With your words that made me fly somehow.
But hidden within ur innerself its always been your sweetest lie.
Talking bout your dreams devouring me like ashes twisted and slowly disappearing.
The truth acts like a spirited-away. Letting it fly back to its inside.

There's this always inside of you. Something hidden and somethng blocked. Stopping you from outpouring what's inside.

Mind and heart was in despair. They were always contrary but hearing all! With your honesty, i know there is all the droppin of everythng. All numb but eyes were all blown. I cant stop it.
But all a could say. Everythng was fragile.

Revenge has always been part of the human soul. not in its anatomy form or any interior or exterior aspects.
But functioning with its own parts.
Its the anger! Where it all starts. Jealousy and hurt were the main stream and always end to suffering.
Thats all for love. We'd all be needing for us to feel even.
Just a pinch of happiness just to get fair for someone that we love but did somethng wrong within us breaking us. Attacking every tiny vessels which in the end, Turning us into an evil creature.

It was a buss - telling me it was that simple thing. Not to make it more bigger. But lets end this up.
Still it hurts,... Still. Its another woman. Such senstivity arising.

the dying and the hopeless
breath in umbrage
young and gutless
across ice as the standard
strangled by cyber optics
as he breaks up the body - starving
plugging in - bright red
as he demands of her
undo the curses that collapse
white eyes - warm pose
her heart beating-her smile still shows
but it burns off his face
and he still demands of her
all the lovers and the keys
the letters and the brothers
your eyes show the emotions
you are to —————- to uncover
with all the other
loneliness and distrust
masking consensual robotics
with 50 random *****
coloring in white penned abjurations
that dissapear when your phone does
you choose and smile
voodoo doll all the others
ilove you i hate alive i hate undiscovered
like - id die here to see it myself
50 faces displaced, made under covers
and all of the arms you felt and slept under
killing kills everything
in a paranoia colored dysfunction

I am the shot that misses
I am the furniture you stub your toe on
I am the spam email
I am the Junk mail
I am the gum you accidently step in
I am the cramp you get while running
I am the slow Wi-Fi
I am the person who never made it
I am everything you hate

Yes! That's a come back
your come back in my life
That's the reason i m happy!
That's all what i want in my life
Just like before
Everythng is going to be the same
A smile on ur face
The care u have always made
I m happy the way i use to be
It's been so long
Like it never has been before
U make everythng live
U make me smile
Just stay for a while
There is a comfort zone
Which i get with u
Apart from the past
lets make it a bit different
Lets be together!
Lets be happy!
This come back might not be that difficult
N i knw u won't make it difficult
It's just a matter of a chance
That we take!
But sometyms difficult roads leads to beautiful destinations !
:)

Looking up in the mirror,
my cheeks look lyk a fresh red plum in shy,
as i see myself through d eyes of urs,

In the troops of million,
i finally saw u,
whn our eyes met,
the whole world bcme still,
evn the sky seemed to be shinning in our love,

Holding the hand,of each other,
seemed we were in the garden of heaven,
lyk prince n princess,walking in garden  laid wid roses & angels showering the rain of roses,
everyone was rejocying in our love,

But u had to go,
everythng vanished ,only tears were left,
sky agn turned grey,
u left me in a hope ,
u will come agn forevr,


I m waiting for the last winter agn..........

I try to soul search
And see everybody's view
I respect all opinions even
When mine is not cause u

Must always believe we are
Free to believe what we wish
Gay marriage, abortion,
Religion cause tolerance is a gift

We should give one another
As respect must be mutual
One mans garbage is another's
Treasure, what's ugly is beautiful

If that's what is suitable
From various perceptions made
There's more to life than gettin laid
More to life than gettin paid

More than wut we barter and trade
It's nostalgia in memories
It's healing from pain that's not
Physical or has no remedies

It's appreciating amenities
And finding peace from stress
In the sacrifices we make, when it's
Hard but we know it's best

The time of ur unknown death
The bond with a friend
In losing a love heartbroken
Only to see love manifest again

Cause what truly matters
Can go invisible sometimes
It's not the money or possessions
But how u got them but blind

Are we to that fact
Even though it's fundamentals
So many luxurys aquired no
Wonder u struggle for dental

Health care and wuts essential
Spending outside our means
So I keep my wisdom from adulthood
Heart from childhood and from teens

I'd take my confidence and dreams
And my passion but not
The Insecurity the anger or
The confusion it brought

And I hope soon we will stop
Selling things that have no price
Our ethics, our bodys, our
***** souls and our life

And all of this I write
Not just for u but for me
Cause jealousy anger and lust
Blinds me from all knowledge these

Words have within them
As I'm only a human, a man
Who knows life is wut happens
When ur busy makin plans

But wuts out of my hands
I gotta learn to let go
Sometimes I sulk and feel
Sorry for myself preventing growth

So *** social status and gross
Net pay and wut is my residual
As long as I follow my heart and
Dreams and be an individual

A happiness that's equivocal
And all life's pain is worth it
As its y I appreciate my blessings
And understand that nothing's perfect

So whether u see life as a circus
Or a place for spiritual growth
Learn from criticism, mistakes
And the advice from both

Ur family, ur friends, ur
School faith and ur love
We all fit in this world somewhere
Even when like oj's glove

It doesn't seem to fit but
Sooner or later well find our place
But life can be heaven or it can
Be hell so keep dreams to chase

Keep value on wuts fake
Rather than pricing what isn't
And not just drugs but almost
EVERYTHNG has a level of addiction

Know moderation and restriction
Welcome contradiction cause
Things u hate so great, anticipate
U may end to love

So forget wut was and
Focus on wut can still be
So remember to Seize the day,
believe in fate and wuts meant to be

You make it so hard to talk
about serious issues
I never meant to be a
Reason tears hit tissues
It's a tough situation we
Now find ourselves in
And I got no instruction Manual
that tells me if
My next move is right
Chances are its wrong
I want to believe our love
Was way to strong
To be beat by what's at our feet
But maybe it's not
I can only be what I am
And im sorry for all I'm not
My stomachs all in knots
I wanna make the choices
That stop or prevent
our angered, raised voices
But resentment poises
And stands opposed
But when I communicate
U act like case is closed
If I were to give u a rose
It would be the wrong color
I do one thing and it seems
I should have done another
Constantly criticizing me
Telling me what's gotta change
When I've changed enough
Things and yet it's the same
Nothing's ever good enough
You always find a way
To make me feel like I'm the
Problem somethng new everyday
And I just can't alter Everything
that makes me, me
I've never asked u to change who
Your were or ur beliefs
So why should I, and when
Did u start to hate
EVERYTHNG I am like I'm
Gods biggest mistake
I've only ever wanted the best
For you and me but
I have compromised things
And tried to clean myself up
And be better like u asked but
Funny and hurtful thing is
I never asked or demanded u
To ever change ****
Now I feel less loved and
More judged as if I
Am competing when I am
Already the best guy
To ever be in ur life or hey
Maybe I'm wrong, my mistake
So now I win the "biggest loser"
Without a decline in my weight
I won't top that line ...
So that must mean its the end
I'm sorry I did my best ill
Always love u bye , best friend
Soulmate lover, ull always
Be on my over active mind
Are we going seperate ways or
Is someone getting left behind.....?
it's like we're falling apart
And maybe it's goodbye this time
Are we going seperate ways
Or is someone getting left behind?....

when my life was going well
and it never seemed as a hell .....
why did i fall for u ?
when everythng was no less that perfect
and the happiness popped into my life in a rocket
why did i fall for u ?
when all my love was given and never recieved
and that there was nothing i could deceive
why did i fall for u ?
when everything was going out as i planne dit to be
and happiness and love and affection was all i could see
THEN why did i fall for u ?
when i had everything
and tht i needed nothing
why , why did i fall for u ?
with all the luxuries i had
i wasn't able to live
with all the jewels i had
i wasn't able to give
with all the wealth i had
i wasn't able to believe
cause what i lacked was my heart
which was miles and miles apart
made me think ,
think why did i fall for u ?
the day i saw u
sparks flew
the day i saw u smile at me
made me think what could the reason be
the day u came close
and let me be on toes
and kissed me on my lips
in pure water less are 100 dips
the i was with you
i never notices how the time flew
was a whole year
seemed like a night's near
when i closed my eyes
i only saw you
i only felt you hand
i only felt your breath
i then wondered again WHy did i fall for you ?
the answer was crystal ....
ur my heart
and you fixed it all ....
soo that it could never fall apart ...
never fall apart ...
never fall apart ....
         -Shysta **)

A twist, that life took
A turn, that life shook
Made it into this havoc
In a way it was a fun lock
The jungle of buildings grew near me
Just a part of this wildlife would I be?
Drops of condensation slide through the temple
And I became just another corporate sample
Do i still have a choice? Can I still choose?
But the other option might set my career loose
See-saw of this dilemma, sunkens deeper and deeper
Since none of the things are getting any cheaper
What I want to see, what I want to taste
Has no meaning now and it is all a waste
I need a push, I need a Boost
It has to be self, thereafter will ripe the fruit
Moving on is the only option, at right time
Pave the path of the will and I will shine
My dilemma would surely end
I have a belief, I will pass this bend
That day is not far
When I will cross that bar
That day I will show my choice to the world
And everythng would be just clear and not blurred
I do believe that would come
And then I will cease to run!

I loved you when I didn't know what love was.... I loved you when I didn't love myself. You made me feel like there was only us....no-one else. You made me love you beyond myself...had me thinking-- you loved me the same.... I was thinking about taking your last  name; . Then,  He came and everythng changed, the way you touched me, the way you called out me name--- when we would do our thing.... made me think that, maybe you wanted him more then me. I was into him too but I told myself.... not more then you! I loved you so... you loved him more.... I love him too.... and he loved me more then he loved you; We've been together for ten years now, three minus one equals two... I find myself loving him now more then you!

know u dnt like me dat much,
but I like u more dan miracle,
more dan stars more dan moon, more dan rainy clouds....

More dan a dancing peacock,
More dan a rainbow,
More dan a spring rain,
More dan a river which has full flow of white water......

I like u more dan me n more dan my hapoyness n joy,
Alas! u dont,
beacuse u  still have a dream world,
n my dream is u.....

U still are alive wid those shiny n glamouring creatures of god,
But u r my glamour my mirracle my love my soul....

U blv in evrythng exptng me,
but I blv in u exptng everythng...

U want a gud life with full of facillities,
but my life is u which was completely happpy,
n pranavi is now my impeccable duty,
I love u.
N m sorry dat I hv hurt u.....