I don't care what people think. They can talk funny about that and leave.
I know you don't want to fall in love or you don't let yourself to.
Or maybe I'm not the right one for you, and you don't feel the same as I do.
Love can be tricky, you know.
Anyway, this is not a love letter. So I won't tell you about how you actually did make outer space collides in my eyes when I met you and  the butterflies in my tummy dance when you looked at me. And how you made my heart stop beating for a few second when you smiled. No, I won't tell you stuff like that.
But anyway, you actually did those things to me but I won't tell you about it. I swear I never do that.
I want you to know it by yourself, without people telling you and without me trying to confess.
You have to find it alone.
I know maybe you guys catch it as a part of cheesy things.
But it's true.
It truly works and is based on a true story.

- dlx

I love you, and I won't lie to you,
But I just admit that she's not the one that you wish,
Just because you want her, doesn't mean your choice is right,
Can you please look on the other side?
Look back?
Or look at me just for a sec?
I will do anything that you want,
Without you ask me to, and want me to.
I can do anything you want and you need,
Fulfill all your goods and stuff.
Don't worry about me,
It's okay that's love..
I'll treat you better,
Love you better,
Than she can.

I'll ******* later, than she would.

-dlx

u know what?
trying to run away and feel guilty,
trying to hide away wherever you came,
trying to laugh as usual even i'm not really well,
trying to forget everything but all we do is just avoiding each other,
trying to pretend that i'm okay,
yeah sometimes,
bestfriend cause heart breaks too
you might thinking i'm a too exposed,
too overthingking and can't take a joke easily
you might saying whetever you like
just because you don't know something doesn't mean you allow to change it or break it
you just don't know what you've done to me, to us.
you make everything just kidding
but seriously it makes me sad because it may change us.
it shouldn't be happen,
you just don't understand at all.
you don't give a f about what i feel.
you don't have an idea about me.
so just shut the f up.
because i don't live because of you,
and i don't die because one day you might **** me tho.


- dlx

"If people told you're not beautiful,
Don't you worry.
It means you're art, you're an abstract.
Art is not supposed to be beautiful.
It's supposed to make you feel something, something different from any other kind of differences.
And so,
You are beautiful than any beauty meanings."

- dlx

today,
I don't know what I feel
Or what should I feel
it feels like
You flied me to the moon
And then,
You leave me there alone,
Without a second,
You straight put yourself down the earth
And i don't know when you come back

Is like, i don't have to feel this feeling anymore
But I'm
Still missing you
And I can't
See the end of this

And now all this time
Is passing by
But I still can't seem to tell you why
It hurts me every time I see you
Realize how much I need you

I hate you, I love you,
hate that I love you
i don't want to,
but I can't put nobody else unless you

Messed around and got attached to you
Stranger can break your heart too,
And I'm always tired but never of you
If I pulled a you on you, you wouldn't like that things.
I type a text but then I never mind that,
I got these feelings but you never mind this tho.

And if I were you, I would never let me go
My friends said that you are not worthy to deserve the things that I gave to you,
All my nights, my thoughts, and all of me.


I don't mean no harm
I just miss you so harmless
have you ever wonder what we could have been?
Now all of my words and all my feelings are all mixed up
Always missing people that I shouldn't be missing
I know that I control my thoughts and I should stop dreaming,
But I learned from the songs that it's good to have feelings
When love and trust are gone

i see when you see her,
like she's the only thing you've ever seen
how dare you never notice, that you're destroying me softly
you want her, you love her
and i will never be her.

- dlx

I'm standing in the rain
Under the lamp street
Shelter under the lights
A million lights,
Sky, stars, and the moon
I owe them
I envy them
They wake themselves to make the others sleep well
Without compromise and agreement
They're willing to burn themselves so that people can stay warm
They're not afraid of the dark
Even if they are alone in the dark rainy sky,
They keep struggling,
Not because their job, but also their hearts and soul.
They live for the nights
To make people feel the night with a warmth of their skin.

Dear,
Sky, moon, and the stars
Thank you for your lullaby.
To always keep me dream awake at night.

- dlx

Whenever you feel tired,
Just breath.
Whenever you need a hugs but you can't get one,
Just breath.
Whenever you feel give up,
Just breathe.
Whenever you wanted to lose yourself,
Just breath.
Whenever you get upset or mad,
Just breath
Whenever you think that you've already gave your best but you failed,
Just breathe.
Whenever you feel unsave,
Just breathe.
Whenever you need someone to talk to but people are just *****,
Just breath.

Don't drive your heart, baby.
Just don't.
Give yourself a little space,
A little break,
And a rest.
Your mind, heart, and mental can sick too.
Take care of them just like the cells keep you healthy everyday even every beat of your heart.
Breath.

Just breath yourself in.

- dlx

You can blame Love for what it did to you,
You can shame Love whatever you like,
You can hate it, or crush it, or just end up worthless because of Love.
But just remember that Love can't be wrong,
Love never hurt you back or slam your mouth when you ditch it,
Love just keep pursuing you by it's kindness and pureness blood,
There's no plan to fight you,
If Love did something wrong with you, or hurt you instead of making you happy, or doing unfair with you.
Just remember, that Love always right,
If Love did it wrong, it comes to you back,
What've you been with Love?
You feel empty, full of dullness, or useless,
That's okay it's Love..
Love isn't like what you see on tv, you would expect such as romance, or pathetic as telenovela
Just remember,
It's okay that's Love.

- dlx

In the universe full of illuminated stars
In the world full of colors
In the room full of crowded

I still wanted to be
Dark
Black and white
And quite
'Cause we were born black and white
You and I
Our souls putting together
And it feels like

It the space full of arts
I'd still looking for you
And I'd still wanted to stare at you
'Cause you are the 'art' of the arts
How you sculptured
Makes me wanna die

-dlx

I like the way you are
I like every single things you do
I like the way you move your way out
I like the way you stare something
I like the way you explain sonething you love
I like the way you hold your breath and laugh at the same time when the teacher is coming
I like the way you blooming up my mind
watering my brain with lots of flowers
And soon it'll become a woods,
Birds singing, lion roaring, and the deep voice of a rainy forest,
And the glooming of a river flows
Make me wanna stay forever young and with you,
cause you're beautiful and you know it.

I like the way you miss
I like the way you love
I like the way you need
I like the way you see
Her.


- dlx

I haven't meet him. Not yet.
But I found him.

Right when I feel like I'm gonna feel something in a different ways.
Not like I used to.
But it's a new things to me.
I feel like I'm being used.
Being slaved.
And being controlled.
By you.
Not directly, but slowly.
It's killing me sometimes, even so many times.
But I don't know why,
Here I'm still alive and I still want you.
There are no words to describe my feelings to you.
I think that's no enough for me to get into your universe.
It seems like I giving a try,
But then you showed up whenever I try to **** this feelings.
I feel like I'm burning, inside and out
And even myself, don't know how to deal with it
Couldn't find a way to shutting down the fire
It's raging on me over and over again
The flame of love.

Yet.
I'm still haven't met you.
But I think I've found my way back.
To you.
Always. To you.


- dlx

I will be everything if you want me to.
I will be anywhere if you need me tho.
I will be something if you like to call.
I don't care I'm crazy when I'm with you.

When I'm with you, it didn't feel like wrong.
Everything goes right and everything is just beautiful.

I don't much mind what everyone think about us, they said we're dangerous and dark.
It's just because they only see with the eyes,
They're not understand and look at by the heart.
I don't care about anyone think of you, they can talk what they want.
I just want to listen to what you say.
You're naughty, cringey, or a smoker.
I don't care.
Because love is just love, for anyone and everything..


- dlx

I still got that feelings through my head everytime I hear your name,
I still got those butterflies in my stomach everytime I saw you in my screen,
I still got my ****** little laugh in my chin when I passed you through,
I still got that feelings, i still have it all.
Even though I tell 'em I've moved on but why this feeling still stuck up in my brain,
They don't move at all.
I feel like this feelings are meant to be destined in my body,
Is a gift from God, is my destiny and it'll never change I guess,
Even a million times I tried to erase or forget it,
But still,
That feelings always strikes back against me, in the end.

- dlx

This things would drive me crazy
Cause outside there's no feelings darlin'
You say it's hard to tell
What I've been thinking lately
Cause behind closed doors I'm a fool for your love

When your photos appeared on my feed, and found you in the school's hallway, or even heard your name
It turns me anything
I just suddenly thinking about what I've been through
I feel like,
How long should I continue to wait?
How long should I have to wait?
How long should I hide this feelings?
Not to tell you, tell anyone, and tell my brain to stop thinking about you

"Say it and **** it up or hide it and let it **** yourself instead."
The best quote ever.
But I just can't do that. Just can't.
But in the mean time, I also already **** it up
It's not that tiring when waiting but it feels exhausting.
I feel like I'm too youbg for this game.
For this ****.
But what should I do?
Say what I feel and **** it up?
Well, I've been thinking that idea lately
Stuck up in a complicated feelings
I don't know what should I choose
Say it and **** it up or hide it and let that **** **** yourself.

Exhausting.

- dlx

I will never forget the first time we look at each other,
Even if it's not in the eyes, but I knew it was love. It feels like it's love.
I will never forget the way you make me fall into the deepest sea,
Even if you just do the stupid things, but it feels like it's love.
I will never forget the sound of your creepy laughs and swear words, most people harassed you, but I feel it love.

I will never forget how the sun shines for you, make that smile looks brighter then the sun itself.
I will never forgethow the heat of the sun strikes down your face and make you sweaty and it's hotter than hell.
I will never forget the rain slams on your pomaded hair, make you didn'r wanna go so far away for the streets that we used to pass.

And I will never forget how crazy I've fallen in love with you,
Anything you do, no matter how may problems you've made, all the words that slips from your mouth,
It's such a beautiful things that I've ever learned.

I just can't thank to every single objects that makes you look extremely perf,
The pale of your fingertips, the crooked teeth, and a cringe smile.
I will never forget,
How I sink into your deepest dame, 'til I sink into your love I crave.

- dlx

You know
It's like you holding into something.
Unseen. Untouchable. Unnoticed.
But you keep holding it.
Unstoppable. Undescribeable. Unbearable.

-dlx

I miss you
I don't know why
But true, I just do.
We don't even know each other
We don't even know anything about us
We even still ask each other questions about who we are
We didn't even talk to each other, looked at, or meet
But somehow you are always there whenever I need you
You might not ever present now, to held me like what others think about us.
But someday, maybe it could happen
But now is now, tomorrow is tomorrow, and then let it be a distant memory.
What I feel this may be hard to guess by anyone, like they know everything about love, they thought they're pro
But when they found out about this, whether they still remain as a pro?
It seems big no.
Because this feeling is indeed hard to understand, even you, or me.
No one understands,
Until it makes me like this.


- dlx

I saw you left me,
In front of me,
Let my eyes wet,
Let my hair blows in the wind,
Let my lips balmed with the tears
Let my heart bleed.
Alone,
You left me, that day.
I still remember you said, "I'll be missing you everyday, everytime, and every beat of my heart."
But now,
Just tell me how to cry when you were gone.
Just tell me how to calm when I miss you like crazy
Just tell me the reason you already planned,
Why you did everything to me if in the end you will leave me?

I'm reaching out to you
Can you hear my call?
Can you hear that my heart screams?
Do you feel called?
This strange days I've been through without you,
Can you feel me like I feel you?
I miss you like this, crazy.

Just tell me the night when you decided to move out,
To somewhere further,
And all you did to me was calm me down not to cry,
Not to hate you, and punch you up.
And over the roads we passed that night, your fingers never be separated from me.
I miss that.

I really wanna feel you beside me.
Treat me like a best friend, sister, and a mother.
You always try to make yourself idiot when I'm upset.
We hate the same things, but always, I wanted you first.
I really need those gold old days comes back.
Is like kaleidoscope of memories.
The never ending story.
The unknown story for two strange mates.

What a truly farewell.
Sorry,
I'm crying.

Dear, B.

- dlx

This feeling isn't even real
If it's real,
Where's the side of making it's real?
Where's the reality?
Where's justice?
When I gave you my heart, will was rewarded with the heart as well?
If it's not, what I'll be repaid with?
It's so confusing,
Knowing you more than you know yourself
While you don't know me, even my name, or at least heard of it
If in the end I have to be with someone else, not you
This feeling in my deep deepest heart
It won't disappear
It will continue to grow
Slowly
I can't just **** 'em
I just can't
And I just don't want to.

And it won't gonna change
It lasts forever, in my deepest heart.
Because you are my first ever,
Love.

- dlx

Sometimes,
What we got it's not upon of what we want
What we hope for, isn't upon from what we granted
I need you
I want you
It's has always been you
And it will always be you.
But I got nothing from you here
Instead of someone that wants me as I want you
Fine
It's all in God's hand
The results, the harvest, and the finals
Is all not upon what we pray,
It's called fate.  
I don't force my will to always leads to you
I don't push my dreams to directs to you
Or else,
I don't require you as my end-up forever partner
But if it's NOT you,
This feeling will never change.
Never ever change.
And it'll lasts forever and ever.

- dlx

Something in you is just so perfect.
The way I look at you, like the way I looking at the sky.
I feel so blessed.
And when I smile at you is like I watching the galaxies moves.
And when your browny eyes meets my coffee eyes, is like I can feel the outer space spinning around,
And when we talk, everything that slipped through out your mouth, making me can feel the gaze of the sun.
And,
All at once.

You just so beautiful to me.
Not in the way you look or the way you set me on fire.
It's just you,
The way you are making you beautiful.
I never regret to meet you.
If in the end I feel regret, I hope that's not a farewell.

When we laugh together,
When we talk eye to eye.
And when you feel the same exact way as I am,
Even you can guess what I really feel without I'm telling you what happen first,
It feels like I'm flying in the sky of New York City at night with my own wings,
And when it happens,
I feel like I'm the best girl in the world.
All the girls must have felt jealous of me because of what you did to me.
And I don't even care about love when I'm with you.
Really, it seems so perfect when our eyes meet and it blinks quirky.
I love every little things that we do.
I don't care if it's harmful or even dangerous or make other thinks that we're idiots.
I don't give a **** about it.
When it comes to you, it makes me feel realized how great this life.
I feel like,
Only you can make me feel what I want to feel.
I have nothing to hide or be pretentious calm in front of you.
Because when I'm with you, I can be myself and I'm proud of it.
Yeah, you make me proud of who I am.
Only you, can make me feel like this.

Even you know I love someone else (him),
You always act like you don't care.
It's like not a really big deal for you.
I don't know why you treat me like this.
Treat me like I want to be treated by him.
But you always here, for me.
For making me smile, laugh, and happy again.

I just hope that it will last forever.
Wherever I go, wherever we go,
No matter what decision we'll make tomorrow,
You have to promise me that you will always be like this,
Be my friend, be my best friend, my best ever friend that I've ever had.
I don't know who we are when people wants us to love each other,
Not about friends but more than that.
Ew I won't let it happen,
Because I know how easy to flip the feelings for a sec even we've builded it for years.
I know how awkward the situation would be.
I know how hard everything will change by just a sec.
So please, don't you ever change.



yours best partner,
-dlx

Meet someone in a perfect timing and a perfect reason is everyone's wishlist
But the reality is just *****
There's no coincidence at all
If you want to meet, just say it
If you miss him, just call him
If you need, just ask
If you love him, just let him know the truth

Well, I believe in a quote ;
"Coincidence. That's an explanation used by fools and liars."
Well, lately I've been finding a lot of dating app
Which always say that meeting someone is just easy as downloading the app, faster than you think.
Wow
Just wow
You can't just easily trust anybody among their social media, like
Photos, status, bio, that's all lies
They just wanted to prove that they have a good apperance so they can get a lot of chats
But it's okay, 'cause at least they try an effort.

Besides there, I believe in quote ;
"People fall in love in a mysterious ways, maybe just a profile picture on instagram."
We don't know right?
We all do

Well
I'm just waiting here and hoping that there's a coincidence will come to me.


- dlx

I'm sure if God gives us at least one planet for one person,
A planet full of thoughts, things we like, good dreams, and memories,
I'd be the most beautiful planet than everyone does,
I'd have a big garden full of my poems and a sea filled with my songs,
And a house saved all of my good memories,
I just can't imagine how enchanted our world will be.

-dlx

I know now,
Why people always saying like this in a film,
"You can buy everything except the love,"
Well, now I know
What the meaning of itself,
Love is not buyable because indeed,
Love is free
Love costs nothing
Love applies to everyone, no exceptions.
Then why besides there,
Mostly girls always saying like this,
"No way. My love is expensive, ya know?!"
Well, I'm a girl
And I know exactly what it means,
We say like that stuff because we don't want you to give us a billion dollars Chanel bag, we don't want you to build us a mansion, and we don't need your cash cash.
We just wanted a love by yours. A true love and a pure hearts of us.
If you boys can give us love, just love, we don't need those money and bills.
But nowadays, I don't know why everygirl wanted their boys to give them a tiffany n co every anniversary.
Well, if you want to talk about it,
I'm sorry I can help.

- dlx