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"doused" poems
i believe, even the stars get tired. when the night sky had folded them away back into the darkness and the moon, that lonesome thing, has doused itself in shadows. so will you too, my friend shy away from the light as if it would burn if it reached you. maybe you feel, you just are not strong enough to face the day. that the midnight hour is a broken thing and oh, the silence is deafening. and you and i know, even the stars are tired. you mourn for them as their light expires.
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Sep 7, 2019
Sep 7, 2019 at 7:39 PM UTC
prayers in silence
There was a tiny tea light somewhat hid and tucked away Was lost; To be forgotten in dark corners of my brain The other day you called me breathing into it new life A weak and dying flame now once again stood strong and bright Tried quelling it with reason; Doused with plenty rationale No matter what I threw at it would not leave or dispel Use thoughts as tools or weapons; They are thrown out by the mind Attempting to slice through the bonds to flame the heart did bind But no where in my cognition is something quite that tough In any way could **** that flame or from these bonds be cut This statement even would be true the weakest of its days But as I'm talking to you with each word you fan the flame Was living out a lie and yet was unbeknownst to me I thought my love for you could die if left and just let be However, now I know too well this lasting present truth My eyes saw you and ever since, I've been in love with you
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Nov 2, 2018
Nov 2, 2018 at 4:56 AM UTC
Tea Light
I always suspected electricity Ran rampant through my veins To make me dazed and dizzy But unable to sit still It made me prone to flights of fancy So I left giddy trails of sparks Blazing proof of my restlessness That once brightly caught your eye Once your gaze had found my own My moods came in swooning flares And you crackled alongside me Filling my aching, empty silence With shiny, blessed noise We burned so beautifully With my electric fire And your trilling declamations Light and sound intertwining Like thunder that had finally caught up with its lightning It seemed like Nature's order A completion of the whole Two halves that followed each other Unthinkingly and automatically So one day when I found silence It felt like Earth itself was splitting Panicked, I burned more brightly Stoked the fire just in case I feared that I had dimmed And been the cause of this new quietness So when I still heard nothing I thought my efforts insufficient And I ran my highest currents Until my wires nearly melted Thinking the sun and I were comparable And anticipating a response And still I heard no trilling No crackling at my side So I wondered if perhaps I had shined beyond your limits Swiftly, I contracted Reined in my flares and doused the fire Thinking sudden darkness Might just shock you into sound I finally heard the faintest popping Not quite the rending that I wanted But a break from quiet all the same Afraid of spoiling the moment I leashed my electricity Kept myself dim so I could hear you Though I felt the writhing beneath my skin It finally became unbearable So I flashed like wild lightning Lashed out and struck the ground Hoping for your thunder A dark and roiling storm Swirling raindrops and clouds colliding And deep, ugly noise All I wanted was your thunder But in the end It was only me yelling Screaming out for downpours Alone Listening to my own echoes Waiting for you to harmonize In the end I was always waiting Wondering when you'd chosen silence Wondering why I'd let you dim me Wondering how it was we'd ever burned
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Nov 27, 2010
Nov 27, 2010 at 1:45 PM UTC
Screaming Out For Downpours
I always suspected electricity Ran rampant through my veins To make me dazed and dizzy But unable to sit still It made me prone to flights of fancy So I left giddy trails of sparks Blazing proof of my restlessness That once brightly caught your eye Once your gaze had found my own My moods came in swooning flares And you crackled alongside me Filling my aching, empty silence With shiny, blessed noise We burned so beautifully With my electric fire And your trilling declamations Light and sound intertwining Like thunder that had finally caught up with its lightning It seemed like Nature's order A completion of the whole Two halves that followed each other Unthinkingly and automatically So one day when I found silence It felt like Earth itself was splitting Panicked, I burned more brightly Stoked the fire just in case I feared that I had dimmed And been the cause of this new quietness So when I still heard nothing I thought my efforts insufficient And I ran my highest currents Until my wires nearly melted Thinking the sun and I were comparable And anticipating a response And still I heard no trilling No crackling at my side So I wondered if perhaps I had shined beyond your limits Swiftly, I contracted Reined in my flares and doused the fire Thinking sudden darkness Might just shock you into sound I finally heard the faintest popping Not quite the rending that I wanted But a break from quiet all the same Afraid of spoiling the moment I leashed my electricity Kept myself dim so I could hear you Though I felt the writhing beneath my skin It finally became unbearable So I flashed like wild lightning Lashed out and struck the ground Hoping for your thunder A dark and roiling storm Swirling raindrops and clouds colliding And deep, ugly noise All I wanted was your thunder But in the end It was only me yelling Screaming out for downpours Alone Listening to my own echoes Waiting for you to harmonize In the end I was always waiting Wondering when you'd chosen silence Wondering why I'd let you dim me Wondering how it was we'd ever burned
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The parasympathetic nervous system is responsible for regulations unconsciously transpiring within the organs and the glands of the body. Such as: urination, salivation, digestion, defecation, and lacrimation (noun. ‘the flow of tears’. Latin. from lacrimare (‘weep’) and lacrima (‘tear’). It’s why I cry even when I don’t want to. You are the parasympathetic nervous system. The (ortho-)sympathetic nervous system is responsible for the mobilization of the fight-or-flight response and constantly maintaining homeostasis within the body. It acts rapidly, enacting an attempt at stability and the necessary and critical ability to suddenly escape on pulsing legs or cling to survival through brandishing adrenaline-doused knuckles and dilated pupils. It’s why you live even when you don’t want to. I am the sympathetic nervous system. The parasympathetic and sympathetic nervous systems are two of three essential nervous systems which compose the autonomic nervous system (a part of the peripheral nervous system) that manages involuntary functions of the body. Such as: swallowing, perspiration, arousal, breathing, and heart rate (noun. ‘the speed of the heartbeat’. usually expressed in beats per minute. mine speeds up when I see you). Individually these two systems oppose but compliment each other like our hands do— pressed together and omitting equal force; veins meeting at the fingertips and throbbing at the wrists but running amuck on our respective digits otherwise. You are the invariable and unspoken reminder to breath, love, sweat, and live. I am the sudden snap of reality always aiming to save you but grudgingly willing to fight you and ready to leave. From the deepest lower half of my brainstem and from every nerve in my cycling body, I’m sorry. From all of my chromaffin cells and from the truest parts of submandibular ganglian, I am sorry.
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May 12, 2014
May 12, 2014 at 8:17 PM UTC
don't ask me what a submandibular ganglian is because i won't know (a biologically correct love letter)
The parasympathetic nervous system is responsible for regulations unconsciously transpiring within the organs and the glands of the body. Such as: urination, salivation, digestion, defecation, and lacrimation (noun. ‘the flow of tears’. Latin. from lacrimare (‘weep’) and lacrima (‘tear’). It’s why I cry even when I don’t want to. You are the parasympathetic nervous system. The (ortho-)sympathetic nervous system is responsible for the mobilization of the fight-or-flight response and constantly maintaining homeostasis within the body. It acts rapidly, enacting an attempt at stability and the necessary and critical ability to suddenly escape on pulsing legs or cling to survival through brandishing adrenaline-doused knuckles and dilated pupils. It’s why you live even when you don’t want to. I am the sympathetic nervous system. The parasympathetic and sympathetic nervous systems are two of three essential nervous systems which compose the autonomic nervous system (a part of the peripheral nervous system) that manages involuntary functions of the body. Such as: swallowing, perspiration, arousal, breathing, and heart rate (noun. ‘the speed of the heartbeat’. usually expressed in beats per minute. mine speeds up when I see you). Individually these two systems oppose but compliment each other like our hands do— pressed together and omitting equal force; veins meeting at the fingertips and throbbing at the wrists but running amuck on our respective digits otherwise. You are the invariable and unspoken reminder to breath, love, sweat, and live. I am the sudden snap of reality always aiming to save you but grudgingly willing to fight you and ready to leave. From the deepest lower half of my brainstem and from every nerve in my cycling body, I’m sorry. From all of my chromaffin cells and from the truest parts of submandibular ganglian, I am sorry.
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She's taken your body wash, and used it without permission. She's used it twice before and presumed it would be fine to take it again. You never gave consent. You even said No. She's used it twice before so what's a third time, or a fourth or even a fifth, she's just hoping you won't snitch and tell someone she stole something from you... Your confidence or your peach shampoo? She lied about the temperature of the bath water, you were supposed to drown before you felt the heat, but you didn't and now you're tearing your skin to shreds, Self-destruction on the first date, how sweet. She wants you to wash your mouth out, you said something you shouldn't and now she's mad, feeling sorry for you is in the past, the new thing is drowning you in the bath. Your heads now under water, feet kicking the floor. She's doused you with her perfume, just to see you choke against the wooden frame of the door.
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Nov 25, 2017
Nov 25, 2017 at 7:15 PM UTC
One bathroom, to three girls.
Circles spin in Circles spin in Circles. Introspection like a drill And my mind sinks beneath Forever where Depths speak of Years gone by Like rising smoke And you made The fire. Thoughts perch on clouds, Fall among the rain Into speech with Thunder and lightning. Flames doused, You exit stage right For a moment. Fluttering chaos Holding floods at bay Walls built as Walls break and Water wins. You come with floods. You are the Brain filling flood And my mind Drinks it all until There's nothing else. Water. You. Is this madness?
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May 22, 2015
May 22, 2015 at 2:12 PM UTC
Flood and Fire
I look at the fractured streets littered with broken promises peeling billboards peddling luxury to the wrong audience the contorted vertebrae of this country's spine and I mourn the death of the American Dream. I see it lying at my feet with every step like the broken-winged bird from childhood fables. "Fix me," she wheezes. I tried once, but it died in my hands. Apparently, "The Dream" used to be two cars but now it's two good fists the wisdom to know when enough is enough and the strength to say it. I was born too late to remember anything else. Here lies the American Dream, bruised and battered by those who vowed to protect her doused in oil and set aflame by misdirection misdemeanors and Miss Universe. Here lies the American Dream who was born from revolution and died in its absence who waited for a day that never came who lived long enough to see the fruit of her labor become a raisin in the sun.
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Jun 21, 2013
Jun 21, 2013 at 6:36 AM UTC
A Eulogy for the American Dream
The proudest of men that walk the earth Have been doused in glory since the day of their births They chase after those who've run away Speak when there is not a word to say And their greatest endeavor is to convert the innocent Hungry for the women striking young and brilliant Unbelieving of a lady's independence Sure that all women crave their presence Like rabid dogs, the proud men search For those to quench their undying thirst To be loved and accepted of men of the heart But these men only search in the emptiness of dark How can they deny the truth in their faces? They imbalance the world and its natural paces No one can love an arrogant, proud man But they search and search, yet they never understand That love is for those who are willing to fail
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Nov 24, 2014
Nov 24, 2014 at 11:30 PM UTC
Proud
Will a Phoenix doused in water reignite? Should the Sun ever disturb the night? As my eyes take their rest my mind takes flight Then quickly plummets straight into blight Straight into sorrow; reigniting my rage And keeps me awake as if it were day Awake to write my story/Awake to dwell on the last page How dare I wallow over someone engaged? Great Leviathan, Demon God of water and life Lend me your strength as I overcome this strife Baptize me in your waters and revitalize my sight Clear away all the salt and callus to turn my scleras white Drown the anger in my heart; cease its return! **** the Phoenix, for its presence burns! Drown the Sun so that the moon may take its turn Allow my brain to rest so that I may have the capacity learn How to fully move on…
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Apr 4, 2017
Apr 4, 2017 at 1:19 PM UTC
It's been too long
We all want to feel like flashing lights but we're just stained silverware: rusty, dusty, ***** old, unappreciated, hidden deep inside the closet. We're only good for certain occasions when we're brought out handled with care, doused in vinegar scraping the age of our backs bringing us into Life, anew. Yet some sets fit certain settings. Appetizer? Main Course? Dessert? Dish Washer? Dropped on the floor? Sometimes none at all because we can be "made in china" or from fine china. *And I hated the feeling I got sitting in the middle of the table like a tuning fork where everyone was passing food around and I was just vibrating in their rhythm and sound. I've been through many sets much not quite like this. Still life repeats itself like history speaking of which, is actually me.* *I've been held but never used, maybe I have but not in the right way. I was made to look like a fool and I feel* **just. that.**
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Oct 4, 2014
Oct 4, 2014 at 10:07 PM UTC
Set Apart feels foolish
(an ekphrastic poem based on the painting Nighthawks by Edward Hopper) Four solemn faces, doused in gold, like moths to flame, seek warmth from the cold. Darkness leers, but harsh light shields these lonely creatures from their feelings untold. One diner desolate, a waiter old, and three weary visitors are portrayed. The scene unfolds. Most eat under the sunlight, unlike these nighthawks who flocked from their households. Some loneliness darkens hearts like blindfolds; nighthawks’ hearts aren’t exceptions. The woman red and bold, the man in shadows, and another man with a cigarette in his hold are isolated together. They are controlled and defined by solitude. They don’t belong. No mold fits them. They only have a diner, each other, and lonesome souls unconsoled.
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Jun 2, 2018
Jun 2, 2018 at 1:33 AM UTC
Nighthawks Retold
the gallon of arizona green tea that you only drank a fraction of. the salt and pepper potato chips you meant to eat, but only did so in the dream i had last night. the unmade bed that was still unmade when you flew back home, the one i still cannot bring myself to make. the dyed green hairs i keep finding around the house. the way you always pronounced 'mosquito' as 'mosk-it-toe' on purpose, and how you pronounced my cat's name 'sullumun' instead of 'solomon' on accident. the partially closed closet door from the morning i drove you to the airport. the faint smell of your sweat on my pillow left because of your hyperhidrosis. the flannel you wore and the longsleeve shirt you doused in your aftershave, that is three sizes too big for me to realistically wear. the empty taco bell cups in my car from your fourth day here. the empty shopping bags from our impromptu mall trip. the polaroids you really wanted to keep, but we couldn't find when you packed. the pieces of you that you never meant for me to keep that i keep piecing together as though, like an alchemist, i could make you appear again though i cannot, and you are not here, you are gone.
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Sep 21, 2018
Sep 21, 2018 at 4:28 PM UTC
fragments of you
A waste paper bin Left in the corner. Containing little folded up letters, Discarded as the heart was. A gang of stupid teenage vandals having a laugh, Disregarded what they had done. Disposed of the butts irresponsible after having their smokes, In the bin. Not doused. The silly lads. Wandered away. They did not see the smouldering, the burning in that bin The origami scraps, Folded as swans, Too charred to fly away. Sadly written on the innards of the origami swans, Words carried on love letters never to be seen again. Their love was carried away on a puff of white smoke. (c) Livvi
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Oct 3, 2014
Oct 3, 2014 at 8:51 PM UTC
ORIGAMI
Never tell the girl with messy hair and wide eyes that when her father sexually abused her they were, "fooling around." Fooling around is a consensual act between two lovers, friends, or strangers in which both gain pleasure and to make her feel as though that is something she did is degrading and destructive. She's already been through that once. When I got that anonymous question asking me "why is it when you fool around with your dad, no one gets in trouble, but when I do it I'm a ****** I almost snapped. The smell of cheap beer formed under my nose and the entire contents of my stomach almost fell to the side of my bed, however, I had not eaten enough to push all of my mental instability out of my mouth. I could feel my father's hands around my wrist, pulling, pinning, calloused hands scratching my nine year old skin. I could hear my young cries for help, and the tears staining my cheeks. I could feel the air on my ear as he whispered. "Tell anyone and it'll be worse next time." I remembered cleaning my own blood from the carpet that afternoon. And I almost replied with a defensive remark, but I stopped. There was no need for this private matter to be put on display on a social media forum, because then who's the girl that "fooled around" with her father? But then the question, it irks me to my very core, the reason my hands are so swiftly typing this poem between waves of hurricanes in my eyes. It's as if my dignity has been stripped from me again, no more layer of scar tissue to protect even the deepest layers of my darkest secrets. Nothing was safe anymore. And when I showed it to my boyfriend, the look in his eyes terrified me. It was as if someone had just dropped a match on a mile long pile of bone dry trees doused in gasoline. But someone had. Someone had dropped a match on me, just as fragile and capable of burning up completely. Never tell the girl with messy hair and wide eyes that when her father sexually abused her they were, "fooling around." Fooling around is a consensual act between two lovers, friends, or strangers in which both gain pleasure and to make her feel as though that is something she did is degrading and destructive. She's already been through that once.
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Feb 5, 2016
Feb 5, 2016 at 8:59 AM UTC
PTSD: A Slam Poem
Never tell the girl with messy hair and wide eyes that when her father sexually abused her they were, "fooling around." Fooling around is a consensual act between two lovers, friends, or strangers in which both gain pleasure and to make her feel as though that is something she did is degrading and destructive. She's already been through that once. When I got that anonymous question asking me "why is it when you fool around with your dad, no one gets in trouble, but when I do it I'm a ****** I almost snapped. The smell of cheap beer formed under my nose and the entire contents of my stomach almost fell to the side of my bed, however, I had not eaten enough to push all of my mental instability out of my mouth. I could feel my father's hands around my wrist, pulling, pinning, calloused hands scratching my nine year old skin. I could hear my young cries for help, and the tears staining my cheeks. I could feel the air on my ear as he whispered. "Tell anyone and it'll be worse next time." I remembered cleaning my own blood from the carpet that afternoon. And I almost replied with a defensive remark, but I stopped. There was no need for this private matter to be put on display on a social media forum, because then who's the girl that "fooled around" with her father? But then the question, it irks me to my very core, the reason my hands are so swiftly typing this poem between waves of hurricanes in my eyes. It's as if my dignity has been stripped from me again, no more layer of scar tissue to protect even the deepest layers of my darkest secrets. Nothing was safe anymore. And when I showed it to my boyfriend, the look in his eyes terrified me. It was as if someone had just dropped a match on a mile long pile of bone dry trees doused in gasoline. But someone had. Someone had dropped a match on me, just as fragile and capable of burning up completely. Never tell the girl with messy hair and wide eyes that when her father sexually abused her they were, "fooling around." Fooling around is a consensual act between two lovers, friends, or strangers in which both gain pleasure and to make her feel as though that is something she did is degrading and destructive. She's already been through that once.
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I'm doused in pink And people think That I'm weak If my palette was bleak Would you think me strong? You'd think wrong I'm made of steel And quick to heal I may be covered in bows But heaven knows This princess is tough My edges might not be rough I may look like a fragile flower But I hold so much power My femininity doesn't make me Some weak little daisy Beautiful yet tough, like diamonds & pearls Just like the girls with ribbons and curls
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Nov 4, 2014
Nov 4, 2014 at 12:46 AM UTC
Do you think me weak?
I A body of white walls houses familiarity Somehow even familiarity distorted itself beneath raw cinder blocks doused white enough that I could see the eyes of the past the eyes of the future looking back at me, the eyes of the present Must journey behind the white walls into the familiar unknown For there is something there Beyond walls so very high They only crumble, only die For there is something there I must look now through the deep crevices deep through my mind For there is something there Do I find? I see people I see minds Beyond the white walls looking back at I Why oh why must I continue? looking forward only to look back again I am stuck, encased inside eternity Only looking back to find a way out a way out of me Me I have always been my own infinity Inside, a prisoner handcuffed to the white walls I am shackled here, alive kicking Death here in the eternal infinity Great intellects dead, killed by me I am my own infinity I must **** me I will be free no longer shackled I am my own infinity I am my own uncertainty I am my own familiarity It is me I am my own infinity The white walls close in on me, my own infinity I do not want to change myself I do not want to change me I change I die Death’s kiss might be sweet Death’s kiss may free me, finally Yet I cannot accept it I will not I just want to be me but I am everyone else and they are me my own infinity Everything, everything Beyond the white walls are nothing you see White walls everywhere White walls everything Encasing all of us It is here, it is here The white walls shackle us, shackle us to reality, society There is forever no infinity in me The familiarity tastes of death mistaken for reality society The burning truth The familiarity the distorted familiarity that is reality society We rely on each other So much we shoot each other We are not strong We are not smart We can be We can’t be If we break the shackles If we keep the shackles I am in pieces I am shattered like glass I cannot do this I cannot presume Death’s kiss seems sweeter than ever (forever lost in my own infinity) You see we build ourselves up so the white walls eat us up until we are part of the white walls until we are part of the unknown familiarity Can I break through? want to need to break through White walls oh, white walls I’ve been punching for so long I am tired, I am weary Resisting, rebelling Far too long White walls, White mazes Around my infinite familiarity I cannot make it out of myself So I walk, So I walk, This great maze of my soul Humorous, I call it a great maze I only walk in circles Forever in cycle I’ve felt the tears, Fallen onto the white walls Hard to tell if they are clear or just another drop of paint Mind loops back on itself, (always does) Losing it (finally insane) A mad man I am A new coat to adorn Darker darker darker Cracks, crevices the white walls emit abysmal black paint So-cold oil, (called paint) I will make darkness burn It stings, makes a statement deep within me Have you ever felt pain? Have you ever felt life? Walls I have forgotten what color infinity was Happiness, feels so white but burns so dark Have you ever felt dark? Dark feels me as I wander, wither In white darkness
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Mar 24, 2015
Mar 24, 2015 at 3:53 PM UTC
White Walls I
I A body of white walls houses familiarity Somehow even familiarity distorted itself beneath raw cinder blocks doused white enough that I could see the eyes of the past the eyes of the future looking back at me, the eyes of the present Must journey behind the white walls into the familiar unknown For there is something there Beyond walls so very high They only crumble, only die For there is something there I must look now through the deep crevices deep through my mind For there is something there Do I find? I see people I see minds Beyond the white walls looking back at I Why oh why must I continue? looking forward only to look back again I am stuck, encased inside eternity Only looking back to find a way out a way out of me Me I have always been my own infinity Inside, a prisoner handcuffed to the white walls I am shackled here, alive kicking Death here in the eternal infinity Great intellects dead, killed by me I am my own infinity I must **** me I will be free no longer shackled I am my own infinity I am my own uncertainty I am my own familiarity It is me I am my own infinity The white walls close in on me, my own infinity I do not want to change myself I do not want to change me I change I die Death’s kiss might be sweet Death’s kiss may free me, finally Yet I cannot accept it I will not I just want to be me but I am everyone else and they are me my own infinity Everything, everything Beyond the white walls are nothing you see White walls everywhere White walls everything Encasing all of us It is here, it is here The white walls shackle us, shackle us to reality, society There is forever no infinity in me The familiarity tastes of death mistaken for reality society The burning truth The familiarity the distorted familiarity that is reality society We rely on each other So much we shoot each other We are not strong We are not smart We can be We can’t be If we break the shackles If we keep the shackles I am in pieces I am shattered like glass I cannot do this I cannot presume Death’s kiss seems sweeter than ever (forever lost in my own infinity) You see we build ourselves up so the white walls eat us up until we are part of the white walls until we are part of the unknown familiarity Can I break through? want to need to break through White walls oh, white walls I’ve been punching for so long I am tired, I am weary Resisting, rebelling Far too long White walls, White mazes Around my infinite familiarity I cannot make it out of myself So I walk, So I walk, This great maze of my soul Humorous, I call it a great maze I only walk in circles Forever in cycle I’ve felt the tears, Fallen onto the white walls Hard to tell if they are clear or just another drop of paint Mind loops back on itself, (always does) Losing it (finally insane) A mad man I am A new coat to adorn Darker darker darker Cracks, crevices the white walls emit abysmal black paint So-cold oil, (called paint) I will make darkness burn It stings, makes a statement deep within me Have you ever felt pain? Have you ever felt life? Walls I have forgotten what color infinity was Happiness, feels so white but burns so dark Have you ever felt dark? Dark feels me as I wander, wither In white darkness
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That look you give me is like the light at the end of the tunnel that we all talk about. That end That finish line The light I see is not an end at all It's the beginning of something beautiful Like a flower seed being planted in my soul Waiting to be doused by your love So that it can bloom Ill wait forever forever for that look For that one chance to have it all All being you.
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Jul 14, 2014
Jul 14, 2014 at 2:15 PM UTC
Tunnel
Love has no place here in a world doused in shades of grey. No warmth comes with winter sunshine; it's been chilled by the December Solstice winds. The days have lost meaning within a destructive Earth. Forever lost is the bliss they once knew. Immortals turn their cheek in shame that no one else feels in themselves. The apocalypse is upon a place once so promising. How could they forget the beauty of what they had? Why must they lust for more, to tear the world asunder? Cast the world into an illusionist's fire! Burn this blemish from what used to be a perfect canvas. Paint them anew, begin again! Exile the self made evil, the hatred. Create with vibrant colors for a new being. Bring about the miracle that they can survive. They could never do it alone.
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Sep 5, 2014
Sep 5, 2014 at 2:53 AM UTC
Rebirth
Living with an alcoholic is like Standing outside during an on-and-off thunderstorm. You never know when they'll snap, When they'll take on their meanest form. We cooked, and laughed, late in the night, And I walked her to her room And put a movie on, turned off her light. "I'm going to get a shower," I said, Departing into the bathroom. When I reemerged, hair still wet, Tension - in the air - loomed. "You need to treat him better!" she screamed at my brother, Words echoing throughout the house; It seems to me that once the lights are doused And she's left alone with her thoughts, Well, That's when aggression is taught.
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Dec 2, 2015
Dec 2, 2015 at 10:47 PM UTC
Living With an Alcoholic
Confessions of a Blessed Hedonist.( tri word line)     -1-                                                                    -3- Lived this long,                                                 what makes change? Time just flew,                                                   a metamorphosis divine? Mind playing games                                        worms to butterflies, Heart desiring ever.                                           saviors, angels, messiahs? extreme cravings doused.                                 what makes humane, opiates in zillions,                                               friends, lovers, brothers? Cocktails, a million.                                           Destinies unknown working, Endless revelries futile,                                       in times unconscious, Loves instant, genuine.                                       drunken slumbers dead, Clean beds crumpled,                                         uncaring deeds cruel, Checkouts late rewarded.                                   Unmanly acts shameful. -2-                                                                           -4- Friends dear betrayed,                                         maybe one dream, Away bartered loves.                                           among nightmares plenty, Much monies made,                                            that one love-germ, Abandoned ethics many.                                    under in-differences heaped, Gods all rejected,                                                  faint glimmering self, Except the Hedonistic!                                         beneath mountainous egos, World enjoyed fully,                                             a sparkling life-sign, Life wasted lovely.                                                 in cemeteries silent. Morphing every second,                                       causes matter not,       Into grandiose nothing,                                         by destiny’s graces, Skeleton cynical final.                                           gratefully unscathed still.
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Oct 9, 2012
Oct 9, 2012 at 12:42 AM UTC
Confessions of A Blessed Hedonist-part 1.
Confessions of a Blessed Hedonist.( tri word line)     -1-                                                                    -3- Lived this long,                                                 what makes change? Time just flew,                                                   a metamorphosis divine? Mind playing games                                        worms to butterflies, Heart desiring ever.                                           saviors, angels, messiahs? extreme cravings doused.                                 what makes humane, opiates in zillions,                                               friends, lovers, brothers? Cocktails, a million.                                           Destinies unknown working, Endless revelries futile,                                       in times unconscious, Loves instant, genuine.                                       drunken slumbers dead, Clean beds crumpled,                                         uncaring deeds cruel, Checkouts late rewarded.                                   Unmanly acts shameful. -2-                                                                           -4- Friends dear betrayed,                                         maybe one dream, Away bartered loves.                                           among nightmares plenty, Much monies made,                                            that one love-germ, Abandoned ethics many.                                    under in-differences heaped, Gods all rejected,                                                  faint glimmering self, Except the Hedonistic!                                         beneath mountainous egos, World enjoyed fully,                                             a sparkling life-sign, Life wasted lovely.                                                 in cemeteries silent. Morphing every second,                                       causes matter not,       Into grandiose nothing,                                         by destiny’s graces, Skeleton cynical final.                                           gratefully unscathed still.
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sugar is how we got here sprinkled on things that were once plain and thus made so much sweeter doused on the painful qualms of everyones stupid life poured on our guilty pleasures that keep us astray from what we know but sugar gives us cavities rots our teeth rots our soul rots our world
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May 16, 2014
May 16, 2014 at 4:30 PM UTC
the seductress
avenue sounds are never agreeable, ignore the drift, ignore the hum, ignore the suburban neophytes in the city lights (I never did care much for hipsters). ignore rapid eye movements, the flush red face, ignore the snapshots of you that adorn my semi-sleep state I stare at my ceiling and see the cobblestone summer streets you once graced, long ago in the eternal occident, I want to ignore but I’m so very boozed, in a blue lucid slumber::: eyes closed::: my head spins and sleep begins with the tidal delirium of dopamine drips, your legs, your hips, I’m drowning a bit, doused in a sanguine sweat inside a fantasy **** I’m dreaming of you**) Synaptic friction she is a pleasant fiction   flash/sparks segue a dormant memory , the two of us riding familiar highways::: she gazes at me with her usual emerald encased ocular torment, those limbal rings cast aspersions at the last vestiges of my will power, until, I’m done, done in by the divinity of her lips::: There is no end to (your) energy It even finds me here::: in my dystopian  dream (eternal) now an inescapable, **myopic curse (nocturnal)**::: the nightmare of not having you near Awake, I roll over to clutch for the pacifier of your comfort (violent midnight) I find only a fragrance, i flail, searching, when those flashbacks fall short isolated into the banality of bedsheets and pillows pleats (the retrograde nature of my reality, now readily apparent) cdh
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Jan 22, 2019
Jan 22, 2019 at 12:28 AM UTC
Philadelphia Night (Europa Celluloid)
You are blue Your companionship has long since gone away Your words come slowly if ever Your interjections have no meaning Your passion is a doused flame Your decisions are unfair You are bronze Your shine is lackluster Your potential is untapped Your enthusiasm is misdirected You are rust Your intellect is a-waste Your trust is broken Your mind is now clouded You are brown Your ear is unsharpened You coughs are unnatural Your friendship is valued even yet You are orange Your ethic is admirable Your company is comical Your life is my soaps You are yellow Your face is but fair Your skin has blemishes Your actions not so demure – but yet You are red Your actions are fuel for my fire Your intentions are good but the crafted hands left wanting You are Violet Your pain was great Your color is of love Your solid perseverance is for me You are White Your brilliance outshines mine Your patience burns as fast as light Your opinion flares as bright as magnesium Black is not found Deep down I have looked But came back wanting Is that naïve?
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Jun 30, 2013
Jun 30, 2013 at 5:59 PM UTC
Colors
Who is this person that I’m living alongside; I don’t mean my girl; I mean myself. Is there an alter with impeccable timing to hide; a thought I think and feeling I’ve always felt. She digs her hands into my armored flesh, the areas I reassured could pass each test. Instead of titanium she sees it’s made of mesh, “I’m sorry that I’m not the best of best.” We watched our house burn down watched the last ember hit the ground. I place missing posters of myself around town; truth is I don’t care if I get found. “A pox on your house, you ****** knockout mouse.” On your clean white blouse; gasoline has been doused. I wrongly take the blame, and they keep saying it’s my name. Isn’t it a shame how bad blood boils all the same? Sometimes I feel like I’m presented as an open book, with torn out pages and a cracked spine. On full display but no one even stops to take a look, missing the hidden message in each line. We shoot the **** so incredibly breezily but I’m reminded that I bruise very easily, so I find a way to tap out without anyone noticing. But it’s done just too feebly. Burned bridges and scorched earth, my decision to cover with AstroTurf. Taking lives instead of giving birth, and I’ll only strive to make it worse. “A pox on your house, you ****** knockout mouse.” “The screams and the shouts show us what you’re about.” The beast I try to tame, but can hardly even maim. Isn’t it a shame how bad blood boils all the same? I have this habit of never learning my lesson and sometimes almost crashing my car. It’d be tragic or it could be a hidden blessin’ what’s another addition of a scar? “A pox on your house, you ****** knockout mouse” “We’ll turn you into scouse, you ****** knockout mouse.” “A pox on your house, but not on your spouse.” At least they aren’t that rouse. “A pox on your house, you ****** knockout mouse.” On your clean white blouse; gasoline has been doused. I wrongly take the blame, and they keep saying it’s my name. Isn’t it a shame how bad blood boils all the same?
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Sep 4, 2025
Sep 4, 2025 at 3:47 PM UTC
Knockout Mouse
Who is this person that I’m living alongside; I don’t mean my girl; I mean myself. Is there an alter with impeccable timing to hide; a thought I think and feeling I’ve always felt. She digs her hands into my armored flesh, the areas I reassured could pass each test. Instead of titanium she sees it’s made of mesh, “I’m sorry that I’m not the best of best.” We watched our house burn down watched the last ember hit the ground. I place missing posters of myself around town; truth is I don’t care if I get found. “A pox on your house, you ****** knockout mouse.” On your clean white blouse; gasoline has been doused. I wrongly take the blame, and they keep saying it’s my name. Isn’t it a shame how bad blood boils all the same? Sometimes I feel like I’m presented as an open book, with torn out pages and a cracked spine. On full display but no one even stops to take a look, missing the hidden message in each line. We shoot the **** so incredibly breezily but I’m reminded that I bruise very easily, so I find a way to tap out without anyone noticing. But it’s done just too feebly. Burned bridges and scorched earth, my decision to cover with AstroTurf. Taking lives instead of giving birth, and I’ll only strive to make it worse. “A pox on your house, you ****** knockout mouse.” “The screams and the shouts show us what you’re about.” The beast I try to tame, but can hardly even maim. Isn’t it a shame how bad blood boils all the same? I have this habit of never learning my lesson and sometimes almost crashing my car. It’d be tragic or it could be a hidden blessin’ what’s another addition of a scar? “A pox on your house, you ****** knockout mouse” “We’ll turn you into scouse, you ****** knockout mouse.” “A pox on your house, but not on your spouse.” At least they aren’t that rouse. “A pox on your house, you ****** knockout mouse.” On your clean white blouse; gasoline has been doused. I wrongly take the blame, and they keep saying it’s my name. Isn’t it a shame how bad blood boils all the same?
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As firetrucks pass And crowds gather round The smoke billows through From the sky to the ground The town just watches And silently gapes At the mansion that’s burning Right past the big gate It’s four houses wide And three stories tall With a narrow tin roof It would be easy to fall The paint was chipping, There was rust everywhere But that was all covered By the smoke in the air “Is the monster gone?” A boy asks his mother She caresses his ear And whispers in the other “I’m not sure, baby.” “But I hope that it’s true…” She doesn’t finish the sentence ‘…or he’ll come and take you’. You see, in this town They suffered quite a plight Of a demon that takes children, Steals them into the night Also in this town, On the hill past the gate Lives a solemn old man Er well, lived I should say If you guessed he resided In that rickety castle Well your guess would be right, Now was that such a hassle? He moved in last summer And that’s when it started Parents waking to find, Their children departed Without much thought, The town formed a mob To track down their kids, Revenge the lives that were robbed The signs slowly pointed To the top of the hill, To the castle past the gate And the mob grew shrill “It’s that man!” “It’s that creep!” “Let’s take him down!” “We’ll band together and drive him out of our town!” But as you know, Mobs can be hectic Then there was fire, That part wasn’t directed No one pointed fingers, No one placed blame For, you see, their goal Was ultimately the same Dispose of the monster, The man in the house, And now they all watched As the fire was doused The body was covered, All white with a sheet He was gone, they did it! Good job, what a treat! That night, the children, All safe in their beds, Slept soundly and safely Happy thoughts in their heads Their parents were jubilant, All worry-free Their babies were safe, So they sighed “Yipee!” But then midnight came, To that boy with the mother, When she awoke. She cried and she shuddered Her son, he was gone Not a trace of him left But an etching that said, “I’ll be back for the rest”
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Oct 16, 2012
Oct 16, 2012 at 4:18 AM UTC
the house on the hill
As firetrucks pass And crowds gather round The smoke billows through From the sky to the ground The town just watches And silently gapes At the mansion that’s burning Right past the big gate It’s four houses wide And three stories tall With a narrow tin roof It would be easy to fall The paint was chipping, There was rust everywhere But that was all covered By the smoke in the air “Is the monster gone?” A boy asks his mother She caresses his ear And whispers in the other “I’m not sure, baby.” “But I hope that it’s true…” She doesn’t finish the sentence ‘…or he’ll come and take you’. You see, in this town They suffered quite a plight Of a demon that takes children, Steals them into the night Also in this town, On the hill past the gate Lives a solemn old man Er well, lived I should say If you guessed he resided In that rickety castle Well your guess would be right, Now was that such a hassle? He moved in last summer And that’s when it started Parents waking to find, Their children departed Without much thought, The town formed a mob To track down their kids, Revenge the lives that were robbed The signs slowly pointed To the top of the hill, To the castle past the gate And the mob grew shrill “It’s that man!” “It’s that creep!” “Let’s take him down!” “We’ll band together and drive him out of our town!” But as you know, Mobs can be hectic Then there was fire, That part wasn’t directed No one pointed fingers, No one placed blame For, you see, their goal Was ultimately the same Dispose of the monster, The man in the house, And now they all watched As the fire was doused The body was covered, All white with a sheet He was gone, they did it! Good job, what a treat! That night, the children, All safe in their beds, Slept soundly and safely Happy thoughts in their heads Their parents were jubilant, All worry-free Their babies were safe, So they sighed “Yipee!” But then midnight came, To that boy with the mother, When she awoke. She cried and she shuddered Her son, he was gone Not a trace of him left But an etching that said, “I’ll be back for the rest”
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