A boys Greatest Wish

I want to die,
and leave this bad world behind.
however i am no man to take the jump.
if i leave for a better place,
what would make me different.
What would make me stand out from
everybody else.

you see i crave for dead
a wish that could never be.
i am soon to be a father
a child that will need me.

The word "need" is what feeds me
the willpower to keep going.
to put on that fake smile to make
everybody think that i am the one,
who can pull throught this war.

A war that will keep counting its
deaths. a war that we cannot stop.
i want to die, but if i die i would be nomore
than a unmarked grave.

A Forgotten Sole

Ryan Devery
30/11/2017

I am all but an addict,
Though I need to feel the connection,
I crave like a smoker craves a smoke.
Before you sit, and let the comments flow forth,
Just remember.
I am all but an addict.

My cravings are ones of a rich man,
Who needs not to expect.
But as time comes closer,
The fear may run it away

My heart is racing,
My legs are shaking,
Eyes are wide as ones could be.
As I withdraw
I withdraw for you,
As love is a drug that kills..


Ryan Devery 2017 19th of may.