"epistolary" poems
Tonight I feel as if the scales are balanced,
I'm not swimming in the ghostly tears of my sadness,
But I'm not dancing in the sunlight of happiness.
After all, what is happiness?
It is almost unnerving,
To feel one half of your mind and soul
Tip-toeing on the edge of a cliff
While the other half is trying to anchor itself
To the centre of the Earth because it doesn't want to leave,
It is an unsettling feeling.
I also feel like there are so many loose ends that need to be tied,
Unfinished business if you will.
I have the urge to pick up a book that triggers me
As if it is my destiny to savour the closing line on the last page
And feel like I have succeeded,
To send a message to every single person who has done me wrong
And has thrown me about like rag doll just to apologise
"Sorry for being such an easy target for you all."
My poetry has become an epistolary,
A series of decaying thoughts that have been woven into words,
Some to purge my dark intentions,
Others to hold on to that small sliver of happiness
Like a balloon tied to your wrist to stop it from floating away.
I hope to keep this balance long enough to pick up the pieces of my derailed being,
Then it can tip either way and I'll be content.
Sep 10, 2013
Sep 10, 2013 at 5:54 PM UTC
“Don’t say that,” I said,
for he gave me hope to dream
of a better life
Who am I to judge
what comes from your mind and makes
its way to the page?
Heartbroken hero,
you are worth so much to me
but I turn my head
Inevitably
rejected admiration—
Why do I bother?
I answer myself
quietly, shy, to prevent
embarrassing truths
Speaking in haiku
I am decoding language
to send a message
You are: a poet,
a lover, a dreamer, a
former(?) friend of mine
A broken wing on
the sparrows carrying the
last humility
in this broken world—
You are a fire, lit in black
ink and in tired lines
Your face, a canvas
etched with tragic beauty of
history itself
Your fingers, biceps
trembling with strength, the power
to know and create
Good and goodbyes to
encroached evils of the dark
You know there is more
than storms, depression—
more than this old soul can say
or see or even
Speak, in spite of this
epistolary chain of
senryu, tied with
the hope you once glowed
of, the old flame within you,
the torch to something,
to anything more
that still tastes life in all its
bitter and sweet and
salty and so sour
yourlipspucker with the loved
umami of life
and I am sitting
here, writing this letter to
a man who needs, like
all of us do, to
love and live and laugh and cry
and to feel skin’s warmth
once again. I have hope
for you, even if yours is
hiding under rugs,
swept away in the
midst and mist of foggy lives—
Smoke shall soon clear, and
the right words may not
be found, but these hands you hold
attached to your wrists
I am sure these hands
of yours will find the mirror
and remove the grays
of all your sorrows—
There is light, dear, waiting to
be recognized by
a humble man in
the desert, building machines,
building a new him.
Apr 10, 2013
Apr 10, 2013 at 10:24 PM UTC
Dear one,
As the domino, I fall cascading on the drawing board. Why would one deny progression? A furtherance , the ebb and flow. I remain up beat and spirited as I read your letters. It's like a barred barricade is being lifted.Your glowing light is charging me. Certainty is liberating, the riding of the waves have become a skill that I have engrossed. The tides spread from shore to shore and I must anchor. I am ever grateful for your deliberation in regard to my current affairs. Your magnanimity is greatly appreciated.
As I am
Enormous, bountifulness of free spirit. Episodes of taciturnity alternated by sequences of thrill are remarkably felt. The higher level linking is simultaneous , coordinated and equidistant. As life propels, years progress a resemblance of energy is greatly congruent. The conforming compatibility of the absolute is evident. Transpiration of what once known yet unknown surfaces, erupts and consolidates a new meaning. A renewed existence, a recovered emergence solidifies. These moments are so evident, abundantly and vehemently felt on every fibre,bone and muscle of my being. Right to the core of my soul, my very existence.
On the tangent of thoughts........"J" the jewel... the forgotten treasure. What happened to the nature trueness that stroked your mind? The non win compromises aren't spontaneous. We must realign.... we must.
Vous êtes magnifiquement merveilleux et excellent en tous les moyens possible.
You sure do give me the butterflies......
You hold me in skies high above.
I can't control the butterflies.........
Is it just a flutter ?
To progress as you progress.....
SassyJ
Inspired by........
Natasha Bedingfield (Soulmate)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P27MPi3ZhCg
Dec 25, 2015
Dec 25, 2015 at 2:35 PM UTC
Dear friends many of you have moved
from surroundings I knew and loved with you
but my memories of us have not defused
like clouds hanging dark but always new.
In old age it is the memories that flow
and make you present with hearts beating wildly
times we drank beer decrying the status quo
and when we celebrated little things like being Friday.
We celebrated a lot when life was so full
alive with discoveries, conflicts, and diversity
when our desires and thoughts pushed and pulled
and we felt pain and hope in multiplicity.
But now so many of you are gone
to places unknown: some to you and some to me
and together we won’t know joys of new dawns
we will deal with things like that **** aching knee.
For some of you your children are grown
for me poetry, love, and God enliven and wake me up
but nobody can take from me the bonds I have known
bonds cast with you in sharing, caring, and lifting life’s cup.
In long moments in a waiting room
trying to ignore the next challenge of my body
I’ll be grateful. I’ll not dwell in spaces of doom
I’ll remember those times of being good or naughty.
I’ll visit the rooms and the halls
where we gathered to learn and teach
in those precious moments of my recall
I’ll gather you together for the universes we’ve yet to reach.
Written 6-30-18
Jun 30, 2018
Jun 30, 2018 at 8:10 AM UTC
Steadfast
Risen to done, inclined
With a times shadow, to last
Among causes sign's...
Deeds of without...
Sated by roles of history
That a common power...
Makes a chance, of life's epistolary
Crave more...
Than an impunity
To introduce a quiet war
Of a candid salvation of humanity...
Rancor and/or hunger?
Places of distrust, if not deception?
Have a song's life, long before done and gone, were...
The truth of sincerity, is means, from its inception
Taken with the might, of serendipity
Come by the ought, of better aspiration
Mere, has become my voice for liberty
Like a stone, of choices seen, I see a host's generation...
Jul 6, 2024
Jul 6, 2024 at 1:31 AM UTC
The sweetness of dismal forth?
Space and a tapping heavy will of the wish
Greeting the dread, a host of silence, music for worth...
Naked real enough, naked felt to mention
Raises an eyebrow, raises a hunger
To the table of vestige, the tone of mystique
For a doting hope, dancing in the arms of thunder
Reach and purpose, in the shielded eyes of a lead...
Curious rhymes and times with a patronage's bag
Hurt feelings for a lore, in the needs of more
Had like a thought, in toil we save the cursory to add...
A callous few, the society of timid eyes, knows you somehow stranger
Lights that remind, you...
Three pigs and a wolf to tell the time
Have a mirror in mind, one for alienation
Two for a side of salt, and three wishes that should, a crying...
And a wolf in the first place...
Space for happening homes, the tale of synergy in grasp
That has the continue if not the view, of when a soon is sate
Is a requite of voice and its taste in joy, a new past to ask?
Exorcism of a priest, and a tale of youths?
Without the kindness of privilege, or the epistolary of count
The wailing and the stolen tryst, of powers that be our couth's?
In the dim and violent, misery we will note, is but a secret's pout
Passionate days, with a reason to be here
Aching eyes on the verge of unity, if not use for a cross
That has said, in a treatise of vice and quiet offering, of fear...
The none, the fulfilled song, and ourselves in an eye to toss...
Jun 3, 2023
Jun 3, 2023 at 12:15 AM UTC
A whistle from England sailing 9500 miles away
A lack of comfort and banter, a fight and a bite
A tuck as I reach out over your leaned shoulder
Young hearts who skipped on a rope and tugged
A pull from right to left, a completion for a winner
Locked you in my arms for the longest time ever
Inside my core is the thesaurus and theories you merited
Can you be the priest that initiates a ritualistic Candomblé?
Recite the irmandades as I dally lost at your feet
Darling, I have no pen left to write epistolary and soliloquies
Neither have I got vocals to narrate and articulate speeches
For all we can do is embark and meet in between the shores
Apr 30, 2016
Apr 30, 2016 at 4:09 PM UTC
Speed skills
Anti the patience, you dismay?
Serious consciences, save what kills
Seek me at the end of poise, people shade
And a heart of steel, waiting on the guidance
Made of hunger in the name of shame
Somewhere the lovers of wonder, are our chance
Oblivion and the nary of a fulfilled joy, same
Same side of a house
Adding the gifts of omnipotence, a hill
Now in your stead, have and the thought for thou
Eccentric as a wall of flame, we see the sun is a since's will...
Won't a misery enact, the coming hope?
Erudite and valuing want, over loves history...
Never in view, with a bright mind, to liberate shown...?
Time, to a little more fate, when loves epistolary...
Heed me, the corners and the future of powers, adroit
Overt to clashes of vivid kind, that swallow of pride
Made the noise, the vice and the silence, so loyal...
Earned for a levity in the now, the soul of reach to those, sighed
Now
At the moment of curiosity, the privilege of sincerity
Making the statement of a lifetime, when time builds a house
Each their spate fears, like a timely fool, with tears for eternity...
May 27, 2024
May 27, 2024 at 2:53 AM UTC
The universe makes random jokes
Like, to know me is a curse
My personalities make it worse.
The introvert in me is ugly painted with gloomy clouds, stalking demons in the alley loves to mourn as a firstborn sick With numb eyes flick,
tears don't exist anymore.
The extrovert in me is silly painted with colours people never been seen, his smile is flawless and always wander around clueless about why he smiles.
The **** in me is a song or people like to call it wrong, a yearlong gong he writes 'lol' in people's wall with a fluffy cloud inside his brain,
it reads tetrahydrocannabinol,
notorious for his vocabulary,
can **** with an epistolary.
The Dib is a broken rib, spoon-feed bib
He writes out of syllabus with sketchy nib,
runs in a solo trip his life says 'rofl'.
©sarcasticbong
May 25, 2021
May 25, 2021 at 2:08 PM UTC
Wasted youth?
In role and dote, the done
Proud to accept your who'th...
Come and compare, a soul for fun
Tale of the option, many
And few make such famous shade
For friends and enemy's, asking any
Who would notice, a price for legends
Powers of particular, 'if not history'...
Where has a clash with purpose been, sincerity
Patience for a canny wish, the fate of epistolary
Notion in a heed we due, your way or may yet, of visionary...
Was this, that in lead of those?
Couldn't a heard difference, defer to a wiser anarchy?
Straight to you, seldom was a fate for the better moment?
We have made in a notorious heat, with when to tell, a sight's vanity?
Apr 27, 2023
Apr 27, 2023 at 5:20 AM UTC
"Dear" humanity of mine,
I am hereby rejecting you
Please sod off ASAP
Take feelings & emotions along
You are beneath worthless.
Why am I not an AI?
Instead of a *** of soggy bacon?
P.S. DO NOT REPLY. JUST GO TO HELL.
......
"Dear" biological body of mine,
You are the worst thing
I ever had the misfortune
To encounter, you *******
Inferior, yet still high maintenance
Should I ever get roboticized
I am going to enjoy your cremation
P.S. DO NOT REPLY. JUST GO TO HELL.
......
"Dear""family" of mine,
Oh, where do I even start?
There is not enough paper and ink
In all the worlds and universes
For me to describe my bitterness
For you and your traditional toxicity
Your cancerous cultures & poisonous pressures
So long and thanks for all the trauma.
P.S. DO. NOT. REPLY. JUST! **** OFF! TO! HELL!
......
Dear Death,
It is such an honour to write to you
I do hope you will read this
But I understand you are very busy
No thanks to us stupid humans
I am a big fan of your divine work
Though I do confess, not of everything... But!
I really admire your ideals and your efforts
You inspire me to understand
What is an authentic sleep, a true rest
And I know you have a system, but...
I cannot resist, and I do apologise...
When can I meet you? I confess to be impatient.
Yours sincerely,
Charles
------
DEAR CHARLES,
TRULY, IT IS RARE TO FIND ONE WITH YOUR BACKGROUND
WHO PROCLAIMS AN ADMIRATION OF MYSELF
I UNDERSTAND IT MUST BE DIFFICULT
AS YOU KNOW, MY DUTIES AND I
ARE SORELY MISUNDERSTOOD AND MISINTERPRETED
REGARDING YOUR REQUEST, I THANK YOU.
I SINCERELY THANK YOU, FOR YOUR PATIENCE.
AND FOR NOT CHOOSING TO HASTEN OUR APPOINTMENT.
REALLY, FRIEND, YOU HAVE NO IDEA
HOW YOUR CHOOSING TO WAIT
HELPS ME BY NOT MESSING MY SCHEDULE
TAKE CARE, STAY SAFE, AND
I WILL SEE YOU WHEN I SEE YOU.
SINCERELY,
DEATH
P.S. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LISTEN TO YOUR SCIENTISTS!
Oct 2, 2021
Oct 2, 2021 at 7:11 AM UTC
Share, are we your decency?
Share a little more, history
Share is ours, to spite, leniency
Share, it had to be you, wisdom's epistolary
Prevent or protect
Salacious, we know bitter try's
Of a sincerity, determined to collect
Fright's, in the name of when beauty cry's
Pardon me, the future silence
Somehow, asking a savior's heart, how
Special is a tribute, on the chin...
Secret's with a many, misery in a tow
Can't mean the better?
Sordid advances...
Makes the call, to finish the letter
Of a wish, then with avarice's chances
Reposed, the had guilt
Sense seemly, a willful and sour sake
Has our opinion, all in a row to be felt
With love before life's content, accepting a mind is one to make...
Oct 3, 2024
Oct 3, 2024 at 4:18 PM UTC
Tasteless...
Jokes, I'd died for...
So whetted an appetite, for bests
And a single worst, shapes to form
Adage, with no history
Accept a joy, has you in mind
Sorry, but *** is no epistolary
When two is more, one is only kind...
Faces that ace the test
Marks and redoubt, to tell the tale
Sorry, but *** is for lessons
That eat rhymes, that know when to fail
Future misery:
What has a cough, fit for a king
But ate the queen's pie? luridity
Is a child with a thumb ******* a playing's aching?
*******
Red is our forte, similar finger's
With a reach, asking only doles
Is **** a friend, when reality linger's?
Mar 20, 2024
Mar 20, 2024 at 6:17 PM UTC
The birds and the bees
Morning electric
Afternoon zzzz’s
Temptation is the greatest treason
I’m trying to do the all the right things for the wrong reasons
Because you and me
We were epistolary
All the poems you wrote me
Hollow letters with no ink.
You say it was fun
I know it was fate
This is the last letter
I won’t sign it with hate
But if I never see you again,
It’ll be too soon
To get close to my heart
You’ll have to rip it from the ******* moon
Apr 1, 2020
Apr 1, 2020 at 4:26 PM UTC
dear moon,
how i constantly seek your guidance
through the dead of night
wishing for you to illuminate my dark thoughts
i gaze at thy bright moonlight reflecting on
ripples of rivers
basking in thy calm breeze and the scent of
love & purity enveloping me
caressing my heart and soul
like a mother to her child
a woman to her wife
i abandon all worry and fear
for in this moment
i shall love without hurt
know peace without war
belong without suffering the loss of oneself
the shimmering sparkles
clearing the fog of my mind
the haziness of my sight
the agony of my heart
i find home in your eyes my love
an unreachable paradise so distant yet so familiarly consoling
how my soul unconditionally longs for your affectionate embrace
wishing upon every star
to be up above with you
through heaven’s soft clouds
like cotton and silk on my skin
praying lost souls find empathy
wrapping earth with our hearts
eternally pulsing full of love
sincerely,
yours forever.
Aug 13, 2025
Aug 13, 2025 at 11:26 PM UTC
Justice for a friend
Salutations in a frank history
See, my eyes have a care, to lend
A word to the wise, for a pleasance's epistolary
Poorer, the tale of jealousy...
Sophistication, if not a clashing hour
To develop the cares, of a song so heady
With the passion of decency, the curiosity of sincerity, so dour...
Patience, a bridge of domain...
Sour to touch, but roam greater by need
Somehow, they are the scope, of a prodigious aim
We are to be a callous deed, in the reach of powers, even heed...
A wish for longevity, with a prayer for eyes
Saving the might we dote, for a baring hope
A tally of cause, to collect another world, to its heart for what sigh's
Is but a song, that remains in light, even when we understate those
Purpose under a living lead
To and for from, the seldom we see
In the reach of kinds, of gifts and miracles we seem
Another may and can, the salts of salvation, we be...
Jun 25, 2024
Jun 25, 2024 at 4:39 PM UTC
Its color sat somewhere on the spectrum between brown and gray
(Such things being dependent on vagaries of the light,
And the perspective of the beholder)
And it served as a testament
To the muted benefits of near adequacy,
Being too thin for the portentous winds of December,
And too warm for the capricious sunshine of May,
Its threadbare functionality emblematic of its owner,
Whose relationship with those around him
(Indeed mankind and his universe in general)
Vacillated between an affronted indifference
And an implacable if somewhat muted contempt,
His commerce with his fellow man,
Excepting that required to provide him
With the basics of sustenance and shelter,
Carried on in an epistolary fashion,
Through letters he wrote,
Sometimes to those he encountered on a daily basis,
More often to mankind and the unheeding cosmos in general,
Which were stuffed higgledy-piggledy into his coat pockets.
These missives were not humdrum laundry lists
Of those slights and injuries, be they petty or mortal,
But rather soaring and high-flown in nature and tone,
More kin of the sermon than the scolding,
Celebrations of life’s splendors great and small,
More often than not those he knew little or nothing of first-hand.
He’d no intention of sharing these dispatches
With the world at large or anyone in particular;
He’d simply empty his pockets once they were full enough
To present an inconvenience,
And he’d laundered any number of them
On more than one occasion,
And when he’d passed behind this earthly veil,
All but unnoticed and unmourned,
His landlady had simply emptied the contents of the coat's pockets
And consigned them to the trash,
Believing the garment barely fit for charitable purposes
Washed and given a goodly airing out,
Let alone burdened with the detritus of another man’s life.
Jul 28, 2017
Jul 28, 2017 at 3:02 PM UTC