I shouldn’t have  
I guess I forcefully moved my things into your heart on parham street
This fool has been celebrating a grubby clean slate
He drank a cocktail before the harvest
After storing his brain safely in the garbage
He asked ‘would you be mine’

I shouldn’t have said I love you first
Now realising that was the pistol to your head
And i jumped the gun twice and over again
This fool stands in awe of his folly
He reads his scribbles of idyllic love poems and ******* dovy quotidians
Every compelled ‘i love you’ will be overturned
My hands over-burned from the blisters
Bitter from the bile from every memory
Though i took my time, I was patiently stupid

I shouldn’t have
Now i’m sat here with this lollipop of regret
Now knowing that every graphic snapshot was because of that same pistol
No wonder why it all seemed strange
I used to gnaw about making you feel like you needed to trust me and love me
I was yet weary of receiving the blame of every kiss, pause and touch
I didn’t realise that the foundation was built on compelled labour
I was to quick to celebrate, but now i know what i should have

I have a guy
Who loves pretty words,
Which makes vibrant smiles.
He too loves cries,
but doesn’t like the words
That follow hot tears.
I want to spend years
Knowing this guy.
Fear for fighting
Cold wars
keep love alive.
My love is lively
Sprouting constantly
And the wish for it
To never stop
Is craved.
And I have a spot
In my heart saved
For you.

I Had love someone  with all my might.
But he did nothing but put pain in my life.

So we departed n that **** really left me BRoKen heaRt'd.

Months pass'd & ! Had regain my strength.
But then I saw h!m.....& i Fell once again.

& then A year pass'd & I Had a strong stand.
Got me maken right moves, I Was constructing my land.

Had no sorrow in me, not a single trace.
**** i Didnt even remember his face.

But one night I saw him & all that was burried relived.
So We TalKed & I  Thought, so I Was back with this Kid.

& foR some reason I Thought he'd changed.
I was wrong.
he told me "Yo I cheated on u n Ima start singing Lullaby songs".

I Fell to the ground with masive tears.
Felt such an imence pain that would last me years.

Didnt hear or see him for months, I Was still handicap.
Still NuM, no color 2 my life, **** it i aint want it back.

Yeah he had me like that.
But I GIve hIm BIG propS.

CAUSE He IS the 1st n laSt for me.
but ONE nIght I Saw hIm N he Saw me.

Ask me why my eyez where so lonely.
As 1f he didnt know but he really didnt cuz he never cared.

So I reminded him n he said "grow up life aint fair".

Do u, Move on n live.
As much as it hurted me I Had to...so I Did.

N thats when I Grew strong n stood tall.
Promised myself I'd never eveR Fall.

Now im back n that whole lovy dovy concept is out.
Love dont live here n that to me is something Im no longer about.

No longer wish to have it.Thats something I dont need. I Mean im living good now, I got what I Need.

Got my spot, pair of wheels n a whole lot of green.
Im looking at the sky just feeling the breeze.

Man **** LOVE IM GOOD.
N **** that fage *** n his wack lil hood.

It's 2015 n now hes on my **** asking for forgiveness.
I Aint that weak ***** so go on with yr business.

Who crys now does laugh later.
Get the **** out my face, go to your ex & date her.

Cause this **** queen don't want u nor need you.
Got my 5, got my green & I Got a true Ride or die too.