LOVE**

Love is clairvoyance.
It foresees you and me.

It’s from a chosen nation
and uses high-voltage
language.

In the National Library
it renders even
illiterate books speechless.

In the avalanche of choirs
it discovers an echo
of euphoria and death.

And when it seizes you
try to be at home.
Or somewhere like that.
Just as long as you meet each other.

and at the end of this session, i'm going to gorge on homemade banana cake, and a glass of milk; hmm, so that's that.

hannah hallysem, chloe vevrier, rosalia verne, dakota skye, nadine jansen, milena d., katrina jade, alison tyler, sasha foxxx, noelle easton, shay fox, kourtney kane, aletta ocean, lexi belle, aria giovanni, maritza mendez, silvia loret, laura lion, ashley graham, latex lucy, alexis texas,  dana dearmond, abella danger, karmen karma, jezebelle bond, keisha grey, karmen grey, jelena jensen, carmen croft, aneta buena, ines cudna, ewa sonnet, emma green, louisa marie, ivy nedkova, karolina pliskova, emma green, louisa marie, ivy nedkova, rooney mara, claire forlani, kelley scarlett, malina may, amirah adara, phoenix marie, foxy di., kenya lust, kiera winters, christy mack, paige delight, faith nelson, darya klishina, sand morris, alysha newman, silvia saint, adele stephens, deven davis, ewa wyrwal, tanya song, synn wagner, christina lucci, hunter leigh, lynda leigh, gemma atkinson, mulani rivera, sarah harding...
        
   all those "expectations" mingling with a *babuska...
gotta have a babuska after a list like that...
      looks nice, doesn't it?
         see how honest other people can become...
      that's as honest as you're going to get:
i'm hardly an out-of-the-closet gay / intellectual...
and this is hardly the most desireds genetical "encyclopedia"
worth reciting...
      but at least there's no closet,
and certainly no skeleton in it...
  to be honest, i'd love to see a compendium of
a woman's favourite *****,
   oh sure, i can switch off...
    i just start thinking about cow *******
and milk sacks; not that hard;
  ugh... furr... itchy... stroking a cow is like
scratching your skin after the barbers...
milking a cow: ah... another subject
of investigation...
                        why do men not bother being
breast-fed, to out-compete the babe?
seems a shame to leave a vacuum for
capitalism to not investigate, don't you think?

My contri people
I tire for this mata
Person run go there na wahala
Person waka come here
I beg wen I see
Serious kasala

My contri people
Story full ground
Na so Aisha for detim side
Dem no fit go school
Dem no even fit sleep well
Unto say these people
Dem call BH
Fit just scatter ground

My contri people
We young soji people
We bin reason am say
If we hustle go school
Lock up for morning and afternoon
Softly arrange Ewa Agoyin for night
We believe say our Suru go lere


My contri people
Person turn ogbologbo for school
Sake of say na wetin
Sake of say na so so strike, haba
My contri people
Dis no be story for us o
Na story for the gods

E no get any work for any where
How person wan do Bad guys
Pepper no rest

Day before yesterday
Yomi just come lament
Unto say him chikala done follow one Chidi
Way come from America
International
Yomi say Shade say
'' I am not getting younger
   My biological time is ticking
   You are 37 still leaving with your parents
    I hope you understand''

My guy breakdown
Come to think of the mata
Shade get truth for her talk
She done tire, she done try , she done wait
If na your sista nko, omo na to port na
She got to move on mehnn
I no blame her

Now dem say na election
******* mehnn
As you see me so, I no send
Dem say DEMOCRACY
Demo wat
I say demo fire

My contri people
I NO VOTE
I VOTE O, I NO VOTE O
Who go win go still win
We cry o, die o, shout o
Dem go just look us like lucozade

My country people
people dey bailout
Go yonder
I send dem now
Because that na the way forward
Ds mata no be today
Story full ground
My countri people



Written By; Esther Esuga

Whhat if,
What if the sun that warms a earth is lost and we search for it apart?

What if those frigid memory visit again and it beyond my furnace?
Now time is falling us apart
But how do I caution this nature
chasing out your warmth to foray with the sun.

What if the sun ceased to smile
How do I erase those days off my coming days?
Oh! sun, what if you ceased to smile?
Then this solitary love becomes mine.

You are a sun
Who will comfort the snail to live on without a shell?
Who will solace those joyful trees to live on without their crown?
Who will console ekuro when ewa set off a voyage of no return?
Who will console a soul whose breath has been set free?

You are a sun
Shine on my day,
Ever let your sun smile.

And burning in the starry field, the blinding turn of Einstein's UFO exceeds the warm air felt by the mother of the morning of 2 memories; the method (10) minutes of L.L.L: minutes, until the minutes of the King (8) Apple (261) 2000: (2): 800 time (43) 800, 000, 000 -2000km from 1 to 40, 50, 50, SE1, 2000, Tanya's rights? September 9, 1964 USA 40 40 40, 50, 50, 50, 50 and 50, 2000, 2000, 2000, 2000, 2 (000 800 27 64 (261) 400-1000 prostitutes IV 00) 64, 240, 240; 64, 64, 50, 50, 50, 50 prostitutes, 50, 50, 50, (9) - 2 240 377 1964 1964 1600 1964 Mike and Apollo 33 prostitutes in Armenia. 50 and 2 (50) 26 twice oz) 900 minutes - !!!!! April 2, California, USA UU 2, 1964 3:50 Brazil 50, 50, 50, 70, 50 minutes of S 2 (0 3366 33 1 hour 50 minutes 2 hours 64 houses 21240217240 64 64 1964 1964 1964 1664 G 26 minutes looking for salaries) 377 240 HG at 2 km 2), 900 minutes, one! ! ! ! Brazil, 3:50, 50, 50, 70, 50 minutes (5) April 1, California, USA. UU -Unnunuu, or any State in the United States (7): 92-64 64 (5) September 9, 64 bonds month of April (9) 270 (51) 250 37.33; 2, 3, 10, 26 (7) 900-8 February 10, 2010 Brazil (43.5% to 79, 1964, 50 (64) 377 270 21 55 55 250 km 2 hours, 5 minutes below 13 points (33) 900 Mary - 8. Mexico 2: 21: 2 3 4 5 8 K to 896 minutes 13, 24, 50, 50, 50, 50, 50 minutes after 9.2000. (2) 800 (43) 26 2 1 LL 1600 to 377,330 1,564,000 war question of 1964 km) minutes a day? ! 64 64 64 64 240 2240 GBH new products; 240: 64: 1: 64: 64: 64: 64: 2 and 1,900 meters. 26 km from the city 10-23 m 2-2377 - IT !!!!! Apollo 50, 50 minutes and 50 minutes of 64, 64, 70, 50 minutes (5) 37.33 3.10 (9) 10: 250 soldiers, 2 hours, 10 minutes and 10 minutes after 20 battle minutes 270 City 51 7)) 2 0.240 13.140 2240141400 love? (8) 900 Hitloc Corporation 12,2,50,50,7 7km / 2600-9 OK? April 1, prostitutes played 4 minutes and 50 minutes, 5 - (8) 507 (April 50 girl (8), 507 (1790) 8:40 (80) 40: 1900: 1900, 2000, 10 minutes and 50 minutes, 411; 1964 music 5 minutes, 10 minutes, 10 minutes, 10 minutes, 1:10:50, 50, 50, 50, 50 minutes and 6: 1000 (2) 800 (43), 50 and 50) 261 (27) - 800 ) 400 1000 2 00 64 near the hospital, 64, 64, 50, 50, 50, 50, 377, 33 1,964 1,964 1,964 today EWA Apollo 50 ml / 1600 Page 26: - California, April 2, 1964, United States United, 3:50 Brazil, 50, 50, 50, 70, 50 minutes, WS2) 3366 (64) 964 64 64 64 points and 50 minutes high-240-117, 964, October 21, 1964 - 240 1964 Search 1600 points 1 2 26,377 thousand. 240 g, grade 2, 2, 2 h) 900 minutes, one! ! ! ! 3:50 Brazil, 50, 50, 70 and 50 minutes (5), California, from April 1, 50, 50: 50-50: 50 (50) 270 minutes to 64 to 12 miles of prostitutes and pimps 2 hours; 8 hours 7HG 1964 miles per hour, 50hg 896 391 2600 9 (50) 250 m / 12 g of 1: 377, 3, 8-33) 900-8) 3 American women love for many years the white woman of Red Star City's physicality, and its mother are of a different kind of music, day and night of death and of its young green girls in Latin America, Africa, three speak English; Europe, Asia and precious water in Russia, black; Italian goats speaking English. This is the color of the blood play prostitutes who work in the fire's changing colors, George giving them a change in the brightness of the golden head of the hot dog's friends; The Greek story of the child in the cold yellow and blue air of the Sun. The money from St. THOMAS is the result. Julius officiates eleven ceremonies in my life while in Kenya in the garden in the north; where will be in the shadow of the castle of ****** identity and the sacred image of the state of the dead. Drinking, Robert changes. UA is a place where Baloo is in the park open to the heroic call from the mirror to the mirror's Heat of the dance, while Igor still has the fingers to write thee poetry.

1000: 377 ****** 12 13 0.250 8-33 minutes), 900-8), New Mexico 2 3 2 ****** 3 4 5 13 21 10 minutes, 896hg, 24, 50, 50, 50, 50, 50, 50, 50 minutes , 2000 1: 9: (2) 800 (43 students answer 1) (261) 377 330 ****** 000 1564 1600 January 26, 1964 World War 1 to 2 minutes per day :) 900km from God? !!!!!! 64 64 64 64 64 (6) 1 ***** 464 64 240 Products GBH 2240 64: 64: 64: 64: 64: 64: 2 and 1900 meters. And after that, you were 2 to 23 meters away and 26 miles on it 10 - 1 do !! !!!!! 50 minutes and 50 minutes, 10 minutes; ****** and 10 minutes: 2) 2: 2 141 240 400 13140240 love. (8) 900 12 Hitloc commotion 7, 50 2.50 km / 2,600 9 Good? April 1, 50 minutes, 4 minutes ****** and 5 - (8) 507 (17.9.9) April 50 girls and 8, 507 (1790) 8:40 (80) 40 1900 1900, 2000, 10 points, 50 minutes, 1964 270 minutes, 411 music, 5 minutes, 10 minutes, 10 minutes, 10 minutes, 1:10:50, 50, 50, 50, 50 minutes and 50 minutes or 50 minutes of King's (8)! Apple (261) 1000: 1000 (2) 800 (43) 000 000 -2000 period from 1 800 to 40 km, 50, 50, SE1, 2000, duties of Tanya? 9 9 40 40 40 United States since 1964, all 50, 50, 50, 50 and 50, 2000, 2000, 2000, 2000, 2 (27,000 800 64 (261) 400 1000 ****** and IV 00) 64, 240, 240; 64, 64, 50, 50, 50, ****** 50, 50, 50, 50, (9) - 1600 240 1964 377 1964 2. 1964, Mike ****** and Apollo 33 in Armenia. 50 and 2 (50) 26 ounces twice) 900 minutes - !!!!! April 2, California, USA, 1964 3:50 Brazil 50, 50, 50, 70, 50 minutes of S 2 (0 3366 33 1 hour 50 minutes 2 hours 64hg 240 217 64 ****** 64 21 240 1964 ****** 1964 1964 1664 Search 26 minutes) 377,240 km 2 to 2hg) 900 minutes, one! ! ! ! Brazil, 3:50, 50, 50, 70, 50 minutes (5) April 1, California, USA. US (7) 92-64 64 (5) September 9, April 9 ligament 64 270 51 250 37.33; 2, 3, 10, 26 (7) 900-8, February 10, 2010 Brazil (43.5% to 79, 1964, 50 (64) 377 55 55 270 250 km 2 hours 21 minutes 5 points soldier under 13 33 900 - 8 New Mexico 2: 21: 2 3 4 5 minutes, 8 896 K to 13, 24, 50, 50, 50, 50, 50 minutes of 2000. 9 (2) 800 (43) 2 1 January 1600 the question LL 26 1964 377,330 1,564,000 km of war) minutes a day? ! 64 64 64 64 240 new products GBH 2240; 240: 64: 1: 64: 64: 64: 64: 2 and 1,900 meters. 26 km from the city 10-23 m 2-2377 - it !!!!! Apollo 50, 50 and 50 minutes minutes 64, 64, 70, 50 minutes (5) 37.33 3.10 (9) 10: 250 soldiers, 2 hours 20 minutes after 10 minutes and 10 minutes later the battles of the city 270 51 7)) 2 2240141400 13,140 .240 love? (8) 900 Hitloc Corporation 12,2,50,50,7 7 km / 2600-9 OK? April 1, 50 minutes of promiscuity have played 4 minutes, 5 - (8) 507 (April 50 girl and (8) 507 (1790) 8:40 (80) 40 1900 1900, 2000, 10 minutes and 50 minutes, 411, 1964 music 5 minutes, 10 minutes, 10 minutes, 10 minutes, 1:10:50, 50, 50, 50, 50 minutes and 6: 1000 (2) 800 (43), 50 and 50) 261 27000 - 800) 400 2 00 1000, hospitals bristles, 64, 64, 64, 50, 50, 50, 50, 377, 33 1964 1964 1964 Apollo Today EWA 50 ml / 1600 Page 26: -! California, April 2, 1964, USA, 3:50 Brazil, 50, 50, 50, 70, 50 minutes, WS2) 3366 64 64 64 964 points 50 minutes high-240-117 1964 964-1600 1 240 64 10 21 points Search 1964: 26 377 240 km 2 G, step 2: 2: 2 h) 900 minutes, one! ! ! ! Brazil, 3:50, 50, 50, 70, 50 minutes from (5), California from April 1, 50, 50: 50-50: 50 (50) minutes to make 64 of 270 soldiers who were prostitutes and pimps 12 thousand, thousands 8 1964 hours distance per hour 2 hours, 7hg, 50hg 896 391 2600 9 (50) 250 m / 12 ml, 1: 377: 3, 8-33) 900-8) 3

p.s. as a pre-scriptum: oh, now i know why i think this is mediocre, i haven't drunk enough to relax my "narrative"... something's here of some worth, the rest... well... it's still a tier above tabloid "journalism", if you don't me thinking.

i'm still figuring out this body, this rent...
after all: aren't we renting in this life -
although i tend to make my monetary
dynamics purely on the basis of debit
(i don't remember the last time i used
a credit card, i don't own one,
i used to, but it was such a hassle to use...
having to remember what you spent
"invisible" money on & getting a summary
at the end of the month rather than:
remembering how much money is on
my bank account... coughing up a large chunk
of it: like some sickly hindsight...
never, again)...
horrid several days in December...
the "season to be jolly": like hell it is...
over-advertised, over-sold...
                             it's not like i belong
to a large family that gets together
and spews their little "micro-aggressions"
and covert-ridicule over a meal...
being weary of ******-attractions...   huh?
yeah... but it's the culmination
of the year... the end of it...
  i'm already gearing for a restart...
December fatigue is impossibly...
the damp doesn't help...
         sitting around eating food pointlessly...
i'll eat the necessary food...
like today i enjoyed a ******
white borsch... it's a sour soup, clear...
consisting of ****** bacon...
(look up Tenacious D's kiełbasa)
hard boiled eggs...
stock made from root parsley,
     carrot, leak, plenty of garlic...
             & the stock itself: for the borsch...
mainly rye flour fermentation
juice... you also add a decent spoonful
of horse-radish to the soup...
eat it with a side of artisan sourdough
bread...
white sour borsch... oh hell...
Ukrainian borsch can hide...
the ****** red borsch (made from beetroots)
served with uszka (ucho, ear...
uszka, the diminutive of ears...
for some reason, the ****** tongue uses
a lot of diminutive terms...
to endear them... even names
of people are churned via the diminutive
machine...
Mateusz becomes Mateuszek...
Ewa becomes Ewunia)...
bay leaves + allspice pellets (also)...
plenty of sour notes...
point being, i think the **** "Aryans"
got the story wrong...
historically... the area of land that was
& is still Poland was visited by
a nomad group of Iranians...
the Sarmatians... last time i heard...
Iranians are referred to as Aryans...
& their cuisine... has plenty of
sour notes...
perhaps the sauerkraut migrated
from the region where i was born
over the Oder to...
Frankfurt-upon-Oder & subsequently
further... why the American soldiers
ref. the Germans as KRAUTS...
it's a funny side-note...
the supposed "Aryans" were fighting...
Aryans... i guess falsehood lost...

beside that... sitting around the house
doing **** all... it will get to you...
i even managed to cross that threshold
i told myself i would never cross...
coming in at more than 100kg is not
acceptable anymore...
99.5kg i can stand... but i've also managed
to go down to 96kg... but that was
during the summer, when you eat less...
or rather: you are active more...
i had to do something about it today...
i'm done with these gluttonous festivities...
did a ******* exercise quickie on
the bicycle while riding to the supermarket
to stock up for new year's day...
no more eating in the night...

       & that's how i came across the fact
that... oddly enough... exercising can provide
you with more energy...
why? because you spent some of it...
simply ingesting calories & not utilising them
fatigues you... exercising counters fatigue...
you might feel tired...
but... all the mental fatigue is gone...
you become motivated: even motivated to write
something as banal as this...
then again: i haven't been this "lazy"
celebrating: **** knows what since...
well... last year...

             by definition: during exercise you
are no longer a res cogitans...
more a res vanus: since slithers of thought
enter your mind like flashbacks
or rather like postcards...
but they're not really thought by
standards of narrative... letters become surds
like the G in the word: gnostic or, gnome...
so: apostrophes: 'nostic, 'nome...
that sort of thing...
    sometimes when cycling i meditate
on Braille, sometimes the Morse Code...
or usually diacritical markers: forever missing
in English!

more res cogitans, somewhat res vanus...
but more or less: res corpus:
a body-thing... the mind being detached from
all those constipated thoughts,
all those ego-***-solipsism alleys...
flimsy daydreams...
just my body: the wind, the eyes,
my legs, my arms, my sweat... the bicycle...
no other liberation out there,
in all honesty...       pickled brain frenzy
only comes after... when i sit down
to relax to doodle something...
        
i came across something today while my phone
was charging & i couldn't do my usual
routine on the throne of thrones...
instead of playing Mech Arena i picked
up where i left off reading Heidegger:
those black notebooks didn't come cheap...
circa £30 a volume...
             obviously first editions...
i need to find that passage once more...
i doubt i will...
ha... in the 20th century it was already noted:
we now write about reading...
sometimes... it's unavoidable...
only yesterday i was hearing loads of stories
about the stewards doing the Wembley
job when the hooligans rushed the stadium
for the England vs. Italy final...
we were driving in the car...
i felt... less was being conveyed & that it was
more about... impressing the "other"...
oh i felt like i was bonding with the supervisor...
but he was also impressed with my
plum hue tattoo... my Dalmatian eye-patch...
one of the girls inquired: i brushed it off
telling her that there was nothing to brag
about... she just assumed: oh, you Polacks...
you drink & you fight...
well... from what history has given me...
if the Polacks aren't fighting the Ottoman Turks...
the Swedes, the Russians & the Germans...
if we're not fighting the backstabbing Hungarians
who decided to side with the Austrians...
if Polacks aren't fighting then:
start counting the sitting-ducks...
why would i tell her that i was fighting my own
shadow?
in a professional environment:
you keep people guessing... informality at the core...
we're not here for ******* lunch!
arbeit macht frei has, sickly... become my motto...
not some **** joke...
oddly enough... arbeit macht frei
& RADFAHREN MACHT FREI...
cycling makes you free...
    - du macht frei
or macht du frei?!
                         oh... right... there was no
"you" in the Auschwitz slogan...

                          i could never imagine myself
being content with what people suppose
to be: relieving acts... ******* picnics in the park,
adventures in a zoo... sun-tanning...
cruises... football matches...
                   cinema...
                                     it, has, no, use, for, me...
es, hat, nein, benutzen, für, mich!
i need strain, all the time... i'm not relaxed if i'm
not doubly-aware... i always need
to be on a look out for something:
anything... i like football matches in the current
role because...
never have i watched girls without them
noticing me... sure... some do...
but they're there for the football match...
i'm there for... any possible build up of tension...
perhaps that's why i sleep:
but don't really dream...
perhaps unconsciously the gods sent dream-blockers,
evil geniuses who recommended for my
psyche to be rid of dreaming...
or being a dream-architect...
like, for example: the phenomenon
of the recurrent dream, that some people cite?!

huh?! recurrent dreams?!
it's a bit like saying: you dumb ****!
since when is it so hard to
understand the metaphor of 1 + 1 = 2?!
how long does it have to be repeated to you?!
if i don't dream... then i'm on autopilot...
almost... sure... some major dream did happen...
i even told this dream to my ex-girlfriend's
mother:

so i'm on this *****... a Pythagorean triangle:
because it's all abstract...
and these sheep like people... or these people like
sheep are falling down the *****...
behind me there's only an abyss...
they're coming down & these demonic creatures
with scythes are also coming down...
cutting the crying people's heads off...
while i'm running at the bottom of this *****
trying to save them from falling into the abyss...
i was... 17(?) when i had this dream...

have i become a paramedic since then? no...
ergo: the ***** is an abstract of something that's
not the inevitability of death.