I don't believe in
what you believe in
I don't even think
the same as you do
There's
There's a reason
you're my ex
and
the reason
we didn't workout
I don't know
how many
times
I have to tell you
How many times
I have to say it
I think of all
the good times we had
and
I cherish all
the fond
memories
even the
bad one's
I don't understand
your concept
or your way of life
and
you definitely
didn't
understand
mines
Nor could you
comprehend
all the
loneliness
you left me in
You didn't
see all the
hurt you caused
I blame
myself
for staying
I blame
myself for
not believing
I blame myself
For wanting to hear
anything
to change our fates
Have my way
&
my own heart's content
The need to be
loved
was
greater
than the risk
of ya
fist
I conceded & consented
I didnt heed
the warnings
After all this time
I don't see you the same
I see the truth
and
what you really are
All the battle scars
of that relationship
We can't repair
In my minds eyes
I see all the
misinterpreted behaviors
I allowed myself to believe
was something
other than
what you
always
tried to
show
me
I want no more
You've plainly
showed me it wasn't
in my best interests to stay
Those vows
were only for the
worst
of our misery
Combative
Destructive
Compulsive
Yeah
compulsive
me
You too & you first
Yeah toxins
of a toxic
misunderstood
relationship
3 times but my 1st love huh
Makes no sense
Only to me & only to you
Me
Combative
Destructive
Compulsive
Yeah
compulsive
me
Has anyone
ever asked
why
Have you
NO!
Yet
I'll tell you
It's because
You can't
love me
no one can
My mama
said so
and
I quote
" WHO COULD EVER LOVE YOU"
So you see
there's no
reason to try to speak
The reality is
I've been doome
since birth
and
No one can
change that
Our paths
crossed
again
it was fun
but
I have no answers
for your quest
or questions
cuz
I don't know
how and/ or who
COULD
how it
feels to
*Love An Ex
(Egypts calling but I can't go!)
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