I saw you today
for the very
frst time.

la première

I cannot fall in love (again)
I cannot see your smile (encore)
feel no more.

I can only look on
to write
these words
in place
of you (a dream)

words to hold
empty spaces
that appear
when you walk away

à demain

...a dream of you
a false hope
of you.
a vision of what could be of you
(and me)

fantasise

I can only look on
to write
these words

to only
fall in love with poetry

vous êtes poésie

in place of
(l'idée de)
you and me.

aged 14 they took me to this place

first thoughts when they took me

i was going to my grave

needles from which id never awake

police took me fully restained

i walked though the door

what **** i aint mad

you got this wrong

its normal what these voices are saying

now

im nursed in my room

vallys and olazapine

daze and confused

every bit of energy

is to fight and refuse

now im thinking

all day how am i getting back

i need my fix





from four days

i told them openup

the

window and second floor dow

n dropped to knees

now im struggling now

how am i gunna wal

k i need to sit down

thats the thing

about my frst time each voice of this psychosis there was nothing

that was wrong with me

n my thoughts were sound
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still not understanding
but their circling

around aint taking thses ******* meds

are they ******* mad im sane im sane
******* listen

i aint being ******* restarined
first guy that tries
i wont hestate
i have a shard of glass
i was hoping to save
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now their surrounding
me
now and its all getting tense
no idea which way to face now

then boom down
injection,s placed
room spinning out
i'm losing focus
the voices are easing but never will they leave one eye open one eye shut
    in to the deepest endless sleep im falling i'm falling waking up nightmares
i'm waking up
in cold sweats overwhelmed with stress without warning