"fif" poems
1.
small talk
legs flayed
she says
nothing
a lady
says nothing
right foot on the dreaming wall
shift,
2.
she says i
could have been a son
tap the ***** bone, twice
will my knee,
ankle bend, sweet tooth?
point out where
the corners slope
here, bare
3.
I hate how everyone here has
two fif teens
four thur tees
I have no time
and half a poem
4.
will you be here?
one *** em
5.
the hills know i
could have been a son
my chest is sharp i
am not soft like her
i cannot hold this pose
as long
So come.
6.
prodigal who?
placeless,
desperate curve
hug the lonely back
it's one for tee.
7.
no hills. no
streams no trees no
arms
no fingered palms inside me
useless curve,
reach.
8.
i am the sun
lunchtime, my
appointment
tomorrow, placeless
prodigal
one *** em, when
I am softest when all
edges are hot to burn
softness you want to hold
but won't.
Nov 6, 2013
Nov 6, 2013 at 5:12 PM UTC
We're moving house— he takes you a-
Part, piece by piece, picking, pulling, long thin
Steel supports from your joints. He holds you together,
unforgiving tenderness in steel arms as you crumple into a
pile of wood.
It's done— he waves a *****
Driver, drilling in reverse, you watch him work
Metal out from your bones, skeleton scattering limbs about the
floor, which he meticulously collects and arranges, good as
new, unassembled.
Thanks for the help, you've been——it's alright, see you soon.
Next time, I'll take the bed.
We're moving house— you are driven a-
Round, missing a turn, new place, unfamiliar
Sights you do not see, your eyes on the frame in the back (of
your mind) as the van stops and your bare bones unload
onto a trolley.
It's done— you pay a hundred in two fif-
Ties, broken like the bed tugged through the new
Doorway and left in the living room, with the parts laid out
neatly beside on cold marble, readied for examination and
elimination, remnants
of a time past—
When, can you collect your——next week at the earliest,
evening, Wednesday. I'll bring a van.
Dec 17, 2021
Dec 17, 2021 at 4:35 AM UTC
When the door slams they put a name and number card outside,
it has a large red F stamped on it.
This is called “F-Watch”…it means they think you’re suicidal!!!!
They check every 15mins…
..fif..teen minutes…
.try to stay calm!….focus on a constant!
…OK….focus
Right…..focus….every 15mins I jump out of my skin!
What causes that?
…..it feels like a habit…
BANG!
There it goes again…
the eyeball in the door…
unblinking…
staring at my shape on the floor…
little does the eye know…I have dug a tunnel…
it reaches beyond the wall and the fence…
it reaches far past the range of the CCTV……
it surfaces deep in the forest
all I need to do is close my eyes
and I’m running down that tunnel
which increases in size every time I use it…
the exit is via a door in an ancient oak tree…
above the door, neatly carved is my family name
and an hour-glass of salt
that is always 15 mins from running out…
I create a mind-map that helps me
find my way back through the forest
to the tree in time to keep my appointment
with the eye…
the unblinking eye…
assesses my body
sprawled on the rubber mattress,
unaware of the trees that surround me …
that protect me
that shield me from its Gorgon gaze…
and days pass into months
and the months flutter toward the light
which lays on the other side of the darkness…
darkness being a measure in old money.
Then just as suddenly
I find myself reprieved…
relocated for two eternities
to the Mirrored Halls
of the Black Widow
to absolve the sins of my forefathers…
the eye in the door blinks
something is different…
the eye now has the a sense smell!
and it can detect female pheromones
3 days ride away by horse…
it smells Norse…and Celt……
it smells ……
it smells…
its own mortality…
15 minutes pass……
it blinks again…
it breathes deeply and detects children…
two born of royal blood and one of angels…
it blinks…
the body on the mattress moves…
it stretches…
turns over…
now the eye can hear…
it hears the rustle of leaves,
smells breast milk and skunk
from the sweat of the punk…
an assault to its senses…
it primes its defenses…
and…
releases a tear…
a solitary tear …
laden with just enough salt
to take its pain away…
time passes…
the hourglass releases one more grain of salt
Jun 12, 2019
Jun 12, 2019 at 7:41 AM UTC
Fif-ty-steps, it only takes three syllables for me to see you.
Breath, it only takes three muffled breaths to prepare myself as I look at you.
Beats, it only takes three fast beats for me to know how much I longed for you.
Three years, that it took me to realize what I feel for you.
I-don’t-know
I-don’t-know
But it only takes three words for me to say I-like-you.
Apr 11, 2020
Apr 11, 2020 at 10:05 AM UTC