"deminishing" poems
lost in a world that was once mine
it gets better or worse or indifferent
as it goes by
who knew it to be the healing i'd see
a bit of of bitterness over time
but you ask and i always say
i'm fine
the colors i see are complex in shades
some words are foreign to me
right from the page
in my head you say is a box of lies
just a shallow pity brigade
so ignore the tears in my eyes
hopes shatter and fade
pain is an excruciating promise
that the current host remains the strongest
misunderstandings and judgmental tongues
will clean the slates of blood from beatings done and i am left with
scars from all of this
kindness and love are rationed into moments more deserving
as if it is only when i may die
that you find me worthy
to shed a tear of hurt in an existence you don't know
yet you still mimic what's before me
a mockery you have made of total devastation
to a life once radiant with positive preservation
on mornings i can't bear to face the day
you throw daggers in my back
in accusations
this disease it steals my life
it has much ransacked my brain
but you,
you
you have taken everything else away
and i've nothing left to gain
Jul 27, 2016
Jul 27, 2016 at 2:58 PM UTC
Stop telling me I'm gorgeous,
I'm nothing.
Stop telling me im pretty,
I'm fat.
It's unhealthy,
My weight,
My feelings are slowly
Deminishing...
I'm falling to deep
I would cry for help
But
Nobody would hear me anyways.
Apr 5, 2013
Apr 5, 2013 at 11:42 PM UTC
Why do I put myself before a judge?
Ruin a blank slate like a smudge on a paper
Deminishing emotions that are beginning to taper
Singing songs of sorrow that borrow that double tied fishers knot in your stomach
Wishing that angler would pull out a nice catch and remove that bubble
You know your in trouble but can't help yourself out
Put your faith in others and have no doubt
Work your program shout it all out
You might not feel like a ten but keep doing it, its not the end
Sep 17, 2013
Sep 17, 2013 at 12:09 PM UTC
The magic is gone
sadness reigns
if it's not anger
it's pouring rain
Lost within the madness
of fighting again
Love all but forgotten
as we take it on the chin
Communication styles
of anger and hurt
deminishing what's left
of my own self worth
Another day of wishing
I was simply gone
Insides churning misery
the pain lingers on
My world upside down
as darkness lets me hide
The pain remembered brightly
as the sun glares it's shine
Feb 9, 2016
Feb 9, 2016 at 4:24 PM UTC
My life is no life in any light
My heart feels only pain even breathing has weakend my soul.
I look into the eyes of delectation and feel despair
I beg for some jubilation to take my soul and release me from misery
thats all I see and feel is the dispair in my eyes
How can one look unto another in this way and insert nothing but evil and then portray glee for the deminishing of their heart
Double bladed are the Hippocrates that adore admiration.
Dec 7, 2015
Dec 7, 2015 at 2:50 AM UTC
Sliced Jugular vein
Blue wrist
Fates fatal,cold kiss
Body of blood
Coronation of death
Deminishing life
The rotting smell of flesh
Ceased to survive
Smouldering corpse
Decaying carcass
Unnaturally enforced
Hair of spider web
Deaths new bride
Funeral of the pulse
Riddled with acide
Creature of havoc
Crawls into bones
Eyes of maggots
Crumbling tomb stone
Laying in the pits
The worms eating brains
Bound there forever
Until crumbling from deaths chains.
May 12, 2018
May 12, 2018 at 7:03 AM UTC