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"drown" poems
Read this to yourself. Read it silently. Don't move your lips. Don't make a sound. Listen to yourself. Listen without hearing anything. What a wonderfully weird thing, huh? NOW MAKE THIS PART LOUD! SCREAM IT IN YOUR MIND! DROWN EVERYTHING OUT. Now, hear a whisper. A tiny whisper. Now, read this next line with your best crochety- old-man voice: "Hello there, sonny. Does your town have a post office?" Awesome! Who was that? Whose voice was that? It sure wasn't yours! How do you do that? How?! Must be magic.
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Apr 19, 2016
Apr 19, 2016 at 2:12 PM UTC
Magic
Damaged people are dangerous because they know how to survive, And if you've never been damaged you don't know how it feels to be alive, See struggle is the sauce that gives success its flavour, when life kicked you down it was doing you a favour. Cos it's in your darkest hour, not in prosperity that you will realise your true ability. Life dunks you in deep waters not to drown you but to cleanse you. And that's just the beginning of what it will put you through. But it's chiselling you down, you won't deflate. It's not wearing you thin, it's getting you to your fighting weight. Prosperity makes monsters, adversity makes men. I believe when you reach the top life will yank you back down again. You didn't break down, you just had a flat tyre so get back up and relight that fire. keep it burning and churning at the pit of your heart and keep on learning and yearning and never fall apart. Stare life in the eyes and say "no matter how many times my spirit won't break if my drive never dies" So throw me a burden I won't lose my composure, It's for this very reason that life gave me shoulders. Get better not bitter This weather will wither I'll turn wounds into wisdom sadness into spirit tears to tenacity I will never quit it Take a deep breath and concentrate your stare because a road with no obstacles never took you anywhere.
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Oct 26, 2012
Oct 26, 2012 at 6:40 AM UTC
A road with no obstacles
*Jesus, please set my bound heart free Let not this world my prison be Where fear and shame would pull me down To suffocate and cause me to drown 'Stead loose my soul that it may soar Heavy, fettered, chained no more So You can lead me to the hills Away from where 'perfection' kills In You alone my worth is found What joy immense, this truth profound To know I'm precious in Your sight My strength, my hope, my life's delight Surrendered now to Your control 'Tis love which heals my wounded soul Convinced that I can trust Your heart Toward me, to You my cares I impart And selfish may I no more be But lend me eyes that I might see The wounds which other souls still have To give to them Your healing salve That You might take their tender pain And turn it to eternal gain So suffering may not wasted be But used to set our cold hearts free Then we who in triumphant praise More closely on Your face may gaze Beholding all Your beauty vast Held tight to You, content at last!*
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Aug 3, 2017
Aug 3, 2017 at 11:49 PM UTC
~ Whom the Son Sets Free ~
when people are in love they often say they simply fell tripped over their own two feet face forward and into the arms of their beloved i did more than simply fall onto the ground of your love you, for me were an ocean and i dived headfirst roughly harshly almost painfully into the waters of “you” i knew i could not swim but i did so anyway i was drowning entangled in you surrounded by this being of “you” engulfed in this feeling of “you” and i did not know what came over me but i let myself drown i did not try to swim back up because if i went back to land, releasing myself from your grasp that would mean losing the feeling of “you” and after submerging into the depth the love the passion of “you” how could i ever leave?
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Feb 18, 2018
Feb 18, 2018 at 2:10 AM UTC
i let myself drown
your eyes are like oceans and i want to drown
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May 6, 2014
May 6, 2014 at 6:39 PM UTC
ocean eyes 5/6/14
*Burn burn burn your love For him and only him Shining shining shining shining Until the light goes dim. Smile smile smile my love Everything but a frown Because because because because I won’t let you drown. Cool cool cool your love For him and only him Splashing splashing splashing splashing Teach you how to swim. Smile smile smile my love It's not what it may seem Laughing laughing laughing laughing Life is but a dream.*
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Jul 5, 2014
Jul 5, 2014 at 3:18 PM UTC
smile smile smile my love
It's the color of her eyes; the color of the sea. In both you could drown, or find God himself. It's the space between cities. Road signs & right turns, and the quiet determination to unravel in her arms. The sheets on her bed at 3am, where she whispers "I love you" and you've never been so sure of anything. The breath you exhale after you kiss her; it's the color of the blood pumping through your heart. The heart that she keeps beating. The heart that has her name written all over it. It's the heaviness in anticipation. The insatiable desire for a minute, just one minute. It is not the opposite of passion, like once suggested. It is passion itself. It is the sound of whispers. Her breath on your neck, and shivers down your spine. The color that fills in the weeks until you see her again. But most importantly, it will always be the color of her eyes. And it is no coincidence they are the color of the sea.
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Aug 18, 2014
Aug 18, 2014 at 2:44 PM UTC
Describe the Color Blue Without Using the Word Blue
A loaded gun behind the perfect shot, infiltrates my mind with memories I forgot. Pills and potions couldn't help ease the pain, the man with the mask I can no longer keep sane. And in the bleeding sky I saw, scars I've encountered once before. The depth is scary, but I can't look away, I dive and drown in this red ocean every day. I close my eyes and hum a song, trying to outshout the things I've done wrong. It's a suicide mission to try and win this fight, so I'll just get lost with the strangers of the night. On the gleaming tracks I run with no goal, it's just an endless journey within a distant black hole. I'm just a fraction of something that could've been great, but, I know it's too late to change my bulletproof fate.
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Mar 12, 2018
Mar 12, 2018 at 2:44 PM UTC
Save Myself
We were misfits the neglected ******** of a backwards world that rejected us not because we were sick demented or dangerous but because we didn't prescribe to a preconceived notion of what a functioning citizen was. Not rotten enough to spoil behind the bars of a prison just competent enough to work menial jobs and drown our sorrows at the corner pub. We swallowed this hard truth the same way we drank our shots with no chaser and at times it burnt maybe even made us tear up but we never let it beat us (too strong for that) We were beautiful resilient beasts that could carry the weight of the world upon our shoulders and it was heavy but we would tell ourselves "doesn't every world need an atlas?" so we went on holding up the sky when no one asked it of us.
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Sep 25, 2013
Sep 25, 2013 at 1:21 AM UTC
A Love Letter To Those Who Hold Up The Sky
Let me mold my body along your curves; trickle yourself into my entire being *Vulnerable, **** my heart exposed*, palpably we connect across the starry sky; you ... within me I want your intimacy to linger along the edges of my lips hours after you've gone I ache to be consumed by your eyes, intense with emotions, long after the dawn Take me to your intimate chambers where hearts race; the rhythm of our silhouettes melded on satin sheets Leisurely feel your way; a slow descend along the avenue of my rhythmic swell; forgive me of my quivering wanton needs Allow me to graze at the gates of your femininity, drinking the honey from your pink walls; to feel your crowning point between my lips How can I resist those wandering lips that stirs the curtains of my garden alcove; perfectly painted in honey dew, I throb for the touch of your kiss Drape your thighs upon my shoulders; let the waves of satisfaction cascade up your spine I beg to be released, dear God, of this intoxicating spell; I submit myself, heart laid bare; oceans of emotions no longer can I hide. Find your eyes locking with mine; my torso parallels yours, my body pressed to you; equal in ferocity and tenderness Mesmerize by your burning eyes in our melting flesh, so strong your hold; yet so tender your caress Utter our names in fiery moans both whispered and screamed in heated breaths on our solitary night Vile obscenities float out on heated breath, as cool air kiss our molded skin on the evening our time takes flight Take me to your heart & cast away the flesh; allow our souls to weave in the throes of passion as our bodies mix into one; slow-motion ecstasy A longing deep inside, the locked chambers of my soul to exotic places beyond our imaginationsyou sneak into my heart to fulfill my every fantasy  Feed me the lullabies you paint on your canvas; orgiastic symphony we conduct in cascading tides; trembles throughout our bodies when our fluids mix Let me paint upon your heart a ballet of our duet; the crescendo palette of my tide drown you in the spirit of our lyrics Your ripe fruit quivers tenderly while our union completes; take my hands and let me be yours Hold my sated body that tremors from the wake; a union of our souls ensnare a bond secure ~
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Sep 18, 2017
Sep 18, 2017 at 7:34 AM UTC
Tonight is Ours
Let me mold my body along your curves; trickle yourself into my entire being *Vulnerable, **** my heart exposed*, palpably we connect across the starry sky; you ... within me I want your intimacy to linger along the edges of my lips hours after you've gone I ache to be consumed by your eyes, intense with emotions, long after the dawn Take me to your intimate chambers where hearts race; the rhythm of our silhouettes melded on satin sheets Leisurely feel your way; a slow descend along the avenue of my rhythmic swell; forgive me of my quivering wanton needs Allow me to graze at the gates of your femininity, drinking the honey from your pink walls; to feel your crowning point between my lips How can I resist those wandering lips that stirs the curtains of my garden alcove; perfectly painted in honey dew, I throb for the touch of your kiss Drape your thighs upon my shoulders; let the waves of satisfaction cascade up your spine I beg to be released, dear God, of this intoxicating spell; I submit myself, heart laid bare; oceans of emotions no longer can I hide. Find your eyes locking with mine; my torso parallels yours, my body pressed to you; equal in ferocity and tenderness Mesmerize by your burning eyes in our melting flesh, so strong your hold; yet so tender your caress Utter our names in fiery moans both whispered and screamed in heated breaths on our solitary night Vile obscenities float out on heated breath, as cool air kiss our molded skin on the evening our time takes flight Take me to your heart & cast away the flesh; allow our souls to weave in the throes of passion as our bodies mix into one; slow-motion ecstasy A longing deep inside, the locked chambers of my soul to exotic places beyond our imaginationsyou sneak into my heart to fulfill my every fantasy  Feed me the lullabies you paint on your canvas; orgiastic symphony we conduct in cascading tides; trembles throughout our bodies when our fluids mix Let me paint upon your heart a ballet of our duet; the crescendo palette of my tide drown you in the spirit of our lyrics Your ripe fruit quivers tenderly while our union completes; take my hands and let me be yours Hold my sated body that tremors from the wake; a union of our souls ensnare a bond secure ~
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He doesn't burn photographs He doesn't join therapy sessions He doesn't smoke too many cigarettes Nor he drown himself into alcohol He scratches his wounds daily And never let them heal He doesn't try to get rid of the pain Instead he let it grow on him He waters the seed of sorrow with his tears He feeds it with the manure of old memories He takes it to sleep with him And nurtures it in himself Till the moment when every single drop of his blood gets replaced by this pain Until his fragile heart can bear no more And his soul starts overflowing with emotions That's when he dip his pen into this pain And empty his heart on a piece of paper He bares his soul for us to feel He creates poetry that the world would cherish for centuries to come
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May 21, 2018
May 21, 2018 at 1:50 PM UTC
When the heart of a poet gets broken
Water is complex gives you life But can drown you
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Jul 24, 2014
Jul 24, 2014 at 2:09 AM UTC
Irony of Water 10w
Here is the inimitable Jeff Buckley's poem, "My New Year's Eve Prayer," which he performed live at Sin-é in Manhattan, NYC, in 1996. "You, my love, are allowed to forget about the Christmas you just spent stressed out in your parents' house. You, my love, are allowed to shed the weight of all the years before, like bad disco clothes. Save them for a night of dancing ****** with your lover. You, my love, are allowed to let yourself drown every night in bottomless wild and naked symbolic dreams. You, my love, in sleep can unlock your youth and your most terrifying magic; and dreaming is for the courageous. You, my love, are allowed to grab my guitar and sing me idiot love songs if you've lost your ability to speak. Keep it down to two minutes. You, my love, are allowed to rot and to die and to live again, more alive and incandescent than before. You, my love, are allowed to beat the **** out of your television, choke it's thoughts and corrupt its mind. **** **** **** **** the ************ before the song of zombiefied pain and panic and malaise and it's narrow right-winged vision and it's cheap commercial gang **** becomes the white noise of the world. Turn about is fair play. You, my love, are allowed to forgive and love your television. You, my love, are allowed to speak in kisses to those around you and those up in heaven. You, my love, are allowed to show your babies how to dance full bodied, starry eyed, audacious, supernatural and glorified. You, my love, are allowed to **** in every single endeavor. You, my love, are allowed to be soaked like a lovers' blanket in the New York summertime with the wonder of your own special gift. You, my love, are allowed to receive praise. You, my love, are allowed to have time. You, my love, are allowed to understand. You, my love, are allowed to love. Woman, disobey, when little men believe; You, my love, are Rebellion."
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Aug 3, 2015
Aug 3, 2015 at 5:08 PM UTC
My New Year's Eve Prayer by Jeff Buckley
Here is the inimitable Jeff Buckley's poem, "My New Year's Eve Prayer," which he performed live at Sin-é in Manhattan, NYC, in 1996. "You, my love, are allowed to forget about the Christmas you just spent stressed out in your parents' house. You, my love, are allowed to shed the weight of all the years before, like bad disco clothes. Save them for a night of dancing ****** with your lover. You, my love, are allowed to let yourself drown every night in bottomless wild and naked symbolic dreams. You, my love, in sleep can unlock your youth and your most terrifying magic; and dreaming is for the courageous. You, my love, are allowed to grab my guitar and sing me idiot love songs if you've lost your ability to speak. Keep it down to two minutes. You, my love, are allowed to rot and to die and to live again, more alive and incandescent than before. You, my love, are allowed to beat the **** out of your television, choke it's thoughts and corrupt its mind. **** **** **** **** the ************ before the song of zombiefied pain and panic and malaise and it's narrow right-winged vision and it's cheap commercial gang **** becomes the white noise of the world. Turn about is fair play. You, my love, are allowed to forgive and love your television. You, my love, are allowed to speak in kisses to those around you and those up in heaven. You, my love, are allowed to show your babies how to dance full bodied, starry eyed, audacious, supernatural and glorified. You, my love, are allowed to **** in every single endeavor. You, my love, are allowed to be soaked like a lovers' blanket in the New York summertime with the wonder of your own special gift. You, my love, are allowed to receive praise. You, my love, are allowed to have time. You, my love, are allowed to understand. You, my love, are allowed to love. Woman, disobey, when little men believe; You, my love, are Rebellion."
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When I look into your eyes I see more than just brown... I see pools of dark chocolate in which I want to drown. Like shots of aged whiskey they intoxicate me- I forget all my troubles and for a moment, I'm free. They make me feel warm, so safe and secure. No longer a sinner- they make me feel pure. They're the color of sugar when caramelized, with a devilish charm that has me mesmerised. Much like the earth drenched in rain- with unstoppable force they now flood my brain. To be lost in their depths is where I long to be... but those perfect brown eyes were never meant to see me.
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Jul 12, 2018
Jul 12, 2018 at 1:02 AM UTC
Perfect Brown Eyes
Is that what we wake up to every day? Fast food and gas stations are forever stamped in the corners of my eyes as they are looking through the glass of minimum wage to the red flashing lights of a man hoping to get back to his children safely. Is life is a pointed dagger then my blade is rusted and dull when I wonder why I even try some days. Do I dare defend my pride and still demand something more than this? Is this a call for engines in the air or wings made of wax? Death would be more alive than waking up to another day of shampoo commercials and microwave dinners. You are always whispering in my ear though dear and telling me that you're more than just a particle flown into my imagination from a world so oh very different than ours. Are your eyes as bright as I imagine? Will the glare from them blind me from the tax collectors whip and will your laughter drown out the screams of onlookers who are throwing peanuts through the bars at my feet? Will your kiss melt me and cause me to fall into wind like leaves in a storm, a tornado of color and beauty..? I lay in bed and my eyes close tightly, my breathing slows and thoughts drip into pits men drown themselves in, the murky waters of nihilistic cynicism... Though my hand will still not be closed around yours when the sun rises, the whisper lets me know you are still awake and searching for me too...
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Nov 15, 2012
Nov 15, 2012 at 2:23 PM UTC
Whisper
Can I drown in the sweet sorrow of your passion? Bask in the drips of your essence and savor your liquid ecstasy. Stare in awe at the contours of your body as it bends to my very will. Making you feel as real as this fantasy world we have thrusted ourselves into. Your soft whimpers caresses my ears as our spirits are driven by their own Heaven and Hell. The rapid movements of your ribcage soothes my ravenous soul as our bodies intertwine with each other. The aroma of our mixture captivates my subconscience as we're climbing towards your highest peak. Your petite thighs clenching onto my physique build as the wave of nirvana overpowers your psyche. She slowly drifts away from our fantasy world, leaving me here to dwell on her forsaken sorrow. My body yearns to hear your voice in the endless darkness as it awaits for your return. Can I cross the threshold into your garden of Eden one last time?
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May 4, 2012
May 4, 2012 at 4:13 AM UTC
Soul Quest
Is our path laid out before us, or is it something that we choose? Are we guaranteed a victory, is success just ours to lose? How much free will do we have, if any after all, it seems when things are on the up, that is when we fall. Is that the way its meant to be? A life of ups and downs, ever shifting waters, in which we're doomed to drown? Or do the choices that we make, determine how life goes? I'd like to think this is the case, but who amongst us knows?
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Aug 2, 2010
Aug 2, 2010 at 6:19 PM UTC
Fate vs free will
eyes of ocean blue grayed by darken skies cry rain drown in flooding waves
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Apr 4, 2017
Apr 4, 2017 at 2:00 AM UTC
a storm (haiku)
We never took pictures together because you don't like how big your eyes are I would drown in them for you but you would be too busy watching the sunrise to notice. You have glasses because you're blind But they aren't the right prescription because you still don't see your beauty. I remember the night you had me drive two hours away from the city lights just so you could point out all the constellations you memorized when you were younger. I let you go on and on about stars, waiting for you to mention the way you outshine all of them But you kissed me instead and I think that was even better. Even when Summer faded out, you would always smell like sunshine. I wanted to live forever in the daydream of you and me walking along the shoreline. Your laughter was synonymous with sunflowers and how everytime you caught sight of them you couldn't stop yourself from smiling. But that should have been my warning sign because Russia's official flower is the Sunflower and ever since you left I've traded water for ***** and this winter has been unusually rainy but it's still too bright for me to go outside.
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Jan 2, 2015
Jan 2, 2015 at 5:15 PM UTC
Facts about Sunflowers
Soft melodies of the deep sea echo Moonlight dances on my pretty scales And icy bubbles whirl under my chest Through my slippery hair And down into my lungs to clear the way for overflowing foam Laughter splashes behind my lips as my anticipation rises Waiting for a night of twisted fairy-tales and uncalled for surprises. Shimmering bodies swarm in spirals Grinding in unison with the waves crashing at the surface We're anxious for overflowing foam and hidden treasures Purple light pierces the dark like shards of crystals Casting a ghostly shade on bulbous faces Pressure rises as each wave surges Whirlpools of hot breath suffocate our gills But the sidelines are shallow And stragglers float motionless Hair like seaweed at the nape of his neck Unbuttoned linen soaked and dripping Her hollow eyes glow green Like the jelly orbs of a fish under florescent lights She’s pressed against a boy who has hooks for fins Searching for the parts that are edible Tender, Scale-less, Slippery Nothing wrong with being the catch of the day Right? Bubbles rise and pop as the last melodies drown Schools of us are begging for shiny hooks and bad decisions A handsome boy has been smiling all the while He’s caught in a fisherman’s net Craving salty lips and the spell to make him a man But fisherman don't care for little mermaids With hearts like sea glass and no hidden treasures to steal Sweaty fins splash and cheer The fishbowl shatters Sea glass spills out onto sand We squirm and flop onto land Gasping without air to breathe As our mouths and ***** thoughts dry in the sun Leaving behind fresh meat without mouths to feed. Rainbow confetti was stuck in the grooves of my scales Wet clothes left on the floor of a steamy bathroom Gasping and moaning into tile With the face of a handsome stranger Because this meat shouldn't go to waste And I'm drunken with desperation For overflowing foam, jewels, and shiny hooks But I'm just another fish in the sea Tumbling in the waves with my rainbow confetti scales.
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Oct 15, 2018
Oct 15, 2018 at 6:00 PM UTC
Confetti Scales
Soft melodies of the deep sea echo Moonlight dances on my pretty scales And icy bubbles whirl under my chest Through my slippery hair And down into my lungs to clear the way for overflowing foam Laughter splashes behind my lips as my anticipation rises Waiting for a night of twisted fairy-tales and uncalled for surprises. Shimmering bodies swarm in spirals Grinding in unison with the waves crashing at the surface We're anxious for overflowing foam and hidden treasures Purple light pierces the dark like shards of crystals Casting a ghostly shade on bulbous faces Pressure rises as each wave surges Whirlpools of hot breath suffocate our gills But the sidelines are shallow And stragglers float motionless Hair like seaweed at the nape of his neck Unbuttoned linen soaked and dripping Her hollow eyes glow green Like the jelly orbs of a fish under florescent lights She’s pressed against a boy who has hooks for fins Searching for the parts that are edible Tender, Scale-less, Slippery Nothing wrong with being the catch of the day Right? Bubbles rise and pop as the last melodies drown Schools of us are begging for shiny hooks and bad decisions A handsome boy has been smiling all the while He’s caught in a fisherman’s net Craving salty lips and the spell to make him a man But fisherman don't care for little mermaids With hearts like sea glass and no hidden treasures to steal Sweaty fins splash and cheer The fishbowl shatters Sea glass spills out onto sand We squirm and flop onto land Gasping without air to breathe As our mouths and ***** thoughts dry in the sun Leaving behind fresh meat without mouths to feed. Rainbow confetti was stuck in the grooves of my scales Wet clothes left on the floor of a steamy bathroom Gasping and moaning into tile With the face of a handsome stranger Because this meat shouldn't go to waste And I'm drunken with desperation For overflowing foam, jewels, and shiny hooks But I'm just another fish in the sea Tumbling in the waves with my rainbow confetti scales.
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#*Your hair stills heart's rhythmic meter   For this I wish forever Strands spun with goddess gossamer;   softer than touch of mother Your eyes dazzle with no glitter   For this I stare o're yonder Locking jewels with coins of others;   Leaves throbbing chests emptier Your form flows as gentle rivers   For this I grudge past swimmers Glory bequeathed to the winner;   drown will the losing suitors Your voice humbles angel choirs   For this I listen eager Songs molding seraphs from satyrs;   in harmony with nature Your being stirs wildfire   For this I bear the pleasure Ethereal flames dance together;   fueled by spiritual tethers You are my love light of summer   For this I waded winter Glowing 'bove, spring was made greener;   blooming nascent desire*#
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Jul 27, 2018
Jul 27, 2018 at 5:29 PM UTC
To My New Love
have you ever believed in something so blindly so genuinely that the moment you realize it isn't true, something inside you changes forever? i wanna tell you a story, see seldom do i ever go swimming in drinks deep enough to drown in but when i do i speak in tongues about things that none of my memories are allowed to talk about like that christmas at the isthmus where my girlfriend plucked a conch shell whiter than gods teeth out of the sand held it to her ear and stopped time that day she was a shade of blue the could've made the ocean sick see, she loved to play jokes when she held the sea shell to her ear she gasped, called my name and said "i want you to hear this" i said "yeah, right, everybody knows it's just the same old sea" she replied "no. not this one. this one is special. listen. theres music in this one" she handed me the shell like a promise she couldn't keep and i held it to my ear with all the potential of seeing shore after being stranded at sea for years only to hear a tired dirge of silence spill from its emptiness i guess she didn't know how desperately i wanted to hear it too because ever since something inside me snapped now sand pours out of every post card i open i hear seagulls in telephone static sometimes i have dreams where i bury my hands in every beach i've ever been on and exhume this graveyard of noise every time i try to sleep i spit up fishhooks and i guess i'm obsessed but maybe if i hold my ear to enough vacant things then i could have back the time stolen from me since it happened maybe they would get it if they knew what i wanted when i blow out birthday candles maybe they'll find me face down in a wishing well i watch eternal sunshine of the spotless mind every day pretending i can forget too because this sea sickness has followed me for years because yesterday i walked into a music shop and all the pianos broke but the only thing i can think to say is *do you know how bad a memory has to be that you fantasize about forgetting it?*
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Dec 16, 2014
Dec 16, 2014 at 1:03 PM UTC
measure
have you ever believed in something so blindly so genuinely that the moment you realize it isn't true, something inside you changes forever? i wanna tell you a story, see seldom do i ever go swimming in drinks deep enough to drown in but when i do i speak in tongues about things that none of my memories are allowed to talk about like that christmas at the isthmus where my girlfriend plucked a conch shell whiter than gods teeth out of the sand held it to her ear and stopped time that day she was a shade of blue the could've made the ocean sick see, she loved to play jokes when she held the sea shell to her ear she gasped, called my name and said "i want you to hear this" i said "yeah, right, everybody knows it's just the same old sea" she replied "no. not this one. this one is special. listen. theres music in this one" she handed me the shell like a promise she couldn't keep and i held it to my ear with all the potential of seeing shore after being stranded at sea for years only to hear a tired dirge of silence spill from its emptiness i guess she didn't know how desperately i wanted to hear it too because ever since something inside me snapped now sand pours out of every post card i open i hear seagulls in telephone static sometimes i have dreams where i bury my hands in every beach i've ever been on and exhume this graveyard of noise every time i try to sleep i spit up fishhooks and i guess i'm obsessed but maybe if i hold my ear to enough vacant things then i could have back the time stolen from me since it happened maybe they would get it if they knew what i wanted when i blow out birthday candles maybe they'll find me face down in a wishing well i watch eternal sunshine of the spotless mind every day pretending i can forget too because this sea sickness has followed me for years because yesterday i walked into a music shop and all the pianos broke but the only thing i can think to say is *do you know how bad a memory has to be that you fantasize about forgetting it?*
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my stomach is in knots and i feel so sick thinking about you holding anyone that isn’t me and i don’t understand why you thought it’d be a good idea to tell me that you’re falling asleep at night with another girl in your bed, even if you’re not kissing her goodnight, i tried to drown out my sobs all day with modern vampires of the city on vinyl, but it still feels like someone sunk fangs in my lungs it’s only been a week, the cuts from your nails from holding my heart so tight are still fresh and i never asked you to stop, i never told you i wanted to try to be more than friends again, i never tried to paint your hands red, but all you could seem to do is defend yourself and repeat that you’ve done nothing wrong “you said we’re just friends you said we’re just friends you said we’re just friends” and we are just friends i just wanted you to understand and acknowledge that it still hurts and you can say you’re sorry, you said sorry, but i’m sure she’s tucked in beneath your sheets right now and you’re still repeating in your head i’ve done nothing wrong i’ve done nothing wrong i’ve done nothing wrong we’re just friends we’re just friends we’re just friends and i’m glad you’re comfortable, i’m glad you know you’ve done nothing wrong, i’m glad you have someone to hold at night, i’m glad thoughts of me don’t rip your heart out, i’m glad you’re okay with being just friends i’m glad you’re fine, but, i’m sorry, i’m not.
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Feb 12, 2015
Feb 12, 2015 at 1:09 AM UTC
just friends (some friend)
my stomach is in knots and i feel so sick thinking about you holding anyone that isn’t me and i don’t understand why you thought it’d be a good idea to tell me that you’re falling asleep at night with another girl in your bed, even if you’re not kissing her goodnight, i tried to drown out my sobs all day with modern vampires of the city on vinyl, but it still feels like someone sunk fangs in my lungs it’s only been a week, the cuts from your nails from holding my heart so tight are still fresh and i never asked you to stop, i never told you i wanted to try to be more than friends again, i never tried to paint your hands red, but all you could seem to do is defend yourself and repeat that you’ve done nothing wrong “you said we’re just friends you said we’re just friends you said we’re just friends” and we are just friends i just wanted you to understand and acknowledge that it still hurts and you can say you’re sorry, you said sorry, but i’m sure she’s tucked in beneath your sheets right now and you’re still repeating in your head i’ve done nothing wrong i’ve done nothing wrong i’ve done nothing wrong we’re just friends we’re just friends we’re just friends and i’m glad you’re comfortable, i’m glad you know you’ve done nothing wrong, i’m glad you have someone to hold at night, i’m glad thoughts of me don’t rip your heart out, i’m glad you’re okay with being just friends i’m glad you’re fine, but, i’m sorry, i’m not.
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