Do I even matter anymore?
to anybody
I’ve been peoples firsts
and their last

First friend
first love

Last person to see
Last person to care about

Could they care less?
Nope
cuz theres nothing to care about 

just a poor helpless girl
abused
depressed
suicidal

unwanted
unimportant
not needed

if only they knew

everything

but they don;t 
cuz nobodys got time for that, right?

sitting here
writing this today

staring at my fiingers typing
scarred
stabbed
scratched

these hands don’t mean anything

hands of hers
abused
suicidal

why do i care so much
why me?

why am i so caring?