I am my mind, my memory and my mask
I am my heart, my head and my hand
I am my soul, my sanity and my sin
I am my secret, my sorrow and my skin
I am my sight, my senses and my stomach
I am my future, my fingers and my flesh
I am my grave, my growth and my guts
I am my past, my present and my pain
I am my bitterness, my blood and my brain
I am my words, my wounds and my will
I am my sweets, my *** and my scull
I am my thoughts, my tears and my trust
I am my loneliness, my lungs and my lust
I am my love, my lover and my lies
I am my emotions, my echoes and my eyes
I am my Gods, my groans and my ghosts
I am my fears, my freedom and false
I am my familly, my form and my force
I am my satisfaction, my swears and my scores
I am my organs, my oddness and my OCD
I am my disease, my Demons and my destiny
I am my prison, my prayers and my pest
I am my ******, my madness and my mess
I am my house, my humanity and my hormones
I am my battles, my body and my bones

I am what I am made from

I am made from my parents
Therefore
I am my mother and I am my father

I am made from the dust
Therefore
I am the air and I am the ash

I am made from just nothing
Therefore
I am just nothing

when i see people i mostly see wrackages,
same **** different packages,
they never search for messages,
except on their smartphones.
Addicts...
I can't stand it.
So i put on a cloak like a wizard,
fly trough blizzards,
smile to lizards.
My familly are good folks fighters,rebels,
you can't buy them with papers,
you can't fool them with labels.

You are all after me
Telling me my life is perfect
As if i plant that in your brains
As if as soon as i feel down
I have all of you reminding me it's perfect
it's a dream

--
Really now i just feel alone
Right waiting for my familly to come home
How can i feel so alone next to the one i love
Afraid to be stuck
Back to a confort zone i don't feel confortable

--
I pannick
I need control over this emotion and very soon
--

Calm dow
Brief

You know it will all be alright
Remember to feel every moment
--

Actually I recovering from my bad side
I know it hurts
Not wondering why i feel what i feel
I am just fighting fall in love with you

birthday fun, moet pops open
dinner, clubs you should pop in
beaches, sunset, mountains how are you ?
christmas, cheers familly how about you ?
it can be perfect, all my friends loud and merry
but im not the one you're gonna marry
so what if its perfect if you're  not there
i miss you like air
you only ever miss it when it's gone
then gasp, like waiting for the dawn

Just stay.

Sitting there in the midlde of the day.
She looked at him . '-Im lonely..Can you please stay?''
He took her hand and showed her the way.
Smiling, laughing, loving.. Thats how they spend they're stay.
Untill he turned away from her life and day.
Time passes by and all that she can say is '-Hey, im okay..''
Her bed at night is empty. That empty spot, is her envy.
To have a familly, and be needed like anyone else would be.
Darkness takes place & takes you away without you're suitcase. Ready to dissapear?
Here's start the journey of her new fear. Just stay and take me away from this horrible next day its all she can say for you today.

-Ketta

A friend once asked me something everyone has,
and I responded the same
because if it's the same,
everyone will believe it's true

That's what your familly believes
And thats what you start to believe,
there was no need for them to know
just how broken someone actually is

day to day month to month
repeat and fall
falling blinds
and believe you're happy blinded

bullying, abuse, drugs
and pain
say pain helps
and self-harm never feeling satisfied

why is everyone smilling when you want to cry?
you say you're fine but want to be noticed,
believe you're fine
and your mind will be convinced

you're okay, you're okay
repeat this phrase
just like a spell
that will maybe save you from yourself

Now you're standing on a rooftop,
convinced it doesn't matter anyway
because there is no need for them to know
just how broken you are

you jump
you remember
the worried faces of the people who asked
who you never though actually cared

you fall and see the sun
you don't remember the last time you saw it,
below are the faces of people who cared
you see them desperate like never before

what you feel is relief
followed by instant regret
was it worth it,
was it not

everything fell into black,
forever you fall and fall
never seeing how free you can be,
always yearning, always searching

wanting the life you will never have
or at least you wanted it,
now everything is in black
it is too late.