It’s irritating, frustrating, this distance is killing me. But I know it’s not her fault, and I’m not mad. If it wasn’t for her, I don’t know where I’d be. If it wasn’t for me, she wouldn’t be the person she is now. It’s amazing, how she’s able to survive with those parents of hers. While I’m just a speck in a vast void of nothingness. I hate them. I hate them so much. They call her names, they insult who she is. She’s just trying to be who she wants to be. Why would you try and strip that from her? She’s precious to me, can’t you see? I tried so hard to get you to understand. But you ignored it all, you never believed me. So I’m done trying. There’s no point. She’s the only one that makes me happy. When I’m around her, everything just fades away. My fears, my sorrow, my stupid thoughts. I wish I could be by her side forever. I miss her so much. It’s like my heart is breaking when we’re apart. I know, somehow, we’ll get through this. And it will all be worth it. Someday, I’ll be by your side. Someday, your lips will touch mine. I know one day, we’ll finally be together. And we’ll never be apart from that point on.
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I have to throw up walls... I have to refuse... I wish I didn't have to, But that's not possible; At least not with you. I love you and I've learned. I can't give you everything. Or you would just use me up. The frustrating part? You're unaware. Or your not listening. It's the same either way. It's for my own good And yours too Your reaction confirms I'm doing the right thing Or you'd never respect my answer (not that you really do now) but I respect myself enough to say it. I've been too lenient with you. A realization that comes too late. Like a mother and her child Realizing her mistake during the tantrum. The realization comes with the knowledge that you present understanding until met with opposition. Contradictory texts and I now realize, painfully, you knew it was a big ask ....you just weren't expecting me to say no.... You don't respect my time. That much is clear. I just wish I realized it sooner.
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Apr 3, 2024
Apr 3, 2024 at 9:40 PM UTC
Family Love
Your curls are Gulf Coast weather, rarely cloudless and sunny, each frustrating loop a messy ice-cream scoop cascade. They look like a love affair, as sex-centered as your star sign, too-friendly, sunday-sensuous, meandering into ***** knots. Every sweet-floral-fruity custard you toss them in is as well deserved as the satin on your lashes and the salve that slicks your orbicular body.
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Apr 17, 2019
Apr 17, 2019 at 4:28 PM UTC
Self Love